As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

I was so sleepy, my upper and lower eyelids were already fighting, and my legs seemed to have no bones. I just hugged Dazai's arm all the way, and then let him walk in with his arms around me. The more I stepped into this mansion, the more I felt He became more and more sleepy, as if someone had cast a sleeping spell on him.I wondered in a daze, if I fell asleep like this, would there be a kiss of true love to wake me up?

The aroma in the room is lingering, lightly rushing into my senses. In the middle of the room, a woman with long black straight hair who looks like a loose nightgown is lazily leaning on the sofa. She seems to have expected our visit. Her His gaze fell on me, with a mysterious smile on his face.

"We meet again." Her voice was as soft as a black cat.

"Hello." Speaking of which, I still don't know her name.

As if seeing through my thoughts, she closed her eyes and smiled.

"Names are important things," she said. "Do you remember your own name?"

"...Inai Mimi."

"I suggest that it is better to use the original name." She said, "The name can also be said to be a kind of eloquence, it is better to be cautious."

I nodded half-understood-is this asking me to use my original name?

She smiled softly, put the pipe by the table, and asked us: "So... what is your wish?"

When I entered her room just now, I still felt clear for a few minutes, but when she asked me this question, I felt drowsy again.My concept of time has been blurred, and I can't tell what time it is. In addition, after extra tossing at night, my spirit and body are both weak, and I just want to fall asleep immediately.

It's too embarrassing to just sleep with your eyes closed like this outside.

"Sorry." Dazai said softly, "My lover is not feeling well, can I borrow a place from you for her to rest for a while?"

"Of course it doesn't matter." The woman told the two children who had just led the way: "You can go to the next room."

"Thank you very much." Dazai kept a polite smile, but refused to let go of me and handed me over to others, he said, "I'll accompany you there."

I nodded, if he hadn't held me up, I might have fallen straight down.

There was absolutely nothing wrong with this unusual tiredness.

It's completely different from the usual feeling of sleep deprivation.

I was even afraid that if I closed my eyes, I would never wake up again.

Dazai accompanied me to the next room, and he gently put me on the bed.As soon as I thought of him leaving my side, I subconsciously grabbed his sleeve and asked him, "Will it take a long time?"

He kissed me comfortingly on the corner of my brow.

"I'll be back soon." He said, "Yi Jun just needs to sleep comfortably, and all problems will be solved."

"it is good."

I believe in him.

In the dimly lit room, I fell into a deep sleep.

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People always remember more deeply what they have lost, but in the mind of a person like Osamu Dazai whose memory is so strong that it can only be used to torture himself, he compares what he has gained with what he has lost, and finally finds that he still lost it More.

Just like now, he looks more relaxed than anyone else, and he is more graceful than anyone else, but this is the protective color of the debt-ridden heart hidden under the body after many trials and hardships.

Even the arc of the young man's squinted eyes is so comfortable that it seems calculated.

He said, "I'm sorry to disturb you so late, Miss Dimensional Witch."

But despite his seemingly flawless performance, today is not the day to prolong the conversation.

"I've been thinking about where the problem lies..." Dazai suddenly started talking to himself, "It turns out that I overlooked a very important point."

Ichihara Yuko didn't interrupt him either, she didn't make a concluding speech until Dazai finished speaking.

"Looks like you've figured it out."

Dazai said with a cheeky smile, "Then please fulfill my wish, and the reward will be paid to you after I get that thing."

To Dazai, Yuko Ichihara just said:

"—Then, please follow me."

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……

Osamu Dazai came to the subway station again.

Unlike watching memories, this time he is the real party involved.

"Sure enough, the memory I saw in the crystal is the future 'Dazai Osamu'." He started walking according to his own walking route in memory.

The memory seen in the memory crystal is what happened in the future Dazai Osamu who used the power of the Dimensional Witch to go to the world of Wuyi in order to get this book.

Even though he had already guessed something, this matter was outrageous even in Dazai Osamu's view.

He came to the convenience store at the station in his memory, and stood at the checkout waiting for Iori at this point in time.The feeling of watching the memory is completely different from the feeling of experiencing it in person now. The blurred images in the memory are clearly arranged like a mosaic, and the buzzing in the ear has also become the noise of people talking.

In his memory, he could not feel temperature, cold or heat.

Now he knows that it is actually quite cold today, that's why Mu Yishi is wearing a sheepskin buttoned coat. The lights of the subway station are white mixed with muddy yellow light. When these lights hit her face, Dazai feels that he will Will always remember this scene.

Everything that follows is a reenactment in memory.

He will always remember the voice of Wu Yishi saying "thank you" to him in the windless air, remembering that she honestly told her troubles to a stranger in the restaurant where the sound of food was floating, and remembering that she bent down to go into the suitcase The hair hanging down while holding the book covered half of the face with a childish appearance, remembering the appearance when she presented the book to him in unproficient Japanese.

He remembers saying, "Let me give you a ride."

It turned out that his own voice was like this at this time.

——like the last fault sound of a broken communicator being tied to a stone and sinking to the bottom of the sea.

What happened next was the same as in memory.

He stood not far from the platform, watching the staff skillfully handle this type of crash case, transporting, cleaning, and arranging the restart time of the track.Dazai didn't look away.No one knew what he was thinking until the train resumed running, and the passers-by who saw him motionless from a distance realized a sad story hidden in it.

Maybe it's because the young man's temperament is too unique, causing passers-by to ask: "... Is this someone you know?"

As if guarding a grand secret, the curtain was closed by the chaotic vocals and the piercing scream of the train restarting sliding on the track.

Dazai stood in the waiting area, the roaring trains covering his voice when he answered.

"—is my lover."

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"Now, all the mysteries are solved."

Dazai returned to Ichihara Yuko's store again. In the subspace of the store, the young man holding a pure white book opened the book, tore off a page again, and handed over the whole book.

A "book" from another dimension - this is the price he paid to the dimensional witch.

"It is impossible for two books to exist in the world I live in at the same time, but in this store that does not completely overlap with my world, this book from another world can exist without being affected." Dazai said with a wry smile: "It can be said It is easy to understand, simple and crude truth."

Wu Yishi was taken away when the memory crystal was extracted, so when he touched the crystal, he saw the picture of the future Osamu Dazai going to the world of Mu Yishi to meet her.

And without the power of the pages, she would naturally be unable to maintain her existence in this world, so the solution is very simple and clear—find new pages to fill in, so where do the pages come from?Of course it was from the book of Noisy.

It's a wonderful cycle.

Dazai held up the thin piece of paper in his hand, and asked: "As long as this page is reintegrated into her body, everything will be over, right?"

"Yes, but..." Yuko Ichihara kept a secret, "There will be some side effects."

"Is it good or bad?"

The Dimensional Witch's slender fingers pressed against her lower lip——

"I think it's a good change."

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My consciousness sank into the water again, and the water above pressured me so that I could not move, pouring into my body from my ears and nose.I clearly understand that I am in a dream, but I have never heard of anyone drowning in a dream. Was Sleeping Beauty still conscious when she fell into a deep sleep?If so, it would be too painful, day after day to be awake but unable to wake up, unable to feel the world that made her happy.

There was a dry, soft touch on the forehead, and this warm feeling touched the heartstrings.Immediately afterwards, the skin on the cheeks received the same encouragement.I seem to be rolled up by the waves of the seabed, not the waves in the storm, but like being attracted by the hazy moonlight, it turns into a warm aftermath and pushes me ashore.

Finally, a superficial kiss fell on the lips.

As if being called, I opened my eyes.

I was sleeping on the bed in our house, the sky was already bright, and the gray light broke into the window of the room, stepping on the tatami wantonly.Amidst this ignorant light, Dazai's kite-colored eyes were staring at him full of emotions.

It was a cautious look with restlessness and hope, but it glowed in the dark.

That feeling of uncertainty seemed to be revealed at this moment.

"……You're back."

I hold my breath.

His voice seemed to tremble—

"The only thing that can awaken Sleeping Beauty is the kiss of true love."

My heart seemed to be hit by something, and I couldn't recover.I finally remembered that I still had to breathe, I adjusted my breath, and reached out to hold the hem of his jacket. He was slightly startled, then smiled across his face, lowered his head and kissed me again.

At the same time, the uneasiness in our midst was finally swept away in the interlacing of breaths.

I held his shoulders, and the scattered thoughts were firmly gathered at this moment. He reached out his hand from the gap between the bed and the back of my neck, and then lifted up to support the back of my head——

The heavy happiness finally landed and surrounded us.

The author has something to say:

Finish.

To make a digression, I passed my second subject!happy!The end of the text also just broke the 6k income, double happy

Stick to the daily update until the end, I am awesome!

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Then I saw yesterday that you actually have thoughts about the feelings of these two people and the rational part of them. Let me share my thoughts. It just so happens that the main text is over (I have a lot more to say, Take a look if you are patient)

Statement first, statement first, this is not my personal stamped reading comprehension, but some thoughts in writing.The impressions and experiences that each of you get from reading the text are different, and your own impressions from reading the text shall prevail.

Well, first of all, it is different from the perspective of two people.

Ayi clearly knows that her feelings are love, so what she hopes to get is a response of love, and then slowly add other feelings to the tone of love in the process of getting along.

But for Dazai, this is a very complex emotion that covers love and other emotions, and then he extracts the emotion of "love" from this complex emotion.

They are reversed in the steps of emotional changes, so there will be a temperature difference for everyone.

Therefore, the performance of the two people is different in terms of needs.

Ayi's final demand is very simple, I like you so I hope you like me too.

Dazai is more complicated.

The reason why it is said that Dazai extracted the feeling of "love" from this series of complex feelings towards Ai is because he has been talking about such a problem with his friends before.

Does Dazai understand love, can he love, or when he really falls in love with someone, can he clearly realize it?

My personal understanding is that he definitely has this kind of feeling, but for him, this kind of feeling is mixed among all kinds of feelings, a kind of strange experience.

He can realize "I seem to be in love with someone" through his own wisdom, but he will avoid his strange feelings, or express this feeling in other ways.

So compared to saying "I love you" (I think for him, these words really need courage and break through the psychological barrier), his emotional appeal is directly crossed to the next step-that is, I hope that forever to be with you.

As for why Dazai seems very rational, it is mainly because No.1 of this article stated that it is all from Ayi’s perspective, and it will be easier to get closer to Ayi in terms of emotional resonance.

I think the one who is really sober is Ayi. In this relationship, she is very clear about what she wants, what she can get, and what she may lose. It is only because she is used to forbearance that she looks like the one who puts all her eggs in one basket.

For Dazai, liking someone who may disappear at any time, and being willing to reach out to grab her, willing to bear the pain of possible loss, and even willing to let the relationship know that there are so many uncertainties buried in it. Even more advanced, each "willing" is already a very irrational behavior-this is against his cowardly habits.

Therefore, when Ayi will never disappear again and all the problems are solved, he can show his possessiveness unscrupulously.

Next, I will be working for ten consecutive days... bless me, I will try my best to post the episode!

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