heart stealing game

How can I love you when you are alive?Now I can give you the love you've always wanted.But why can't I tell you that I am willing to love you when you are dead.No, I'm already in love with you.

-- Gu Xichao

Do princes and generals care about each other?Those are the words I often use to motivate myself.But the reality tells me with cruel blows again and again that my humbleness is only because I am the son of a prostitute.This filthy life experience made me fall into the abyss again and again and I couldn't get out.

From an early age, I knew I was different from other people.The boss of the brothel, Mrs. Sang, was disgusted and beat and scolded, and even the gatekeeper Gui Gong had a disgusted expression.I heard from Aunt Qing that it was only because my mother, who was originally a red card, was secretly pregnant with me, and she deliberately spent her own money to let a soft-hearted old benefactor keep her for a few months.When I knew that the pregnancy was five or six months old and it was impossible to have an abortion, I forced Sang's mother to accept me.When my mother gave birth to me, the root of the disease fell to my body.Mama Sang, who suddenly lost a cash cow, of course can't look down on our mother and son.The mother just gritted her teeth and swallowed, and was forced to pick up the guests with her seriously ill body.Mother's resistance and slow compromise.Yeah, if she doesn't compromise then I simply can't live in this situation.She finally chose me between me and her love.Continue to suffer in the wind and dust.The body also quickly stepped down.Although she chose me, her heart was ashamed.Like a flower that loses moisture, it withers quickly.In the end even the old customers stopped coming.When I was five years old, my mother passed away after entrusting me to Aunt Qing.I can't forget the sudden glow on her face just before she died.It was a relief to die for her.

Maybe I will never be able to understand her thoughts.Was it really worth it for a jerk who played with her feelings?Every time Aunt Qing mentioned my mother, she would always be indignant and dejected. She said that all men in the world are unlucky when they cherish the dynasty.It is women who suffer.If you do the same in the future, be careful that I break your leg.

She said Xi Chao, you must study hard, practice martial arts well, and leave here.

She said that Xi Chao, only by becoming a master can he have the opportunity to control his own destiny.

At that time, I took her hand and nodded obediently.In my heart, the status of mother has always belonged to Aunt Qing, even if she died in order to die.But I was too young at that time, and now I can't remember her face clearly.Aunt Qing provided for me to study and practice martial arts, and the person who raised me was Aunt Qing.

Aunt Qing loves to laugh.But are there really happy people in such a place?

I told Aunt Qing that I would take the No. [-] Scholar Examination, become a high official, and then take her out of here in a good manner.Aunt Qing was still smiling, neither nodding nor shaking her head.

It's always good to be ambitious, she said.

At that time, I didn't know that Aunt Qing actually knew how difficult the road I was about to face was, but she still gave me the courage to never give up.She also knew that in such a place, she still took me with her, and there was no possibility of getting out alive.

When I was 11 years old, my facial features had grown, with delicate features and a unique temperament.Being targeted in this environment is also obvious.Mama Sang's sudden enthusiasm made me even more wary.

I heard the quarrel between Aunt Qing and Mama Sang.Mother Sang actually made up her mind to sell me to the small official building opposite.I didn't sign the deed of sale.So Mama Sang found Aunt Qing.

I stood outside the door and listened to Mama Sang's coercion and temptation.For the first time, I was full of fear for the future.I want to escape.Get out of this place immediately.But Aunt Qing, what about Aunt Qing?

I will always remember Sang's sharp voice mockingly, "Whore, son of a girl, what do you expect him to do!"

I don't understand and I don't understand why the son of a prostitute must be like a cockroach in that filthy place, only worthy of living in that place, and can only be such a lowly existence!

I will never forget the smile on Aunt Qing's face that night.She was laughing, as if crying again.But between his brows was a determination to break the boat.

She changed me into new clothes that she had made by herself, blue and inconspicuous clothes, soft fabrics, and told me to leave the city and find a place to live for the children before opening the interlayer.Then he gave me some broken silver.Let me pretend to go shopping and slip away while the city is busy.Never come back.

But I'm gone, what about Aunt Qing?

Aunt Qing said that although she was not considered a red card, her social status was still relatively low.Mother Sang couldn't bear to do anything with her.She let me go at ease.She waited for me to pick her up and leave here gracefully.

I believed it, listened to what Aunt Qing said, and left.What was waiting was the news that Aunt Qing committed suicide.I can't even collect her body.I have never hated the world more than in that moment.

When I was 11 years old, I left Sioux City and came to Beijing.I must become a master and build a mausoleum for Aunt Qing and Niang in the capital, so that they can also appreciate the scenery of the capital with pride.

There are thousands of taels of silver in the middle of the clothes.With this amount of money, Aunt Qing can completely redeem herself, but she left all hope to me.

During the few years of living in the capital, I have tasted the warmth and coldness of human relationships.No relatives, no support, walking alone behind the capital.Learn to learn, crazy to learn.I have no one else to rely on.I can only rely on myself.

At the age of 16, I took part in the imperial examination with full of ambitions. The name on the red list, the congratulations around me, the loud beating of the gong, I was the best in high school.Just when I thought I had finally seen the light of day.So other Jinshi of the same discipline have already received the imperial decree, but what I got was a sentence of expulsion from the government's official status on the grounds that the prostitute is the son of a woman.

The person who had a flattering face a few days ago immediately returned to his arrogant face.I close my eyes to keep myself from noticing the schadenfreude on their faces.

I told myself it was just a misery.Heaven will send a great mission to human beings, they must first set their hearts and minds, exhaust their muscles and bones, starve their bodies and skins, empty their bodies, and mess up their actions, so their hearts and minds are motivated, and they have benefited what they cannot do.

I read this sentence over and over again, telling myself to endure and wait.

I was removed from the imperial examination and had no hope of studying in the literature. I joined the army without hesitation.The hardships in the frontier can't get rid of my arrogance, but no matter how hard I try, I don't have any chance to stand out.The corruption of the frontier barracks is beyond my imagination.The poor living conditions of the soldiers, the rare salary has been exploited several layers from top to bottom.It is not enough to even solve food and clothing.Most of those generals were dudes.Civilians have no chance at all.

After persisting for two years, I finally left the barracks.If you fail the imperial examination, you will have no way to join the army.It's useless to be full of talent and ambition.Why are those dandies who only know how to have fun can wear official uniforms like dogs, while I, Gu Xichao, who has lived in poverty for ten years, is full of economics, and is familiar with military books and strategies, has no way out.

I hate the injustice of heaven!

I can't give up!Human beings are inherently mortal, either heavier than Mount Tai, or as light as a feather.Even if I Gu Xichao dies, his name will last forever.

If I can't be an official, I can still stand out as a counselor.

I stayed behind closed doors and spent four years writing The Book of War_Seven Strategies.But when I have my hard work in my arms, there is nowhere to go.None of those princes and ministers are willing to take a little time to read my book.Even took me as a joke.For a while, I became a joke in the capital.It's everyone who wants to step on me a few feet.

The overwhelming desperation almost overwhelmed me, almost.Aunt Qing's life, Aunt Qing's hope, my ten years of hard work and painstaking efforts.If I give myself up too.Then my life is really hopeless.

I have been devoted to studying and practicing martial arts, and I have never done anything to make money.There is not much money left by Aunt Qing.I just got to do downtown busking for a living.I hate the girls and women around me who point and point, or salivate and regret in my face.

I know what they are thinking, and I am even more disgusted.But I had to accept the money they left behind.Just to live.Even this kind of life makes me suffer every moment.I am very afraid that such a day will wipe out all my ambition and hope little by little.

Maybe God always has a little mercy for me. He sent a ray of light in the gray moment of my life, so that I have the strength to continue to persevere.Even though my marriage with Wan Qing ended in tragedy.Even though I don't love her anymore in the end, I'm still thankful that I met her at that time.Judging from the results, she and I are more like a bad relationship.It doesn't matter who drags whom down, maybe it's just meeting the right person at the wrong time.We have everything, we just lack the chance to be together.Maybe what Huang Bing did in the end was a good ending for her.At least Iron Hand would be a good husband, unlike me.Falling in love with her, marrying her, but unable to take good care of her or even give her his heart in the end.

On the day we met, I was throwing knives in a show, but no one wanted to be a target for it.I was worried about not being able to start the gong, and a girl stood up and said she would.Everyone will be dumbfounded when they first see her beauty.I couldn't bear to hurt her a little bit.Her beauty is unmatched!That was the most nervous shot since I practiced martial arts.Fortunately, several flying knives flew over, but none of them pierced her.Clinging tightly to her body.But who would have thought that she was crying.She said to me: Why are you so stupid?Don't miss and stab me to death!

I think I met a fallen fairy who was crying because she couldn't get home.At that time, I was already in love.Thinking about it now, maybe what Huang Bing said was right, I just admired her as a fairy, this kind of admiration, for me who was in the mud, was like encountering a wooden board when I was drowning, and I subconsciously grasped it tightly.I regard admiration and love as love.But there is one thing I know, if there is no Huang Bing, these admiration and love, after getting along for a long time, will also be transformed into love.I will fall in love with her.But there is no if.

Huang Bing's love was so hot that he burned himself and everyone else, and at the same time burned the relationship between me and Wan Qing to ashes.He used his life, his status, and everything as fuel to tell me, either accept him or fall in love with him.or die!

Sometimes, I wonder if the person I met first was Huang Bing.Doesn't everyone have to suffer so much?But what I finally met was the crying Wan Qing who made me feel at a loss.

I foolishly followed her and took care of her.Seeing her smile slowly, accepting me slowly.Like a child who always wants to be praised.Although she doesn't understand Qilue, she believes in my talent.Even though I knew my background, there was no trace of disdain.Those eyes were clean and inclusive.She accepted everything from me peacefully.Falling in love is just a matter of course.It's just that I didn't expect that she was the daughter of Prime Minister Fu.The gap between us is so huge.Knowing that there is no hope, I am still reluctant to give up.It feels so wonderful to be recognized, not to mention that the person who appreciates me is the girl I admire.

It was also at this time that I met Huang Bing.In fact, he is Zhao Bing.But I prefer to call him Huang Bing.Because in my heart, the one who saw my Qilue kept applauding.The person who chatted with me and was actually as talented as me in every aspect was that Huang Bing.

In fact, I never knew why he liked me. There were so many people, but he seemed to recognize me at the first sight.This kind of idea is too mysterious, and it makes me sour when I think about it countless times.

I took his silver, I took his token.I am in urgent need of an opportunity, an opportunity to display my ambitions.For Wanqing.For our budding love.

Before I knew Huang Bing's relationship, he and Wan Qing had different positions in my heart.But it's not as unimportant as he said.I don't deny that I want to use his mind, but he is different from Qi Shaoshang.I gave him affection, it was a sympathy, a confidant and a friend.

Huang Bing gave me hope.I finally missed this opportunity.Because of Wan Qing's initiative, we decided to get married.This is a combination that no one is optimistic about.For the rich lady and the down-and-out boy, love can never overcome reality.Even though I didn't wait for Huang Bing's introduction, at that time, I was still full of gratitude to him.He's my only friend even though we've only known each other for less than a month.On the night of the wedding, I sent him an invitation.

That night changed the trajectory between the three of us.I discovered Huang Bing's abnormality, and I also noticed something was wrong.But I forcibly suppressed all thoughts.I didn't know that everything was going crazy without me knowing it.

Huang Bing left.My wedding with Wan Qing has not yet come to an end.The wedding night was supposed to be wedding ceremony.But I met my father-in-law, Fu Zongshu, the prime minister of the dynasty for the first time.

It's not that he didn't see the disgust and contempt in his eyes, but at least he was willing to give me a chance to become a person worthy of Shang Wanqing.Without hesitation, I did what he asked me to do.The day after the wedding night, I got up and went to Lianyunzhai.He said that if I could eradicate Lianyunzhai, I would kill Qi Shaoshang, the leader of Lianyunzhai who was collaborating with the enemy and traitorous country.He then admitted my marriage with Wan Qing.It will also give me a chance to become an official.

I didn't come in time to say goodbye to Huang Bing.Then he went deep into Lianyun village.After inquiring for a long time, I successfully planned to meet Qi Shaoshang in a small shop "Qingting Restaurant" in the surrounding area. There was a meeting of heroes and heroes, and he played the piano and discussed swords with him, and became a confidant.Qi Shaoshang is indeed a hero, but that's all.He can understand my seven strategies, but he can't talk with me like Huang Bing.I don't know why I would think of Huang Bing from time to time when I was chatting with Qi Shaoshang, and even thought of his strange behavior that night, I was a little worried.But I know that Qi Shaoshang and I are not the same kind of people, so what about Huang Bing?He understands me, even I think he knows what's in my heart.But it is enough to have a confidant in life.Besides, Qi Shaoshang and I are destined to be enemies.

Because of the strategy, I was invited by Qi Shaoshang to Lianyunzhai and became the master.Regarding Qi Shaoshang's plan, I am slowly making arrangements.What I didn't expect was that Huang Bing actually came to Lianyunzhai to find me.He asked me to go back with him and leave Lianyunzhai. The person he wanted to introduce me to has returned.I have known for a long time that Huang Bing's identity is not simple.

I still declined.I know how rare this opportunity is.But since I have joined Prime Minister Fu's family, I must not betray.For Wan Qing who married me desperately.I can't do anything to hurt Mr. Yue Zhang.

What I didn't expect was that Huang Bing actually knew my real purpose in Lianyunzhai.At that moment, I immediately took precautions.If Huang Bing came from the court, he would be on the opposite side of Prime Minister Fu.Will I be the killer?

As soon as my guard was exposed, I was dismissed by Huang Bing.He said he would wait for me, and return to Beijing with him after I had finished dealing with the matter of Lianyunzhai.He revealed his identity.Today's compatriot brother, Lord Bing, Zhao Bing.The only prince who does not appear in the court but enjoys the highest salary.

The person he'd been trying to introduce me to all this time turned out to be Today.Even though he was hurt by my subconscious performance, he still didn't give up on me and spread everything in front of me.

After hesitating, I accepted his help.If I can get what I want without accepting Prime Minister Fu's help.Only in this way can I truly match Shang Wanqing.

I promised him that after this mission is completed and I give Prime Minister Fu an explanation, I will go back to the capital with him.Seeing his smile warms my heart.Even though my utilitarianism is low and his status is noble, he still regards me as a bosom friend.This is the real friend.

It's just that I don't know that I will never have the chance to go back to Beijing with him.

The plans were all laid out, and actions were launched against the plans of Qi Shaoshang and Lian Yunzhai.It's just that even though I was conceited about strategy, I underestimated the loyalty in the bones of those people in Lian Yunzhai and the energy that exploded at the critical moment of life and death.Lianyunzhai was destroyed, but Qi Shaoshang was still alive.

Several pursuits have failed.Qi Shaoshang's luck was surprisingly good.Fu Cheng was so disappointed with me that he actually sent Jin Lin, who called himself cousin Wan Qing, to participate in this mission.This is an arrogant, lustful idiot.But his arrival still broke my control over my subordinates.Except for a small part of these people who were recruited by me, the rest are all from Prime Minister Fu.His people are subject to his orders.

Tieshou and Zhuiming also came to Lianyunzhai.In order to arrest Qi Shaoshang.

Then the appearance of Wan Qing made me even more physically and mentally exhausted.Something collapsed at the sight of the weirdness between her and the Iron Hand.I don't know whether I should be sad or hate.It's not me she loves, why should she marry me.There is nothing more cruel than this.The matter between Tie Shou and Wan Qing hit the bottom of my heart.All those inferiority complexes and negative emotions that I had deliberately suppressed today spewed out.

In return for my questioning, Wan Qing's anger and cold war.

She is wronged.But who understands my uneasiness and helplessness.

my enterprise

Trying to get myself drunk to numb the pain that almost drives me crazy.Only Huang Bing was by my side as always.I indulged that trace of drunkenness and poured out my pain to him.

I was really taken aback when he kissed my lips.Even though I was faintly aware of it, I never wanted to believe it in my heart.So I ignore the sadness in his eyes sometimes, the struggle in his eyes.It's like I clearly know that the exposure of Tie Shou and Wan Qing this time is his fuel.I still didn't have the courage to confront him.I am afraid, I am afraid that knowing the answer will make me unbearable.I will lose a lot.

But he never gave me a chance to escape.Bare his heart completely in front of Me.He is not willing to give up.He likes me.

I was like yelling loudly, don't say it.That is not true.not real.But the voice in my ear told me it was true.it is true.

My friend, my confidant, he loves me.is love.

Obviously because of my childhood experience, I should hate this kind of person and this kind of thing the most.But that person was him, but I was only full of complexities.Even though I have already married Wan Qing, I still love Wan Qing.But when he heard his possessive words, he was only at a loss and at a loss.Not the slightest bit of other negativity.

I always knew that Huang Bing was different from me, but I didn't know what this difference meant.

It was I who confused love with admiration, friendship with love.That's why he wasn't happy even when he died.I can never figure out whether it is his tragedy or mine that he fell in love with me.It was a tragedy, but I finally admitted this love after he left forever.Either for him or for me.

I like Wan Qing, but I fell in love with him first because of his overbearing and madness.

What Zhui Ming said may be right, he and I are really a match made in heaven.Only I can understand his madness, accept and fall in love with him.This kind of love is too painful and intense, he would rather not have it.

But he, like me, had no way out the moment he got entangled with Huang Bing.

That kiss made me realize the boundary between me and Huang Bing.But the next appearance of Zhui Ming made me find myself ridiculously jealous.

Zhui Ming's natural possessiveness towards Huang Bing made my heart constrict.When did it start to be in my heart? Huang Bing is by my side as a matter of course, only by my side.

I covered my face with a wry smile, and immediately made up my mind to cut off this dangerous feeling.I told myself, I love Wanqing, only Wanqing.

I apologized, and Wanqing and Wanqing finally reconciled.It's just the kindness and beauty that once made my heart beat.But it seems that it can no longer arouse my heartbeat.The fairy stepped down from the altar, only to find that the fairy is also a mortal, a lady who is too ideal and does not understand affairs.But she is my wife, and it is my choice.All my life I can only love her, and must love her.

I found Huang Bing and told him that I only love Wan Qing.But I didn't expect to get a thing that almost made my jaw drop.He had a relationship with Zhui Ming, because of my wedding with Wan Qing, because of a self-paralyzed drunk.Although I know that Zhui Ming is not that kind of person, but I am willing to believe everything Huang Bing says.

I watched him roar in pain and excitement, he said he felt so dirty, he wanted to die!His eyes told me his loathing for himself.

Because of his words, my heart felt as if it was stabbed by a knife. It was obviously painful, but I still clearly felt the pain that was intensifying.

I fought with Zhui Ming, but in the end I still didn't dare to admit that touch of emotion.

I can only say sorry in my heart.I finally understood why he was so eager to calculate and persecute. Even though he was heartbroken at the beginning of my wedding with Wan Qing, he still didn't embarrass me.I'm his reason for living, and he's already driving himself crazy.For the first time, I'm glad that Wan Qing and I are not really married.But now my relationship with Wanqing cannot be denied.I will not be qualified to accept him until everything has been settled.I want to hold him and tell him that no matter what he is, I love him too.Figured it all out.Before I could act, I got Qi Shaoshang's trace.

I immediately suspected fraud.Start anti-exploitation and set up traps.This is an opportunity to kill Qi Shaoshang and his group of friends all at once.What made me helpless was that I also found out what Huang Bing was doing behind the scenes.The shock and anger at the beginning turned into bitterness when I saw Huang Bing block the sword for me.With a tight heart, how can I continue to deceive myself?Even if he knew that this person was Huang Bing, so what?Even if he wanted to kill Wanqing, I couldn't bear to criticize him.

Luckily he only hurt his shoulder.Pull out the sword, stop the bleeding and you'll be fine.Seeing that he was safe and sound, I left to find Tie Shou to discuss about Qi Shaoshang.The guilt towards Wan Qing almost overwhelmed me.This kind of guilt even extended to Prime Minister Fu, that's why I fought against the iron hand and demanded to kill Qi Shaoshang.As for Qi Shaoshang's feelings for me?He was dying anyway.

It's just that Fu Zongshu was the real traitor.

Knowing the truth from Huang Bing's mouth, it's rare for me to be shocked.If there is no Huang Bing, I fell in love with Wan Qing, what will happen in the end?It's not hard to imagine.But this doesn't lessen my guilt towards Wan Qing.

I told Huang Bing that I would no longer pay attention to Fu Zongshu, but let him spare Wan Qing.I will give Wan Qing a break.

At that time, I just thought she would be happier without me.she and

Yellow ice is different.

But I was careless and didn't notice Huang Bing's strangeness.My feelings for him are too complicated. There are love, friendship, and kindness. All kinds of emotions are mixed together, which makes me feel confused.Could it be that as long as I calm down and be careful, even if I can't save his life, I can make him die happily.

I didn't expect him to die.He got me in the craziest way.It was so shocking that I lost my chance to finally tell him I love him.

When I woke up, what I got was the news that he had died.This news is driving me nuts.

I want to tell him that I forgive him no matter what he does.Regarding the matter of Tie Shou and Wan Qing, I will take responsibility with him.

I want to tell him, don't get involved with Zhui Ming, I don't like it, I will be jealous.

I want to tell him, stay with me, I love you too.Since you did those things to me, you must be responsible to me.

But how could he die?

So crazy, so desperate, is it because you know you will die?He was sentenced by the imperial physician not to be emotional since he was born.He fell in love with me.

He died for me.

I touched the rose engraved on my chest, where his name was written.

However, I never had time to tell him that he got it.He has long since had my love.

I have already drawn a prison for you.So how about waiting for me on the Naihe bridge?