prince meets king

He once loved someone, when he was young and frivolous.

Love knows no heights and depths, and I just want to hold all the best in front of that person.

He is naturally very beautiful, with a young body, lingering eyes, and even his breathing is a little sweet, so he will not be separated even for a moment.

So he left the stage where he was supposed to shine, interrupted the classical music he was studying, and went to a foreign country with such a lover who loves freedom.

Then, something happened.

In the society more than ten years ago, homosexuality was still a term that was so taboo that it could not be mentioned. He was immediately regarded as a disgrace to the family, not to mention that he was not as good as his elder brother, and walked a "deviant path" that the family did not presuppose.

For the first time, the young master tasted the sufferings of the world.

He is not actually afraid of these.He is not afraid of those malicious ridicules, barbed negligence, and strange eyes; he is not afraid of no tomorrow, poverty, hunger, hardship, and despair.He is not afraid.

When he loves someone, he can actually be very brave.What's more, he didn't know what fear was at that time.

Until that person lied to him.

When Duan Rong thinks back, he is always in a daze about that person's appearance, and he can't even remember that period of time, but he still remembers that feeling.

The first time I knew what it was like when he was promiscuous.

How it felt when I first saw him taking drugs.

The first time I was forced to ask my family for money by a lover who wanted to die.

What it felt like to be fed LSD for the first time.

It was the first time someone knocked on the door in the middle of the night and cut open the vein with a sharp knife so that the big brother on the other side of the phone would give me money...

Even though Duan Rong couldn't remember clearly, she still felt very cold when she closed her eyes.

The coldness of being abandoned by the world, left by the side of the road, and left with nothing.He had never been afraid before.But it turned out that he was not afraid of the depressing present and the future that would not exist, but he was afraid that when he reached out his hands, he would not be able to hold those tender and silent hands.

Even, that hand holds a knife in his hand.

I want to cut his life away in exchange for a little white powder.

Then all the coldness becomes meaningless.If there is no warmth or coldness, it is not worth being brave for it.

So he surrendered, surrendered, failed.His bravery deserves no credit.along with his love.

He was taken home to detox, and took longer to heal a disorienting heartache.

He had let his family down once, and probably even more so now.It's just that they have experienced a complete loss nakedly, so that their requirements are reduced to only - as long as he lives, as long as he is willing.

Whether in the cabinet or outside the cabinet.

But such tolerance, together with the best psychotherapists, does not seem to be able to cure him.

Duan Rong knew that he was not sick, but that he was missing. There was a piece of his heart missing, and he couldn't be the upright and brave young man he once was, who was warm just by looking at him.

But how eagerly he wants to fill the gap, how eagerly he wants to love.He became so cowardly again, not hiding in the armor of power, he always felt that he would be crushed again at some point.

He was already strong enough back then.He can write hurt songs, and thus understand how to make people warm.But he can't lie to himself if he deceives others.

So love naturally becomes a money game.

His lovers smiled, loved in their mouths, fell asleep, took them, and left, and said coldly behind their backs, they were very dirty.

He stood tall, deserved to say, very dirty.

He just wanted a soft and pure feeling that he had in his memory.Maybe this has never appeared in his life, but at least it should be strong enough to give people a little longing for eternity.However, there are many people who are weaker than him, because everyone has very little, and it is even more pitiful compared with him. What do they use to spend on a person like him.

He is so glamorous.

It's just that no one will see it even if it's bleeding.

He, too, slowly forgot about it, as if he was supposed to.Expediency has become expediency, frequently changing the person next to the pillow, always remembering to end the curtain decently and politely before the knife is stretched out.Sometimes I also think by accident that I used to walk so fast in pursuit of something, but when I turned around, I forgot what that thing was.

Then he met him.

A treatise on the monarchy seems familiar.

Anyway, I don't know why, it seems deja vu.It seems that they have rubbed shoulders in a foreign country where people come and go.Of course, it doesn't matter.Hunting beauty is important.He knew he meant it, and that was enough.He is not afraid that he will not be hooked, he can make people fall in love easily.

It's all on track.

But after Fat Fish took the bait, everything went off the rails. He flicked his small tail fin and slapped him hard: It's time to wake up!

While busy catching him, Duan Rong was enlightened and looked over: I... what am I doing? !

He took him home.

Of course, sometimes Duan Rong is a little puzzled when he sees the fish swimming in front of him with great vigor, occupying his sofa, his house, his fish tank, and his passbook card.

The fish spitting bubbles against his nose as a matter of course: Yours is mine, of course!

Duan Rong was a little confused for a moment: Is that all?

Yu continued to flick his small tail fin and slapped him hard: Of course!Who else do you want to find!You can see the end of your life like this at a glance!

Duan Rong held him in the water and watched him circling around him, and suddenly realized that it seemed that in an instant, he got everything he wanted.

Strong, righteous, warm.

A so so good love.

Is it that simple?

Weeping with joy, he became anxious again.

Because he is not worthy.

He has had so many dirty things.

One by one, he was stripped away, in front of his most important people.

That feeling is too uncomfortable, as long as his dark side has not been stripped away, he will always be waiting for the final judgment, and he cannot find peace.

And the fish is too calm.He knew it was because he was treating him well, but he was so cheap that he couldn't believe it.Obviously there are better people who love him.

Perhaps, more subconsciously, there might be a knife hidden in that calm fin...

But at that time, he was not afraid anymore.This is always the case when Duan Rong falls in love. He is only afraid that one day the fish will no longer swim around in front of him with pride, occupying his sofa, his house, his fish tank, his passbook card, and even his account book. .

So he can only cover it.

He opened his mouth but couldn't speak.

He was terrified but couldn't stay.

getting more and more panicked...

Until finally waking up to see that note and see the family doctor.

He is so happy.

He was stripped naked at last, and what awaited him at that moment was not punishment.In the end, Gu Donglin didn't have a knife, he only had soft fins that could wake him up with a slap.

such love.He can have it, and he can have it from now on.He finally fell to the bottom of the valley, and he will not fall again, and it will only be better in the future.

But Gu Donglin...but it's like this, gone.

Duan Rong couldn't find him, nor anywhere.

The doctor said that he went to find Xie Yuan, but he couldn't find Xie Yuan either.He does not have this power.His eldest brother seemed to know something, but said nothing.It took three days before anyone thought of notifying him.He was taken to a place he had never been to or even heard of, and looked at him through the glass window of the sterile room.

He took a bullet for Xie Yuan, and he might not be able to stand up again from then on.

The cracked steel plate left a big gash on the stomach, bleeding profusely, and almost the whole stomach was pulled out when it was brought in for surgery.

The most important thing is a severe concussion.

I can't wake up, no matter how I scream, I can't wake up.

He had his pulse cut three times in ten days.

Xie Yuan leaned on crutches and said that if Xiaoqi woke up and couldn't see you, what would he do?

Duan Rong never tried again.

He asked himself: Are you really afraid that you will part with him forever?

Will not.Duan Rong knew very well that the answer was no.He is not afraid, because there will not be such a long distance.

Then he has fallen to the bottom, it will not be worse, it will only be better.

He explained the funeral to his family.

He said that if one day his electrocardiogram became a straight line, then he would not be alive.

He said the child was unfilial.

He said goodbye.

The family is still... There is no way.

But he didn't expect Duan Rong to be more like a man than before.

He actively received treatment, and quietly accompanied the silent person. He slowly learned to cook soup and porridge. own stomach.Sometimes when I think about it, I still go to pick up my children to and from school, but I seldom go to the house, as if I am afraid that the old man will be sad when he sees him.

He seems to have been waiting all his life, but he rarely waits for the right time.Either the wrong time and place, or the wrong person.This time, no matter what the result is, it will be a very good result for him.

He knew that he held a pair of hands that would never be let go.

It doesn't matter who is domesticated by whom.

The last note that Gu Donglin gave him was written: ... You think you love first, and I will eat you, but it is not like that.I surround you with two hands, no matter what you were before, it will be like this in the future, because there are no more hands to hold others...

What a love.

It turned out that it was not bestowed by others, but he encircled it with his hands.

Then he is willing to wait, wait a little longer...

When Gu Donglin woke up, it was already ten months later.Duan Rong watched him open his eyes, but didn't even have time to react.Many doctors rushed in, holding out their five fingers for him to recognize.

They used to reason about good fortune and providence when he asked.So now they come to verify this good fortune and providence.

Even though the fish was lying on the bed, it slapped them hard with its tail fin: Use Arabic numerals to verify the order of my soul! Are you fuck kidding! Only diamond can cut diamond!

The doctor turned his head to him seriously and said: No big problem.Good luck.

He was already weeping with joy.

He has many, many things that he wants to tell him personally.

"I also have a lot of important things to tell you!" Gu Donglin naturally grabbed his hand, with an expression of extreme shock on his face, "I had a long dream! I dreamed that my student became an Egyptian pharaoh. Alexander's Pharos Lighthouse killed Caesar! Fuck! Then he exiled Cleopatra, annexed Antony's fleet, and defeated Octavian in the Battle of Actium, according to the Second Punic War Hannibal His marching route started from New Carthage, Spain, crossed the Alps to attack the Apennines, and he fucking won! He won! He took down the whole of Italy, from the Alps to Sicily, burned the Senate, and painted all SPQR Drop! Just force Octavian to join the Celtics in Gaul, okay! Follow Alexander the Great’s marching route to defeat Asia Minor, and wait for more than ten years to spy on Jesus Christ in the cowshed! Fuck! If he wants to destroy the entire Western civilization, he will leave Greece to play with the applause! You go and see, is the history correct! Has Egypt ruled the world!"