memory castration

Death, this is a cold word, but the dictionary explains it as a neutral word, saying that it is an inevitable law of life.

I haven't met Xiaoha's original owner, and I still feel inexplicably sad when I hear the news of his death, but that's all.

Before going to bed at night, I kept an eye out and locked the door of the room.

Although Xiao Ziqi's words on the surface are high-sounding, but I have always kept some indescribable precautions.

Lying on the bed without any sleepiness, I took out my phone and played games for a while, until the battery was about to run out before I started to feel sleepy. I checked the time and it was almost two o'clock in the morning.

Just as I was about to put my phone away and get ready for sleep, I heard the sound of the door lock turning.Very light, but very clear in this silent night.

Xiao Ziqi, that bastard, wouldn't he want to do something wrong while I was asleep?I broke out in a cold sweat, hurriedly took the thick porcelain cup on the table into the bed, pretended to close my eyes and pretended to sleep.

After the door handle was turned twice, there was a crisp clicking sound. Xiao Ziqi took the key and opened the door, walked in quietly like a ghost, and finally stopped in front of the bed.

I cautiously opened my eyes a small slit, I couldn't see his face clearly in the dark, but I didn't find him doing anything wrong, I just stood quietly and looked at me like a statue.

This guy doesn't have nocturnal syndrome, does he?What are you looking at?What catches your eyes?

When I was about to run out of patience, he suddenly stretched out his right hand, bent his index finger and gently scratched my face, the movements were very gentle, bringing a slight itching to the tense skin.

Have you touched enough?I roared irritably in my heart, and my whole body was like a bow ready to go, ready to squeeze the cup tightly and hit him on the forehead.

"Xiaobai," he lowered his head and pressed the cool tip of his nose to my face, calling out in a low voice, which seemed to contain a lot of helplessness and sadness.

He... didn't intend to violate me, the anger disappeared almost immediately, and I seemed to have figured out something vaguely.

In fact, he didn't do anything too much. I was the one who was wrong. I knew what he wanted, and I didn't want to accept it, but I still wanted to get some benefits from it.

In the final analysis, Fang Yibai is a selfish and despicable bastard. On the one hand, he is conceited and lofty and unwilling to accept gifts from others, but at the same time he uses the sign of fair trade to opportunistically.

Let's quit this job tomorrow. It's better to find a low-paying part-time job than torture others with emotions now.

After sorting out my emotions, I slowly relaxed and closed my eyes as if I had really fallen asleep.

Because I heard his opening the door before, I kept bending sideways, and there was a lot of space beside the bed.Xiao Ziqi lay down beside me carefully, and put his arms around my waist.

Although the air conditioner was turned on in the room, it was only [-] degrees Celsius. Maybe he was afraid of waking me up and didn't lift the quilt, even though I was wearing unlined clothes, I didn't feel cold.

I tried to ignore the hand on my body,

There is also the burning eyes on the other side, constantly hypnotizing that he is already asleep, and he doesn't know anything, and finally he really fell asleep.

When I woke up in the morning, the weather was fine, and I was the only one left in the room. The thick porcelain cup was safely placed on the table against the wall, and the bedside was cleaned up without even a single wrinkle.

I don't sleep well, I always kick the quilt and like to roll back and forth, if it wasn't for the obvious cover-up, I almost thought I was really dreaming last night.

The curtains are half open, and the leaves of the sycamore trees outside are shaking gently with the breeze, competing to cut strands of lively and warm sunlight.

I turned over and felt a small hard thing on the quilt, pulled it out and looked at it, it was a trademark that I hadn't had time to cut off.

Only then did I realize that not only the bedding, but also the tables, chairs and computers are brand new.

He said that his family members are all in Egggarson, and only one person is in Jiangcheng, so who is this room?

Xiao Ziqi... I really don't understand.

After I slowly put on my clothes, I took out my phone to check the time, 10:30!

I am really unqualified as a worker!But I made up my mind to resign last night, so it shouldn't matter, right?

What are you going to say later?I'm sorry, I don't think this job is suitable for me... Or do you suddenly want to go back to Ninghai for the New Year?

Walking out of the room with a messy head of straw, Xiao Ziqi was flipping through a magazine with a cup of coffee, and looked at me lightly, his emotions were well controlled, and there was no excessive enthusiasm on his face, "I made sandwiches and fried eggs, You can heat it up in the microwave and eat it."

I was so ashamed, "I'm sorry, I accidentally overslept."

He smiled slightly, "It's okay, just pay attention next time."

I decided to confess to him after brushing my teeth and washing my face. The toothbrush and towels are also new, and the toothpaste is my favorite mint flavor.

After washing my face, I accidentally got a lot of water droplets on my hair, which slowly slid down my temples.

I grinned and grimaced in front of the mirror. Inside was a fair and clean young man with a small mole on the tip of his brow, slightly raised corners of his eyes, and thin lips.

Because I have always adhered to the principle of "respect me, give you back", so I don't agree with ignorance.

However, there may be some fickleness. He always has a grudge against the people around him, and he is very small-minded and never allows betrayal. Once he finds out, he will stay away immediately.

After finishing his narcissism, he came out and found that Xiao Ziqi had closed the magazine, was leaning on the sofa and taking a nap, with some abnormal blush on his face.

"Xiao Ziqi?"

He responded with a heavy nasal voice, opened his eyes and said, "What's the matter?"

I hesitated, "Are you okay?"

He immediately sat up and denied, "No."

I put my hand on his forehead, "Hey, all hair

It burned and said it was okay... Do you have cold medicine at home? "

He looked at me softly, "Xiaobai, you care about me."

"You are still my boss now." I put away my hands resentfully, and followed yesterday's memory to find a first-aid kit in the cabinet, which really contained band-aids, painkillers and other medicines.

After finding out the cold medicine, he checked the expiration date, picked out a few pills, poured a glass of warm water and handed it to Xiao Ziqi.

After taking the medicine, he became less and less energetic, and his soft facial features became more relaxed, like a yawning but elegant noble cat.

I couldn't stand it anymore, "you'd better go to bed and rest."

He laughed, "Does Xiaobai want to escape while I'm going to sleep?"

When the plan was broken, I immediately felt guilty and raised my voice: "Why did I run away, you haven't paid me yet."

He looked at me deeply, then got up and entered the room.

Would it be too unkind to leave at this time?

A cold is not a serious illness, maybe it will be cured at night, and I can't help you if I stay here...

I sat on the sofa and turned the remote control, not knowing what to do.

I went to see Xiao Ziqi at noon, he fell into a deep sleep after taking the medicine, and I was too embarrassed to disturb him.

While he was sleeping, I took a serious look at his bedroom.

The wall is a melancholy dark blue, which feels oppressive and heavy. It is hard to imagine that people who seem to be cheerful and sunny will like this color tone.

There is also a picture album on the desk next to it. Thinking of the nude portrait by the small river in Ninghai, I can't help but want to look through it.Although I know it's immoral to spy on other people's privacy, but I gave him a hug yesterday, so what's the point of looking at his album?I just flipped it twice...

The content of the album was beyond my expectation. It was full of disorganized lines, and occasionally there were a few distorted faces, but it made people feel creepy.In memory, the painting is obviously pretty good, could it be that he has changed to the abstract route now?

I read one by one, and I couldn't help the goosebumps on my arms. When I turned to the last page, I actually saw myself again.

The drawing is a sketch, but the characters are drawn lifelike. The face looks much smaller than mine now. It should be when I was fourteen or fifteen years old, with a mischievous smile on my face. Unlike real people, there are two more people behind me. little wings.

Angel... In his eyes, I am an angel?This is too unbelievable, right?

Closing the picture book with complicated mood, I closed the door and walked out, sitting in the living room alone depressed.

I don't understand, I don't understand... I don't understand why he likes me, and I don't understand why he is so attached to me.

But I know I can't stay like this any longer, otherwise sooner or later I will become as neurotic as Xiao Ziqi.

The weather outside is so nice, so I'll take Xiaoha out for a walk.

He led Xiaoha around the neighborhood, and when he was about to go to the small park by the side of the road to rest, Xiaoha suddenly grabbed the chain and screamed.

A black car approached steadily from a distance, and came to an abrupt stop near us. Xiaoha rushed over with his tail wagging, lying on the car door and looking in the window.

When the car window came down, I raised my eyebrows unexpectedly, Xu Yifei?

Xu Yifei reached out and touched Xiaoha's head twice, then raised his eyes to look at me, "Why are you here?"

I pulled the chain, "Why can't I be here?" If I remember correctly, we only met twice, but why did he use such a direct questioning tone every time?As if we knew each other well...

He narrowed his eyes, pushed open the car door and walked out, glanced at the direction of Xiao Ziqi's house, then looked at Xiaoha who was around his feet, with a mocking sneer on the corner of his mouth, "You are Xiao Ziqi's pet now ?”