run to him

The sound of fireworks exploding is still in my ears, the crowd of people, and the music on the TV is playing the first climax of the new year.

Lin Chan's face was stiff and she didn't look up: "Do you know what you're talking about?"

They had all been drinking, so it was inevitable that they would be amplified by the reaction of a certain nerve. His uncontrollable gaffe just now is the same as Jing Ye's thoughtless words now, they are all impulsive.

Impulse is an inner reaction, but it is only "some", not "all".

A long time ago, Lin Chan thought about how Jing Ye would like her. Maybe she was finally moved by him and she got enlightened. I overdid it and realized that I was the best for him...

But it shouldn't be about guilt alone, because of confusion and alcohol—alcohol of no strength.

It's almost like a comedy of absurdities.

So Lin Chan didn't believe a word Jing Ye said.

"I know."

After Jing Ye finished speaking, there was no further text.

He also started to play with his mobile phone, mechanically repeating the message of happy new year - there are managers, friends who have met in the circle and have a good relationship, assistants, staff who have worked with him, old classmates, mother, far away Relatives of the same age—replied "Happy New Year" one by one, and sent them to the input method to be familiar with spelling, and their fingers were numb.

In the first second of the new year, neither Lin Chan nor he could be happy.

He also looked a little lost, and when he realized this, Lin Chan sank limply on the sofa, his eyes were confused for a moment, and he said, "That's not what I meant."

"I know, you said you don't like me anymore, so let's stop here." Jing Ye said in a low voice, the others were gesticulating at the window, and the occasional firework in the sky had no time to bother them.

Lin Chan remained silent, and snatched the red envelope from the teacher in the studio group. She was unlucky and only had thirty cents.

Jing Ye went on to say: "But it's just an extravagant wish... I also... I don't know if what I think is right, or where we can go, this promise is all I give you..."

"You want me to continue to like you, and then what?" Lin Chan asked sarcastically, "Then your answer is not sure."

Jing Ye: "..."

He was starting to feel dizzy again.

Jing Ye asked cautiously: "I might like you too, don't I?"

"Oh, it's possible." Lin Chan repeated with a half-smile, feeling a fit of anger for no reason, wanting to pinch and bite the person in front of her, "But I think, brother, you won't."

This sentence was too aggressive and determined, and Jing Ye didn't know how to respond.

"Besides, you have no idea. You also know that just because I liked you before doesn't mean that I will be completely devoted to you now and in the future. People change. Young people like me are too easily attracted by attractive people." Lin Chan thought for a while, and deliberately said cruelly, "I change my mind easily."

Jing Ye: "..."

"So from the beginning, we don't need to force each other to leave a result on this matter. If you don't like it, then I will back off. No matter how bad it is, we can still be friends. I know we are taking different paths now, but do you understand?"

Jing Ye sensed something was wrong: "No, why..."

"I don't want to go further and further away with you, but the fact is, what if we will do this?" He finally asked, and when he finished speaking, he lowered his eyes lightly, announcing the end.

Lin Chan was so frank, every word he said seemed to use the strength of alcohol to pluck out the uncertainty deep in his heart and show it to Jing Ye, bit by bit, it was actually dripping with his blood.

It was all the words he had tortured and persuaded himself during the three years when Jing Ye left.

You can change your mind easily, so don't miss him.

You are very young, you have not seen the dangers of society, you have not been cheated or hurt, so let him go.

You still have a long way to go, so...

Don't look back at him.

But those thick and deep nights did not teach Lin Chan what to do when that person stood in front of her again, cautiously almost begging to exchange "You continue to like me" in exchange for "You continue to like me".

He could only anesthetize himself helplessly.

And Jing Ye was completely speechless by his question.

Lin Chan said again: "You say that now, maybe because you have a good impression, maybe it gave me a little hope, but it's more just to make me happy-what's the difference from then? Have you thought it through?"

"I..." Jing Ye moved his fingers, as if he was about to come to life, "I'm not coaxing you, but—"

But what is called "clear"?

He didn't ask, because Lin Chan suddenly moved closer to him, almost nose to nose.

In an instant, like the blood all over his body was rushing upwards, Jing Ye suddenly wanted to retreat - the feeling of being invaded from a safe distance was too bad for him - but in the next second, Lin Chan seemed to feel something, and went straight Hold Jing Ye's back with one hand.

The boy's arms were stronger than he remembered, binding him tightly.

Jing Ye has always seldom had contact with the opposite sex, and with the same sex, he would at most stop at hooking his shoulders, or at least that unexpected kiss with Lin Chan.When he was filming, he had to prepare mentally for some intimate actions, and suddenly Lin Chan was almost pressed against his body, and his heart was beating so fast that it was about to jump out of his chest.

Too bad, completely unable to resist, the brain completely stopped functioning.

"What are you doing..." Jing Ye was too scared to look at him.

"I'll help you think clearly now." Lin Chan rolled her eyes slightly, and said in a low voice, "The body is always more honest than words. Who knows how to say big words and shout slogans."

"..."

"Even if my brother likes me a little bit, he won't be stiff like this, right? You see, he is very resistant to physical contact, but he says 'continue to like'. Do you want to be responsible if you say such things casually? But you artists It should be easy to enjoy the pleasure of being liked, why look for it on me?"

In the eyes of outsiders, they were only leaning close together and biting their ears, but in fact, Lin Chan's five fingers slid down rhythmically, from the back to the waist where the sofa cushions blocked it.

The impulse came again, Jing Ye blushed so much that he was so flustered that he couldn't speak at all.

"No, what enjoyment...I..."

"So you don't enjoy it?" Lin Chan let go of him, retreated to the carpet and sat cross-legged, raised her head to look at Jing Ye, "Brother, let's be honest, you want to coax me, but there is a price, understand."

"cost……?"

"Well, I don't have any bargaining chips. If you run away again, where can I arrest you?"

He was strongly provoked by Lin Chan's "catch" tone, and felt that the boy was not joking, as if he really wanted to lock him up.

Lin Chan's eyes flickered, and she let go of the fingers holding her ankle and put them together again: "We are all so old, if we want to fall in love, isn't it appropriate to hold hands like elementary school students? If you have to 'try it', you have to Get ready to do it with me... You know, that? But brother, you haven't even had a girlfriend, you definitely won't. But it doesn't matter, if you like me, I can learn with you after we get together .”

After Lin Chan finished speaking, she showed an extremely cute smile: "What's wrong?"

Jing Ye hurriedly looked away: "I don't know what you are talking about."

"You really don't know?" Lin Chan was still looking straight at him, with some joy in her eyes, "Still pretending not to know? It's no fun to lie and escape all the time, right?"

That smile seemed like he had just finished memorizing an extremely difficult English text and was waiting for praise, instead of saying these restricted words that made Jing Ye feel like being struck by lightning.

"Did I scare you, sorry."

Jing Ye: "..."

"What are you two whispering over there?" Jiang Ziyi let go of the fireworks at the window, and turned his head to find that there were still two people alone, "Xiaoye, you look so pale, are you okay?"

Jing Ye shook his head, his face was very red, he stood up and wanted to flee the scene.

"I'm going to wash up."

Jiang Ziyi: "Ah? Are you going to sleep? The bed is already made. Do you think you are with Lin Chan or Yu Zhou..."

"Why sleep, it's only after twelve o'clock!" Dou Shuang also came over, grabbed the back of Jing Ye's neck with one hand and dragged him to the spot, and said like a big sister, "Just now I heard Yu Zhou say that he Recently, the relationship is not going well, and it is rare for a top student to ask others, let's clean up the mess together, let's talk."

Seeing Feng Zhenzhen's eyes, Jiang Ziyi immediately turned his back: "I also feel that we haven't talked for a long time."

Yu Zhou laughed: "Don't use my name... I just mentioned a few words to you."

"Okay." Dou Shuang stuck out her tongue, "I want to gossip myself."

The six of them took their own jobs. In the middle of the night, the TV New Year's Eve party was coming to an end, and the living room finally got rid of the smell of hot pot and barbecue.Jiang Ziyi was damned, he even opened the window to breathe.

This year is the coldest winter that has happened once in decades. The cold air is moving south, and sometimes you will see "white head frost" on the leaves when you get up early.

Calculated according to the traditional solar terms, the number of nine starts after the winter solstice, and the coldest season is not yet on New Year's Day, but it is enough to blow the wind.Jing Ye was sitting next to the window, and he closed the window tightly with his backhand within 2 minutes. He rubbed his forehead, feeling that the alcohol had evaporated completely, and the blood in his body was gradually cooling down.

After calming down, Jing Ye got rid of his impulsiveness, and had to admit that what the aggressive Lin Chan said just now was right and thoughtful. On this point, Lin Chan thought much more than he did.

But, but...

Doing, doing...is that what he understands to do?

What is this minor thinking every day!

Jing Ye raised his hand and touched his face, the astonishing heat didn't completely subside even after a while of cold wind.Lin Chan was sitting cross-legged with his hands on his ankles not long ago, looking up at him, with bright eyes and an innocent smile, which perfectly coincided with the puppy he secretly imagined, and said such words with that cute face ...

That's too much...

Jing Ye simply covered his face, completely unable to turn his mind, and listened to other people chatting with each other.

The back was touched suddenly, just now when Lin Chan touched his waist, goosebumps appeared around his waist, and he was pawed again, Jing Ye almost jumped up on the spot, and suddenly raised his head: "Who!?"

"Why are you reacting so violently?" Jiang Ziyi raised his hands in a gesture of surrender, "I thought you were asleep."

Jing Ye: "..."

This hurdle will not be overcome for a while.