bend this soldier

No, not to mention finding a girlfriend who suits him. He didn't know until he was 25 years old when he was urged to marry by his family. It turns out that his family has been looking for him to marry for the past few years, but he doesn't know the reason. No matter what the other party's conditions are How good, he directly refused, his hometown is quite backward and feudal, the average young people get married before the age of 20, there are very few like him, his parents also hope that he can get married and have children as soon as possible, but he However, they refused for various reasons and failed to fulfill their wishes. In the end, his father was very angry and said that he would never find someone to marry again and cut off the father-son relationship with him. He had no choice but to agree to go home..."

When he said this, he looked out of the window and was lost for a while, Xi Zhaoran leaned on the back of the chair, quietly waiting for him to speak.

"Before he left, he treated us to a drink. After getting drunk, he was uncharacteristically calm and cried a lot in the dormitory. At that time, I didn't know why he was crying. He went home the next day. Yes, when he came back from vacation, he only told us that he was married, and he was with a playmate he grew up with when he was a child... When he said these things, it was impossible to see from his face that he went back to his hometown to do a business. Happy event, I think his face is more like a funeral... I asked him what happened, but he didn't say anything, and since then he has been estranged from me, and made frequent mistakes in missions. In the end, the instructor kept him He was sent for psychological treatment, but he refused to cooperate. Later, he was scolded by the instructor, and he promised that he would not make any mistakes in the future. After that, he did not make any mistakes again, but he avoided me more and more. Obviously, I tried to find opportunities to explain clearly to him several times, but he avoided me..." Tan Tianyang sighed suddenly while speaking, Xi Zhaoran touched him with his knee, he turned his head and glanced at him, looking at him Patted on the knee, and continued.

"He didn't go back for a few years after he got married, even when his wife gave birth to him a son, he just called back and avoided me more and more, even unwilling to go with me on missions , I felt a little unacceptable at the time, and I found an opportunity to block him once, but he scolded me very angrily. The content of his scolding was very confusing. There was no way to understand what he wanted to express... Not long after that, two tasks came down from above, and the instructor felt that it was more appropriate for me to complete one of them with him. The other set of tasks was the first time they cooperated, and there was no tacit understanding at all. , I also wanted to take this opportunity to make peace with him, but he refused directly, with a very tough attitude, which made the instructor scold him angrily again. I was also a little angry at the time, so I ignored him. But I didn't expect..."

When Tan Tianyang talked about these things, his voice was always calm, as if he was talking about a stranger who had nothing to do with him. Xi Zhaoran reached out and grabbed his hand, squeezed it, and said for him: "Then he died in another mission. ,Is it?"

Tan Tianyang looked sideways at him.

Xi Zhaoran continued: "He likes you, right? But because he is already married, he wants to distance himself from you and forget you." He said it with certainty, as if it was his personal experience.

Tan Tianyang was silent for a while, and said with some uncertainty: "I don't know very well, he never expressed anything to me, but his psychological counselor said this, he read his diary, he said that he Feelings have tortured me so much that I have no desire to live, and I have long had the mentality of wanting to die."

"Is his death the reason you left the army? Do you think you should be responsible for his death?" Xi Zhaoran's face turned slightly cold. He didn't like this Song Bin, not only because he had coveted Tan Tianyang, but more because of his love for him. His cowardice of not daring to face everything, Xi Zhaoran does not please his father, so he does not know his father's expectation, it is something that a man as a son of man has to accomplish no matter what kind of difficulties he experiences, he Xi Zhaoran The creed is that since it is what he wants to get, he must get it by any means, so he looks down on Song Bin very much in his heart, and always suppresses his feelings for others, but in the end he commits suicide cowardly.But he sensibly didn't show this kind of contempt, after all, he was Tan Tianyang's closest comrade-in-arms, if he commented casually, Tianyang would be angry with him, right?

It took Tan Tianyang a while to say: "I owe this to the mother and son of the Song family."

Xi Zhaoran really wanted to refute him saying that he didn't owe anyone, but felt that he had no position to refute. Song Bin was only afraid to pursue it due to the pressure of reality, but he took advantage of Tan Tianyang's kindness and respect for him. He cares, now he even feels that if there is no lesson from Song Bin, Tan Tianyang may not accept him so easily, he must accept it because he is afraid that he will follow the old path of Song Bin and him, and repeat the same mistakes, right?

Xi Zhaoran felt that although he would not commit suicide, he would not give up on Tan Tianyang so easily.

"I will take care of them together with you." Xi Zhaoran held Tan Tianyang's hand. What he said was the truth, not for anything else, but for the sake of saving the mother and son of the Song family if one day Tianyang knew about it. The truth behind the incident can add some points to the despicable self.

Tan Tianyang didn't speak, but the hands they held were pinching back and forth, expressing intimacy with each other.

34. Go to my house on National Day ([-])...

When the bus arrived at the destination, it was almost twelve o'clock at night. Tan Tianyang patted Xi Zhaoran who was leaning on his shoulder to sleep. The person who was awakened by the patting quickly opened his eyes, but those dark eyes were full of blankness. .

Tan Tianyang reached out and patted his cheek at an angle that others couldn't see, and said in a low voice: "It's time to get up, it's time to arrive."

"Ah." Xi Zhaoran responded, closed his eyes and shook his head, trying to regain his sanity.

"Don't throw it away, you'll get dizzy after a while." Seeing that the people in the car were crowded to the front door and waiting to get off, and there were only the two of them left behind, he raised his hand to help him pinch the back of his neck to wake him up.

After a while, Xi Zhaoran moved his neck and said, "Okay."

Tan Tianyang's hand stopped pinching the back of his neck, but he didn't take it away immediately. He stroked the skin of his neck one by one with his fingertips, as if to comfort him.

"Is your home far from here?" Xi Zhaoran looked sideways out of the dark window, because it was in the middle of the mountains, he could only see clusters of black shadows like thick ink.

"I can't go back tonight. I'll stay in the county for one night first." Tan Tianyang looked up and saw that almost everyone in the car had got off, so he got up and pulled Xi Zhaoran out.

Xi Zhaoran followed behind him, nodding thoughtfully.

After getting off the car, Tan Tianyang led him to find a small hotel in a small county town, put all the things back in the room, and took Xi Zhaoran to find a small restaurant for dinner—the two had been sitting in the car for a whole day , I just got off the car at noon and ate something, but the taste of the food made by the wild stalls on the roadside is always unsatisfactory, so Master Xi unceremoniously pushed all the food he hadn't finished to Tan Tianyang, Tan Tianyang was also not polite to him, and stuffed most of his remaining food into his stomach, making Xi Zhaoran very suspicious whether his stomach would burst, if that was the case, he would be really guilty.And as a matter of course, Young Master Xi didn't even want to get out of the car during dinner, so it was Tan Tianyang who forced him out of the car, asked him to move his body, and forced him to eat something before giving up.

Now in the county town, I finally found some edible local specialties.

The shop that Tan Tianyang led him to seems to be quite familiar with him. Not long after the two of them entered the shop, the things Tan Tianyang ordered were served on the table. The boss probably rarely saw Xi Zhaoran as...so impressive. The bright-eyed person deliberately asked Tan Tianyang, "Is he your colleague? Are you here to play during the festival?"

"Friend." Tan Tianyang nodded to him, without any explanation.

The boss was probably used to his silent personality, so he asked self-consciously: "How are you doing in City A? Is it easy to find a job there? Last time I asked A Jian to give us Xiaohui Looking for a job there, Ah Jian promised to let Xiaohui go after the new year, eh...I heard that your job was also introduced to you by Ah Jian, it should be good, right?"

"It's okay, the jobs Ah Jian is looking for are quite good." Tan Tianyang said lightly.

The boss nodded, as if he was relieved, and then asked, "I heard that people in this city are not easy to serve, is it true, how is your boss' attitude towards employees?"

After hearing what he said, Xi Zhaoran raised his head and glanced at him, but didn't say anything. When he looked away, he saw Tan Tianyang was looking at him, but he answered the boss's question, "It's not difficult to serve, he treats us very well." Xi Zhaoran inexplicably heard teasing from his words, although Tan Tianyang looked at him with normal eyes, his face was still the paralyzed face.

"That's good," the boss seemed relieved after hearing his answer, and said a little embarrassedly, "I said, the people in the city are also human beings, and they give him a good job. What are you doing with people's troubles? Just listen to those people's nonsense."

Tan Tianyang nodded, and did not intend to answer the conversation. Xi Zhaoran was not familiar with the little boss, and the two could be regarded as people from two completely different classes. They really had no common language. The little boss talked for a while, and neither of them spoke. , I also felt that it was boring, so I said hello and left.

Xi Zhaoran waited for the little boss to leave, and then said to Tan Tianyang with a smile: "You still have someone here who specializes in helping people introduce jobs in the city. You went to Shengxiong because you asked someone to introduce you?" He asked nothing else mean,