memory castration

Every morning is the most painful time for Xu Yifei, because Fang Yibai's blank eyes will mean that some memories are quietly lost.

"who are you?"

"Xu Yifei."

"Are we related?"

"We are lovers, we love each other." Xu Yifei replied.

Fang Yibai frowned slightly, "But I don't remember you."

Xu Yifei trimmed his nails patiently, "That's because you are sick and your brain tends to forget things."

He rested his chin with his hands, his expression was slightly childish due to the aggravation of his illness, "I don't remember you now, will you be sad?"

Xu Yifei was stunned, and after a while he said, "Yes."

He laughed like a heartless child, "You lied just now, I must not have loved you before."

The sharp words were like blunt knives piercing into the chest, Xu Yifei couldn't breathe in pain, "Why do you say that?"

Fang Yibai stretched out his fingers slowly, groped his face tentatively, and muttered in a low voice: "You are so handsome, if I love you, I must find a place to hide myself, so I don't want to make you unhappy."

Xu Yifei knew for the first time that emotions hurt people more accurately and more ruthlessly than weapons.

Why did he choose to be with him in the first place? This is a question that Xu Yifei has been unwilling to face.

Fang Yibai accepts all kinds of considerations, but he is addicted to the hatred of death, and transfers unnecessary crimes to him, and he doesn't know how to cherish them.

Later, the light in his eyes faded, replaced by a layer of hatred like frost, and the love in the past could no longer be seen.

But between him and Xiao Ziqi, Fang Yibai finally chose himself, possessing but not being able to get it, this is his revenge.

He knows Xu Yifei's love well, and he also understands that he will never let go for the rest of his life, so he let him guard his body and enjoy the pleasure of guilt and guilt a little bit.

I still remember when I was a teenager, when the afternoon sun was shining all over the classroom, Fang Yibai leaned lazily on Yang Wenxiong's body, "That slut, monitor, looks pretty good-looking, like a girl, with a red mouth... I don't know What would it taste like to kiss."

He didn't know that Li Xinlong didn't sleep at all at the time, and he saw his face from the gap in his vision, his slightly raised eyebrows, and the fine white beard against the backlight... Although the words he said were like It's a compliment, but it made Li Xinlong's teeth itch. This guy is really disgusting. He said that others look like girls when he grows up like this? !

……

"Don't cry, I was wrong today, I will buy a new bicycle in the future, can I pick you up from school every day?"

"You won't, you never liked me."

"Who said I don't like you?" Fang Yibai was a little embarrassed behind his voice, but after a while he cleared his throat like holding a broken jar, "I... like you."

……

If he could do it all over again, Li Xinlong would choose to come to Jiangcheng, even though his life was difficult and his life was mediocre.

The opera sings "If anyone dies at the age of 97, he will wait on the bridge for three years." This is a hypothetical statement. How can ordinary people live to be a hundred years old?

There is no morning in Wangchuan, only dusk when the sun is setting. A huge sunset is reflected on the opposite side of the turbid river.

Xiao Ziqi sat on the rock, quietly watching the pedestrians coming and going. He didn't know how long he had been sitting, and how much longer he was going to sit.

Just when he was immersed in the past, a hand was placed on his shoulder from behind, and the voice was so familiar that it was like the sound of heaven, "What is this place?"

When Xiao Ziqi turned his head, the man froze, and the next words stuck in his throat.

The two looked at each other for a long time before the other party whispered, "Strange, I seem to have seen you somewhere."

Xiao Ziqi's fingers trembled slightly, "You...why did you come here so early?"

"Huh?" The man blinked his eyes, "Do you really know him? I'm so bored at home, I'm so annoyed by a frowning person, I can't move in bed all day, I want to get up today Let's go, and we ended up here...Who are you? Are you sitting here waiting for me?"

Xiao Ziqi got up and hugged him, trying to control his strength for fear of scaring him.

However, his worry seemed unnecessary, the man was not frightened at all, instead he opened his eyes and looked at him quietly.

"Why... are you crying?"

"No, I'm just glad to see you."

"Oh, where do these people go after crossing the river? It looks very interesting... Let's go to the boat too."

"You can't sit on that boat casually, once you get on it, you can't go back."

"It's okay, I don't want to go back anyway."

"Someone is waiting for you up there."

"Don't care about him, let's go! I have a bad memory and I don't know the way. You can take me with you wherever you go in the future, okay? By the way, what's your name and what does it have to do with me? Why are you waiting here for me all the time? ?”

……

After getting on the boat, Fang Yibai became serious after he figured out all the ins and outs, "I've changed my mind."

Xiao Ziqi was slightly surprised, "What idea?"

"I don't want to have an older brother in my next life."

"Is that so..."

Xiao Ziqi's eyelids drooped, his heart seemed to be soaked in the river of forgetfulness, cold and heavy.

"Xiao Ziqi, let's be lovers in the future, anyway, I don't like Xu Yifei, I think you are much more pleasing to the eye than him."

"..."

"Ok?"

"What did you say?"

"Let's be lovers."

"It's too windy... I can't hear you clearly..."

"Xiao Ziqi, let's be lovers from now on!!!!"

【End of the show】