Rebirth of Su Zhan

With half a hot dog sandwich in his hand, Su Zhan looked down at the newspaper in his hand and walked towards the dormitory——Chiang Kai-shek actually went?It would be a lie to say that it wasn't shocking, but when he first arrived in Taiwan, he had never seen this man who separated his family from father to son.I only saw the old man on the terrace of the Jiang family mansion at a high-level party of the Kuomintang.

Anyway, Su Zhan still hated the old man for getting him to Taiwan.It's just that the environment makes a man, and after so many years of living a life with no one to rely on and only relying on himself, Su Zhan knows that it is of little use to be depressed and hold grudges.

If you come, you will be safe, and it is serious to find a way to live well.And, apart from not letting him go back to Burma, not letting him run around, and only living a life of being dependent on others, it's not as bad as he originally imagined.

Su Zhan's eyelashes are still surprisingly long, black and densely clustered together, covering most of his eyes, his skin is white and his lips are rosy, and he looks like a cold beauty at first glance.On the way, some acquaintances greeted him, and Su Zhan responded with a smile in response to the situation. Compared with the various discomforts when he came to the United States at the beginning, he was much better. A few classmates who could speak asked him why he could not get used to it now. Have a meal.

It's just that he didn't want to eat normally today, it's just too late. There were only two big lectures in the morning, but I didn't expect that the small paper I wrote last time was caught by the professor and asked the teaching assistant to keep him to be honest. modified it again.Su Zhan felt that in his last life, he would never have imagined that such a day would come—like all ordinary American college students, walking in this world-renowned university with a backpack, jeans and shirts on their backs, and majored in East Asian cultural studies.

He has lived almost 50 years old. However, it is still a bit difficult for him to come to a strange country and carry out professional studies.Especially English, Su Zhan felt that English was his enemy - when he was in Taiwan, he skipped three grades in elementary school, and his study career in junior high school and senior high school was quite smooth, but his English was never very fluent.However, when the Taiwan government asked him to choose the university and major he wanted to advance to, he unexpectedly stated that he wanted to study abroad.

He once asked his family for their opinions before going abroad. At that time, the small town in northern Myanmar had not yet had a phone call. When Su Zhan arrived in Taiwan, he did something he had never done in his previous life-writing letters.

He still carries these letters with him, and it is a thick stack every time—his father doesn’t have a lot of words in the cultural society, but he just relearned some of them. I can write a paragraph for him; his mother is a talented woman from a scholarly family, not to mention the words written, every time Su Zhan reads, he feels the warmth of his mother from the tiny words.From being sad, worried, and worried at the beginning to becoming more and more peaceful later on, every time I wrote a letter, it was the chatter of the three of them, especially Su Fan's, who was like a dull gourd on weekdays, and I didn't expect to talk so much when writing a letter.Every time Su Zhan took Su Fan's letter, he felt like he was reading a collection of letters from home.

It's just that no one knows that in many cases, these personal letters from family members who have traveled through thousands of mountains and rivers have warmed these lonely and cold years.

Su Zhan is no longer the heartless guy in his last life. Every time he writes back, he will describe his life in Taiwan in detail, and he will only say good things - he thinks this is a bit mother-in-law Feeling, but knowing that his parents and Su Fan would feel at ease seeing these things, he also felt that this mother-in-law could bear it.

Of course, the content of the letter had already been reviewed by someone when it traveled thousands of miles to Myanmar.Father and mother were definitely more surprised than relieved that he was able to study abroad. In their opinion, it was very good that he could enter a university in Taiwan with a special status and finish his studies casually.It's just that the surprise is the surprise, the parents still expressed their expectations for him, especially Su Fan.

Sometimes when Su Zhan listens to the English spoken by the professor too fast, or looks at the densely packed ants-like letters on the book, he will think angrily—it is clearly Su Fan’s wish, why should I rush to replace him? Realize it?

In the past few years, the Golden Triangle has become one of the most chaotic and mysterious areas in the world-the flames of war and poppies are intertwined, and the notoriety has spread far and wide.Under the pressure of international public opinion, the Taiwan government has evacuated several groups of people one after another. The Su family is still safe, because the supervision of him is not so strict.

He should have had the opportunity to meet his family, but no one expected that General Chen would surrender to the Communist Party of the northern government with his own people and return to China.This made the Taiwan authorities very angry and more vigilant, because of the delay, this delay seemed to be the time to go abroad.As soon as he went abroad, in view of Su Zhan's special family background and status, no matter whether Su Zhenggang really manufactured and sold drugs, the son of General Su of the Golden Triangle was still under the surveillance of the U.S. government. Layer check.

Su Zhan simply lived in the United States, and stayed in school even during the winter and summer vacations, only waiting for his graduation before finding a way to go home.

Life in Taiwan these years has long smoothed out the edges and corners belonging to the second young master of the Su family. Su Zhan feels that he used to be a hedgehog, but those thorns that protect him are all given by his family status—his father is from Myanmar. Bei said that he was an uncompromising general. He was loved by his parents, and his only brother let him go.So these thorns armed themselves and became the second young master of the Su family who was spoiled and spoiled.

However, after arriving in Taiwan, he became like a hedgehog with its thorns stripped off—a bare meat ball that anyone can bully.

His father was a bandit Qiu Ba, and he had no relatives in Taiwan. His mother's family was good, but unfortunately, the population was small, and because of the thought of being too loyal to serve the country, the whole family, except for his mother who was living in Burma, did not die in the Anti-Japanese War. They died in the civil war on the battlefield, and among the high-ranking Kuomintang members who retreated to Taiwan, except for an uncle who was far away by blood and had never seen him in his life, his life in Taiwan can be described in four words. To sum it up - helpless.

The Kuomintang government's method of dealing with such a big kid like him is simple-directly find a family of a government official to raise him, and the government will provide money and subsidies.

Officials who are qualified to support him look down on that subsidy, and he is a tricky guy.

He originally lived in Liu Yuanlin's house, because Liu Zhongjiang had a friendship with his father in northern Burma, and also had a layer of grandfather's friendship, so he lived in Liu Yuanlin's house at first. Liu Yuanlin's original wife is a virtuous Yes, considerate to him.If you ignore Liu Yuanlin and those bastard sons who bully him as soon as he enters the door.

He lived in Liu's house for more than two years, but he didn't expect Liu Yuanlin to fall out of favor and be demoted, and then moved to the home of another senior member of the Ministry of Finance. Su Zhan was already older at that time, and he was no longer bullied He's so small, at least he has the strength to fight back.It's a pity that the financial officer's wife is a bitter and mean person who can be harsh and punish him. Su Zhan has tried to be fined without eating for a day, and also tried to be left alone when she was burnt to the point of confusion.Later, he was transferred to several families.

Every time he moved, Su Zhan always looked at those people packing his luggage indifferently. Except for some clothes and books, almost nothing belonged to him.He felt that he had spent the past ten years like a snail, going around with a few things, but he just couldn't return home.

Here, too, he has no home.No one is reluctant to leave, and no one welcomes you when you come.Everyone only thinks that this child is a mess, and no one will reward you for taking care of it well, but you are afraid of suffering if it fails.

Su Zhan has tasted the warmth and coldness of the world, the fickleness of the world, and the pain of being dependent on others.Thinking back to the self in the previous life, how beautiful he was living in the blessing, but it is true that he was in the blessing and did not know the blessing. Look at how he lived in the previous life.

When Su Zhan had a high fever, the family was finally in a hurry and sent him to the hospital. He had a high fever due to pneumonia, but he came back with a small life. The family was afraid that he would sue him, so they treated him cautiously. up.How did those people know that he would not report bad news to his family, even if the government asked him to write it, he would not write it.

Always only mention good things, always only talk about things that make parents and Su Fan feel at ease and happy.

Su Zhan has learned to endure, learn to show weakness, and also learn how to live a better life in the cracks, and live freely in the strange eyes of others and unbearable neglect.

His personality began to become silent, introverted and mellow, and he would smile and compound at high-ranking officials who could bring him benefits.So he also understood why Su Fan became like that back then - there was no way, he had to live well.

Just like a sentence he once read in Maupassant's book, life can't be as good as you imagine, but it won't be as bad as you imagined either.I think people's fragility and strength are beyond my imagination.Sometimes, I may be so fragile that I burst into tears with a single sentence, and sometimes I find myself gritting my teeth and walking a long way.

Second Young Master Su felt that he was representing his father, General Su, and the late General Zhong in Taiwan, and felt that a man bleeds but does not shed tears. Except for the occasional homesickness and insomnia, he was not vulnerable just because of a word. Got to burst into tears.But looking back on these years, Su Zhan felt that he had indeed gritted his teeth and walked a long way.

Now that Chiang Kai-shek is dead, it is estimated that this road will become wider and wider.

In these ten years, he repaid the ten years of Su Fan in his previous life.

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Just as Su Zhan stepped into the dormitory with one foot, his roommate Jack quickly shouted to him with the phone in his hand, "Zhan, your brother's, I've been waiting for you for a long time, come and pick it up!" Su Zhan raised his eyebrows, thinking, Isn't today the day when you call at home?Calling the United States from Myanmar is no easy task.

Apart from the dormitory and classrooms, Su Zhan rarely went out except for occasional activities. After getting his class schedule, Su Fan accurately calculated the time when he could call Su Zhan.Of course, if he is afraid that he will disturb his brother's normal study and life, he is very willing to call him whenever he is free.If you can't see your brother's face, even if you can hear his voice, it's fine.

So Su Fan was quite surprised that a guy who was so troublesome when he was a child that Su Fan suspected that his younger brother had ADHD could obediently go to class, go back to the dormitory and go to the library every day.But when I thought about it later, although Su Zhan's letters always mentioned how well he was doing, but when he thought about it later, Su Fan knew how well a young child could live outside with no one to depend on.

People always change, like Su Zhan, like himself.

"Ah Fan, why did you call me all of a sudden? Did something happen at home?" The Golden Triangle was a troubled time in the peaceful era after World War II. It was notorious for being chaotic. What Su Zhan feared most was that something happened to his family.

Su Zhan's voice has long passed the period of voice change. The clear and immature voice of a child has become a pure and clear voice, but when it is transmitted by a telephone line with a bad signal, it seems a little magnetic, which makes Su Fan hear it. It feels like the sound of the sun plucking a harp on the far side of the mountain.Every time he heard Su Zhan's voice, his mood instantly improved.

"Why doesn't your child even call you brother? If something happens at home, you can rest assured to study while I'm here. By the way, why are you going back to the dormitory so late today?" Su Fan asked casually. While waiting for Su Zhan, he had already slapped Su Zhan's straightforward and straightforward roommate on whether Su Zhan went out on a date because he had a girlfriend.After hearing Su Zhan's roommate say carelessly, "Oh, no, how is this possible! I also really want to know which lady with both wisdom and beauty will take our Zhan down, but, you know, this Not likely. Although Zhan is very popular, he said he only likes Chinese girls, and he just broke the heart of a blond Irish girl last week. What a pity, she is very beautiful..."

Jack is a big American boy who chatters a lot when he talks. Of course, before Su Zhan lived with him, Su Fan had investigated him thoroughly. I like it—he can always talk about the corners and corners of Su Zhan's life. Hearing Jack's nagging, Su Fan smiled and felt a little relieved—it seems that his younger brother has passed the point of studying hard to get a degree. Qiao, but love is still unreasonable.