run to him

Jing Ye is still struggling with whether the story behind the emoji is as he thought. Outside the window, in a residential building less than 200 meters away in a straight line, Lin Chan is wiping her hair and turning off the lights in the corridor.

Grandma's advice came from the bedroom: "Go to bed early, don't play with your phone, and you have to go to the studio tomorrow."

"Understood." Lin Chan pulled the door, "You also watch two less TV episodes."

He closed the bedroom door, dried his hair in a mess, and without tidying up, he stuffed the hair dryer into the cabinet.Then Lin Chan straightened up, and habitually stood in front of the window for a while.

A wind blew up at night, and sticky moisture trickled into the bedroom through the open window, dispelling a little warmth.

When the leaves of the tall camphor tree shake, the voice is hoarse. After listening to it for a long time, maybe the late night has aggravated the growth of negative emotions, and occasionally there is an illusion of who is whimpering.

The residential building was neither far nor near, Lin Chan stood at the window and could see the light leaking from the edge of the fourth floor.

A certain person's disheveled expression during dinner, in fact, he caught it all in his eyes.Lin Chan also felt Jing Ye's reaction, including the initiative to show favor while washing the dishes.

Jing Ye may have finally discovered the misunderstanding between them, but that's not the reason to "forget it".

Isn't his three years three years?

Misunderstanding can shake hands and make peace, so what about feelings?What about the unknowing heartbeat?

Can it just disappear without a trace?

Lin Chan sometimes thinks that the time is really strange, earlier or later, it can't be called just right - earlier, his love and hatred for Jing Ye haven't fermented to the highest point, and he won't be brooding about it till now.And a little later, he had already started to make preparations to abandon this person and the hazy first love that failed in the past.

"Why are you coming back now?" Lin Chan was thinking, her dark eyebrows and eyes were like a gloomy sea, "You appeared again when I decided to go another way and like others in the future."

Pain came from the palm of her hand, Lin Chan lowered her head and found that she had habitually pinched herself again at some point.

He let go hastily, and the fingerprints turned from white to red and swelled slightly near the palm lines.After just a few seconds, the redness disappeared, leaving several scars in the shape of a crescent.

But these aren't real scars, and they're gone in half an hour without even waking up.

Perhaps to Jing Ye, their so-called "love" in a small way is similar to fingerprints.It was there, with some impressive perceptions, but it didn't take long for it to disappear completely.

It's all his wishful thinking.

Even though she clearly understands that it's not all Jing Ye's fault, Lin Chan is still deeply involved in it, and has been confused for three years.

Because for Lin Chan, being called "first love" is indeed too wronged.It was an accident to like Jingye, but it seems to have developed within reason after being nourished by the care of a steady stream.

When he was 15 years old, he was at a loss for the nonchalant message that Jing Ye sent back after two or three months.

Now he's almost there.

Lin Chan stretched and turned off the lamp.The bedroom was filled with darkness, and after adapting to the night, she could see the outline clearly, and Lin Chan's eyes reflected the distant warm color dimly.

He picked up a photo frame from the corner of the desk—it’s become rare to save photos in this era—with the brightly colored buildings of Foreigner Street as the background, he held up a pink cotton candy, and the boy beside him with his arms around his shoulders was grinning. Out of sight.

Lin Chan nodded at the boy's face with a faint smile.

"You came here by yourself this time, brother."

The development of Lin Chan's character has a great relationship with Lin Fangfei's special education method.

Lin Fangfei is a single mother, and Lin Chan never heard any mention of Lin Chan's birth.Who is his father, what occupation, and why he chose to separate from Lin Fangfei, Lin Chan has no idea.

Lin Fangfei's education method is to let him develop. Tell Lin Fangfei what he likes, and she will try her best to provide Lin Chan with the best.

In the absence of his father, he learned self-protection at a young age, and matured much faster than his peers.Sometimes Lin Chan would wonder whether this kind of over-stocking education gave him too many opportunities to get in touch with the world outside the family, so he discovered that his sexual orientation was wrong so early.

Lin Chan was in junior high school when she confessed her sexual orientation to Lin Fangfei.

The reason was that Lin Fangfei received a call from the head teacher and told her in a serious tone that Lin Chan was very close to a girl in the class, that she was too young to be in a puppy relationship, and hoped that the parents would take responsibility.

Lin Fangfei directly mentioned it to Lin Chan, and asked him, "What's going on?"

Lin Chan hesitated for a moment, and told the truth without any experience in lying: "That's not the case, I like boys."

This answer is enough to detonate a family war for ordinary parents, but Lin Fangfei didn't know that she was mentally prepared, or she was very open about these things, so she was silent on the phone for a while, and said, "Have you thought about it yet?"

"Thought it out," Lin Chan said.

Lin Fangfei obviously knew her son well enough, she answered "I know", then she took up her mother's airs and said to him seriously: "Whether you like boys or girls, mother hopes that you like a good person. "

Lin Chan still remembers that phone call. In the evening of spring, the setting sun was slowly sinking from among the tall buildings.

His heart jumped for joy.

Since Lin Chan entered junior high school, Lin Fangfei never asked him about his studies, and even less had the opportunity to have long talks with him, such as the final exam and the goal of life.They are a pair of mother and son who seem to be at odds with each other, and each other has expressed a 12-point habit of this estranged and polite way.

Strictly speaking, Lin Chan loves his mother, and Lin Fangfei also loves him very much, but they chose not to entrust this family affection thicker than water under the same roof, nor entrust it with meticulous care.

Whatever you want, I'll give it if I can. Otherwise, do what you like to do by yourself.

Enough space, enough respect.

Lin Fangfei was busy with work, and she made a new boyfriend after Lin Chan entered high school.Lin Chan didn't have any objection to his mother's decision. He got in touch with that uncle and got along well.

But when Lin Fangfei asked him if he wanted to live together, Lin Chan still refused.

If the long-standing distance between mother and child is broken now, and he is at the end of puberty and emotionally unstable, it is hard to say what troubles will arise.

Lin Chan thought that choosing to continue living in the sandy area with his grandparents, apart from the convenience of going to school, maybe it was because he was still looking forward to something happening, such as Jing Ye finally returning to this city.

For him, Jing Ye is an easy object to fall in love with.

Among the few friends who have known each other for a long time, Jing Ye takes care of him the most, and loves to take him around to find delicious and fun things. Depending on how old he is, he treats him like a younger brother and pets him, and his nagging becomes cute——When love first begins, watch Everyone else is the same, only Jing Ye, under the gray winter sky, is like a sparkling diamond, illuminating half the world when he smiles.

Lin Chan thought that he deliberately avoided the feelings of childhood sweetheart and above, but he still couldn't escape.

This kind of relationship begins with physical contact, awakens at the germination of puberty, and gradually ferments a strong possessive desire and quiet desire when the other party casually says "like" from time to time.

He made a clumsy layout, using Jing Ye's words, hoping to bind the other party with "first love" after saying "like", and then spend a long time to let Jing Ye understand his childish intentions.

But with Jing Ye's departure, the plan that hadn't even started had a disastrous failure.

When Yu Zhou was still a child, he said indignantly that he would clean up someone irresponsible for him. Only Lin Chan knew that he planned it for a long time, but failed to achieve the desired result.

Fortunately, Jing Ye appeared in his world again.

And they can still meet each other's close distance after walking two steps.

"Lin Chan, hey, Lin Chan!"

The arm was pushed, Lin Chan came back from a short daze, looked at Zhang Xiaotu's eyes full of gossip, blinked and asked, "What?"

"It's your turn." Zhang Xiaotu pointed to the front of the studio.

Zhang Xiaotu—her original name is Zhang Jiahui, but because of her pair of rabbit teeth, she was nicknamed this kindly by her classmates in the studio—she rested her cheeks on her hands, and the pencil almost poked her own sketch, tilting her head: "You are prone to be in a daze recently. , did you lose your mind when you met Teacher Chi's boyfriend last time you sketched?"

"No."

"Well, if you say no, then there is no." Zhang Xiaotu turned his head and glanced ahead, and got down to business, "Hand in your homework and go to Brother Lin, I think you will be scolded by Teacher Chi."

"He won't scold me." Lin Chan said nonchalantly.

The school does not specifically arrange intensive training for art students. Every year in the spring semester of the second year of high school, art students like Lin Chan will start to find their own studios for closed training.

Lin Chan's training studio is called "Tao Yi", which is small in scale. The two bishop teachers are both young but rich in experience. The studio's results in the first two years are gratifying, and he took a lot of effort when signing up.

After entering the third year of high school, there will be three to four days a week for the final training in the studio to prepare for the winter entrance exam.

In autumn, a young male teacher came to the studio. He was an outstanding student, graduated from a top art school in China, and his professional achievements were among the best.Male teachers are rare animals in Taoyi Studio. Zhang Xiaotu and other girls were excited in private for a long time. After discovering that the new teacher has a good temper, blushes and is easy to bully, he teamed up with the other two teaching assistants to tease him.

Lin Chan has a good impression of this young and gentle teacher, and even bought milk tea for him.

Because of the failure of the previous "relationship", after meeting Chi Nian, Lin Chan had the urge to use another person to get out of the shadows for no reason.But after sketching last time, some unclear feelings were quickly cut into chaos by him.

Chi Nian has his own heart, but what about him?

Trapped in the shackles of "Jing Ye is back" and unable to get out.

Holding the sketch, Lin Chan stood beside Chi Nian, scrutinizing his expression: frowning, the corners of his mouth were tense, as if he was not satisfied - maybe he was about to be scolded.

Chi Nian clamped the sketch to the base, looked up at him: "Not in good condition?"

Lin Chan didn't tell the truth: "Recently I have insomnia."

Chi Nian stared at him with a pair of slightly round eyes, and didn't believe this casually fabricated excuse at all: "Insomnia? Look at the messy lines and structures. I don't need you to deal with it, understand?"

Lin Chan's cheeks were slightly red, she was ashamed: "...OK."

"If you really encounter any unhappiness, psychological problems and so on... You see," Chi Nian said here, pointing to a boy in the corner of the studio with a pencil, "Yesterday I cried for a long time with Teacher Tao, and I lost my love."

"I'm not broken in love, don't take it too seriously."

"... Just an example." Chi Nian smiled helplessly, "The teachers are still very concerned about your mental health. If there is no place to cry at home, it would be embarrassing at school. Welcome to our place to make a fuss."

Lin Chan pursed her lips: "Before you care about my mental health, you should take care of your own affairs first."

"Ah?" Chi Nian was taken aback.

Lin Chan twitched her eyebrows pointingly, without making a sound, she mouthed: "Your boyfriend, are you reconciled?"

The studio was quiet, except for the occasional coughing, the only sound left was the rustling of charcoal pencils on paper.A corner of the curtain was blown by the wind, Chi Nian embarrassedly avoided Lin Chan's overly straightforward gaze, and even pretended to be fierce:

"Children worry so much... What do you see, hurry up and draw a picture, a piece of plaster and a still life, if you can't finish painting, don't leave today!"

"Oh." Lin Chan dragged her voice, not afraid at all, "It's so fierce——"

With the movement of the white curtains, the wind and sunlight flooded into the studio together, covering up the sourness that was almost flooding just now.