between men and women

No.80 six posts

After we finished our work and finally got the most important thing in our life done, Peng Zhiran and I had time to catch our breath.

To celebrate, the two of us went to eat at a Hunan restaurant near his mother's house.

Once you have a house, you will have to repay the loan every month after the contract is handed in and the loan is approved.The loan of more than 2000 yuan a month, plus the current rent of 500 yuan, will be 18 yuan in one fell swoop.Two people can only use one person's salary, and it is impossible not to cut down on food and clothing.This Hunan restaurant near his mother's house is said to be opened here by authentic Hunan people.In a corner alley, a small shop with two or three tables, in the form of a family workshop, but the dishes are cooked very well and the price is cheap.A serving of minced meat with sour beans costs [-] yuan, minced pepper sprouts are also [-] yuan, stir-fried shredded beef is [-] yuan, and chopped pepper fish head is [-] yuan, which is really affordable and delicious.The two of them ate four or five dishes, and it cost more than fifty yuan. They went home to watch TV contentedly. After passing by the convenience store, I wanted to go in and buy a pack of cigarettes. Peng Zhiran stood outside the convenience store and waited.

I bought the cigarettes and went out, only to see him bragging with Luo Feng.

Luo Feng's home is very close to Peng Zhiran's mother's home, and they got to know each other when they were young.Seeing me coming out of the convenience store, Luo Feng hurriedly greeted me.

I saw that he looked proud, and asked him: "Oh, you look good, why are you going?" I opened a cigarette and gave him a cigarette, and Peng Zhiran also smoked one casually.Luo Feng has a new girlfriend recently, so he should be going on a date.

really.Luo Feng smiled: "I have an appointment with my girlfriend, and someone gave her two tickets to Leslie Cheung's concert just now. She asked me to go to the concert!"

Ahhhhhhhhhh! ! ! ! ! !

Leslie Cheung has a concert! !Why don't I know grandma's! !Didn't see any posters!What about publicity?Media publicity too!Where's the poster?Convenience store poster too!

I excitedly directed at him: "Leslie Cheung's concert, when? Today?"

"That's right." Luo Feng looked at the time, it was [-]:[-], "Today, it's about to start soon. We already had one yesterday."

I rely on!Recently, because of the house matter, Peng Zhiran and I have been keeping our ears to the outside world for too long, and we are all focused on buying a house. In the end, we didn't even know that Leslie Cheung was coming to hold a concert!

Later I realized that it was not because I was too focused on the house, but because Leslie Cheung made no secret of his sexual orientation, and his avant-garde long hair and skirt pants and other stage styles, the concert was attracted by many Hong Kong fans with ulterior motives. The media has labeled such unbearable words as "abnormal", "pornographic", "scary", "horror" and "sensuality", so that not many media in the mainland gave this extended meeting a high rate of exposure.There are no advertisements broadcast everywhere on TV stations, and there is no positive publicity from the media. There are only reporters holding microphones to interview fans in the infield area: "May I ask what do you think about Leslie Cheung's changes?"

The girl said loudly to the camera: "No opinion! We like him, we love him no matter what he becomes!"

But at that time, I was not so brave, not as good as that girl.

When I heard that Leslie Cheung was holding a concert, Peng Zhiran and I accompanied Luo Feng to wait for his girlfriend outside the venue.As soon as his girlfriend arrived, he said: "Hey, Luo Feng, I'm not interested in Leslie Cheung. I heard people say that he looks like a monster now. He has long hair and wears skirts. He's a mess. He's very perverted. Can't you see that?" See? I'm not interested."

Hearing this, Luo Feng hurriedly echoed: "I don't care, if you don't watch it, you don't watch it." He turned to us and asked, "I heard that he is gay now, you are not interested either?"

I suddenly became dumb.

Peng Zhiran glanced at me: "That ticket can't be wasted, or you won't be interested and I'll go and see it with Chen Jia."

Hearing this, Luo Feng's girlfriend took out a ticket in her pocket: "My friend didn't show it to me, so if you want to see it, you can go... Hey, why is it gone, hey... Unfortunately, it wasn't when I bought the ticket just now Drop it!"

Luo Feng shrugged his shoulders and said indifferently: "Hey, if you forget it, it will be dropped. Anyway, it's a gift from someone, not something you bought with your own money."

Seeing this, Peng Zhiran elbowed me: "Do you want to see it? If so, I'll go buy scalpers."

Luo Feng yelled: "It's free, it doesn't matter if you don't need money, it doesn't matter if you spend money to go to this kind of concert, you are free. The little girl likes him because he is handsome and doesn't care that he is gay. What are you two men going to see?" , waste of money! Love gays!"

Called by Luo Feng, even if I want to see it, I can't say it anymore, so I can only shake my head with a wry smile at Peng Zhiran: "I don't want to see it, scalper tickets are hard to say, so forget it."

The four of them walked slowly towards the outside of the venue, and when they got to the side of the road outside, Luo Feng's girlfriend wanted to eat ice cream, the three of us stood chatting and waited for her to buy it, only to hear bursts of loud shouts coming from the concert venue , I whispered a little disappointed: "The concert has begun."

Luo Feng said: "Well, it sounds like there are quite a few people. I didn't expect it. I used to treat Leslie Cheung like nothing, but I don't like him now. Why would such a good person be gay?"

Peng Zhiran and I couldn't help but glanced at each other, and Peng Zhiran said, "Sexual orientation is a personal freedom, and logically speaking, others are not qualified to control it. Do you dislike this?"

Luo Feng said carelessly: "Nonsense! Men should like women, it's only right and proper. When two men are together, they still have to go to bed..." He shuddered as he said this: "You know how to cut, they say they use that shit The place... Fuck, I feel disgusted just thinking about it."

Hearing this, I suddenly felt as uncomfortable as eating a fly.

This is the most direct reaction of the general public to homosexuality!

Peng Zhiran seemed to want to say something else, so I secretly tugged at his sleeve.Luo Feng's girlfriend just came back after buying ice cream, gave each of us one, and then asked: "Then don't watch the concert, what are you going to do next?"

Luo Feng turned around and asked us: "StarCraft, do you want to go?"

Peng Zhiran's complexion was not very good, and he was not prone to seizures. He forced a smile and shook his head and said, "No, you go. I have something to do with Chen Jia."

After they left, he pulled me, who had been silent all the time, to sit on the street, put his arms around my shoulders, and let me rest my head on his shoulders.

The venue was full of heat, but it was already dark outside.Leslie Cheung has sung for more than 40 minutes, presumably the scalpers have already left.

Quietly, as if there were no pedestrians on the street, we cuddled together, sitting on the side of the street and listening to Leslie Cheung in this dark night sky without stars, in this slightly cold September day In the enthusiasm concert in 2000, I occasionally sang softly with the singing from afar, singing a love song that the world can't understand...

I will never forget that night and regret it forever.

No.80 seven posts

At the end of September 2000, Liang Mingchuan was going to study in Japan.

Before you go, invite a few good friends to a house party.He called Luo Feng, Peng Zhiran, and me.

After hearing Luo Feng's views on homosexuality, Peng Zhiran and I have come to understand a fact, don't imagine that your friends can accept your sexual orientation, even if you are the best friend, don't think that you are popular or not Will be cast aside for being gay.

You know, they are your good friends, and their relationship with you is based on the fact that you are a "normal" person.

For example, people like Leslie Cheung who have a good reputation in the entertainment industry and have so many fans will be attacked by the media.

So everything is false, and it is true to protect yourself well.This is due to the general environment and public opinion. Before people's ideas change, Peng Zhiran said that if we want to go further, we must know how to hide.

So when I went to Liang Ming's biography, I paid great attention and never made eye contact with Peng Zhiran.Having been in contact with Liang Mingchuan and Luo Feng for so long, I know that Luo Feng is a relatively rough person. In comparison, Liang Mingchuan is much more careful than him.

So before the meal, the three of them bragged over there, and I pretended to play Transformers with Liang Mingchuan's nephew, instead of joining in the fun.In fact, the relationship between the three of them is quite strong, they have been buddies for many years, and I just joined halfway.

After the meal, Liang Mingchuan's parents said to Peng Zhiran and the others: "Peng Zhiran, Luo Feng, you are the only best friends of Xiao Ming in our family. After he goes to Japan, you should keep in touch more often. Don't alienate him. Already."

Peng Zhiran and Luo Feng nodded fiercely, Liang Mingchuan took out a pack of his brother's cigarettes, and motioned for me to smoke a cigarette on the balcony with his eyes.I went with him.

He gave me a cigarette, but he didn't smoke himself, and gave me the whole pack.I immediately realized that he had something to say to me, and my nerves tensed immediately.

Bending his waist and leaning his elbows on the balcony railing, looking at the opposite building, he asked me: "Chen Jia, is Peng Zhiran in love?"

"Ah!" I was startled, pretending to be calm, "Why do you say that?"

He smiled: "I feel. In short, I feel that he has changed a bit. I used to think that he was a very unplanned person, but now he seems to have a sense of responsibility and purpose than before."

"Oh," I breathed a sigh of relief, "maybe, I don't know."

He glanced at me: "You don't know? Who knows if you don't know!" After speaking, he turned sideways, leaned on the railing with one hand and looked at me playfully, and there was something in his words: "I guess, the person he is in love with this time must be Unusual, not simple. You know, last year or the year before last, he came to my house and talked with me all night, and told me about my emotional distress for a long time. It seems that the person he likes is very difficult It's not easy to fall in love with that person. After talking upside down for a long time, I didn't understand where the obstacles between the two of them were, but I could hear that he seemed to like that person very much. You know, I still It was the first time I saw this guy so bewildered, and my intuition told me that he probably met his nemesis. Later, I found out that he seemed to have changed, and I thought he must be in love." He paused at this point.

I was already in a dazed state, and my intuition told me that Liang Mingchuan should know something, but it sounded like he didn't say anything, I simply didn't know how to interface, I couldn't even say "um".

Liang Mingchuan looked at me with a smile, and patted my shoulder: "The cigarette butt is about to burn!"

My fingertips burned, and I quickly threw the cigarette butt out with my hands. He laughed and said, "It's nothing, I just asked you. You should know the person he likes." Then he straightened his face slightly, and pressed my button Shoulder said: "At first I thought that Peng Zhiran's love path might be difficult, and I wanted to persuade him, but later I found out that the person he likes is actually really nice." He lowered his eyes, sighed and said: " I don't mean anything else, I just hope that both of them will be fine, since they are already like this, they will be fine, and hope that one day they can achieve a positive result. Do you understand what I mean? When I reacted, I smiled and opened the balcony door. Seeing that I hadn't followed, I turned around and said, "Aren't you going in?"

I hurriedly followed, he closed the door behind me, said in a low voice: "Come to Japan with him next time and play with me!" Then he passed me and walked over to chat with Peng Zhiran and the others.

I'm being stupid again!Suddenly I feel like crying.

I think Liang Mingchuan knew it without a doubt, but what I didn't expect was that he was blessing me and Peng Zhiran.This was beyond my expectation, which was unbelievable back then.

Until many years later, I asked Liang Mingchuan in private, what made him accept the relationship between me and Peng Zhiran that seemed "perverted" in the eyes of most people, and he said he didn't know, maybe it was because of the upcoming Leaving his homeland, the feeling that he will be alone in a foreign country with nowhere to rely on in the future makes him cherish his friends and friendship in China, so he embraced us with great love.

I smiled, thumped him and said thank you for being late.

Life is really strange.There is a story like this.During World War II, two Jewish families sent out requests for help to their friends.A family asks for help from a person who has been favored by oneself, while another family asks for help from a person who has given favor to him, and the family who has given favor to him is saved, while the other family is saved by the person who has been favored by him betrayed.

This shows a truth, those who love you will eventually love you (referring to love in a broad sense, not love), and will not care whether you have ever been kind to him or not.

And our friendship with Liang Mingchuan for more than ten years seems to be like this.We never seem to say thank you to each other. Every time he entrusts us to do something, or we entrust him to do something, it always seems to be taken for granted and the entrusted party always does its best.This kind of relationship is very strange. We are thousands of miles apart, and we don’t talk on the phone once a month, but once we talk, we always talk for an hour.It is such a friend far away in a foreign country who silently supported us for more than ten years and gave us the initial warmth.