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Stage71. The Story of Kanoa——Liat: As the male protagonist who has not appeared in several chapters, I said, am I really the male protagonist? !

The love doesn't know where it started, and it goes deep. I love you, but these can only have nothing to do with you.

BY: Kanoa.

What happened after finding out he was in love with Louis?

Kanoa sat on the throne and began to recall slowly. Although that memory was terrible and represented the most stupid decision he had ever made in his life, he was still working hard to recall it, not wanting to let go of any details , as long as it is related to Louis, even if it is painful, he will be happy.Because it is these memories that made him survive thousands of years of loneliness, instead of choosing self-destruction like his former companions.

What could make people feel that God is a man who likes to play tricks on people's hearts than when he just found out that he fell in love with his younger brother, but then accidentally learned from the conversation between his younger brother and his father that his younger brother has a crush on a girl in the class? Where's the bastard?

At that time, Kanoa was gnawing at his soul with jealousy, until he discovered a question, why should he endure it?Leaving aside the fact that Louis just has a crush on that girl, no matter how deep his feelings are, as long as he controls them properly, with a little punishment and a huge compensation, Louis will be smart enough to know what to choose is the right one.

The field of love is like a shopping mall, and the shopping mall is often a battlefield without gunpowder. We must not only be cruel to the enemy, but also must not relax to our own people. Only in this way can there be no disadvantages.

Most of the time, this sentence is correct, and Kanoa has not even felt that this idea is wrong. What is wrong is the method.

Kanoa said that he was really introspecting, and there was nothing wrong with letting Louis only play the piano for himself, but he couldn't play it all night, and Louis' body couldn't bear it.

And worst of all, he shouldn't be doing it at night when Dad and Dad might come home unexpectedly.

While Louis lay unconscious on the bed waiting for the family doctor to treat him, Kanoa felt for the first time from his father his real, naked dislike for him, not that his father and he were so After years of getting along, I didn't get along with each other, but... At that moment, the aggrieved and unwillingness that I had been forced to suppress in the past changed quantitatively and caused a qualitative change, overwhelming all the good memories of the past, and turning them into sharp blades that hurt people. All the people present.

Kanoa will never forget his father's hysteria at that time, the elegant and gentle man who made people think he would never lose his temper in his life, abandoned all his upbringing and decency, and vented the anger he should have vented long ago.

Then, after Kanoa said, "Dad, take care of yourself," his dad finally said what he had wanted to say a long time ago: "Shut up, don't call me dad, I don't want to be your dad at all." Dad, I am not your father, you should not exist at all! Now, immediately, get out of my house!"

Only Kanoa's wounded heart at the time knew the depth of what he said.

"I'm sorry, sir." Kanoa remembered what he said, and then turned around and left without hesitation. Of course, he couldn't really leave this house. Even if he could let go of everything, he would never let Louis go. He just I don't want to stay and continue to intensify the conflict.

At that time, the person who understood Kanoya's thoughts the most was probably Kanoya's father, just like he once successfully persuaded his lover not to divorce him because of Kanoya's existence, this time he also succeeded his lover.

On the second day after Luis woke up safely, Kanoa returned to the breakfast table like a normal person. His father didn't say anything about it. He went back to the first seven years with Kanoa—if possible, He will completely ignore Kanoa's existence, don't say a word, even if his eyes don't fall on Kanoa as much as possible.

But in front of Louis, his father would behave normally, as if their family was still the warm and happy family of four, and everyone maintained a high degree of tacit understanding about Louis' illness and never mentioned it.

While elegantly cutting the steak on the silver plate, Kanoa felt his completely distorted family.

His father's indifference, his father's defensiveness, and...Louis's insignificant fear.The majestic elder brother in every family is always easy to make the younger brother feel fear and awe, but God knows this is not the situation that Kanoa wants to see, but, thinking of the conversation that his father found him afterwards, if he does not want to be forced to When he moved out of the house, he had to put down his petty thoughts and obediently be the good son his father hoped for.

At that time, Kanoa couldn't understand why his father and father were so opposed to him being with Louis. He always thought that he should be a reassuring marriage partner.

He meant that materially, he was rich, powerful, and able to provide Louis with a good and luxurious life free of charge. Spiritually, he knew Louis even better than himself. He was willing and good at taking care of Louis. The most important thing is that he really loves Louis, and he can swear on his soul that the duration of this love is forever.

Aren't these the best criteria parents would most want their children to find in a future mate?Where did he fail, just because he was a symbol of his father betraying his father once?

Kanoa genuinely thinks his dad is overreacting.

However, he was still confident at the time. Sooner or later, his father and father would realize that he would be the best choice for them to entrust Louis with his life.

Until one day, a big boy who was good at writing novels, although his emotional intelligence was in a mess, but good at pointing out others, told Kanoa that you took it for granted.This is the inferiority of human beings. We will never learn to truly feel the pain of others from the perspective of others, but we always force others to "if you are me, what should you do, think about me more".

Kanoa thought he had no blood relationship with Lu, and his father and father were also gay, so they should be tolerant of his love for Luis.

But Kanoa has forgotten that in the eyes of his father and his father, he and Louis are not just men, they are brothers and children, and if they are together, it is incest. Any pair of mentally healthy parents, Presumably, they would not take this for granted, especially when Louis, one of the parties involved, obviously had no intention of further developing with Kanoa.

His father and father are not their brother's neighbors, or friends in the industry, let alone the audience behind the TV, they also have their positions and ideas, and this position and ideas deeply affect their brother's life. Life.

And most importantly, although Kano Adam's friend didn't say it clearly, he knew it well——

——No matter how good Kanoya is, no matter how perfect he is, no matter how good he is, in the eyes of his father and father, at least in the eyes of his father, he is no more important than a little finger of Louis.

His father would not quarrel with his father because his father did not attend his school's open day, and his father would not say to him with a helpless and conniving face, "This is not an example." In the end, in his father's heart, he was just a person Outsiders in life are VIPs who need to be treated with courtesy, and they will never be short of him for food and clothing, but wanting more is just a dream.

Maybe their relationship improved later, but Kanoa was nothing compared to Luis.

Kanoa didn't even doubt that if the situation between him and Louis was reversed, and it was Louis who said to his father, I like my brother, I want to be with my brother, then his father's reaction would definitely not be such an agitated objection, even his father After repeated persuasion failures, he will try his best to satisfy Louis' wishes, make him stay with Louis, and let him accept Louis.

It's a pity that the situation can never be reversed. Louis doesn't know that Kanoa likes him, and according to Louis' slowness, he will not take the initiative to cross the line of his brother and suddenly become enlightened.

Life goes on and, as always, is bloodier than the story.

Kanoa was in a meeting, but suddenly received the news that his father and father who had chosen to travel by car were buried in the flames. It was a car accident, gasoline leaked, and a violent explosion occurred before everyone had time to react.

Fortunately, his father and father were not close to the main incident at that time, but were affected and are now being rescued.

On the way to the hospital, Kanoa kept praying to God, please bless his father and dad. Although he knew that his father and dad were now the biggest obstacle for him and Louis to be together, he never Moment wanted them dead, because papa and father also had a big place in Kanoa's longing family.

Well, the unfeeling words that his father said to him that day still make his heart ache when he thinks about it now. He is not a holy father, he cannot forgive, but he is not a really ruthless person. Well, he can't hate either.

But unfortunately, as Kanoa once said, God is a bastard who loves to play with people's hearts.

When Kanoa rushed to the hospital with the greatest hope, he only got the news that his father was still alive. The man with a lot of burns on his face was holding Kanoa's hand tightly, with a hoarse voice like a devil. The deep voice said intermittently: "...never, never... touch my son!"

Kanoa couldn't think of it, and he was unwilling to accept this result. His father insisted on seeing him for the last time, not to ask about his father's situation, not to ask him to take good care of his younger brother, but to warn him to stay away from his younger brother.

Kanoa almost fainted because the blow was too deep, but he couldn't faint because the blow was far from over.

His father is also dying. His injury was unexpectedly much lighter than that of his father. It is said that his father protected his father tightly at that time. This is probably the biggest bargaining chip that his father has been able to persuade his father for so many years. Father, even more than his own life.

But after his father died, his father had lost all hope. No matter how high the art is, it is impossible to rescue a person who is determined to die.

However, the exquisite medical skills still left time for his father to make a will, and... called Kanoa to say a few words.

My father's first words were: "I'm sorry for your father, and I'm sorry for you. I'm too greedy. I want to take care of work and family, but in the end I lose both."

The father said: "I left the whole family to you, and only a small part to your brother. Most of it is still your father's inheritance, which is enough for him to live affluently for a lifetime. Our family cannot be separated, no matter How many children will you have in the future, remember, everything in the family can only be left to one child, the kindness of a woman will only make the family fall apart!"

Finally, the father said: "The only restriction of the will is that you can't be with Louis. I'm sorry, Carl, when I can only take care of one person's mood, your dad will be my only choice. It's a pity I haven't been here until now." Understand this truth."

After that, Kanoa's father closed his eyes forever as if he had exhausted all his strength.

Kanoa was so stimulated by such two consecutive kills that he almost lost the strength to stand up. This is his father and father.They knew that it would not work to talk about family affection with him, so they simply gave up all the pretense and fig leaf, forcing him to agree.It wasn't that he was reluctant to part with the whole family, but that his father's will was a trap, a trap that guaranteed that he would never be able to be with Louis.

If he chooses to be with Louis, then he will lose all the honor and power of the family, and Louis will get everything, including the power to escape from him.

And if he doesn't choose to be with Louis... Then, he will follow his father and his father's original intention.

That was the lowest point in Kanoa's life, at least he thought so.So he lost his temper a lot, and spoke bad words to Louis. He had to do that, force Louis away, and let him never appear in front of him again in his life, otherwise he didn't know what he would do to Louis. what.Imprisoning Louis for life?Then pretend Louis is on vacation abroad?To be honest, this idea was full of temptation to Kanoa at the time, and he almost did it.

But in the end Kanoa gave up. He wanted to be with Louis, but not in a way that ruined Louis' life.

Of course, Kanoa couldn't really let go of Louis, and his reluctance was obvious.He set a limit for the beast of desire in his heart. When he meets Louis again, he will definitely be with Louis. No one can stop him, even if it hurts Louis.

But if he can't, then he won't let the beast out.So he sent Louis to the Celestial Dynasty, and told him that he was not allowed to set foot on the land of country A for the rest of his life.He figured that should stop him.

... This is of course a lie. Kanoa is very clear that this is just a high-sounding excuse for himself. When Louis had to come to him, he did it directly with good intentions and no guilt.Why was he so sure Louis would come back for him?Of course, it was because he didn't even let Louis attend his father and his father's funeral. He almost cut off all sources of income for Louis. He didn't believe how long his always delicate brother could last.

After all this painstaking work, Kanoa firmly believed that he would soon receive a call from his younger brother, telling him that he could not survive this kind of life, and begging him to take him back.

By the time--

——Kanoa looked at his father's tombstone, you can't blame me for attacking Lu, Dad, after all, Lu asked for it, how could I refuse Lu cruelly, you know, Lu is my only weakness .

But Kanoa never thought that Louis, who has always been delicate, would have such backbone. For three years, two months and five days, Louis never made a single call with him. The person who secretly took care of Louis in the past reported that Louis had almost never gone downstairs in the past three years...

This made Kanoa very anxious, how could Louis not take good care of himself!

Then, Kanoa began to reflect, did he really speak too harshly and scare his precious brother, or did he speak so unfeelingly that his brother's pride began to stir up trouble, and he didn't want to have any contact with him anymore .

This is really embarrassing, Kanoa thought, how can I meet Louis again in a reasonable way?

Zombies began to appear in country A in 2012, and the first case was interpreted by the media as a tragedy caused by drugs. At that time, Kanoa was even a little lucky. Luckily, Louis was in the Celestial Dynasty and was far away from country A.

When the epidemic was no longer under control and the zombies became a worldwide disaster, Kanoa had already prepared his way out.Almost on the second day after the outbreak of this situation in China, when the water, electricity and even the Internet were not interrupted, Kanoa went to China in person, ready to pick up Louis, and stay away from this terrible thing together. A place where life is good, Louis will live his old life, lacking nothing, he will be well protected.

This is the turning point God gave him, right?As the Chinese poem says, there is no way out when there are heavy mountains and rivers, and there is another village where the willows are dark and the flowers are bright.With excitement, Kanoa took a special plane and flew to Tianchao City B under the protection of numerous bodyguards. It was near, almost there, the home with Louis.

This time, no one can stop me from making you mine.