between men and women

One hundred and second post

I am usually a person who can't get nervous about small things, but the strange thing is that once something big happens, I will be extremely calm, so calm that I feel incredible.

I went back and continued to play cards as if nothing had happened. I didn't tell Peng Zhiran about it until the game was over and everyone left.

Peng Zhiran felt a little silly when he looked at KY who was put together with Vaseline.I patted him on the back to comfort him: "It's okay, not everyone knows KY, maybe your sister didn't see that sentence in English, maybe she didn't know what it meant when she saw it, so it's okay Maybe."

He turned his eyes to look at me in a daze: "I didn't tell you, my sister graduated from a nursing school..."

I don't know much about Peng Zhiran's family. I have been with him for so long. He doesn't like to talk about his family. I only know that his mother is a doctor, his father is a retired soldier, and he has an uncle who is a member of the system. In the middle class, his sister and his mother's surname are named Pan Xiaoruo, and he and his father's surname.

I always thought that his family should be quite harmonious and beautiful, until today I realized that every family has hard-to-recite scriptures.

He said his mother didn't love his father, although both parents loved him quite a bit.At the beginning, his mother was studying in medical university where his father's army was located, and his father fell in love with his mother.His mother was one of the first to enter the university after the resumption of the college entrance examination in the third class. At that time, he was studying medicine with a scholarship. When his father's army leader approached his mother for a conversation, the shallow line between the words meant that if he refused military marriage, his mother's future There will definitely be problems, so his mother has no choice but to compromise.

However, different levels of education and different ways of thinking doomed this marriage to be unsatisfactory, with constant friction.Peng Zhiran's father was not around when he was young, and his mother was very busy in the hospital. He and his sister were almost brought up by their grandmother.So in Peng Zhiran's childhood memories, grandma was the best person to him.He said that his grandmother had serious patriarchy. When he was a child, his grandmother received a retirement salary of 18 yuan a month. After receiving it, she only bought four things: headache medicine, Daqianmen, comic books and red sausage.The comics were for Peng Zhiran, and the red sausage was shared between the two siblings, but his sister always got less than him.So at that time his sister was very dissatisfied with him, and the relationship between the two siblings did not get better until they grew up.

Maybe most parents have a certain plot of inheriting their father's career. His mother always hoped that his sister could become a good doctor, but their siblings were used to letting go when they were two hours old, and their academic performance was average. Her sister failed the exam in the end. In high school, his mother sent her to nursing school.But the problem is that his sister doesn't like nursing school at all, and has a very strong rebellious mentality. She was a mess when she was studying, and she had an abortion before she graduated. After graduation, she went to the hospital for half a year. One day she came back and told Peng Zhiran her In the hospital, I saw a homosexual who was hospitalized. He probably sold it. There was already a hole in the back, and he couldn’t close it. He said that the hospital was too dirty, and there were all kinds of problems and germs. Then it passed through a friend’s report not long after. Guan Guan went to a securities company to become a red vest, relying on his shrewdness to get along like a fish in water.

So in Peng Zhiran's words, if other people don't know what KY is, it is absolutely impossible for Pan Xiaoruo not to know, and with her level of shrewdness, she will never miss such a conspicuous line of words above.In the end, even if I take a step back, even if she really doesn't know what analsex is or what KY is, she is also the kind of person who is so suspicious that she will look it up in the dictionary when she goes back!

One hundred and third post

That night, Peng Zhiran and I both tossed and turned sleeplessly.

To be honest, we have been together for so long, and we never thought about how our parents would face it if they found out one day.This may be because we are in the period of passionate love so we haven't had time to think about it, or it may be that we are deliberately avoiding it subconsciously.People are always deceiving themselves and others, trying to anesthetize themselves and telling themselves that as long as they don't think about something, it will never come.But the truth is what's coming will come, and you can never hide from it.

As a result, he was haggard all night, and when he arrived at the company the next day, the news of Leslie Cheung's suicide was confirmed.The official said that he could not withdraw from the role after filming "Different Space", suffered from depression and committed suicide, but there are rumors everywhere that he committed suicide because of relationship problems with Tang Tang.Looking at these, I felt as if I had been beaten with a sap. I sat in my seat for a while, and finally couldn't restrain myself, and rushed to the toilet to cry.

Maybe no one will understand the meaning of Leslie Cheung in my heart at that time.

In the eyes of ordinary people, Leslie Cheung is just a star.He is handsome and beautiful, and brings countless bright stars with every turn. However, for me, he is not only a star, but also a pioneer.

He is one of the early people in the Hong Kong entertainment industry who dared to admit that he is gay. He bravely faced his sexuality, withstood the initial criticism, and always smiled and treated others well. Let me see that even if we are different from ordinary people , but we can also live beautifully, colorfully and noblely.He is like a spiritual banner in my heart, standing in a dark world called same-sex love, bringing a ray of light and hope to the gloom in my heart, hoping that one day I and Peng Zhiran can also be like him and Tang Tang walked into the sun like Tang Tang... But now he jumped off!He just jumped down with his unknown pain and depression and maybe even emotional problems!If even people like him can only be tragic in the end, then what we are about to face...

In just an instant, the fairy tale was disillusioned like this... I cried so hard that I couldn't help it, until a call from Peng Zhiran popped up on my phone.

"Chen Jia, Chen Jia!" He heard my sobbing voice anxiously calling my name over and over again, "What's wrong, tell me what's wrong!"

"Leslie Cheung...it's true..." I whimpered, thinking he might not understand me.But he was silent for a while and said softly: "Don't think about it, be brave, we won't, we won't, do you understand?"

I was in a bad mood that day, so I had to ask for leave to go home. After Peng Zhiran found out in the afternoon, he slipped out of the company and came back to accompany me, hugging me to comfort me over and over again. It seems to be telling me that in fact, he is also very uncertain.

I seem to see reality grinning at us, and the so-called sea and sky kiss with Peng Zhiran holding hands in Hong Kong is just a beautiful dream of mine.

Is this dream finally about to wake up?