you're nothing but scum

There was a knock on the door, and when I looked back and saw my mother, I remembered that I was in the hospital where I worked.

I walked out a little tired. She looked at me for a few seconds and said, "It's really the first time I saw you like this. If the doctor I knew didn't tell me, I wouldn't even know you were here."

"It's urgent, I forgot to mention it." I twitched the corner of my mouth.

"I can't remember it at all..." She looked at the ward behind me and said, "I heard from your father the other day that there was a strange boy standing outside my ward."

I was startled.

"It's him, right?" She raised her eyebrows, and said, "When did you find your boyfriend? Why didn't you tell the family? Didn't Xiaoyan and I say that to you that day? Wasn't it a joke?"

I was silent for a few seconds and said, "Mom, I'm sorry, it's just..."

I couldn't say what happened next.

just what?

Because of what happened back then, the family was on guard, so I didn't dare to tell her this kind of thing easily.I've already done the tracking and taking pictures, once I let her know that the person I love now is Xiao Le, what will she do?But these words can only be thought about in my heart, no matter how I say it, she is my mother, the one who raised me up.

After a long time, she said, "...Xiu Ming, what happened back then was my fault."

I looked up at her in surprise.

"I've never apologized to you about this matter, but I just couldn't bear it." She sighed, and the creases at the corners of her eyes deepened slightly. I can find a way to bring you back to the right path.”

"Mom, liking men must be wrong?" I smiled and said lightly, "Maybe it is true that I am different from most people, but I don't think there is anything abnormal about my relationship."

"I know, I've figured it out over the years. Xiao Yan is just like you, but you are all excellent, and you are no different from ordinary people, but you just like people who are just like you..." She sighed, After a pause, he said, "I won't hinder you, it's just that you haven't moved much these years, so of course I'd be worried. If I wasn't afraid that you'd be alone all the time, I wouldn't pull the red line randomly that day... "

I looked at her silently for a few seconds and said, "Mom, the one lying in the ward is Xiao Le, named Mo Le."

She nodded, and looked over curiously.

I stood there for a few seconds before I said: "He has experienced many bad things before, but those things have passed, and I don't want those things to affect him again."

She was stunned, nodded in embarrassment, and said, "I know, hey, I really won't do what happened back then."

I sighed and said, "Mom, I hope you like him. Now he has opened a breakfast restaurant in T University, and slowly started to try to work by himself, but now something like this happened..."

"What's going on? How did you make it look like this?" She frowned.

I am silent.

When Xiao Le woke up, it was already the next day.

I fell asleep lying on the side of the hospital bed before, but when I woke up, I saw that he had opened his eyes, looking out of the window with no expression and not speaking.

I was a little surprised, a little happy for a moment, but when I noticed his expression, my palms turned cold.

"Xiao Le..." I called his name a little shyly.

He looked back at me, his face was a little pale, his forehead was wrapped with a circle of gauze, and there was an opening at the back of his head yesterday.

Liang Liang is not here, I don't know where he has gone, there are only me and Xiao Le in the ward.

I grabbed his hand and asked softly, "How do you feel? Do you feel dizzy?"

He shook his head.

After a while, he looked thoughtfully at me holding his hand, and shook it back.

I held his hand tightly and pressed it against his palm. The next second, he asked hoarsely, "Song Xiuming... what do you think of me?"

My heart throbbed.Xiao Le, in my heart you are no different from ordinary people, don't you really understand?

Everyone will have a different fate, and the generation of these fates is related to their experiences.Perhaps people who have experienced the same experience as you may not be as depraved as you were at the beginning, but they have no position to accuse you, because no one knows what your mood is like.

I held his hand tightly and said in a low voice: "Xiao Le, don't you really know what I think of you?"

Xiao Le looked at me silently, her eyes were slightly red.

I know he must have thought of many things.

By the way, Liang Liang said that when he went to find me, he still had a high fever of over 38 degrees...

I was so sore in my heart that I said, "Xiao Le, I love you."

He froze for a moment, then opened his eyes wide in surprise.

I smiled, leaned over and kissed his forehead, and said, "I love you, so don't you really understand what I think of you?"

"I..." He looked at me a little helplessly.

I lowered my head and pursed his lips lightly.

His lips are dry.

He whispered my name, I caressed his side face, and said with distress: "Xiao Le, I don't like Lin Yan, and I have never kissed him. I only kiss people I like, you know? "

Xiao Le looked at me and didn't speak. After a few seconds, he frowned and muttered softly, "I have a terrible headache..."

I quickly let go of him and went out to call the doctor.The doctor checked and said it was all right, it was a normal phenomenon, and whispered: "You are a doctor yourself, why are you still worried about being like this?"

I am a little embarrassed.

Zhang Qi called and said that he had taken Tang Qilin to the police again.

This guy was deliberately looking for trouble on the street, beating up and fighting, and was caught by him.

I was silent for a few seconds and said, "Zhang Qi, do you think this matter is meaningful?"

This person is my cousin, and I have always had a good relationship.

Zhang Qi's indifferent voice rang on the phone: "You think it's meaningful. A punk like him can't stay in the bureau for three days, but even if he stays for a day, he's still squatting."

I twitched the corner of my mouth and said, "It's really naive."

"Is it naive? If this kind of thing is naive, then what's the point of being a policeman like us?" Zhang Qi said slowly, "If your method is to find a group of people to fight back, then you are not Song Song. Xiu Ming. Leave him to me. I’m not happy if this kind of little bastard dies. Seeing those people turn a blind eye to him only makes me want to deal with that scum even more.” Finally , he sneered and hung up the phone.

I looked at the phone with the lights dimmed, and when I looked up, I saw Lin Yan standing not far away with his arms crossed.

He smiled and said, "You really did a lot for him."

In the evening of that day, I helped Xiao Le complete the discharge procedures, and brought him home with Liang Liang.

Xiao Le was still a little dull. When he stepped out of the elevator and saw the staircase he fell down yesterday, his footsteps stopped.

I turned sideways, blocked his sight, put my arm around his shoulder and said in a low voice, "Let's go."

He looked at me and nodded.

When I got back to the apartment, I noticed that he sat dazed in his chair, staring out the window.

Liang Liang seemed to be talking to him, but he didn't respond.

I sighed, Mo Le shouldn't be like this...

Liang Liang intended to bring Xiao Le to him, but I refused.It was probably the first time seeing me so unruly, Liang Liang was a little surprised.I said to him, "If you take him back, will he come back?"

Liang Liang pouted.

"I will handle the matter between me and him. You will only know if it is suitable after you have tried it." I said.

After Liang Liang left, I boiled hot water and asked Xiao Le to take a bath.

After a while, he called my name in the bathroom.I hurried in and saw that he had already put on his pajamas and sat on the stool in the bathroom, but his face was full of awkwardness.I saw that his prosthesis had been removed, but he seemed to have forgotten his crutches, so I smiled, bent down and picked him up.

He seemed to be startled, and quickly grabbed my shoulder with his hands and muttered: "You can just help me walk."

I kissed his forehead, smiled and said nothing.

When I entered the room, I put him on the bed and covered him with the quilt.Xiao Le sat on the bed and didn't speak. After I pulled the quilt and planned to go back to the living room, he said softly, "Song Xiuming."

"Huh?" I stopped and turned around.

"You... Liang Liang said that you and Lin Yan kissed, what happened?"

He seemed a little awkward, staring at the quilt.

I stared at him for a while, hesitated, then sat back on the side of the bed, grabbed his hand and said helplessly: "It's just a misunderstanding, Liang Liang made a mistake."

I don't want to blame Lin Yan too much for this matter. It is useless to explain it too specifically. After all, the relationship between me and Xiao Le has nothing to do with him.

He was silent.

I guessed what he was thinking about at this time, but I really couldn't figure out what this guy was thinking.

I really don't want him to think about it anymore, and a thought faintly popped up in my heart.

I used my eyes to describe his downcast eyes, delicate nose bridge, pale lips, fair neck and collarbone hidden in the collar of his pajamas, and the idea became stronger and stronger.

He seemed to want to say something else, I snatched his words, leaned over and asked softly: "Xiao Le, Liang Liang said you came back yesterday to pack your luggage, what's the matter?"

He showed a surprised expression, glanced at me quickly, and muttered: "I'm not here to pack my luggage, I just want to find you..."

"Really?" I stared at him and asked, "I was shocked when Liang Liang told me, Xiao Le, what can't be solved, why do you have to leave my side?"

He looked at me in astonishment, as if he wanted to justify himself. I lowered my gaze and said softly: "...I'm very sad, Xiao Le. It is indeed my fault for making you like this, but when I heard that you were leaving I'm really sad."

He leaned over and hurriedly explained: "Hey, don't listen to Liang Liang's nonsense, I didn't come back to pack my luggage!"

"Isn't it? If the answer I give you is different from what you imagined, you will be ready to leave me, right?"

"I didn't!" He seemed to be angry, and his face turned rosy, "And if you really don't want me, of course I can't stay anymore!"

"How could I not want you? Now you don't want me?" I said with a smile.

"Song Xiuming..." He frowned, seemingly unhappy, but after a few seconds, he slowly leaned back to the head of the bed, looked at me with a complicated expression for a while, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, Song Xiuming, I am too troublesome."

I was a little surprised, I didn't expect him to say such a thing.

He twitched the corner of his mouth and said, "I've been causing trouble for you, you don't have to accommodate me like this all the time. I thought about it before I came here, if you keep accommodating me, how long will our relationship last?" ... What Tang Qilin said is right, we will be finished one day like this..."

I watched him silently, seeing him lower his head, the corners of his eyes were a little red, and I couldn't help feeling a little distressed.

I leaned over and hugged him, and sighed softly: "Xiao Le, I'm not criticizing you. I'm really sad, because I'm afraid you just left without saying a word... How can I explain this? I I believe you didn't come back to pack your luggage yesterday, so you also have to believe that I have nothing to do with Lin Yan. I know I failed to make you trust me, but I will work harder in the future. "

"Song Xiuming..."

I couldn't help lowering my head and kissing his neck exposed to the air.He flinched and muttered, "What are you doing..."

Seeing his evasive expression, the thought in my heart became stronger and stronger, so I simply turned his shoulder and pressed it on him.

Xiao Le seemed a little surprised.

I leaned down to kiss his lips and slipped my hand into his pajamas.He grabbed my hand, raised his voice and shouted: "Song Xiuming!"

I blocked his mouth severely, and he couldn't speak, he could only make a "woo woo" sound.

I pressed him on the bed and couldn't move. He seemed to be a little panicked, struggling desperately.

When his lips parted, he yelled in panic: "Song, Song Xiuming, you bastard, you said you wouldn't force me!"

I narrowed my eyes slightly and said, "Xiao Le, how can I make you lose those thoughts?"

He froze for a moment, then fell silent.

"I really didn't want to force you before, I wanted to wait until you were mentally prepared before touching you, but in the end you thought more and more," I twitched the corners of my mouth, lowered my head against his forehead, and said in a low voice , "Xiao Le, if you mind other men touching you and think you are sorry for me... then let me hug you."

His eyes widened.

Let me hug you, and wash away all the shadows in your mind... so that you no longer have the idea that you are not worthy of me, let you cheer up, let you know... at least in my heart, you are very important of.

He fell silent and stopped struggling, just staring at me blankly.

I tore off his pajamas and threw them under the bed, reached into his pants and kneaded his limp place.

Because I was concerned that his head had just been injured, I acted cautiously.

He still seemed to be resisting, so I slowed down my movements, kissed him again, licked his lips with my tongue, over and over again, trying to make him relax, and at the same time gently stroked his back.

"Song...Xiu Ming...um..." His body tensed up.

I rubbed my hands where he had been engorged and it was hot.

Seeing the way his eyes were getting wet slowly, my heart also softened slowly.

Xiaole...

"Ah...Song Xiuming, wait, wait..." he yelled helplessly.

I stopped and looked at his embarrassment with amused expression.

He gasped, opened his eyes after a long time, and said with some difficulty, "It's okay to do it, but I... I will lubricate it myself..."

I froze for a moment, realizing that he was still thinking about those things.

I laughed, "Do you know where the lubricant is?"

He froze slightly.

I pulled the nightstand away and pulled out a bottle of lube.When he saw it, he subconsciously stretched out his hand to grab it, but I raised my hand so that he couldn't grab it.

He stared at me: "What are you doing?"

"I'll help you."

"what?"

"I'll help you." I smiled and pulled off his pants.

His entire body was naked, and his skin was still a little red after taking a shower. That appearance made me, who hadn't done this kind of thing for a long time, excited uncontrollably.

"Wait..." When he saw the stump of his left leg exposed to the air, his expression became unnatural again.

I noticed his expression, and simply raised his right leg, put his right leg on my shoulder, and then bent down and kissed his inner thigh.

Xiao Le let out an exclamation and struggled subconsciously.I fixed his waist and bit the skin of his inner thigh lightly with my teeth.The upright place between the two legs seemed to be stimulated, and the tip was secreting transparent mucus. That look... was both erotic and cute.

I kissed his thigh all the way, and finally opened my mouth to enclose his desire.

"Oh..." Xiao Le let out a groan, and I felt his whole body go limp.

I swallowed his desire, took it whole into my mouth, and sucked it out bit by bit.I licked his tip with my tongue, worked my way down, and finally swirled around his pouch.

Xiao Le suddenly said with a trembling voice: "Song Xiuming, don't you really dislike me for having only one leg?"

"Don't give up." I said with a smile.

I used to not answer this question directly.

"If I dislike you, I won't like you" I thought I could explain everything, but for Xiao Le, there may not be three straightforward words that are more convincing.

I turned to kiss the inside of his left leg, and he tried to hide, but I didn't let him go.

I'm going to make sure tonight... to clear up all your worries.

I squeezed the lubricant with my fingers into Xiao Le's back.The place that hasn't been explored for a long time is very tight, I don't want to hurt him, so I can only push in bit by bit.

Xiao Le looked a little uncomfortable, but it was inevitable.

I bowed my head and kissed him, while feeding the lube in with my fingers, slowly thrusting.

He opened his mouth and whispered with disordered breathing: "Why are you still wearing your own clothes well..."

I was taken aback for a moment, and realized that I was only focused on taking off his clothes just now. I was a little embarrassed. Seeing him avoiding my eyes, I couldn't help laughing again, and said, "Then help me take it off."

"Hey!" He frowned.

"Don't you want to take off my clothes?" I said with a smile, "Xiao Le, touch me."

"...You are really not ashamed." He blushed.

"Because it's on the bed." I said solemnly.

Xiao Le took off my shirt with some difficulty.His hand stroked my body lightly, and then he hesitated for a while before hooking my neck with one hand, raising his upper body and licking my neck with his tongue.

I didn't expect him to be willing to take the initiative, and I couldn't be happy for a while.

He kissed my neck, all the way down, biting his teeth lightly at my collarbone.The physical stimulation made me a little impatient, I pulled his hand to my lower body, and said hoarsely: "Xiao Le, touch here."

He seemed to hesitate for a while, then pulled away my trouser chain, put his hand in, and wrapped my desire.

"It's so hard..." He seemed startled and exclaimed.

I laughed out loud.

"You, why are you laughing!" He cursed with a blushing face, and the tips of his ears were also red.

I inserted three fingers in, and the lubricated place was enough to hold it, but the inside was tight and wet.He probably didn't expect to go in so deep all of a sudden, and subconsciously groaned.

I put him back on the bed, took off half of the pants on his lower body, and asked in a low voice: "I went in, huh?"

He looked at me and nodded slowly.

I couldn't bear it anymore, lifted his hips, and slowly pushed myself into the warm hole.

After the front end went in, the feeling of being wrapped in warmth made me almost surrender for a while.I was a little helpless, and told myself to hold back, don't vent it so quickly, and then slowly pushed in until it was completely buried in his body.

At that moment, I felt that Xiaole and I were united physically and mentally.The feeling was strangely indescribable.

I hugged him tightly, and he let out a moan that made me unbearable.

The actions after that were unbearable any more.

I don't know when, the clothes on my body have already been stripped off.He and I swayed on the big bed, and the sheets were wrinkled.

Xiao Le covered his mouth and tried to hold back the sound in his mouth. I felt a little funny, pulled his hand off, and kissed his lips when he moaned, while carefully paying attention not to let his Head hurt again.

His hands clung to me tightly, and I stuck to him tightly. The sweat on our bodies was a little sticky, and our skins rubbed against each other. The rising temperature almost made me crazy.

The lubricant made the hole behind Xiao Le's back very wet. I picked him up, let him sit on my body, and then pushed him hard. There was a sticky sound of water from the place where we intersected, and the whole bed He was also shaken out of his voice.

He kept moaning, his eyes were already dazed.When I saw the water in his eyes, I couldn't help but leaned over and kissed his eyelids.

With a hoarse voice, he whispered, "Song Xiuming..."

"Hmm... what?"

I hugged him and buried him deeply, thrusting and thrusting in a small way, and the two of them joined together without any gap.

He grabbed my shoulder and said intermittently, "I...uh...I regretted it too."

"……Um?"

"...I've never thought about it this way before...but after I met you, I really...ah...indeed, I regretted it..."

He lowered his head, looked at me, and said with twitching lips: "If it were me now, I would definitely never choose the life I used to have."

I smiled, raised my head and kissed his lips, and sighed softly: "Xiao Le, remember, I am in your body now."

When it was over, it was already late at night, and I took him to the bathroom to wash him, and then he lay on the bed in the guest room, and seemed to be a little sleepy and fell asleep.

The bed in the bedroom was dirty, at least the sheets had to be washed before they could be put on again.

I cooked a bowl of light porridge in the kitchen and walked towards the guest room with it.

When I saw him sleeping soundly at the door, I couldn't help but stop.

I smiled and thought of those days six years ago.

At that time, I was very confused about the future, and I didn't know why I lingered in those sensuality.Obviously he didn't want to go down like this, but he didn't know what to do next.That time after Xiao Le and Tang Qilin's brothers finished fighting, he walked past me with a wanton smile and knocked over one of my wine glasses, and I noticed him.Although I never told him about it, but after careful recollection, it seems that I went to "Night" after that because of him.

After knowing that he became MB, I was indeed disappointed, but I soon thought, what right do I have to criticize him at that time?Everyone has everyone's difficulties. I don't understand him, and he doesn't understand me.The best we could say was that we met by chance, and he never really set his eyes on me.

Since then, I have valued myself and the meaning of all my actions.

I cheered up again. At that time, I just wanted to forget everything, but I never thought that I would meet and stay with this person again.

Six years ago, I couldn't think rationally about so many things, but now I know that I will never regret this choice six years later.

Xiao Le, you see, I am already very satisfied with just this kind of life.I don't need you to be a great person, or have a perfect past or a good background, as long as you are willing to work hard with me, we will be able to go on.

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