springtime

Luo Mu slammed the door and went upstairs, her face changed greatly in panic, she was so upset that she couldn't worry about anything else, Cen's mother greeted her, she bit her lip and walked away without looking sideways.Cen's mother stood there in a daze, seeing Luo Shixu hurriedly chasing after her, and bowed to Cen's mother as she passed by.

"Baby, did Shi Xu quarrel with his mother?" Cen's mother was puzzled.

Cen Ran turned her back to her, she couldn't see what his son's expression was like, as usual, he was sitting quietly in front of the desk, the light cast a warm outline on his body, and said to her :"sorry."

"what?"

"I look at them like this, and it seems that I can't help them." Cen Ran tried his best to restrain his voice to sound stable, his hands were on the edge of the table, his fingertips were white.

"What's wrong? Don't be sad."

Cen Ran responded sullenly, opened and closed his lips a few times, but still didn't tell his parents who were kept in the dark.At the zero o'clock of the New Year's Eve, he kept receiving blessings from his classmates, and the person who should watch the fireworks with him was no longer by his side.

Sniffing, he packed the homework that Luo Shixu had left out here into his schoolbag, mustered up the courage to run upstairs, and paused in the stairwell again.

He saw the tears on Luo's mother's face, and Luo Shixu was silently confronting Luo Shixu at the door of the house. Luo Shixu took his mother's arm and called, "Mom."

His mother leaned against the door, her voice became hoarse, and she said weakly, "I can't accept it, you can come in after you think about it, okay?"

After she finished speaking, she entered the room exhausted. Luo Shixu was still standing at the door, looking down at the threshold.Cen Ran moved a little bit, wanting to return his schoolbag, but before he got close, Luo's mother came back and forth again, asking Luo Shixu to enter the house, but he didn't move.

Luo Mu waited in the house for 10 minutes and did not see Luo Shixu coming in. She raised her voice and said, "What are you thinking? You have been standing here for so long and you still haven't come in."

"Mom, grandpa said that before you married my dad, you begged at the door all night, and he agreed." Luo Shixu said slowly.

Luo Mu said: "You have seen the end result between me and him."

Luo Shixu didn't say a word, and Luo's mother said: "You stand here to soften my heart, what about him? He hides in the room and has nothing to do. After you finish dealing with this side, you will deal with the other side. You have to deal with it for this encounter." There are so many crimes, how can I bear it, let me come in quickly."

"I don't want to hear anything else now. No matter whether you like boys or girls, do you only think about puppy love in school? Just ask you, it's obviously about the two of you..." Luo Mu looked down at him: "Why do I get angry, it's you who stand here and suffers, not him?"

Luo Shixu looked flat and said, "Because I was the one who pursued him first."

"You are afraid that I will tell his parents." Luo Mu said.

Luo Shixu said, "I'm also afraid that you will be too sad."

Luo Mu smiled wearily, more helplessly, and said: "Come in, it's cold outside. Your grandfather also said, who can control who after all, if you want people to get hurt less and take more detours, in the end I’m still not appreciated, and now I actually play the role of the dismantling person.”

"Let's not talk about this today, okay?" Luo Mu turned her body to make way for him, "Go home, don't stand like a punishment, my son was born so well, why keep your head down."

In the corner, Cen Ran held Luo Shixu's schoolbag in his arms, wiped his face belatedly, and found it was cool.

——"You promise first."

It turns out that I agreed to agree with you as the one who confessed first, that's what I meant.

But I not only want to wait for you, stand behind you and look at you where there is no wind or rain, I also want to move forward side by side with you.

Sometimes I don't want to listen to you, for you.

·

At two in the morning, Gu Xun called.

"Ran Ran! My dad! Did you finish your homework?" Gu Xun asked for help on the phone.

Cen Ran nodded in disbelief, only to realize that he and he were separated by phone, and said, "It's done."

"Please copy."

"Come here and get it." Cen Ran said casually.

He said that Gu Xun really came to Tongcheng early in the morning just to copy his homework. Fortunately, Cen Ran couldn't sleep all night and sent him his home address.At 08:30, Gu Xun went to his house and rang the doorbell, saying, "Hello Uncle, Hello Auntie, Xiao Gu is here to wish you New Year's greetings."

Cen Ran opened the door for him with dark circles under his eyes, and said to him as he let him in: "Be quiet, they are sleeping."

Cen Ran's grandma was cooking breakfast. Seeing a fresh-faced classmate, she also served him a bowl of green vegetable rice cakes. She had bad ears and spoke loudly, saying, "Are you another classmate from Baby's class?"

"Again?" Gu Xun was stunned for a moment, then grasped what he thought was the point, "Baby Cen Ran, hahahahaha."

"Do you still want to do homework?" Cen Ran said.

Gu Xun immediately surrendered and apologized sincerely: "I'm sorry, Dad, I was wrong."

With Gu Xun around, there will be no silence at the dinner table. Cen Ran's grandma was so teased that she needed a pat on the back. It can be seen that Gu Xun's flattering skills are getting deeper and deeper.Since last night, Cen Ran's hanging heart finally eased a little bit, and he stretched his brows in the heat of breakfast.

Cen Ran's bedroom is large, with desks and bookcases, and is connected to the balcony, where the sun shines in and makes it warm.Gu Xun came to Cen Ran's house for the first time as a guest, and saw that the counseling materials that Cen Ran had completed were neatly arranged in three rows, and said: "In the future, we can set up a tourist attraction. It's a bit exaggerated to finish all of this. There are so many."

The computer was put away, and Gu Xun, a student who loves to study, crazily copied his homework on the first day of the new year when everyone was sleeping in.

"By the way, Brother Zhu was playing at your house last time?" Gu Xun remembered that he called Cen Ran once, and Luo Shixu listened to him right next to Cen Ran.

Cen Ran added, "I was there yesterday."

"You two have such a good relationship. At the beginning of school, I thought you two were not on the same page." Gu Xun began to copy his favorite English. He didn't need to use his brain during the whole process, but he was a little afraid of copying the wrong line when filling in the blanks.

"He and I grew up together when we were young, and he transferred to Boyuan in junior high school." Cen Ran said.

"What?" Gu Xun asked in surprise, "I haven't heard you say this before. Brothers are hiding a little secret from us. It's not kind."

"Yeah." Cen Ran closed his eyes, thinking this was a drill, opened his mouth, and said, "So you came just in time."

"Huh? Dou Dizhu is missing one?" Gu Xun asked.

"I'm going to come out later, if my dad beats me violently, remember to stop him for me." Cen Ran said.

Gu Xun was busy copying his homework, but he didn't realize it: "Why did your father beat you up when you came out? Damn, you came out?! What! Did I hear wrong? Or am I coming out in a dream?"

"Come out." Cen Ran repeated in a straight voice, "But I don't plan to open the door of the cabinet directly."

Gu Xun asked blankly: "Do you like men?"

"I like Luo Shixu."

I saw Gu Xun turning his head and staring at the two English papers. He couldn't help writing "Fuck me" on the composition summary, and hurriedly erased the dirty words, and the pen accidentally punctured it. roll noodles.

"..." Gu Xun.

"Cough." Gu Xun said delicately, "Well, why are you so reluctant to go to die?"

"I know it's a little wrong for me to do this, but why can't I do it wrong? I have to cover it up, in order to avoid trouble? Must it be like this." Cen Ran smiled and said, "I'm in love, I'm I really want to talk to others, and I can’t wait to pave the way.”

He doesn't want to live too clearly, live too correctly, he just wants to look back and ask himself without any regrets.

"You should be afraid." Gu Xun said.

Cen Ran said: "There is nothing more frightening than seeing him being discovered by his mother. Compared with those, I am more afraid that he will fight all these things alone."

Gu Xun tinkered with this English paper that was about to be scrapped, and after a while, he said, "I don't think it's useless to persuade you, anyway, you must have considered everything you can think of, do it if you want, just, just a little impulsive ?”

"If I was totally acting on my will, I should have said it last night." Cen Ran thought of his hesitation to his mother at that time, "This is not something shameful."

"However, I've seen some parents who wanted to cry, make trouble, and hang themselves. Uh, of course I don't know what's going on with your parents. I won't send you to electric shock therapy."

Gu Xun was worried about his deskmate, and told Cen Ran all the bad possibilities. After talking, he patted the table and said, "How did you two get together? When? I don't know have no idea!"

"Did you not eat the wedding candy?" Cen Ran asked lightly.

"That's wedding candy?" Gu Xun broke down and said, "It's really wedding candy that Luo Shixu distributed to the whole class?"

Cen Ran acquiesced, and then said: "I know that this matter should be done step by step, but if it is guessed, I am afraid of this, and I feel that I can't hide it from my mother."

"How are you going to proceed step by step? I think your chances of being violently beaten are as high as 90.00% nine point nine nine."

"No, it's only [-]%. It's an accident." Cen Ran said, "Have you ever seen a textbook-style parent? Let me open your eyes, don't be too envious."

The whole day, Gu Xun lived in a muddleheaded way. After copying homework, his back hurt. After reading Cen Ran's book for a while, he opened his favorite book, which contained a red bracelet.

Cen Ran said that this bracelet was begged by Cen's mother in the temple before, and he and Luo Shixu each wore it.With that, he put the bracelet back on.Gu Xun, who ate a mouthful of dog food, slumped on the beanbag and did not move, thinking about how he would make Cen Ran return to school to report intact when a family war would be triggered.

No wonder he was thinking too negatively. After his parents found out about his puppy love, the family was like a fool. The other party was a well-behaved and sensible girl. Either Cen Ran would not fall in love, but he would fall in love with a handsome guy who was enough to shake the world. , he really couldn't imagine any good ending.

Trembling around the dining table, the meal was very rich, Cen's mother had seen Gu Xun several times, and gently entertained him to eat a little more food, even after the third year of high school, she was so tired that she lost a lot of weight.

Gu Xun said with a smile: "I'm not thin, I'm losing weight, I have a small face like my aunt, do you think I have an oval face?"

After joking for a while, Cen's mother saw that Cen Ran was absent-minded, and she had been acting abnormally since last night, so she muttered, "Time sequence didn't come to play today, huh?"

Gu Xun immediately clenched his chopsticks tightly, his heart trembled, thinking that this matter would eventually come.

He paid attention to Cen Ran's expression, and said that being calm is really calm and self-sustaining. He has never seen someone who is so calm. If Gu Xun can learn [-]%, then he won't go back to the last handover every time he is questioned by the grade department teacher. Get out your cell phone.

"Do you think he will come here often in the future?" Cen Ran asked.

"Come on, of course you are welcome." Grandma said, her hands were shaking when she picked up the vegetables, Luo Shixu sat next to her and helped her serve the vegetables and spoon the soup yesterday, "What a boy, you can spend more time with him when you have time get along."

"Yeah, how nice he is." Cen Ran murmured, "He feels like family to me, so I, I want to treat him like family."

Cen's father patted Cen Ran on the back and said, "He treats you no differently than his own brother. If he has any difficulties, you can spend more time with him. After all, he is still young."

Gu Xun glanced and saw that Cen Ran blinked, tears dripped on the dining table, and were gently wiped away by his thumb.

In the eyes of the current family members, this is an emotional outpouring of unknown reasons. It is speculated that the boy became sensitive when he learned what happened to others, or the pressure in the third year of high school was too much to vent.

Nobody knows what it means, they can't figure out what it really means, even though the answer is so simple and it's right there in front of you.

All they knew was that Cen Ran didn't make a sound of crying, but the tears couldn't stop falling down.

As night fell, he sat on the balcony with red eyes.The lights of each house were reflected on the glass. He saw Luo Mu pacing aimlessly in the community, and finally sat down by the flower bed.

The beautiful and dignified woman in the past has not escaped the erosion of the years, her back is obviously aging, she sits down with her back arched, and her whole body is huddled in the coat.

And he slowly looked away, and found that Luo Shixu was standing not far away, he didn't approach or go far, when Cen Ran felt numb in his legs and feet, he stood up from the chair and moved, Luo Shixu was in the He sat down opposite his mother.

Cen Ran squatted down, put his fingers on the glass, and touched Luo Shixu's figure, which was only a small spot from here.

He pressed his head against the cold window, and the exhaled breath immediately condensed into a white mist on it, and he closed his eyes and whispered in his heart: Brother, don't be afraid, don't be afraid.

I can also guarantee that I will definitely do it. I always like you, just as you love me so deeply.