you have to talk to me

If Feng Jimeng still felt that he could refuse to go abroad with a strong stance, but He Xianglan, who never asked him any questions, would spend a lot of time finding someone to investigate them, and even took the initiative to find Yang Fan, Feng Jimeng knew this. The matter cannot be easily revealed according to his intention.And judging from his father's 180-degree turn towards him in the past year, Feng Jimeng also knows what all this means.

It's not that he doesn't know that everything will be easier if he walks the path arranged by his father. In fact, he doesn't want to take this path not all because of Yang Fan, but because he doesn't want to live that kind of life, manipulated by his parents, like a marionette day.He wants to live the life of ordinary people, like Hou Wen, Jian Hang and Zhang Jiarui, like Yang Fan, and control his destiny and choices in his own hands.

Knowing Yang Fan for more than a year was the happiest time in Feng Jimeng's life, and he hoped that this kind of life would last forever.

But Yang Fan had so many worries about this.Feng Jimeng also knew that he was still studying, and the promises he said and made were not strong enough, so Yang Fan never believed him.But would his mother really send Yang Fan to him?After studying abroad, is he still with Yang Fan?By then, will they really be able to escape his parents' control?These are unknowns, which are worrying.

But he really couldn't see Yang Fan suffering so much, so he compromised.He thought that Yang Fan would at least be a little happier because of this, but he didn't, Yang Fan looked haggard instead.

After confirming that Feng Jimeng would not run out again, Yang Fan went to the kitchen to find the keys, and Feng Jimeng went to take a shower.Afterwards, the two also went back to their respective rooms to sleep, and did not speak again.

Maybe the two of them didn't sleep well at night, they woke up early the next morning, Yang Fan was preparing breakfast in the kitchen, Feng Jimeng was packing his schoolbag in the living room after washing up.After packing up his things, he squatted at the door to put on his shoes, and Yang Fan came out with a spoon in his hand, his expression not very good.

"Shouldn't you have breakfast? It's still early, I cooked glutinous glutinous rice balls and eggs, and it will be ready soon."

Feng Jimeng lowered her head: "I won't eat."

He compromised, but the uncertain future made him a little anxious, so he wasn't in a good mood.Besides, he didn't fall asleep much last night, so he wanted to go to the classroom early to catch up on sleep.

Yang Fan put the spoon on the table with a snap, walked over and stood in front of Feng Jimeng: "Eat before leaving, how can you skip breakfast."

"I'm going out to eat."

"Why can't you eat at home?" Feng Jimeng was still angry with him, plus he didn't want to go abroad, so now he felt double uncomfortable.

"There's no reason." Feng Jimeng's nose started to feel sore, and a layer of mist clouded his eyes, gradually making it difficult to see the fingers tying the shoelaces clearly.

"If there's no reason, then eat breakfast at home before leaving." Yang Fan reached out to pick his schoolbag as he spoke.

Feng Jimeng twisted his hand away, suddenly unable to control his temper, he raised his tearful face and raised his voice: "What do you want from me?"

Seeing his appearance, Yang Fan felt his throat choke, raised his head and blinked, and said in a hoarse voice, "I want you to have breakfast at home."

Feng Jimeng stood up, threw her schoolbag on the ground, walked a few steps to the dining table and sat down, with her head down, tears overflowing, he immediately wiped them off with his hand.

Holding the spoon, Yang Fan entered the kitchen again with a sullen face, turned off the stove, and came out after a while, but instead of bringing Feng Jimeng breakfast, he sat down next to Feng Jimeng and asked again: "Who are you?" Don't you think I'm forcing you to go abroad?"

It's this matter again, Feng Jimeng wiped his eyes irritably: "I've already said that I will go out, can I stop talking about this matter."

"I want to know what you really think."

"What I think doesn't matter."

Feng Jimeng's thoughts are never important, no one cares about his thoughts, cares about his feelings, listens to his voice, he has never been influenced by others, this has never changed.

"What matters is your thoughts. I'm just a student, and I'm not worthy of my own thoughts." After saying this, he stood up and picked up his schoolbag. He really wanted to leave.Continue to stay here, continue to argue with Yang Fan on this issue, he knows that he will say even worse things.

"Feng Jimeng..." Yang Fan grabbed his arm and pulled him back.

"Let go, I'm going to class."

Apart from astringency and pain in Yang Fan's heart, he also felt angry and wronged.

"What do you mean? What matters is our thoughts. You don't deserve your own thoughts. When did I force you?"

"Didn't you force me? You used to make me drink milk or coke, forget about those things. Now you let me go abroad with my parents..." Feng Jimeng burst into tears, and he raised his sleeve to wipe Again and again, "I thought you'd be on my side."

Feng Jimeng was so wronged that she suddenly started to cry.

Reason and emotion pulled Yang Fan's heart violently, and the pain and tearing feeling made him almost unable to stick to this "correct" decision.Feng Jimeng doesn't want to leave, and he doesn't want Feng Jimeng to go, but he is still so young, so young, how can he ruin his future by going his own way, and how can he not do what he wants on the day when he understands the truth? Impulsive remorse.

Feng Jimeng cried until his eyes were red. Apart from resisting going abroad, the more important thing was that Yang Fan stood by his parents, which made him feel a strong betrayal.He had felt this feeling of betrayal once before, and that time he never dared to make friends or trust anyone again.But he still trusted Yang Fan and handed everything over to him, and at this point, he was still reluctant to break with Yang Fan completely, and even compromised with his betrayal.

He cried and said, "Let me go, let me go to class first."

The uneasiness gave Yang Fan a strong intuition and premonition, as if Feng Jimeng walked out of this door angrily, something among them would be lost forever and would never come back.

He also choked up a little: "I won't let go."

"What do you want?"

Yang Fan stuck up and hugged Feng Jimeng from behind. Even though he was pulled to pieces, emotion finally defeated reason.He buried Feng Jimeng's back shoulder, his voice choked up: "I don't want to let you go. I don't want to go abroad, and I don't want you to go out. I'm willing to follow you, but if you go too fast and too far, I'm afraid I won't be able to catch you superior."

"I want you to stay in the country, stay by my side, and be with me all the time. Feng Jimeng, I am really afraid of losing you. If you are so far away from me, I don't know if I can have you. If you leave I really don’t know what else to do.”

"Sorry, I'm such a selfish person."

Hearing what he said, Feng Jimeng's throat was suddenly so choked that he couldn't speak. He turned around and hugged Yang Fan, and opened his mouth several times before saying, "Then why did you let me out again? I also I want to stay with you."

"But do you know what this means? In addition to breaking with your parents, you have to endure such a poor and boring life with me. I'm afraid you will be disappointed in this kind of life when you grow up."

Feng Jimeng raised her face from Yang Fan's arms: "Why are you disappointed? I won't be disappointed."

"You don't understand it now, you will understand it when you grow up."

Yang Fan wanted to say, when you reach my age, when you do a job you don't like, make money for the sake of making money, and live a life where you can see the end at a glance, you will know how disappointing this kind of life is.

Feng Jimeng pushed Yang Fan away a little: "I don't understand, I like my current life."

"I have friends now," Feng Jimeng raised his wet eyes and glanced at Yang Fan, "I have a boyfriend, and there are things worth working hard for. This is what you taught me. You have to be independent to be free, and you have to be independent." Be responsible for your own choices, and strive to live the life you want to live and become the person you want to be. Parents choose their own life, and mine is in their own hands. I think you are right, and I have always been In doing this, why do you suddenly overthrow all this and think that the life my parents gave me is the best? I really don't understand. "

Hearing this, Yang Fan was suddenly speechless.

"It's because you still don't trust me, do you think I can't be responsible for my choice?" Feng Jimeng lowered her head, "Maybe, but this is my own choice, if I really regret it in the future, it's me Your own business has nothing to do with you."

"No, it's not that I don't trust you."

But why?

Yang Fan suddenly realized that it was all because of himself.Because he himself had to give up the life he once had to give up, he chose his grandma, and he did not regret it, but it was indeed the most regrettable thing in his life. He did not become the person he wanted to be, did not pursue his dream, But to live day after day.He didn't want Feng Jimeng to be like him in the future, regretting the missed opportunities and life for the rest of his life.

Feng Jimeng has calmed down a bit, he took off his schoolbag and put it on the chair, and sat back by himself.

"Brother, it's not just because of you that I don't want to go abroad. I don't want to follow my parents' old path in the future. It will make me miserable. I am not the same person as them."

"As long as my mother has money to live a good life, and having a successful businessman as her husband gives her enough capital to show off, she doesn't need my dad at all, and I'm just a means for her to achieve this goal. My dad is also, Women, children and his wealth are the same, as long as they obey his control and arrangements, it is enough to bring him more benefits, he does not need anyone to love him, respect him from the bottom of his heart."

"But I'm not. I envy Zhang Jiarui's family, I envy the family relationship between you and grandma, and I also cherish the relationship between us. My father thought about it and handed over his things to me, which also means I want to dedicate my everything to him. When that day comes, I really can't help myself. It's better to let him completely disappointed in me now and give up this plan. Anyway, I don't care about his things, and I don't care about them at all. I envy his life, I think he is a failure."

After hearing Feng Jimeng's words, Yang Fan felt relieved, his throat slipped, and he didn't know what to say: "I didn't expect you to think about so many things by yourself."

"I will also plan for our future." Feng Jimeng looked at Yang Fan sincerely, his eyes were still a little red, but they were still clear and stubborn.

Yang Fan was moved by this look more than once.He also remembered the last time Feng Jimeng confessed to him, when he asked Yang Fan to look at him bluntly and firmly, and made a serious promise.Only then did Yang Fan realize that Feng Jimeng had grown faster than he imagined, and his mind was much more mature than he thought.He is stubborn and firm, and he is fulfilling his promise step by step.

He really found a treasure, Feng Jimeng is so good, it is worth his all to love and cherish.

Yang Fan let out a "hmm".

Feng Jimeng wiped his face, stood up and went to the kitchen to bring out glutinous glutinous rice balls.

"Let's eat, I'm hungry."

"Ah."

There was a big quarrel just now, although they untied each other's knots and reached a consensus, after quieting down, they were still relatively speechless, and they all buried their heads in eating glutinous rice balls.

After eating for a while, Yang Fan stretched out his hand, and Feng Jimeng put her free hand into his hand, both hands were silent but tightly clenched.