memory castration

I really like being with Yang Wenxiong, being the truest self without any worries, without any pressure and without any cover-up.I have tentatively asked him several times about his work, but he fudged it by talking about it.

It can be seen that he doesn't want to say more, and I don't want to keep asking.

We went to climb Wuji Mountain together on the weekend. On the way, a girl injured her ankle and asked for help. Yang Wenxiong carried her down without saying a word.

In the evening, he went to eat at a food stall, and when he came back, he gave all the change to the old woman begging on the side of the road.

I said, "What if it's a liar."

He laughed, "Maybe it's really difficult? Who knows about this kind of thing, anyway, I don't expect to get rich with these few dollars."

These two things have given me some comfort. I always firmly believe that a person who is kind in nature can't be bad.

Two days passed in a hurry, and I returned to Yanda again, and started a busy and orderly university life.

Ever since he asked for my mobile phone number, Xiao Ziqi has called me from time to time, and the most frequently asked questions are, "Xiao Bai, what are you doing all day long?"

I go to class during the day, work as a waitress in a coffee shop for three hours at night, and run around handing out leaflets on weekends. In real life, I can't compete with a nobleman like him.

Xiaomi's plastic surgery is scheduled for next spring, the price of the cafeteria is soaring like a plane, and the rent for grandma's relics in Ninghai has to be paid on time. Even if you get a scholarship, you can't guarantee your daily expenses...

I need money urgently, a lot of money.

Because I'm busy, I don't have much time to chat with people in the dormitory, but I can still know some of everyone's current situation.

For example, Phantom was paid to help people look at their faces but was warned by the school leader, a big guy fell in love with a third-year senior and spent every day on the basketball court to show off his muscles, Gay and Xu Yifei broke up after hearing that their personalities did not match...

After that incident, I have never seen Xu Yifei again. He is like the dazzling light of the moon surrounded by stars, and I am the humble dust on the ground. There is no and it is impossible for the two to have any communication.

Time hastened to the end of the year, and Jiangcheng rarely snowed in winter, but the air was damp and cold, and the cold air almost penetrated into the cracks in people's bones.

Everyone is happily discussing the topic of returning home during the winter vacation, but I don't have a clue in my heart.

Yang Wenxiong didn't have a holiday for the Spring Festival, so I wanted to stay in Jiangcheng. I hesitated and decided to stay and find a job.

After Xiao Ziqi knew my plan, he said: "My aunt is going back to celebrate the New Year, why don't you come and help me work, three meals a day, cleaning the room and walking the dog, the monthly salary is [-] including board and lodging plus Spring Festival benefits."

If there are no other conditions mixed in, the salary is really good. I was tempted, "Do you want to be assessed? You may not like my cooking."

He smiled and said, "No, I trust you."

I'm not even sure of myself, and you

What trust me?But I didn't say that, after all, he is the boss who will pay my salary in the future.

I didn't tell Yang Wenxiong the truth, I just said that I found a temporary job and would visit him if I had time.

On the last day before the holiday, Xiao Ziqi came to pick me up. After getting in the car, he shook my hand, "I don't wear so little, don't freeze my body to look handsome."

I immediately pulled my hand out to retort, "How can you exaggerate what you said, the ice in Ninghai can freeze more than one meter thick in winter, what is the coldness in Jiangcheng! When I was young, my grandma used to say that people are like iron lumps, and the colder they get, the harder they become. "

He was noncommittal and concentrated on driving.

I tilted my head and looked at him, "I declare in advance that I am only responsible for housework, and I will not sell myself."

He glanced at me, with a sad and charming look on his brows, "Don't worry, I won't do things that are forced. If I really want to do something to you, I wouldn't wait until today to do it."

After listening to his words, I relaxed slightly and asked, "Who is there in your family?"

"I'm the only one in Jiangcheng, and everyone else is in Egggarson."

"Egggarson, the city of romance, I heard it's very beautiful..."

"Want to go?"

"I don't want to for the time being," I shook my head, clenched my fists and made up my mind, "When I have money, I will travel all the places I want to go!"

Instead of mocking my dream, he chuckled lightly, "Come on."

I originally thought that Yang Wenxiong's house was luxurious enough, but I didn't expect Xiao Ziqi to be even more so, an independent two-story villa with a garden and swimming pool.

"Is it my job to clean outside too?"

"No, there will be regular mowing of the lawn and trees, it's winter and the swimming pool is just for show."

While talking, a big black dog suddenly sprang out from the side, it didn't meet Xiao Ziqi, but ran over to make out with me with its tongue out, as if we knew each other very well.

I stroked its head with my hand and wondered, "Is this your dog? Why do I feel like I've seen it somewhere?"

Xiao Ziqi raised the corner of his mouth, "Really, maybe it means that you have a fate."

After bidding farewell to Xiaoha, he took me to the second floor, pointed to the room on the right near the stairs and said, "This is your room, if you need anything, you can tell me directly."

The room is very clean, the desk and computer are brand new, the sheets and curtains are pure sky blue... I don't know if this is a coincidence, when I was in Ninghai High School, the landlord uniformly configured both of them to be blue blue, but the bed was not so soft back then, and the color was not as pretty as blue.

I lifted the box aside, opened the window, and found a tall white-skinned sycamore tree growing outside. The leaves had turned orange, and the leaves were sparsely swaying with the wind and making rustling sounds.

What a beautiful place, if I have a room like this in the future, I will completely belong to it

Your own house is fine.

Xiao Ziqi leaned lazily against the door, "I'm right next to you, if you don't like this one, I can change it with you."

"No, I like this place very much, thank you!" I scratched my head, "By the way, what should I call you in the future? Senior? Boss? Or young master like on TV?"

He smiled, "Just call me by my name."

Xiao Ziqi is not as difficult to serve as I expected, basically he eats what I do, and he is hardly picky about taste.

Every corner of the house is kept very clean. I wiped it with a white towel and found no dust, but since I have received money, I can't just sit idle and do nothing.

Xiao Ziqi sat on the balcony reading a book, occasionally raised his head to glance at me, and took the initiative to chat about irrelevant topics.

When I was cleaning the cabinet, I suddenly found a photo album in it. I flipped through it twice with curiosity, and I saw his childhood photos.

She has a round face, holding a toy like a shy and beautiful little girl. She can vaguely distinguish her current appearance from her facial features, but the impression she gives is quite different.The current Xiao Ziqi still looks gentle on the outside, but he feels like a cotton candy wrapped in steel needles... Maybe he will give you a fatal attack at any time.

When I buried myself in his privacy, a shadow suddenly fell over my head, "What are you looking at?"

I quickly closed the album, "Nothing!"

Xiao Ziqi forcibly took the photo album away from my arms, flipped through it twice and handed it to me, without expression, he said, "I thought these were lost a long time ago, but I didn't expect to keep them."

"Can I see it?"

"casual."

I opened it with great interest, and my gaze inadvertently stopped on one of the group photos, and I pointed at the young man next to Xiao Ziqi in surprise, "Is this person Xu Yifei?"

Xiao Ziqi nodded, "We were best friends back then."

It turns out that time has not only changed Xiao Ziqi, but also Xu Yifei. The boy in the photo has crooked smiling eyes and looks innocent. How can he be a bit cold and gloomy as I saw?

Looking all the way down, I found that there are quite a lot of photos of the two of them together, playing football, eating, participating in campus sports...their posture is intimate, and it seems that they are more than me and Yang Wenxiong.

But... I remember the last time in the bar, Xiao Ziqi took the initiative to greet Xu Yifei but he ignored him. The atmosphere between the two was strange and cold, not like friends at all.

"Your relationship is not very good now, is it?"

Xiao Ziqi didn't deny it, "Since two years ago, he seems to have changed suddenly, and we haven't contacted each other in private."

Friends turned against each other, so Xiao Ziqi must have offended him invisibly, right?Without thinking too much, I closed the album and put it in the cabinet.

In the evening I decided to take the dog named Xiaoha out for a walk, but Xiao Zi

Period also followed.

I asked, "Why are you here?"

He said, "I'm afraid you might get lost if you're not familiar with this place."

"Even if I get lost, there is still Xiaoha, right?"

"Wang Wang!"

I sat down on the grass, touched Xiaoha's neck and asked Xiao Ziqi, "How old is Xiaoha?"

He hesitated, "About four or five years old."

I asked unexpectedly, "Didn't you raise this dog from childhood?"

Xiao Ziqi said: "No, it has only been with me for two years."

"What about its original owner?" Such a good dog shouldn't be abandoned, right?It is impossible to raise such a big one as a gift.

He paused, and said calmly, "Dead."