Xu Jun's life

Shen Wanyi came back at eight o'clock in the evening.

To my surprise, she was no different from when I left, she was still wearing a decent suit, her hair was still tied up, and she was still wearing light makeup.But her face was pale, and even her eyes were dim.

My mother has always liked her, but she was embarrassed by Li Zhurong again because of me.That's why the old lady loved her even more. She took her hand as soon as she entered the door, wiped her eyes and said, "It's good to be back, it's good to be back..."

Dinner is eaten at home. My mother heard that Meng Su grew up abroad and bought a lot of live fish and shrimps—my mother’s understanding of Western food is similar to mine, and she also thinks that only seafood can be eaten in Western food.

My mother is old, her blood pressure is a bit high, and she can't squat. I sent her to watch TV with my dad, and squatted in the kitchen to peel the boiled river mussels and shrimps.

The more upset you are, the more you need to find something to do and divert your attention, otherwise the whole person will be trapped in a cocoon.

There was a sound of slippers behind me. I looked back and saw Shen Wanyi standing at the door of the kitchen wearing a loose sweater. She had obviously just taken a hot bath, probably cried, and the tip of her nose was red.

"Help me?" she asked nasally.

"No need, I'm almost done peeling." I scooped up the mussels in the warm water.

She didn't force it, she just stood by the door, watched me peel, sniffing her nose from time to time.

I feel guilty.

I never liked to involve others, so I used to obey Li Zhurong's advice and obey him in everything.Although it was not my intention to "escape" this time, it is an irrefutable fact that Shen Wanyi was involved.

With Li Zhurong's arrogance, he would not do despicable things to Shen Wanyi. He likes to fight and kill, and then there is the "continuous sitting" system, the kind that hurts relatives and friends.

I don't know what happened to Shen Wanyi that left her in shock, but now is obviously not the time to ask questions.

"Fry the mussels and eat them. I saw dried peppers under the cabinet." I broke the silence.

She sniffed: "I want to fry with pickled peppers."

"Pickled peppers are too spicy." I marinated the mussels with cooking wine and sliced ​​ginger, patted garlic, and prepared to fry the mussels.

"Don't put too much, it won't be spicy." She leaned against the door and watched me cook, arguing with reason.This scene is very similar to the time when she came to my house for dinner.

Although Shen Wanyi used to persuade me to reconcile with Li Zhurong, saying that my life in C City was like a walking dead.But I don't think that although those days are dull, they are reassuring, because today is like this, and tomorrow will be like this.Although there is no hope, there will be no accidents.

"He said he would imprison me for the rest of his life."

When Shen Wanyi opened her mouth, I was serving the mussels fried with pickled peppers, and the kitchen was full of hot and sour aroma.

"He said, if you die, he will imprison me forever, just like a specimen. He said that the Jurassic has passed, but when you see a dinosaur specimen, you will remember what the Jurassic was like." Shen Wanyi's voice Always calm: "He locked me in a villa, like a prisoner. He delivers food every day, can read books, and can surf the Internet for half an hour. He has people watching me, waiting for me to contact you." I was stunned . "On May [-]th, he searched all the small gang gathering areas in the whole city, but he couldn't find you. At five o'clock in the morning on May [-]th, I saw him standing in the garden smoking a cigarette. He told me to go over, and I I have never seen him so calm. He sat me down and asked me if I wanted to smoke. He asked me, how have you been in City C for the past ten years? Where do you like to go to play..." "He asked me why you would rather marry me than stay with him..."

In the early morning of May [-]th, what was I doing in the United States?sleep?drink tea?Still eating a big lunch?

There was a pungent smell of smoke from the pot that had been burning dry, and I hurriedly turned off the fire.

"But I thought you were really dead at that time, and I scolded him severely. I said that if you died, he must have killed you. He was just silent at first, and then suddenly yelled at me, saying that I don't understand shit. Then let someone take me back." Shen Wanyi paused, and her voice suddenly became hoarse: "In the afternoon, he let me watch the video of Yu Zheng being killed...he showed me...to see Yu Zheng's body being dissected ..."

"Stop talking." I hugged Shen Wanyi who was shaking like a leaf: "Stop thinking about it, it's all over. It's my fault."

Shen Wanyi blocked her mouth with her fist and bit the back of her hand. Her whole body was shaking, even her chest was trembling with sorrow. Yu Zheng was her wound that hadn't healed for many years, and was torn apart bloody again.

"He's a lunatic, he's a devil!" She told me hissingly, "Stay away from him, don't be with him... He said, he's having a hard time, and no one else should think about it, they have to be buried with him .He's a madman..."

I hugged her tightly and told her, "I know, I know."

From the very beginning, I knew better than anyone what kind of lunatic he was.

When I was in college, I worked as two tutors at the same time. If I didn’t have time to accompany him, he asked someone to get my student from another tutor to be hospitalized.Let me concentrate on teaching him.

Since I met him last year, except for the time when I lay dying in the air-raid shelter in the mountains, I have not been free for a second.

This spring, when I was discharged from the hospital, he arranged for me to go to Beijing.Xiaoyao called and scolded me, he said: "You have a better memory, he is a lunatic. You still get involved with him, aren't you a bitch?"

Shen Wanyi persuaded me to be with him, Lin Youxi taught me to use tricks, and Xiao Yao scolded me for not knowing how to repent.He said: We still have a lot of time to spend together. Whether you want to do physics or study law, we can take our time.

But no one listened to what I said.

Ten years later, I, Xu Xu, have never wanted to continue entangled with him for a second.

But there is no choice.

Nobility, pride, ambition, and willingness to bend are all things that require qualifications.

He is crazy.Reasoning with a lunatic, wanting freedom and equality with a lunatic, asking him to be a gentleman so as not to harm your family and friends is a joke.

I was like a porter carrying a load on a muddy road, trying hard to protect everyone, but in the end I was muddy and embarrassed.

And Meng Su, he is the most beautiful accident I have had in the past ten years.

I still remember that one night, I fell asleep reading a book in the lounge, and he came back with me after finishing the experiment.He chatted with me about the history of the atomic bomb, arguing over whether Heisenberg was the wronged Schindler.On the way, I received a call from Li Zhurong, who yelled at me because I didn't wait at the school gate on time in the afternoon.So he asked me to run to the school gate immediately.

Meng Su was by my side at that time.

He didn't ask why, didn't persuade, didn't stop, he said he was going out to eat, walked with me to the school gate, and then he told me: "Tomorrow morning I have to choose a subject, come back early."

He didn't speak, because at that time he knew that I had no other choice, even if he held my ear and spoke to me for an hour, after an hour, I still had to rush to the school gate to have dinner with Li Zhurong.

He is a person who studies physics, knows what logic is, what is the source, and what is the root.Knowing what is the root of solving the problem, physicists never make noise, only solve the problem silently, and then present the facts to speak.

He was joking and called me senior.

In fact, he is the kind of person I wanted to be when I was young.

Meng Su slept at my house at night.

Because Shen Wanyi sleeps alone in a guest room, and the weather returns to humidity, it's not suitable for sleeping on the floor, and the sofa can't sleep on it either.So that rollaway bed is in my bedroom.He is a guest and naturally sleeps on the bed.

He sat on the bed reading my book and eating chocolate while I made the bed.There was a table full of people at dinner, so he was naturally embarrassed to bibimbap with vegetables, and ate dinner in a gentle manner, not very full, so I had to find the chocolate that I ate during the Chinese New Year for him.

When he came back after rinsing his mouth, I was already lying on the bed.I took the book he had just read, and it turned out that he was reading a collection of Pauli, and happened to be reading "Universal Principles of Wave Mechanics", which is their article in the field of quantum mechanics.

"You read Pauli, too?" He crawled onto the bed from the gap between the two beds. He didn't compete with me, but squinted his eyes for a while to read the pages of the book, and then announced calmly, "This is a pirated book."

I am a little embarrassed.

When I was a poor student in the past, I bought a lot of pirated books. Fortunately, the paper was poor, and there were not many typos.

"I read Pauli when I was in college. At that time, as long as it was related to the theory of relativity, I read it." I handed the book to him: "Forget it, let me show you, I have read it all."

He didn't refuse, took the book, and said, "Move the bed over and read it together. Your theoretical physics is short, so I'll explain it to you while reading it. It's better than the translated one." "

These days, following him as an assistant, I learned a lot.He is indeed a learned man, not at all like a person in the physics world today.It's a bit like those genius physicists in the last golden age of physics.Good at mathematics, involved in all fields of physics.Moreover, my thoughts are very free, and I am not restricted by schools, fields and the like at all.This point cannot be cultivated by domestic educational institutions.He once joked: "Myheartisfree."

After seeing the completely aesthetic style of his family and the "stocking policy" for young people in the family, I realized that geniuses also need an atmosphere to be cultivated.