memory castration

The cause of memory loss has been identified, brain shrinkage caused by traumatic brain injury, commonly known as Alzheimer's disease.

How funny, I'm only 26!

From that day on, Xu Yifei seemed to be a different person. Even the hourly aunt was dismissed, and he cooked and washed his hands.

I said the dish was weak, so he added salt to it.When it was cold, he took it to heat it up.Said that the smell was too strong and unpalatable, so he picked it up and emptied the trash can.

Facing my deliberate finding faults and provocations, Xu Yifei's face was as dark as the bottom of a pot all day long.

But he deserves it, he asked for it, if it wasn't for him, how could I have broken my legs?And God knows if the so-called traumatic brain injury was caused by him pulling his hair and knocking it against the wall!

Before this, how many times have I fantasized about torturing him severely, and now I finally have the opportunity, wouldn't it be a waste if I don't make good use of it?

I leaned on the sofa and waved the remote controller lazily, "Who is that, I want to eat ice cream."

Xu Yifei frowned, "It's November now, what ice cream are you eating?"

"I just suddenly can't remember what ice cream tastes like, and I want to try it..."

He stared at me with complicated eyes for a while, tightened his lips, changed his shoes and went out.

While I was bored changing channels, Xu Yifei put the ice cream he bought back on the table.

"what?"

"ice cream."

"It's November and you still want ice cream?"

Xu Yifei stared at me and said with restraint, "You asked me to buy it just now."

I scoffed coldly, "How is it possible? When I was in middle school, I worked part-time in a cold drink store and got hurt. I never ate ice cream when I grew up."

Visually, Xu Yifei wanted to strangle me, but he held back, opened the lid, dug a spoon full of chocolate and put it into his mouth.

There is a circle of almonds, walnuts and raisins hanging on the side. It looks really good... I shamefully feel that my saliva secretion has accelerated.

Xu Yifei was indifferent to my reaction, he ate a spoonful or two quickly, I swallowed unconsciously, and stretched out my hand, "Let me taste it."

"Didn't you get hurt?"

"I have a traumatic brain injury..."

His thick black eyelashes drooped, he took the spoon out of his mouth, dug a spoonful and handed it to my mouth.

I turned my face away, "Change the spoon."

He glanced at me and ate the ice cream indifferently.

I watched helplessly, annoyed and annoyed in my heart, this bitch is so damn hateful!

"Xu Yifei!"

"what's up?"

"I'm going to call."

"to whom?"

"none of your business!"

He actually took out his mobile phone, fiddled with it a few times and handed it to me, "5 minutes in the local area, 3 minutes in the remote area, and it will be automatically cut off when the time is up."

Overjoyed, I called Yang Wenxiong and briefly explained my situation. Yang Wenxiong listened quietly and didn't say anything for a while.

"Hey, Nobita, are you listening?"

"I'm listening. In fact, Jiang Ping told me what happened a long time ago."

This time I was surprised, "You know I'm here with Xu Yifei?"

Yang Wenxiong's voice showed rare hesitation, "I talked to Xu Yifei on the phone before, and he said that you are not in good health and need to rest now, and you are not suitable to come back from Ninghai."

"What happened?"

"That bastard Jiang Xiaohu is backed by his father, and he just lives in your old house, and I don't want to do anything in public. He probably came here after hitting a wall with Xu Yifei, and he looks like he wants to sit on the sidelines and wait for a rabbit." , I don't know how you offended him, but he looks so annoyed that he wants to tear you apart..."

This brat is really going to add to the chaos, and now he's come here to get involved in whatever the situation is!

I scratched my hair depressingly, "Recently...has there been any whereabouts of Xiao Ziqi?"

The phone fell silent for a while, and just when I thought it was time to hang up automatically, Yang Wenxiong said, "Yibai, I sent someone to Egggarsen, but it turned out..."

"Beep..." This time I really hung up.

What did the people sent by Yang Wenxiong discover?Xiao Ziqi is dead?Or seriously ill?Or are you just making a missing joke with me?I feel like a cat is scratching in my heart. I can't wait to press redial, but I am prompted to enter the password by voice.

"What's the password?"

"do not know."

I got angry, "You fucking tell me the password!"

Xu Yifei raised the corners of his eyes, and a mocking sneer floated on the corner of his mouth, "I want to know the whereabouts of Xiao Ziqi, why don't you come and ask me directly?"

"Where is he now?"

"Really want to know?"

"Nonsense!" I thought I could be indifferent to that person, but now I find that I can't.

The memory declines sharply, and I often can’t remember whether I have eaten. Every day when I open my eyes, I feel a short-term strangeness when I look at the room and Xu Yifei, and the chopsticks and soap will inadvertently slip from my hands... These all imperceptibly indicate that the disease is in progress. Aggravating, I don't know if I will remember tomorrow that I have a perverted elder brother whose life or death is unknown.

Maybe some unknown memories are being lost, or maybe it's because of taking the medicine, the hatred for him is not as much as before, but there is more inexplicable concern.

I also don't want to be friends with him, I just want to know how he is after he's drunk, whether he's sick, whether he's dead or not.

Xu Yifei stood up in my anticipation, and took out a brown paper bag from the study, "Xiao Ziqi's answer is here, but I advise you not to read it."

Although he delivered the thing to my eyes, his fingers squeezed it very tightly. I tried several times to pull it away successfully.

The paper bag was thick and seemed to contain a lot of documents, which gave me a bad feeling.

It's just a simple question, why didn't Xu Yifei directly tell me the answer, but prepared these things in a roundabout way?Could it be... a death report?

I shook my head for my thoughts, but I couldn't muster up the courage to open it.

look?dont see?After hesitating for a long time, I swallowed my saliva and pulled the thread wrapped around the button with slightly trembling hands.

Xu Yifei suddenly pinched my wrist, and pulled the paper bag back with little force, "You better not look at it, because it's just a contract I was negotiating recently."

"Xu Yifei, playing with me is fun, isn't it?!"

"It's fun."

"Welcome to fuck."

I really want to slap myself, how come you forgot, this bastard is an abandoned one, the master who doesn't want to be seen by his biological mother, adoptive mother, and stepmother!

Xu Yifei walked into the study, put the documents back, turned back to look at my indiscriminate expression, and said contemptuously: "Now you can only talk like a bitch."

Although I was angry, I couldn't do anything about him because of my legs, "Xu Yifei, you are disgusting."

He sat down across from me, and said in a strange way: "Where is Xiao Ziqi, do you hate him?"

My chest tightened, and then I pretended to be calm, "I'm afraid I'll disappoint you. Not only do I not hate him, but I like him very much. No matter how perverted he is, he is still my brother. We were born with the same No one can change this bond and intimacy."

These are Xiao Ziqi's original words, which are just right to stimulate Xu Yifei now.

Sure enough, he gritted his teeth, "It doesn't matter if you go to bed with him?"

"What's the relationship between the two men? Xiao Ziqi is very gentle on the bed, taking care of my feelings very much, and he is also emotionally clean, only willing to have sex with me, never worry about him betraying."

"A dissolute person like you has no right to demand loyalty from the other party!"

"I never asked for it, but if I like someone, I always hope that he is clean."

"Clean? Having incest with my brother and doing the dirtiest thing in the world, why do you have the face to mention these words?"

His attitude is still so arrogant, his words are still so vicious, every word is like a needle point piercing my heart.

But judging from his clenched fists and swollen neck veins, my influence on him is not in vain.

We are like two hedgehogs who refuse to admit defeat, attacking and hurting each other.

From Li Xinlong to Xu Yifei, I no longer doubt his feelings for me.

He should love me, otherwise he wouldn't hold on to me and refuse to let go. He was more nervous than me when he saw my illness.

But his love is distorted, even worse than Xiao Ziqi's.

The seven years of living together should have been our happiest days, but it has become the part of the past that I hate the most.

When we were teenagers, we missed the beautiful youth.

As adults, we miss our best opportunities.

From the initial acquaintance to the sad end, fate has twisted us together for more than ten years.

Two of the breakups were me trying to save it alone, while he patted his butt in a cool way and easily escaped.

Now we are no longer young, and I have already exhausted my feelings and have no possibility of a lover.

I can't forget the tattoos he left on me, and the expression on his face when he said proudly, "kneel down and kowtow ten times to me". This kind of shame accompanied me for a whole year, during which I suffered from insomnia , anorexia, and even want to self-mutilate.

I once asked him what would happen to him if one day I really didn't remember anything?

Xu Yifei pressed a kiss on my lips, "There won't be such a day."

Of course there won't be such a day, because even if I forget the past, I still can't forget the hatred for him.

The days passed quickly, and more than a month passed in the blink of an eye. No matter how hard I tried during this period, Xu Yifei did not agree that I had any contact with Yang Wenxiong.

Xu Yifei went to attend the elder's birthday banquet that day, and I was the only one left at home.

I accidentally saw two unfamiliar Chinese characters in the newspaper, and because I was not sure whether I had forgotten it or never seen it, I went to the study to find the answer in boredom.

When I took out the thick "Ci Hai", I suddenly saw a paper bag in the folder.Xu Yifei packed his things in an orderly manner, why did he put the folder in Cihai?In order to prompt me to open it, a familiar photo may come into view, a familiar white manor, which is...Xiao Ziqi's assets in Egggarsen.

If I was pleasantly surprised, I immediately flipped through the inner pages quickly, but was so shocked by the first few lines that I couldn't speak.

It was as if someone poured a basin of cold water on his head in three or nine days, and it was completely cold inside and out.

When I turned to the second page, I saw a photo of Xiao Ziqi. He was sitting lazily on the hospital bed with a quiet and calm smile.

At the end of the day, I couldn't remember what I had seen. I just felt that my heart and mind were empty, and all I could hear was Xiao Ziqi's voice.

"Xiaobai, be good, listen to grandma, don't be naughty..."

"The only thing I did wrong was let go of your hand when I was a child."

"You would rather choose Jiang Xiaohu than be with me...you will regret it."

……

I don't regret it, Xiao Ziqi, I don't regret it...

My head started to hurt again, and countless images emerged from the corners, grew bigger and then faded away, dragging my brother's child with difficulty, the boy holding a drawing board by the river, the young man in a white shirt in the Yanda Forest...

"noob."

"Huh?" I turned my face suddenly, only to find that the room was empty and there was no one there.

Xiao Ziqi...