The school grass must suck me every day to survive [Transmigration Book]

Qingyan hugged Lu Lijiang tightly, wanting him to feel his care and love for him.

He wanted Lu Lijiang to understand

When he was saddest and most helpless, he would stand firmly behind him and spend it with him.

Because he had experienced the despair before dying in his previous life, Qingyan could empathize with Lu Lijiang's collapse and helplessness at this moment.

He doesn't laugh at him, doesn't dislike him, but loves him very, very, very much.

Also love him more.

In his previous life, he passed away early, never had a heart for anyone, and naturally he never confessed his love to anyone.

Just now he was just replying to Lu Lijiang's question, sentence by sentence, he gave him the answer according to his true thoughts.

He didn't know if this sincerity could be regarded as a confession.

But he hoped that Lu Lijiang could understand his intentions.

Lu Lijiang's words didn't shock him, nor did they make him sad.

But in the end, all his emotions turned into love for Lu Lijiang.

He was not afraid that he would leave in two years, but he was afraid that he would not be able to communicate with him in the first few days.

So even if, as Lu Lijiang said, the time is wrong, the place is wrong, and even the confession is wrong, he still has to express it firmly.

As long as the man is right, he doesn't care about the rest.

All he cared about was Lu Lijiang who was in his arms, that's all.

Qingyan stuck to Lu Lijiang's back, and softly repeated his thoughts again.

He said: "Lu Lijiang, I love you and will always be with you."

Lu Lijiang never knew that his taciturn little roommate was so good at talking about love.

In just a short time, all the wounds in his heart were healed.

The tears stopped, his sanity returned, and he straightened his body slightly.

Sensing Lu Lijiang's change, Qingyan let go of him, and just stood behind him without moving.

Lu Lijiang stood up, stood facing Qingyan, and looked at him seriously and affectionately with downcast eyes.

Qingyan looked back at him with the same eyes.

In the small dormitory, the two looked at each other and stood by the desk.

It was getting dark outside the window, and there were boarding students walking back and forth to communicate outside the door.

It's just that all of this has nothing to do with them. At this moment, their eyes and hearts are the same, only each other.

The clock on the wall was ticking, not as fast as their hearts.

Lu Lijiang leaned closer to Qingyan, Qingyan who was standing upright was not afraid, he closed his eyes and stepped forward to meet him slightly.

Before he could curl up his hands hanging on both sides, they were all pulled up by Lu Lijiang.

One by one, Lu Lijiang inserted/inserted his fingers into Qingyan's, and clasped his fingers tightly.

At the same time, his warm lips also fell on Qingyan's lips.

It starts with a light touch.

Lu Lijiang touched Qingyan.

Qingyan's long and dense eyelashes trembled slightly.

But he didn't dodge, and he took the initiative to loosen his tight lips when Lu Lijiang was probing.

The clock on the wall is still running, every second, telling the world that time is always passing.

Qingyan and Lu Lijiang delivered their sincerity in the flowing time, the two went from green and impulsive to gentle and lingering, with ambiguous and intertwined breaths.

"It's snowing!" Outside the window, someone shouted.

The dormitory building became noisy, which was caused by the students who lived in the school opening their windows or going outside to watch the snow.

Outside the window, heavy snow fell from the sky one after another, falling on every part of the city.

Some people are carnival in the snow, some are laughing in the snow, and some are quietly watching in the snow.

But none of this affected the two teenagers in the dormitory.

They were still holding each other, embracing each other affectionately and kissing tenderly on the night of the first snow.

When it was eleven o'clock, Lu Lijiang turned off the light and went to bed after washing.

He got on Qingyan's bed.

Qingyan slept on his side inside, Lu Lijiang lay down gently next to him, turned sideways, he hugged Qingyan from behind.

Like before, Qingyan hugged him from behind.

Sensing the person beside him, Qingyan raised his hand to hold Lu Lijiang's hand on his waist.

Before that, Lu Lijiang clasped his fingers tightly around him.

The night was very dark, and the snow outside the window was still falling.

The two slept close together on a bed in a small dormitory.

No one spoke.

Time passed by every minute and every second, the night was getting deeper and deeper, and the dormitory was quiet and peaceful.

"Lu Lijiang."

After an unknown amount of time, Qingyan called out.

Lu Lijiang pressed against his back and softly replied, "Yes."

Qingyan fell asleep on his side and didn't move, he only asked in a low voice: "Do you want me?"

Lu Lijiang's hand held by Qingyan moved slightly.

Silence spread in the dormitory.

For a moment, he spoke, it was the most authentic voice.

"I want to, but I can't," he said.

Qing Yan pursed his lower lip, no longer backed down, and asked directly: "Why?"

In the dark night, Qingyan stared at the void with his eyes open, without feeling sleepy.

He didn't ask Lu Lijiang this question for no reason, because before leaving the Lu family's old house, Qing Yue had mentioned to him that he could not have a relationship with Lu Lijiang, otherwise Lu Lijiang would die.

There was so much going on tonight, and the amount of information he received, that he hadn't had time to think deeply.

Just now, when Lu Lijiang went to take a shower, he lay on the bed and sorted out all the information.

——Lu Lijiang is sick and can only live to be 20 years old. During this period, he will get sick, and the sickness will be painful.

——He is Lu Lijiang's "medicine", as long as he is there, Lu Lijiang will be free from pain when he gets sick.

——His role is only to save Lu Lijiang from suffering, not to let him continue to live.

——He can't have a relationship with Lu Lijiang, otherwise it will speed up Lu Lijiang's departure.

The first two letters from Thaksin are true, but the latter two are doubtful.

He didn't believe Qingyue's words, he wanted to ask Lu Lijiang for proof.

Because Lu Lijiang promised him that he would not lie to him.

So when Lu Lijiang answered "I want to, but I can't", he didn't stop, but continued to ask.

It's not actually his habit.

But it's related to Lu Lijiang, /Qingyan doesn't know how many times he broke the bottom line and how many habits.

Because to him, nothing is important, only Lu Lijiang is the most important.

When Lu Lijiang was silent, Qingyan just waited quietly.

After a long while, Lu Lijiang's sad voice sounded again in the dark night.

Qingyan heard him press on his back and replied softly: "Because it will make me leave faster."

The scorching heat came from the back, it was the breath that Lu Lijiang exhaled when he spoke, and it came in through the thin material of pajamas.

Qingyan only felt that Lu Lijiang's words made his chest resonate with each other, humming slightly.

It made his heart throb with pain.

Right.

Qingyue's words matched Lu Lijiang's answer.

Therefore, the latter two are also true.

Qingyan let go of Lu Lijiang's hand, turned over in the dark, and hugged Lu Lijiang frontally.

Sensing his movements, Lu Lijiang hugged him even tighter.

Their chests were pressed against each other, their fingers still intertwined.

Qingyan nestled on Lu Lijiang's chest and said, "Yes, I see."

After a pause, he continued, "It just so happens that I don't want it either."

Even in the dark night, with such a heavy heart, Qingyan's ears were still red.

How could he not want it? Ever since his accident at Qing's Hotel, he had recalled the scene of Lu Lijiang helping him in his dreams many times.

Once, he didn't wake up hot and dry.

But compared to Lu Lijiang's health and safety, Qingyan feels that not doing that kind of thing is really worth mentioning.

Lu Lijiang was originally confessing because he lied to his little roommate again.

One, two, three, starting from the first lie, there must be countless lies to complete.

He clearly knew it was for Qing Yan's benefit, but when he thought that he had promised not to lie to him on the surface, but had lied to him many times behind the scenes, Lu Lijiang felt uncomfortable.

His Yanyan asked him, do you want him?

No need to ask, I really want to!

He's been thinking about it since the day his accident happened.

Not only confession, he even planned their first/night.

What he thought was that Qingyan was still young, and he didn't confess his love, so he must have to take advantage of him without knowing it.

After the two of them confirm their relationship as a couple and get the approval of their family members, they must choose a warm and ambiguous time and place, and give each other completely and thoroughly.

So much so that when I recall it when I am old, I still remember the beauty and enthusiasm of that day.

But he can't.

It's not a lie, it really can't.

Nothing was more important than the health and safety of his little roommate, and he wouldn't risk him even a little bit.

Things are such things, and so are words.

But when he first heard his little roommate say "I just don't want it either", Lu Lijiang was still frustrated.

He was thinking, he can't be so unattractive.

And last time at the hotel, Qingyan obviously said he liked his right hand.

Even though he knew that Qingyan might be using his own methods to appease him, Lu Lijiang decided to justify himself.

After thinking for a while, he tightly hugged Qingyan's hand, making their bodies fit even tighter.

"Yanyan." Lu Lijiang called out.

Qing Yan muffled under the quilt and replied: "Yes."

Lu Lijiang clasped Qingyan's hand, and placed it on Qingyan's waist, resting there.

He said: "Although we can't really have a relationship, if you need it, I can also help you.

You know, I'm not bad at technology. "

They were already close, but now that his hand was about to touch his sensitive area, Qing Yan could only feel his heart pounding.

The fire that sprang up from the body also had the potential to start a prairie fire.

Now Lu Lijiang still whispered such words in his ears, even though his heart was heavy, Qingyan still felt ashamed and flustered.

Moreover, how could he provoke such a topic at such a time? !

"Lu Lijiang." Qingyan gritted his teeth and called him, "Shut up!"

Hearing his little roommate Yumao, Lu Lijiang chuckled softly.

He raised his head with one hand, looked at Qingyan through the dark night, and laughed casually: "Yanyan, although you are my partner now, I still have to reason with you. It was obviously you who started the topic. Should I shut up?!"

Lu Lijiang's laughing voice was very pleasant, deep and mellow, very attractive.

Now it rang above Qingyan's ear, and he said "you are my object now".

Qing Yan only felt that the temperature on his face was getting higher.

He pulled the quilt up and directly covered half of his face, before replying in a muffled voice, "I... I won't say anything, sleep!"

Lu Lijiang refused to give in.

He continued: "Really, Yanyan. Do you want to try it? If you want other new tricks, I can do it too."

"Lu Lijiang!" Qing Yan threw away Lu Lijiang's hand on his waist, moved inside, trying to distance himself from him, "I'm going to sleep."

Then how could Lu Lijiang agree.

As soon as Qingyan fell asleep against the wall, Lu Lijiang pounced on him. He didn't want to really press him down, but propped himself on the bed and continued to speak softly in his ear.

"Want to sleep?" Lu Lijiang asked, all the warm breath sprayed on Qingyan's earlobe.

He chuckled lightly in the dark night, "When I see other people falling in love, they all call me brother. How about calling me brother and listening to me, and I'll let you sleep?"

Qingyan pulled the quilt again, covering his whole head directly.

Fortunately, it is night, Qingyan thought.

Otherwise, Lu Lijiang would definitely be able to see his blushing face.

He doesn't have to be a human anymore!

He couldn't understand how Lu Lijiang's ability to adapt was so strong. One second they were still discussing life and death, and the next he started teasing him.

I don't know who the person was crying on the desk just now.

Qingyan was so angry that he was dying of shame.

He would not call Lu Lijiang such a shameful name, so he said bitterly: "If you dare to face me with this request like a young man, I will agree to you."

Tsk tsk tsk, threatened him.

Lu Lijiang is not afraid.

His hand that was about to be thrown away by Qingyan slowly stretched out to the old position, continued to stick to Qingyan's earlobe, and said softly: "No conflict, you call Qingyue brother during the day, and call me brother at night."

Qingyan wanted to beat Lu Lijiang to death.

What confession, what comfort?

I don't know how strong his psychological quality is, so he will start to be alive and kicking again.

Qingyan closed his eyes and stopped Lu Lijiang's dishonest hand again.

Just when he was about to let Lu Lijiang go back to sleep on his own bed, he heard Lu Lijiang's voice again.

This time, he didn't move, and he didn't make fun of it anymore.

He just said in a low voice: "Yanyan, although I can't be with you for a long time, I want to give you what others have.

Similarly, what other people have, I want too. "

It's not like the casualness just now, but now I feel wronged and sad.

Qingyan's heart suddenly softened, and he swallowed back the scolding words in his mouth.

Turning over, he gently hugged Lu Lijiang, nestled in his arms and whispered, "Good night, brother."

Obedient and well-behaved.