you're nothing but scum

I was extremely tired that night.

When he left the house, he never thought that such a thing would happen when he went to see Yao Jiu.If I had known this would happen earlier, I would not have chosen to go out today.

The results of the examination were brought in quickly. Apart from a gash on my forehead, I had no other wounds on my body.I was hugged tightly by Yao Jiu at that time, and he took all the injuries for me, and of course there would be no other injuries.

When I saw those inspection lists, I didn't know what it was like in my heart.

In fact, I am not very surprised that Yao Jiu would do this.

I know he still loves me, and I believe he would have done the same thing if he had been there when I was hit by a car.But because of this, I find it even more unacceptable.

Looking back on the little things from the beginning of our acquaintance, he did pay a lot for me, and I have never neglected those efforts.Sometimes I really feel that when we are in a relationship, our relationship is not equal.Because I have no ability, I can only stay in his villa and enjoy the superior life he brought me, so there are very few things I can do for him.

It is precisely because of this that after I explained it clearly to Yao Jiu, I was able to let go so quickly and stop taking the car accident to heart.After all, the two of us will become like this, and I have nothing to do with it. I have no position to resent him so much.If it wasn't for Song Xiuming this time, I wouldn't be so angry at him and say those things to him.

But what if something happened to Yao Jiu?

I already knew that there was no one else around him.There used to be me, but now I'm gone too.If he becomes like me, can I still leave him with peace of mind?

My head has become extremely confused, and I can't wait to rush in now to see what's going on.A heart was suspended in the air, apart from Yao Jiu, Yao Jiu couldn't think about other things at all, and was terrified.

Song Xiuming patted my back and comforted me: "Don't worry."

Suddenly there was a vibrating sound, and I looked towards the place where the sound came from, only to find my mobile phone that survived the car accident lying on the chair.It was picked up by a passerby and stuffed into my hand, but I had long ignored its existence.

The caller ID shows Liang Liang.

I picked up the phone stiffly and answered the call.

Tell Liang Liang that I'm in the hospital. When the car accident just happened, this guy's voice suddenly raised an octave, almost breaking my eardrum.

"Why the fuck did you have another car accident?! Are your legs okay? Are your hands okay? Are your whole body okay?!"

The mood that had been sinking to the bottom was relaxed again by Liang Liang's words. I twitched the corners of my mouth and said softly: "I'm fine, don't worry...it's Yao Jiu."

"...Yao Jiu?" Liang Liang's voice became strange, "What's wrong with him?"

"He was hit badly, and he is still undergoing surgery..."

As soon as he finished speaking, the lights in the operating room went out.

I was taken aback, and quickly stood up, eagerly waiting for the people inside to come out.

The door opened, and the nurses and doctors came out. I hurried forward, and a doctor lifted his mask and said to me, "It's nothing serious. The operation went well. Don't worry."

I breathed a sigh of relief, and suddenly felt that my whole body had lost all strength.

I told Liang Liang about the general situation, and he said he would come to the hospital right away.

I followed the doctors and watched them push the hospital bed carrying Yao Jiu all the way to a ward.

The doctor told me that Yao Jiu will almost wake up in a while.He was lucky, because he evaded in time, so only one rib was broken, his internal organs were scratched, and he suffered some internal injuries, but everything has been treated.

My heart was relieved, and I thought to myself that it was only a broken rib.

Seeing Yao Jiu lying on the hospital bed, rarely quiet and docile, I felt comforted again.

I sat by his hospital bed, quietly waiting for him to wake up, even if no one talked to me, I didn't feel bored.

I don't know how long it took, I stared at Yao Jiu's face, and finally noticed that his eyelids moved, showing signs of opening.

I quickly shouted: "Yao Jiu?"

Yao Jiu moved her eyelashes and slowly opened her eyes.

His eyes were a little out of focus, but soon met mine.I let out a breath and murmured, "You finally woke up..."

Yao Jiu lay on the bed like this, looked at me silently for a while, and then let out a muffled groan as if he had come to his senses.

I nervously asked, "What's wrong?"

"...It hurts a bit." He frowned.

I rolled my eyes and sighed, "It's normal to have pain, you just had the surgery."

"……What's wrong with me?"

I was a little uneasy and said, "You...you were hit by a car, you broke a rib, and your internal organs were injured, but the doctor said it's nothing serious."

Yao Jiu just stared at me like this, I bite the bullet and looked at his hand on the bedside, but that hand moved suddenly again and moved towards me.

I froze, and looked up at him.

Yao Jiu's face was still pale, but he frowned and asked in a hoarse voice, "Are you okay?"

"..." My voice was a little astringent, "I'm fine... just scratched my skin."

He raised his hand and lightly touched the gauze on my forehead.

I closed my eyes and didn't shake off his hand after all.

Yao Jiu smiled softly and said, "It's good that you're fine."

Immediately, I became irritable again, opened my eyes suddenly and said, "Shut up, what do you mean I'm fine?"

Yao Jiu was slightly taken aback, and then said in a helpless tone, "I see, don't fight with me again, my head still hurts."

I opened my mouth, swallowed the words, closed my mouth and sat there irritably.

Yao Jiu suddenly asked, "Which hospital are we in?"

I whispered the name of the hospital.

Yao Jiu pointedly said, "Ah, this hospital..."

I didn't know what to say for a while.

Just now I quarreled with this guy because of Song Xiuming, and now I'm chatting here in such a weird atmosphere, I really don't know what to say, anything is embarrassing.

Yao Jiu twitched the corner of his mouth and said, "It's rare that you don't lose your temper with me."

I curled my lips and said, "It's as if I quarrel with you all day long when I'm with you."

Yao Jiu smiled and said: "When you are good, you are very good, but when you are irritable, you are still very irritable. Every time I argue with you, I get angry. I really can't do anything about you."

I frowned and said nothing.

"Xiao Le, don't be angry with me again, okay?"

I was silent and did not speak.

It's not a matter of being angry or not between me and him at all, and it's not out of my temper that I broke up with him.Yao Jiu, it's a foul to tell me this kind of thing when I'm weak.If you lost a leg like me, maybe I would be unable to refuse your request due to guilt, but it is also true that I no longer love you.

In this situation, I have no way to respond to you, what kind of answer do you want to hear?

The air seemed to stagnate.

After a long time, Yao Jiu's faint voice sounded again.

"Forget it... I won't ask you this kind of thing anymore."

I looked at him in surprise, not knowing why he suddenly relaxed.

Yao Jiu didn't look at me, but looked at the ceiling, and said in a flat tone: "Actually, you are right about one thing. After knowing that you were in a car accident, I felt very guilty and remorseful, and I also thought about how to compensate you. , stay with you. I have always believed that even though you have lost a leg, I can support you and walk with you. But why am I willing to pay so much for you, but you are just because of my misunderstanding? Abandon me?... I guess you have never loved me, because if you love me even one-tenth as much as I love you, I'm afraid you won't turn around and leave so quickly... "

I was stunned when I heard this, but soon my anger rose again.

The love for him is one-tenth of his love for me?

Who loves whom more?Perhaps no one can tell clearly about this, but it is a fact that I entrusted him wholeheartedly during the relationship, and I also believe that my love for him is no less than his love for me.

It is precisely because of the depth of love that one becomes more disheartened when one is betrayed, and one is completely unable to recover when one is hit, and can only seek another way out.

I suppressed my anger, not wanting to quarrel with a patient.

Yao Jiu twitched the corners of his mouth and said: "But I think I understand... When I was hit by that car, I thought in my heart, when I saw that truck driving towards you, did you also So scared? I'm scared, really scared. It hurts when I get hit by a car, I thought I was going to die like this... But even so, I only broke a rib... And you... ...you lost a leg..."

I was slightly taken aback, I didn't expect him to say that.

He laughed slowly, closed his eyes, and said slowly: "Why can't I figure it out... I watched the video of you being hit by a car dozens of times, and I want to tell you ten thousand things. I'm sorry all over the place, but maybe it's only now that I understand your feelings at that time...Xiao Le, I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

I don't know what to say, but I feel a little embarrassed.

"When I woke up, I actually hoped that if I could break a leg too..." Yao Jiu raised his hand, covered his eyes, and said slowly.

I was taken aback and said in surprise, "You, what are you talking about..."

"Because I owe you this... If I can also break a leg, can you forgive me and stay by my side?" Yao Jiuxiao's chest trembled, "I Is it despicable? Every time I think of this despicable method, you have said it several times, but you can’t change it... But Xiao Le, Song Xiuming and I can no longer compete in an open and honest manner. ...From the moment he appeared, I was in a completely different position from him, other than using those despicable means, how else could I snatch you back... How else could I get you back to my side?"

I was a little stunned, and it took me a long time to come back to my senses, and sighed: "Yao Jiu...don't waste time on me...why do you..."

Yao Jiu didn't speak.

"...Once a lot of emotions disappear, it is difficult to get back..." I didn't know what to say, and suddenly felt that my language was impoverished.

Seeing that Yao Jiu didn't speak, I reached out and pulled his hand off, and said awkwardly, "But thank you for saving me this time."

Yao Jiu opened his eyes, I was a little surprised and froze there.

Maybe it was because it was the first time I saw Yao Jiu crying.

He just looked at me silently, I didn't know what to do for a while, and it was the first time to comfort him like this.

"Xiao Le, do you really like Song Xiuming?" Yao Jiu asked suddenly, "Did you say that on purpose because of me?"

I froze for a moment, and then remembered what I said in the restaurant.

I was silent for a few seconds and said, "It's true, not to anger you."

Yao Jiu just stared at me for a long time, twitched the corners of his mouth, closed his eyes again, and sighed softly: "...Xiao Le."

Such an exclamation has no beginning or end, but I always feel that I know what he didn't say.

That's right, this is the tacit understanding between the two of us, and perhaps the only thing that can maintain each other after we are completely separated.

Liang Liang stayed there after he arrived, probably because he didn't expect to see Yao Jiu lying weakly on the hospital bed that day.My thoughts were already in a trance, and I suddenly thought of taking notes, but when I looked around, I found that Song Xiuming was nowhere to be seen.

I was thinking about Yao Jiu just now, but I didn't realize when he left.

I frowned and asked Liang Liang to take care of Yao Jiu for the time being, then I searched for Song Xiuming in the hospital late at night with a cane, and finally found him at the corner of the stairs.