rebirth grass

Li Yibei felt that his life, which was as simple as white paper, was suddenly painted over by someone, and it was still so thick and colorful.

What's worse is that he started to have that kind of charming dream with Li Yuege's clear face and expression, and when he woke up in the morning, his body was full of powerless sourness.There are many ways to grow up, but he doesn't know why he is this kind, panicked and unable to escape.

For a long time when school started, he avoided Li Yuege. He didn't know how to correct the distorted trajectory, and he only wanted to escape.It was a very frightening feeling to have a strange feeling for a familiar same-sex person, and a superfluous look from others would make him feel that he was seen as different from others.

At that time, he thought that Li Yuege was just indifferent to people, not the cold nature he later realized.

The 15-year-old Pianpian boy has begun to show his harsh indifference when he is admired by many girls, but under the cover of his handsome appearance and personality, all he sees is the beauty of temptation.

Li Yibei has never been infatuated with Li Yuege because of his false appearance, but he is more irresistible than anyone else. He doesn't even know when this stubbornness is rooted in his heart.

I met Yan Sa in the library. He shuttled between the bookshelves, took out the book he was looking for, and bumped into a boy with a strong and indifferent temperament when he turned around.

Li Yibei concealed the book behind his back for a while, said sorry and walked away sideways.

When passing by, the boy glanced at the book in his hand, and then took a deep look at him.

Li Yibei had seen this boy in school, Yan Sa, a gloomy and indifferent second-year student who lived alone.

Yan Sa chased him later.

Yan Sa opened a secret door for him, and those things beyond the scope of cognition subverted his whole life.

He felt that Yan Sa might not like him, he just found the instinct of the same kind to approach him.

Li Yibei doesn't dislike this approach, Yan Sa treats him like an older brother, teaching him to accept himself and understand this group.

It was a bit chaotic during that time, full of worries but refusing to think, just evading Li Yuege in many small places.

Yan Sa taught him to experience sex at the beginning of the second year of high school, in a hidden corner in the afternoon, under the shadow of the sun, and with that kind of deep helplessness, even Yan Sa didn't feel any special pleasure when he put his mouth in his mouth.

Then he saw Li Yuege's face.

At that moment, he didn't have any fear that he should have, and his chest was full of perverted excitement. He stared into Li Yuege's eyes and smiled, then groaned exaggeratedly.

He thought, let's finish this, it's already so hopeless anyway.

But in the classroom, Li Yuege waited there, with the kind of indifferent probing eyes that could poke a hole in him.

He was nailed in place by this kind of gaze, with a layer of cold sweat on his back, but he still held on to a stiff smile stubbornly. The contradiction of deciding to break the tank but trying to straighten his back squeezed his heart left and right, even The rhythm of breathing is rotten.

Li Yuege stared at him for a while, but his expression suddenly softened. He brushed his fingertips over his lips, leaned closer and asked, "Would you do that to someone?"

The process of doing it for Li Yuege was very chaotic, his mouth was moving, his mind went blank, and he even forgot what Li Yuege's reaction was.

In the end, Li Yuege hugged him, and the voice next to his ear was a little confused, "Beibei, what exactly do you want?"

After that day, he hadn't seen Yan Sa again, and Li Yuege, who usually didn't care much about his emotions, seemed to be stationed in his life, but his taste had changed, and he couldn't find the feeling he used to have at all. An ambiguous act of expressing one's heart is nothing to Li Yuege.

As for whether it is impossible to understand or difficult to avoid intentionally, he has no way of knowing.

This kind of stalemate pushed him from the extreme of escaping to another extreme - he seduced Li Yuege into bed.

After performing the sacrificial posture, he cried out in pain on the bed. His psychological and physical feelings were unexpectedly bad.Using a taboo relationship to maintain unspeakable feelings is outrageously wrong. The only way to save it is to throw away the shame and disguise yourself layer by layer.Li Yuege is not interested in a long-term relationship with someone, nor does he have any desire for someone. He can only accompany Li Yuege to study hard in school, and do nothing outside of school.

His father's car accident happened during the winter vacation of the second year of high school. The vacation before the Spring Festival was very short. He spent a lot of time hanging out with Li Yuege, doing homework, watching movies, or having sex wrapped in a thick blanket.

He also stayed with Li Yuege that day, and his father had been waiting to see him for the last time without seeing him.

When she came home the next day, Wanran slapped him across the face.

Since he was a child, he has never been bothered by anyone, but every time he makes a mistake, it hurts his muscles and bones.

Yao Wanran didn't ask him where he went that night, because she didn't care about him from that day on.

Life is like a roller coaster, turning sharply at an unexpected place, and then falling straight down without weight, until you can't see where the bottom of the pit is.

Li Yuege accompanied him through the coldest Spring Festival. He got drunk and accidentally smashed Li Yuege's head.Li Yuege sat with him all night, and the next morning his face was still covered with dried blood.

If there was still a willingness to back down before, then this time it is really beyond redemption.

He volunteered for the college entrance examination and filled in a school close to Li Yuege. After the military training, Li Yuege rented an apartment outside.

The first two years were as smooth as flowing water, but it was a period of time with the deepest illusions, and even felt that even if they didn't say a word of like, their love would be a matter of course.

When he was in junior year, Li Yuege was too busy. He was busy in school and outside. Li Yibei only saw him for a week or half a month. It was boring to eat alone, so he just moved back to school. .

Li Yuege didn't know that he had moved out until a few weeks later, and when he found the school, he smiled and said to him, "If you want to get out, you have to say hello, right?"

Li Yibei was holding a cup to drink water, and after a second of stunned, he smashed the cup over. The cup missed Li Yuege and shattered into debris on the wall.

"What the hell do you mean?"

Li Yuege locked the bedroom door from the inside, and sat on the bed next to him with a calm expression, still thinking about teasing him, "Why are you losing your temper? Like women, you smash whatever you get."

"What do I mean by asking you?" Li Yibei refused to let go.They have seen very little time recently, but each time they have disputes over some inexplicable things.

Li Yuege is often overbearing and unreasonable. Li Yibei really hates his feeling of being manipulated and controlled.

Li Yuege just smiled, the kind of cold and coquettish smile he was familiar with, "You make me never see you every time I go back, what do you mean you moved out?"

"Don't say it like you love me." Li Yibei lowered his eyelashes, and the corners of his lips curved like a sneer.

Li Yuege never took such provocative words seriously, so he changed his face and quickly softened, "Come here, let me hug you."

Li Yibei stood still.

Li Yuege had no choice but to pull the man over and sit on his lap, touched his earlobe and said, "Master, are you sure that you really live comfortably in school?"

"At least I don't have to cook for others, and I don't have to be pressured by others."

"Then who are you going to pressure?" Li Yuege touched his lower body a few times erotically, "Next time you make such a decision on your own, don't expect me to coax you again."

The tense atmosphere just now cooled down again because of Li Yuege's few words, Li Yibei got off his lap, "Li Yuege, the most annoying thing about you is that you don't take others seriously, I'm not leaving You can't survive."

Li Yuege is also tired of this kind of scene where children talk about love. He is so busy that he doesn't even have time to sleep. Seeing that Li Yibei wants to relax instead of arguing with such boring fights, he is like those young lovers in school. Even a trivial matter can make people blush.Li Yibei can be self-willed and act like a baby, but he must have a degree.

They are all men, why should they be so ugly.

Li Yuege felt that it was boring, so he walked away without forgetting to leave a sentence when he went out, "Move me back early!"

Li Yibei kicked the door behind him.

This time the Cold War lasted a long time.

Li Yibei is free and unrestrained, and has a lot of friends in school. During that time, he changed out to hang out with others, and filled up his time every day.

He seldom drank alcohol at first, but he got very drunk in that accident, and he didn't know how he was taken to bed by his senior brother.When he opened his eyes, what he saw was Li Yuege's furious face, and the slap he swung over was so strong that he was brought directly to the ground.

Li Yuege didn't give him a chance to explain at all, and beat him to death directly.