The school grass must suck me every day to survive [Transmigration Book]

Although he had some indigestion, when he heard his grandfather mentioning himself and Qingyan, Lu Lijiang straightened up and was ready to listen carefully.

"All these years, your uncle has always thought that the girl's departure was the reason for the girl, until today you asked him to call to invite Qingyue to your birthday party, and implicitly expressed that Yanyan was Qingyue's younger brother, your uncle Only then did I feel something was wrong.

Because that girl's name is Fu Wanqing, and she is the younger sister of Qingyue's mother, Fu Wankong, also Yanyan's little aunt. "

Lu Lijiang was taken aback.

How could there be such a coincidence? !

Grandpa saw through his thoughts, nodded, and said, "It's such a coincidence. The Qing family knew about Fu Wanqing's relationship with your uncle, so when Fu Wanqing left, the Qing family thought she had passed away, so they treated your uncle Uncle has great opinions.

After all, after she met your uncle, she didn't go back to Qing's house, and lived with your uncle all the time.

Even her dependent sister, Yanyan's mother, Fu Wankong, always thought that she died because of your uncle.

Fu Wankong couldn't bear the blow of losing his only sister, so he also suffered from mild depression.

Although she and the Qing family haven't troubled your uncle all these years, you can also tell that our two families are not close, which is why Qingyue refused to come to your birthday party in the first place.

It's just that your uncle thinks that the one who cleans up is himself, not to mention that the girl he loves is leaving, and he doesn't care about the Qing family's hostility.

Even in the two years when Qing's family just returned to China, he secretly helped Qingyue a lot.

From the beginning to the end, your uncle thought that Fu Wanqing's departure was because of herself, and that she would keep her promise and come back after 18 years.

Because the destined person of our Lu family has never designated a particular family, and there has never been such a special situation as Fu Wanqing leaving early.

It wasn't until today that your uncle found out about the relationship between Yanyan and Fu Wanqing that he realized that maybe his thinking was wrong.

He was afraid that Fu Wanqing might really save him from disaster.

If this is the case, Yanyan and her are a family, and it is also possible for you and Yanyan to replicate their mistakes and tragedies.

Because he was not sure, he asked me to discuss it.

And I'm telling you the truth now

You can be with Yanyan, but it is very likely that after you have sex, Yanyan will leave, and if you don't have sex, you are destined to leave.

Fu Wanqing hasn't shown up until today, so you should understand what it's like to leave.

Of course, this is just a guess, and it is likely to be nonsense.

As for whether you believe it or not, whether you should tell Yanyan or not, and what you should do, these are all things that you should consider yourself as an adult. "

After Grandpa finished speaking, he took a sip from his teacup, and then looked at Lu Lijiang who hadn't regained his composure.

Lu Lijiang was greatly affected

The joy and hope that had just entered the study room were gone in the truth and guesses that grandpa told slowly, and now he was only left with heavy thoughts.

For the past 18 years, for a long time he thought he was doomed.

After meeting Qingyan, he always thought that he could survive.

Later, he fell in love with his little roommate, and he longed for a happy life with Qingyan to grow old together.

Everything was getting better in an orderly manner, and he even planned everything when he confessed.

But just when he felt that his little roommate was thinking so much about him, Grandpa suddenly said these words to him.

what does this look like

A basin of cold water poured him a chill?

No no no, more than that.

Like a person who has walked to the limit in the desert and finally returned home, he thought he had escaped death but was found to have terminal cancer.

He couldn't tell whether it was the pain of dying of thirst or the pain of dying of cancer.

Lu Lijiang's mind was in a mess, but at the end, he suddenly felt lucky.

Fortunately, on the day Qingyan was killed, he only used his hands to relieve Qingyan's pain, but did not really touch Qingyan, otherwise... the consequences would be disastrous.

Although Grandpa said that this is just a conjecture, it may not be true.

But Lu Lijiang didn't dare to take the risk.

As it was about Qingyan, he dared not take any risks.

He can die, anyway, he is destined to die if he doesn't meet Qingyan, but Qingyan shouldn't pay for his life.

His Yanyan is good-looking, smart, and excellent, and he has just been recognized by his relatives, so he will have a bright life in the future.

after that……

Thinking about it, Lu Lijiang felt bitter in his heart.

Because after Qingyan's death, there will be no him.

Afterwards, his Yanyan will meet a person who is healthy and loves him enough to accompany him for a long time until he grows old.

His Yanyan would be good enough and happy enough without him.

He couldn't hurt Yanyan, not at all.

And he himself is good enough now.

Lu Lijiang collected himself and told himself repeatedly in his heart

It's good enough now, Lu Lijiang.

You are lucky to meet Yanyan, who can save you from suffering from illness until you are 20 years old.

He cares about you and cares about you, but you can be at the same table with him as you love, be a roommate, hug him every day, and be with him, what are you expecting? !

It's just death. The thing you've been prepared for since you were ten years old really came, and you're starting to be afraid again? !

It's okay, it's really okay.

There are two more years, you can stay with Yanyan for another two years, you should be content.

The chaotic thoughts gradually became clear, and Lu Lijiang let out a soft breath.

Grandpa watched his every move and just waited quietly without disturbing him at all.

In the end Lu Lijiang raised his eyes, there was no worry and panic in his eyes, only calmness and firmness remained in his eyes.

Grandpa put down his teacup and asked softly, "Have you made your decision?"

Lu Lijiang nodded heavily and said firmly, "I choose to continue loving him and leave by myself."

Both grandpa and grandson understand what "leaving" means.

Hearing such an answer, although Grandpa Lu felt pained in his heart, there was also pride in his eyes.

"Okay." He complied with Lu Lijiang's decision.

After the memories were over, Lu Lijiang raised his eyes to meet Qing Yan's gaze that had been waiting for him.

His heart was aching, one after another, thin and dense, like rows of small crabs crawling in the softest part of his heart.

Lu Lijiang smiled wryly, drooping his eyelashes.

He didn't dare to look directly into Qingyan's clean and serious eyes, he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to tell a lie.

After all, the person standing in front of him is his true love.

And he just promised that he would not lie to him in the future.

After a moment of silence, Lu Lijiang finally spoke, "Grandpa said, I'm not going to get better from this illness.

Even if you meet your destiny, you can only relieve the pain, and you will still die when you are 20 years old. "

Lu Lijiang lowered his head and said softly. Speaking of this, he crossed his hands on his forehead and hung them down, in a very hurt and sad position.

And his hoarse and trembling voice also confirmed his sadness and discomfort at the moment.

What Lu Lijiang said was not completely a lie, at least what he said next came from the heart.

He said: "So, I don't know if I should confess my love to you now.

I don't know if you will believe that I want to be with you because I love you, not because of this disease.

I don't know if you will accept me who is destined to leave after two years.

Don't know you now, do you love me a little bit? "

At the end, his voice choked up, and warm tears fell on the desk.

He dare not look at Qingyan.

He was afraid that Qingyan would see through him, and he was also afraid that Qingyan would reject him.

He has made a comprehensive plan for the time, place, and even how to express his love.

He wants to give his Yanyan a perfect, and also wants to give his Yanyan an unforgettable confession moment.

He wants his Yanyan to know that he loves him, that's why he wants to go to Baitou with him.

He also wants his Yanyan to know that from now on, he, Lu Lijiang, will stand by his side from beginning to end, and will not let him suffer or be wronged alone, and he will accompany him through every minute of his life. In seconds, I watched every scene of the rest of my life.

He has thought of everything.

He even thought about what breed of dog he would raise after the two got together.

But now, he can't do it.

He only has two years, and he doesn't know if Qingyan wants the two years.

he screwed up everything

Inappropriate time, incorrect place, unqualified confession, on this terrible night, he casually said it out.

Lu Lijiang felt extremely embarrassed and very sad.

When Grandpa told him those words, he didn't break down.

When he made up his mind to choose to die, he didn't collapse.

But the moment he revealed his inner thoughts to his little roommate, he collapsed.

Thorough, complete, without reason and image.

This is not the result he wants, nor is it what he really wants to reveal to Qingyan.

But he just lost control and screwed it all up.

Lu Lijiang supported his head with his hands, all the bitterness and astringency in his heart turned into warm tears, which fell on the desk drop by drop.

He couldn't remember the last time he cried.

Kindergarten?maybe!

But now, like a child who couldn't control his emotions, he cried bitterly in front of his beloved.

What a mess, Lu Lijiang.

If I were Qingyan, I wouldn't want such a cowardly you.

Lu Lijiang thought in his heart.

Just when he was so embarrassed that he wanted to leave the dormitory immediately, he felt someone hugging him gently from behind.

The movement is very light, but very hard, wrapping his arms around his waist, and sticking him tightly.

The man stuck behind him, and replied softly but firmly: "Lu Lijiang, I love you."

The familiar fruit fragrance invaded his nostrils, and Lu Lijiang's body froze for a moment.

For a moment, his brain exploded, and then his reason and consciousness fled. He didn't know how to react.

And the man said softly to him: "You don't need to confess, I'll just come.

I believe you are with me because you love me, not because of healing.

Of course I am willing to accept you, no matter you have a long life, or only two short years, or only two days, as long as it is you, I am willing.

Also, I love you, not just a little, but a lot. "

It is his rock.

It was Yanyan who was hugging him tightly now.

He stuck it on his back, and answered all the questions he had babbled just now, one by one seriously and piously.

The author has something to say: This chapter gives out red envelopes with two points to comfort you.