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Talking and sharing gossip, after chatting for a few minutes, the topic was taken away by Yu Zhou, who obviously didn't want to be the center of the discussion.Although they are all young and do not see outsiders, emotional issues are private after all, and it is one thing for him to be willing to discuss with others. He was pulled into the middle by Dou Shuang as if holding a symposium. Uncomfortable and hurried away, urging everyone to play Werewolf.

Jing Ye was insensitive to these games and didn't participate. He wanted to find a reason to slip away but was forcibly locked in the living room.

He yawned continuously, seeing Lin Chan's expression lacking interest even though he was in the middle of the game.In normal times, Jing Ye would have to run over to hook up, and then find other things to do with Lin Chan—play games online, chat, find a movie to watch, and even if it’s not good enough, they can have some takeaway barbecue together.

But he didn't dare to approach at all today, he was terrified by Lin Chan, and he was also afraid that if he approached again, his reaction would be out of control.

This is also the biggest confusion for Jing Ye.

It is known that Lin Chan likes men, so she reacts a little to his touch. Whether she accepts it or not is another matter, at least it is understandable and logical.As a... self-identified as a male-to-female person, he has lived for 20 years, although he has never really been attracted to any opposite sex... and common sense tells him that his body's reaction is often very honest.

Wait a minute, this is not right.

Jing Ye rubbed his face hard, as if he found out where the problem was, he raised his head in surprise.

Just in time for Lin Chan to glance at him inadvertently, Jing Ye's heart trembled, and the other party moved away calmly.

On the TV, the heroine of the idol drama is venting her anger at the hero:

"Don't think I don't know what you're thinking!"

"You don't have feelings for her, okay, so you hugged each other for warmth?"

"Don't tell me about your brothers and sisters, don't you have any ghosts in your heart?!"

... Even the TV series bullied him!

Jing Ye tuned the TV to another channel without making a sound, and it was a rebroadcast of the New Year's Eve party.He looked at it absent-mindedly for a while, then stretched his waist pretending to be okay: "Jiang Datou, I can't take it anymore, I think..."

"Lin Chan also said that she doesn't want to play anymore, so you two should rest, let's play mahjong."

Jing Ye looked around: "Do you have mahjong at home?"

Jiang Ziyi said cheerfully: "Mobile Mahjong, it's convenient to send money in the WeChat group."

Yu Zhou: "Want to learn? Teach you."

Jing Ye shook his head: "No, I don't have enough brains today."

Dou Shuang didn't know which word he hit, and he laughed so hard that he almost connected with the ladder and stone stack: "I don't have enough brains, I have to learn, why don't you stay here and watch us play? Xiaolin and you too, sit next to Yuzhou. A Chongqing native doesn’t know how to play mahjong and tell others whether they believe it or not.”

Amid devilish laughter, Jing Ye grabbed a cushion and stuffed it into his arms, then sank into the sofa with only one pair of eyes exposed, staring blankly at the upcoming mahjong game.

He doesn't want to play mahjong, and he doesn't want to play Werewolf.

The information was overloaded, and now Jing Ye just wanted to find a bed to sleep in, so as not to face Lin Chan's vague eyes.I didn't think it before, but ever since that inexplicable desire appeared, Jing Ye always felt that Lin Chan's eyes seemed to have hooks, flirting with him, flirtatiously hooking out some unknown secrets.

Jing Ye was instinctively afraid, lest he find out...he didn't even know himself.

With a few pairs of eyes staring at him now, Jing Ye thought to himself that he might not be able to sleep anyway if he went to the bedroom, at least everyone is there, so he won't do anything embarrassing...

so be it.

There were four people playing mahjong. Lin Chan sat next to Yu Zhou with a serious expression, as if she had really started to learn.

Is it that fun?Jing Ye slandered secretly, awkwardly took out his mobile phone to find someone to play games with.It's just this point, after searching around, I either fell asleep or didn't have time, and in the end I had to go for a match.

He made a mistake in the operation, was killed by the opponent several times in a row at the beginning of the game, and was sprayed by his teammates. The sofa beside him suddenly sagged, and he smelled the faint smell of alcohol, so he didn't need to guess to know that it was Lin Chan.

Strange to say, he was able to recognize Lin Chan immediately when everyone drank the same wine.Just like so many people wearing the same school uniform, in his eyes, Lin Chan stood out the most.

"Stop studying?" Jing Ye said.

Lin Chan didn't answer, she just pretended nothing happened and stood next to him, watching the operation of his mobile phone screen.

Jing Ye was extremely aggrieved.

He likes black and white, even if he knows it's impossible, but Lin Chan is unpredictable, as if he has lost his temper with him, if he really wants to investigate, Lin Chan doesn't play charades, and readily admits or denies ——Histing his fist into the cotton, Jing Ye always has nothing to do with him.

The rushing blood calmed down, and Lin Chan sat down beside him, her breathing rhythm was inexplicably disordered, and her whole body began to feel hot again.

The thought of "If I like Lin Chan" came to mind for the third time.

The first time was full of regret, the second time was overly excited, but this time it seemed to be more serious than ever.

Wanna give it a try...?

The moment a few words appeared in his mind, Jing Ye was in a daze, and then his hips were a little stretched during the operation, and a slender finger was suddenly stretched across and poked his mobile phone screen.

"Other people are almost out of your afterimage." Lin Chan said, pushed Jing Ye away, snatched his mobile phone lightly, and followed the trend to operate. Although he was in a panic, he escaped.

He didn't intend to return Jing Ye's phone, so he continued to call without looking up: "Giving it to Li Bai's face, you really know how to play."

"Are you really good?" Jing Ye retorted unconvinced, thinking about winning or losing, and briefly put aside the past grievances to watch Lin Chan's operation - and then found that Lin Chan was indeed better than him.

At the end of the round, Lin Chan joined midway and won the MVP.

Holding the mobile phone screen in front of Jing Ye, his little proud expression seemed to be showing off.Jing Ye took back the phone and pursed his lips, and said, "Then why don't we both line up? I'm almost in the middle."

"Aren't you sleepy?"

Jing Ye was caught off guard by a soft nail, and he really held grudges in his heart and refused to fly, so he let out a "huh".

Lin Chan spread her hands: "Mobile phone, I'll call it for you."

"Ah good!"

Turning around, Jing Ye happily handed over the phone, then curled up on the sofa to watch Lin Chan operate.

He has a strange problem, he doesn't want to sit, if he sits, he has to curl up, it's better to hug a cushion or a plush toy, this habit is despised by the whole family from top to bottom, but there is no way to change it.

At this time, Jing Ye threw off his slippers and half-kneeled and half-sat next to Lin Chan, the cushion moved to Lin Chan's lap as he moved closer and closer, and he leaned against it without knowing it.

Others looked at him as if he was completely immersed in the game, but Jing Ye knew in his heart that this inappropriate move was also a bit of a deliberate attempt.

Especially after Lin Chan said those words.

Jing Ye also wants to know where his boundaries are, how he wants to establish intimacy with people, whether he is really as phobic as the boys said, and is he as homophobic as he has always known.

You can't be afraid of everything, right?

If he could take that step aside and accept the same sex... then would he be able to accept Lin Chan and like Lin Chan?

As long as you can pass this level of yourself——

Jing Ye thought about it, and leaned his head on Lin Chan's shoulder without any trace.

"You are too close to me." Lin Chan frowned.

"I can't see clearly."

Lin Chan made a big move, and said without any ups and downs, "I think you're implying something, brother."

Jing Ye saw him manipulating the game characters to kill with one blow, then squatted into the grass, his eyes swept over Lin Chan's exposed ears and neck, but he couldn't tell that the redness on it was because he was still too hot from the air conditioner.He closed his eyes, overcame the shame in his heart, always felt that this step had to be taken no matter what.

Lin Chan thought that stating some expectations nakedly would make Jing Ye retreat, but he was confined to the original world for too long...to be content with the status quo, and then he didn't even understand himself, this fear overcame his hesitation.

With his chin resting on Lin Chan's protruding shoulder bones, he felt the boy visibly tremble. Jing Ye suppressed his heartbeat and asked intentionally, "Then you can't even lean on it? Stretching your neck is very tiring."

"I only lean on my boyfriend's shoulders." Lin Chan reminded coldly.

Jing Ye pretended not to hear, and stood still.

Lin Chan: "Sit down quickly."

"Honestly." Jing Ye's heart began to beat faster, and his fingertips felt numb because of Lin Chan's ambiguous expression. He tried his best to calm himself but it was useless, "How can you trust me?"

"What do you believe in?" Lin Chan opened her mouth.

Jing Ye moved his head back slightly: "Trust me, I can convince myself if I work hard. Maybe I'm not that scared, and I haven't liked anyone yet, so if I can figure it out, I'll..."

I'll be with you right?

The villain in the game suddenly stopped moving, Lin Chan blinked her eyelashes, and continued to calmly manipulate the character to jump to the side and keep leveling A towards the tower, while hiding behind the pawn line.

Jing Ye turned his head sideways, and his breath sprayed hotly on his chin: "Really, let me try, what if?"

Lin Chan hummed, but didn't say yes, and didn't mock him.

His laissez-faire attitude made Jing Ye feel like teasing, which is strange to say, before he wished that he and Lin Chan would always be on the safe side of friendship, once those words were spoken, it was like opening an extra window for himself, sunshine It illuminates him so that he has no way to hide, but can only follow his heart.

But this made him even happier, light and airy, with the naturalness of finally daring to face the shadows squarely.

Jing Ye squeezed Lin Chan's face, as he did before but not with such force, like a cat's claw, making Lin Chan turn her head to hide, but a paw grabbed her shoulder again.

"Really, do you believe in brother?"

Whispering, letting him hear every word, Jing Ye noticed that the corners of Lin Chan's mouth were drawn down, but her eyes were imperceptibly bright.But he said coldly, "I don't believe you."

Jing Ye caught a slight rise in the ending and smiled: "Oh, when you agree."

"It's a good idea." Lin Chan said, "Who wants to wait for you to figure it out, I will ask for WeChat when I meet a handsome guy tomorrow."

"Am I not handsome enough? You are too demanding."

Lin Chan: "Tch."

A huge victory icon popped up on the screen, and a shiny MVP was hung under Jing Ye's ID.He "hummed" and laughed even wider, and while Lin Chan wasn't paying attention, he opened his arms and hugged him.

"I know you are the best!"

Lin Chan resisted: "Don't touch me—"

Jing Ye said, "Hold me, you have a lot of meat", and got more and more aggressive. Lin Chan couldn't dodge and had to follow, her face was full of resentment for being forced into prostitution.

The noise of the fight was a little too loud, among the four players playing mahjong, Yu Zhou raised his head and looked at them suspiciously.Sitting opposite Yuzhou, Dou Shuang looked over after seeing the movement, raised her eyebrows, and teased maliciously:

"Hey, why did you two hug each other so quickly?"

"He." Lin Chan pointed to Jing Ye, "It's so annoying."

Jing Ye smiled at Dou Shuang with a mouthful of neat little white teeth: "Just kidding with him."

Not long ago, Lin Chan was extremely sensitive to "joking around". Every time Jing Ye said that, he wished he could stand up all over his body and reject people thousands of miles away.But now that he said it, he put his arms around Lin Chan's shoulders and held him tightly between his arms. Lin Chan pursed his lips, but there was no reaction.

It seems that they can play around again by default.