Abandoned Lover [Future]

12 month 23 day.

Eugene woke up feeling colder than usual.When I got to the window, I realized that it was snowing heavily.

The weather of Green Star is very suitable all year round and does not require manual manipulation.Because of this, the clouds, rain and snow in Cornova are all natural products, and compared with other planets with artificial atmospheres, they are more weird and romantic.Christmas in the old days is coming soon, and it always feels appropriate and lazy to usher in a heavy snowfall in this season.

The room was warmer than outside, and the hot air condensed into an even layer of white mist on the windows.Eugene wiped away half of the white mist while looking at the weather, revealing just the skyline of the land of no night.The body of the White Pagoda is indistinct in the flying white, as if it has a layer of furry edges, it looks less deserted than usual.

Eugene lowered his head and twirled his slightly cold and wet fingertips.

... He met Xiao during the rainy season in April, and then they respectively separated before the arrival of late autumn.In the space of six months, they barely passed three seasons, but just missed the winter.

He never had time to tell Shaw that this was his favorite season of the year.Perhaps it was caused by the cold temperature, he felt that even he could find a suitable excuse to snuggle up with the people around him to keep warm in this season.

Taking a deep breath, Eugene wiped the wetness off his hands, got up and went to the kitchen to make himself a cup of coffee.Perhaps because of his recent behavior, Joshua was kind enough to send him a [-]ml miniature bottle of whiskey on his last visit.The small bottle, less than two knuckles long, was lying in his palm, looking rather pitiful.Eugene frowned and twisted it away, pouring it into his coffee mug.He originally wanted to pour it all out, but after thinking about it, he saved half of it for tomorrow.

"tomorrow".

It's a vocabulary that has only recently returned to his life.In the past two months or so, his goal every day when he was awake was to get through "today" - time seemed to be his worst enemy, just because the flow rate was too slow.Now this state of conflict has finally eased, he clumsily filled the empty time with fragmentary activities, and then began to think about his tomorrow very occasionally.

—he was slowly, surely, going on with his life.

Because the old Christmas is only two days away, his life is better than before.Joshua and Dietrich made appointments for him today and tomorrow respectively. He just needs to pack himself and deliver to their door, and there will be a sideshow that has been arranged long ago.He didn't look forward to the events, but he wasn't averse to them either; he wasn't adjusted enough to laugh naturally with people, but he didn't resent seeing other people smile at festivals.

If the happiness in this world is quantitative, it would be good if the share he lost can be replenished by others.

It wasn't too late for him to wake up, there were still several hours before the party Joshua agreed to start.Breakfast, gym, shower, lunch, one and a half movies.After doing this, it was finally time to go out.After the coat and scarf were put on, Eugene went to get the terminal on the table, but he just got a call from Joshua.

"What's the matter?" Eugene put on his shoes and prepared to walk out the door.

"You haven't gone out yet, have you?"

"No." Eugene glanced at the weather outside the window again, and went back to the cloakroom to take a hat.

"The gift I gave you will arrive soon, come over after you receive it."

Eugene frowned: "Send me? What?"

"You'll know it when you see it. I'm sure you'll like it." Joshua's tone was filled with rare excitement and complacency. "It's a very important gift, and you must not miss it."

Eugene sighed, holding the hat in his hand, wondering whether he should put it on now: "Got it."

As soon as the words fell, there was a knock on the door.Eugene was puzzled that the delivery personnel were able to bypass the security at the bottom, but he still said to Joshua, "The item seems to have arrived."

Joshua's voice raised a few more degrees: "Then hurry up and go downstairs to have a look."

"Are you..." Eugene held the terminal in one hand and pushed open the door with the other.

— There was a man standing outside the door.

Eugene lowered his head slightly when he opened the door, and his eyes just hit the chest of the visitor.The other party wore very little, only a light gray knitted top in the icy snowy day.The wet imprints from the melting snow spread down from the other party's shoulders, and it was a dark gray with twists and turns.

Eugene didn't raise his head, his hand holding the terminal was tightened, his knuckles were all white.

——He always felt that the body in front of him was too familiar.

Joshua's voice still didn't stop, chattering on the terminal: "...I ordered you this time the exact same model as before. Since you have received the goods, why not come with it."

Eugene lifted his chin slowly.His eyes moved up inch by inch, looking at the collarbone of the other party's neckline, the distinct Adam's apple, and the outline of the jaw.He gritted his teeth hard, then forced himself to look at the man's face.

Gray blue eyes looked at him.He saw the smile he'd prayed for in his sleep that he could relive it.The cyborg with the same face as Xiao stood in front of him, as if waiting for his embrace.

Eugene's lips trembled violently.His teeth were trembling uncontrollably, and in the anger and pain that submerged him from head to toe, he squeezed out a word to the terminal.

"Joshua, I will kill you."

——"Guaranteed you like it", "a gift you can't miss", "exactly the same model"—his thinking speed is really much slower, and he didn't even think about what these descriptions mean.There is no worse gift than this, it is terrible; the shell that he has put on bit by bit to make him look like a normal person is rapidly crumbling and shattering, and the wound that has not healed at all is being torn open in the blink of an eye A bloodstain that can see the bone.

At this moment, he really, deeply hated Joshua.

There was no substitute for Shaw, and he thought Joshua would understand that.From the beginning to the end, what he loves is not a delicate and handsome face, or a vain body.His lover is unique, possessing a soul unmatched by any human being.They shared a past that could not be copied, and it was a memory that he had decided to keep in his collection for all the time in the future.

...and no one can replace it.

Unable to bear such an almost malicious gift any longer, Eugene hung up the call first before speaking more hurtful words.However, this does not solve the problem in front of him - Shaw's imitation is standing in front of him, like a capitalized, insulting symbol.And the more similar this imitation is to Xiao, the more profound the level of mockery.

disappear.disappear.Disappear for me now - in Eugene's mind, he wished that this biochemical man would collapse into a pile of scrap iron in an instant.However, this is a real machine, a machine that just follows the instructions and has no subjective malice, so his aggressiveness is directly lost in the silence.Huge hatred and pain were intertwined, and they almost boiled into tears.

"...You are not welcome here." Eugene's voice was already hoarse, and he pulled on the door of the apartment, wanting to retreat directly into the house.However, the cyborg outside the door was only stunned for a moment, and then put his hands on the door frame, preventing his movements, and even wanted to step in the door.

The imitation opened its mouth.

"Eugene," he called his name.

Damn, damn, damn, this is exactly the same voice and tone as Xiao.Eugene's whole body seemed to be pierced by severe pain. Before he could react, he had already rushed towards the cursed imitation and slammed it to the ground.

"Don't use his face to call me by my name!!"

He rode on the fallen imitation, his eyes were bloodshot, and he strangled the other's neck tightly with both hands.The blood vessels protruded from his forehead, and it seemed that he had exhausted all his strength before he squeezed out an indistinct sentence from between his lips and teeth: "...Get out of our house."

If the person under his palm is a real person, he might really want to end the other person's life.But as time passed slowly, second by second, he realized that such efforts were futile, and he didn't even dare to look into the eyes of the imitation.

He could feel the imitation looking at him.Calmly, patiently, watching him as if waiting for him.Then he almost panicked to find that he was almost obsessed with such a sight.Is there something wrong with his memory?Had he forgotten details about Shaw?Why couldn't he find anything that contradicted Xiao in this person?

This is so shameful.He could feel the strength he exerted from his palm retreating and disappearing little by little.His body was slowly betraying him, just as he was slowly betraying Xiao—under such circumstances, he actually wanted to hug the imitation under him tightly.

damn it.damn it.damn it.Eugene raised his hand and covered his face.Tears spilled from between his fingers.At the moment when he realized that he was shaken, he had personally destroyed everything between him and Xiao.

"sorry Sorry……"

Helplessly, back and forth, he apologized to his vanished lover.

……

At the Rothschild residence, Joshua was a little confused.

"I'll kill you," were Eugene's last words before hanging up.He never thought that Eugene would say such a sentence, so he was not sure what the other party's deep meaning was at this moment.He shoots down the literal first because Eugene has no reason to do it at all - why kill him?Because he re-bought a heavy motorcycle for Eugene without telling him?It makes no sense.Maybe complaining about wasting money and wanting a newer model?But Eugene was not such a picky person at all.

After much deliberation, Joshua could only attribute the other party's reaction to a gaffe caused by being overly happy.Thinking of this, his uneasiness was swept away, and even his chest straightened a little.His terminal beeped at the right time, and he answered it with a smile, ready to receive Eugene's thanks.

However, it was the merchant from whom he had ordered the motorcycle.The other party apologized nervously, saying that because of the heavy snow, the aircraft used to deliver the goods had problems taking off and landing, and all delivery times would be delayed by one to two days.Joshua subconsciously responded and retracted the line, and then fell into confusion again.

So, why did Eugene kill him?

……

His vision was blocked, but Eugene felt the cold fingertips on his wrist bones.A hand gently grasped his left wrist, and he heard someone say, "Look at me, Eugene."

He shook his head vigorously.He was caught in a treacherous tangle, fighting the urge to get closer, almost in vain.

A familiar sigh.He left holding the temperature of his wrist, and after a very small rustle, Eugene felt that the biochemical man in front of him was stuffing something into his palm.Such an action carried a kind of intimate aggression, which made him reflexively want to throw his hand away.

What his skin touched, however, was a very specific shape and texture.

It was a cold ring.

Eugene's back froze.He slowly lowered that hand and looked at his palm.

The simple silver pigment ring has smooth, soft edges, and the only thing that sets it apart from other rings is the text engraved on the inner ring.

"ipromi color you".

He looked up in disbelief.

Xiao propped up his upper body and smiled at him: "... till the very end."

The ring fell to the ground, rolled around in a circle after a crisp sound, and then slowly quieted down.The cyborg stretched out his hands as if to catch his falling love.

"It's me, not someone else."

The hallucinatory sentence landed in the ear, and the arms surrounding Eugene were placed on the landing point that would never be mistaken.Eugene clutched the clothes of the man in front of him tightly, and pressed his head deeply against the man's chest.

——Even with my eyes closed tightly, tears kept falling.He shook his head repeatedly and vigorously, forcing himself not to let out the slightest sob.

This was a dream that was too gentle and cruel, and he didn't know how to face the empty pillow again after waking up.

However, however.

"I miss you."

He finally uttered such weak sentences in his dream.

And precisely because this was a dream, he let himself go, crying loudly, alone, helplessly, in Xiao's arms.

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Not surprisingly, it will end tomorrow, it may be divided into two chapters :)

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Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 8 bottles will be burned; 5 bottles of Limu and Tuntun; thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!