Abandoned Lover [Future]

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Eugene's breathing came shortly after one o'clock in the morning.Xiao opened his eyes from the darkness, and looked at the other person's face by the moonlight.Eugene hadn't woken up yet, but his eyebrows were already furrowed together, and his gradually accelerated breathing was mixed with faint whispers.

Xiao silently got up from the bed, raised his hand to tie up his long hair, and walked quickly towards the bathroom.In the medicine box, there are long-lasting ice packs that are cold when opened, and two fixing straps with buckles.He took these things out and put them in his hands, and took them back to the bedroom together with two towels, one big and one small, and put them at the foot of the bed.

After another few minutes, Eugene woke up.

This is not a natural process.Eugene kicked the sheets slightly in his sleep and started scratching his neck when breathing became difficult.Xiao put his right hand on it so that he would not scratch himself.But such a movement made Eugene open his eyes.Those golden eyes were foggy.

Eugene wanted to get out of bed, but Xiao grabbed his waist from behind and pushed him back to the center of the bed.While scratching his neck and chest vigorously with his nails, Eugene still crawled towards the bed without giving up.Xiao gritted his teeth silently, pressed Eugene's back with his right knee, and cut Eugene's hands behind his back.One strap was tied around Eugene's wrist, and the other went around his chest to hold Eugene's upper arm in place.Eugene's face was pressed against the bed, and vague sobs came from there.

Shaw closed his eyes and shifted his weight off Eugene.Eugene's body was a strange ripe red under the moonlight, like someone with a high fever.His back arched, his legs slammed back and forth on the sheet, trying to slam his forehead against the bed.

...This isn't the first night they've struggled with withdrawal.

During the period when he thought Xiao would leave completely, Eugene, who had a history of abuse, regarded tranquilizers as a hanging thing.At that time, no one dared to stop him, and he didn't have the energy to think about the consequences of doing so.Even after Xiao came back, Eugene only reduced the dosage and frequency of use during that month or so.Then he would sometimes wake up suddenly from the dream, but that was all.After making the decision to move, Eugene chose not to bring his stash of sedatives with him, and Shaw hesitantly let him do so.

No abnormality occurred in the first month of drug withdrawal.They lived in the hotel in the town, stayed on the construction site to build their house during the day, and fell asleep hugging each other in long kisses at night.However, after moving into the new home, the turbulent withdrawal reaction appeared silently, shattering their dreams time and time again at unpredictable times.

At first, Shaw watched Eugene walking back and forth in the house, watching Eugene drenched in cold water in the bathroom without saying a word, as if everything was still under control.However, this hallucination ended in a repetitive and monotonous muffled sound - Eugene put his hands on the wet wall, turned his back to him, and slammed his forehead quickly and hard against the solid wall on that side.Shaw dragged him out, and Eugene struggled hard, then elbowed him sluggishly as he turned around.Early in the morning after that night, Eugene finally calmed down. Xiao went to get him a glass of water. When he came back, he found Eugene squatting in the corner of the bedroom balcony with his head buried in his arms and a cigarette in his lap. The right hand burned slowly, and Eugene wept silently.

As the months passed, it was difficult for Xiao to judge whether Eugene's withdrawal situation was slowly improving, but at least he had a rough expectation.Taking a deep breath, Xiao turned Eugene's body over to face him.Eugene tried to knee him away, physical tears streaming down his face.Those bright eyes were out of focus, and the mouth was open and closed, murmuring sentences.Xiao didn't listen to what he had to say.He knew that there were only two things Eugene was saying, "give me the medicine" and "I want to die".

—You made him like this.Xiao told himself that every time.The pain of withdrawal split Eugene again and again, but in the end it was himself who was slowly crushed.

The biochemical man quietly put the ice pack on Eugene's chest, and heard Eugene say to him, I hate you.

Xiao was silent.He smiled at Eugene, and after a moment reached out his hand gently, pinning the other's messy hair behind his ear.

The golden eyes seemed to regain their sanity for a moment.After a brief moment of daze, his human began to shake his head vigorously, and then said hoarsely, I didn't want to say that, don't believe me, Xiao, don't believe me.

... The body under his control was still shaking with pain, but the fear of hurting himself was hidden in Eugene's eyes.

Xiao nodded, lowered his eyes, the smile on his face was soft and never changed.

He would have preferred to hear Eugene swearing.

The lover's remaining tenderness at this time allowed him to have a heart of flesh and blood, and at the same time pierced him.He wouldn't be weak when Eugene needed him, and the tears he couldn't shed flowed back into his chest, soaking him silently with soreness.

……

After an indeterminate amount of time passed, the unbearable high fever finally slowly subsided, and Eugene's body also began to cool down gradually.Cold sweat began to ooze from his chest, back, and back. Xiao took the ice pack away, and then reached out and untied the fixing belt on Eugene's back.The previous struggle made Eugene's fingertips turn purple, and the strangle marks were shockingly sunken in the flesh, as if he had endured some kind of torture.

Taking out the towel prepared on the side, Xiao covered Eugene's head and body, wrapped up his lover, and wrapped them between his arms facing each other.At this stage, Eugene has lost a lot of urges to hurt himself and others, and is more like a fragile child who can talk a lot indiscriminately.At this moment, Eugene seemed to feel cold, and while muttering in a low voice, he tried to hide himself in Xiao's arms.

"I'm never touching it again."

"Then we won't touch it."

"...my head hurts."

Shaw put his hands on the back of his head. "It will get better slowly."

"I want to drink a lot of water."

"I'll get it for you in a while."

"do you hate me?"

"No." Xiao paused. "never."

Eugene rubbed his forehead against his shoulder, back and forth.A little moist heat slowly spread from there, Xiao heard Eugene say: "I didn't want to cry, Xiao, I can't help it."

"It's okay, baby, it's okay." Xiao patted him on the back reassuringly, and then stretched out his thumb to wipe away the tears that made the other person feel ashamed, not realizing that it was the first time he called Eugene by anything other than his name.

And Eugene hugged him tightly.

……

The night is finally over.When the sun was falling on the window lattice, Eugene opened his eyes wearily, and Xiao beside him supported his head with one hand, and put the other lightly on his shoulder.There is a layer of bright soft light on the edge of the light golden long hair, Xiao looked down at him with a gentle and peaceful expression, like an angel guarding him from being touched by misfortune.

This is a picture that people can't bear to disturb, and it seems to be heaven and earth like last night's exhausting episode.Eugene subconsciously wanted to apologize, but the words came to his lips and turned into thank you at the last second.

Xiao smiled and silently kissed Eugene on the forehead.

… For him, Eugene never needed an apology.

He is the only one who should apologize.

He said sorry once for this and then decided not to repeat it.Words will not undo the harm done, he can only do everything possible to make up for it.Since he smashed Eugene once, in the next short or long time, he was willing to grind himself into powder to fill the gaps in this person's body.

Xiao didn't know that Eugene would still suddenly wake up in the middle of the night one night after a long time before this day, with an uncomfortable expression on his face.However, when he came back with the medicine box, instead of self-destructing and struggling, Eugene would just sit by the bed and try to smile at him.

"... hug me."

From that day on, the cool body temperature will gradually calm down the unbearable heat, and the lover's arm will be enough to prevent Eugene from hurting others and himself.

……

Time and love are great medicines, and stirring them slowly together yields tiny, warm miracles.

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感谢在2021-02-0223:28:55~2021-02-0413:51:26期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mines: 1 Yelu Songxing;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of a breeze; 9 bottles of Happy Kanwen; 5 bottles of Li Mu and Yan Wuzhi; thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!