you're nothing but scum

I have to say that pain can drive people crazy.

Of course, there is another way of saying that pain can be addictive.At first you will not be able to stand the pain, but over time you will enjoy the feeling, in short, it is torturing people into masochists.

But I obviously don't have that kind of qualifications. After four or five days of this kind of life, I can't bear it anymore.

The pain of the phantom limb and the nightmares that haunted me every night made me want to call for help. I wanted to endure it, but I was on the verge of collapse.

The leg has never been so intermittent and daily, and when it happens, it seems that the leg is crushed and crushed.

I think this kind of pain is unbearable for any ordinary person.

I took the medicine on time every day, and I always prayed in my heart that I would get better soon, but probably because I was too bad, this kind of prayer didn't work at all, and the pain in my "left leg" became worse and worse.

When Liang Liang brought the dinner, he sighed, "I see Yao Jiu is here again today, he really is...why bother..."

After hearing this, I obviously didn't feel anything before, but now I became irritable, and I always felt that there was a fire burning in my stomach.

As soon as I thought about that car and that person, I picked up the crutch leaning on the wall and smashed it against the door as if venting!

This smashing probably frightened Liang Liang, he looked at me in shock and asked, "Mo Le, what are you doing?!"

My "left leg" started to hurt again, I panted and sat on the edge of the bed, sneered: "If you have the ability to speak clearly, if you have the ability to tell me what he wants to do, what is he hiding there all the time!"

"You...what do you care about so much," Liang Liang picked up the crutch and whispered, "what else can he think of, most likely he wants to get back together with you, what do you care about him...you The past two days have been getting worse and worse."

I stared at the crutch that Liang Liang picked up for a while, picked it up, got up and walked to the door.

Liang Liang shouted behind me: "Where are you going, Mo Le, the food is ready!"

I went out, closed the door, blocked his voice from the other side, and went downstairs on crutches without saying a word, thinking only of letting that bastard Yao Jiu get out of my sight as soon as possible.

When walking all the way to Yao Jiu's car on crutches, he seemed a little surprised in the driver's seat.

I slammed my fist hard on his car window, Yao Jiu opened the car door, came out, grabbed my hand and frowned, "Mo Le, what are you doing?"

"What am I doing?" I knew that my behavior was passing on the pain caused by my phantom limb to him, but I still couldn't stop saying meanly, "What are you doing? You have been here for a few days , What exactly do you want to do? Watch me?!"

"Xiao Le,

Yao Jiu frowned and looked at me and said, "What are you talking about?"I'm here because I can't rest assured that you and Liang Liang live in that kind of place, but I know that if I want to take you back, you will definitely drive me out, so I can only wait here. "

"No need!" I yelled, "Do you know how annoying it is to look at you every day?"

Do you know how annoying it is to suffer from such a non-existent leg every day?Do you know how frustrating it is to have to take so many medications for a leg you've lost? !

You sit here, pretending to wait for me to change my mind, but do you know that this will never be possible?You can't feel my pain, you can't share my pain, you can't even alleviate my pain!

The word "forgive" is not that simple!

"Xiao Le..." Yao Jiu stared at me, held my wrist tightly and said in a hoarse voice, "Is it...the leg hurts..."

I was stunned.

"I asked my friends, and they said that the amputated leg doesn't heal so quickly...it may be very painful..." Yao Jiu said slowly, "I know you met a doctor friend recently, but Xiao Le , what he can give you, so can I. Shall we reconcile? I have tried not to look for you these few days here. I don’t want to annoy you, and I don’t want to make you more annoying. I just hope that one day you can leave Come up to me and tell me you'd like to talk to me..."

I was a little surprised, because Yao Jiu had never spoken to me in such a humble tone, almost begging me cautiously.

"I know I can't compensate you for a leg, but I will always be by your side. Let's install a prosthesis, and I will accompany you to rebuild it, so that one day you can throw away the crutches and walk again," Yao Jiu said With the corners of her mouth open, she said in a low voice in the cold wind, "I did cause you to become like this, I didn't believe you and hurt you, but I promise I will never make the same mistake in the future... I won't do it again I've done something I'm sorry for you..."

After hearing this, my head was a little confused.

In fact, I never expected to hear Yao Jiu's apology, let alone Yao Jiu would talk to me so calmly.

The phantom limb has been driving me crazy for the past few days, Liang Liang said that I can feel it myself when my temper turns bad.A lot of anger came out naturally, and I couldn't suppress it even if I wanted to.Originally, he wanted to find Yao Jiu to vent his anger, but now he completely forgot the original purpose.

I pulled my hand out of Yao Jiu's, and Yao Jiu didn't force me anymore.

After being silent for a long time, I said honestly, "Yao Jiu, I don't like you anymore."

Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed the expression on his face. He pursed his lips tightly, which was his favorite little gesture to suppress his emotions.

"It's over between us. I said that I accept your apology, but I don't need your compensation." I said this sentence with a relatively calm mind.

Yao Jiu was silent for a few seconds, then said, "Have you fallen in love with anyone else?"

I frowned and said, "It's none of your business, you know that I hate people asking me this kind of question the most."

"Xiao Le..." Yao Jiu laughed, "I told you a long time ago, when I saw you for the first time, I knew that you and I were the most suitable. I never told you before About my parents, my mother cheated on my father when I was very young."

I was a little surprised, Yao Jiu did not talk about his parents before, I always thought he was concerned about my feelings, but I didn't expect that his family seemed to have some stories?

"I don't want to tell you because I have always hated that woman. I always thought that there was no need to discuss elders between us, because I am the same as you. I can understand your feelings, and you can too. My mother has a very personality. Cowardly, she begged my dad to forgive her every day after she cheated on her, and even begged me to say something nice about her when we were negotiating a divorce. After I grew up, I always... hated women, and I always felt that they were different from her. My mother is all the same. I like a man, but I am still afraid that the person I love will betray me."

Yao Jiu stared at me and said softly: "I think it's because I haven't trusted you all this time. After you left, I also thought about whether your personality is not suitable for me... But I still like you, I I love you, Xiao Le, there will never be another person I like like you."

I heard Yao Jiu's confession more today than in the previous two years, which caught me off guard.I couldn't be tough anymore, so I said in a bit of embarrassment: "Yao Jiu, it's over...don't say such things anymore."

"I did something wrong to make you sad, but I will make it up to you, and I will be by your side for the rest of my life," Yao Jiu said with a smile, "We can go abroad to get married, so that we will be like husband and wife... Xiao Le, forgive me, I will make you fall in love with me again."

I can't deny Yao Jiu's last sentence.

I had loved him dearly, which proved that there was something about him that attracted me.Even though he hurt me badly, if he really changed and continued to pursue me, I'm not sure if I will fall in love with him again in the end.

But I don't like to go the old way.

Which road has hurt me, even though I know that the stone that tripped me has been removed, I still don't want to walk it.So I also refuse anyone's temptation.

I shook my head, turned around and wanted to leave.I don't know how to communicate with this man anymore.

I heard Yao Jiu stop me from behind and said, "Xiao Le! That man named Song Xiuming, do you really know him?"

I was taken aback, turned around and said angrily, "Did you investigate him?"

Yao Jiute said calmly: "There are many things that don't need to be investigated in a special way, and the truth will never be known, right?"

I have something bad in my heart

With a premonition, he obviously felt that he should not continue to ask, but his mouth opened uncontrollably: "...What are you talking about?"

Yao Jiu came over, took out two photos from his pocket, and put them in my palm.

When I saw the people in the photos, I felt dizzy and almost couldn't see clearly.

I heard Yao Jiu say: "...Xiao Le, even if I did something wrong and hurt you...but the person you know best is me, isn't it?"