you have to talk to me

"My mother came to see you? What did she come to see you for?" As soon as the words came out, Feng Jimeng was keenly aware of a more crucial question, "Why did she come to you?"

After a few days of slowing down, Yang Fan had sorted out his emotions and made a choice.Among the three options of breaking up with Feng Jimeng, letting Feng Jimeng break up with his family for him, and considering Feng Jimeng's future, forming an alliance with his mother, and only asking to be by Feng Jimeng's side all the time, Yang Fanny chose the last one.

He is not a person who compromises, and he is not willing to make such a choice.But he couldn't instigate Feng Jimeng to break up with his family. During these tossing and turning nights, he also tried to persuade himself to separate from Feng Jimeng. Who hasn't experienced the pain of breaking up when they were young? Feng Jimeng's life is still alive. As long as you grow, you will meet someone you like more in the future.Breaking up may be bearable, but thinking about Feng Jimeng's situation, with a pair of parents like that, and another person living abroad, he can't take care of himself, doesn't have the character to make friends, and is even less good at asking others for help.Yang Fan couldn't bear the thought of what he would suffer alone.

So Yang Fan thought, as long as he can be by his side, as long as he can be with him, even if he leaves his hometown, even if he is an underground lover, it's just this time, if he and Feng Jimeng don't end well, he may not be able to love someone like this again. Then what else is he unable to pay and endure.

Feng Jimeng immediately understood the meaning of Yang Fan's silence, and asked, "Does she know?"

"Ah."

"she……"

Yang Fan knew that he must have a lot of questions, so he explained directly: "She had someone follow me and we found out that we were kissing in the alley that night, and I don't know where I found the record that we went to a B&B and only wanted one room. I I think she knows everything, that we are in a relationship, that you live in my house."

"I just live in your house."

"But we're really in love."

Feng Jimeng frowned, then stretched it out again, and said indifferently: "If you know it, you know it." Then she raised her eyes to look at Yang Fan, "She didn't do anything bad to you, right?"

"No." Seeing that Feng Jimeng's words didn't sound like a joke, Yang Fan asked suspiciously, "What bad things can she do to me?"

"It's nothing, nothing is fine."

His mother used to curse his father's mistress at home, and when she scolded badly, she threatened to find someone to kill mistress and the child, and even said the same to Feng Changxiong on the phone.She also really found someone to take revenge on that mistress, but in the end her father found out and stopped her.

Thinking of this, Feng Jimeng thought about it: "Occasionally, I feel that my mother's mind is not very good. It's scary when she goes crazy, and my father is afraid of her."

"Really? Then it's quite normal for her to meet me." Not only normal, but shrewd to the point of coldness.

Feng Jimeng nodded, and only said: "No matter what she says, just ignore her, just stay away from her."

He didn't ask what his mother said to Yang Fan, Feng Jimeng neither cared nor was interested, the only thing Yang Fan had to do was to ignore her according to his wishes.

"You don't want to know what she told me?" Yang Fan said proactively, "She said that if you go out to study, she will find a way to send me out to accompany you."

Feng Jimeng was not interested in this proposal, he turned around and walked outside.

"No, I won't go out, I've said it many times."

Yang Fan followed Feng Jimeng and sat down on the sofa with him.Feng Jimeng picked up the last can of Coke that he drank during the day, and turned on the TV, intending to end this topic.Yang Fan grabbed the remote control and turned off the phone, snatched the Coke from Feng Jimeng's hand, and replaced it with a can of Wangzai milk.

"Bao'er, why are you so resistant to going out? If I go out with you, you don't have to study hard for the exam, and you can go to a better school. Your family is also satisfied, and we don't have to separate. Isn't it great."

Feng Jimeng put Wangzai back on the table, he looked at Yang Fan, a little coldly: "Do you want to go abroad?"

Yang Fan opened his mouth and closed it again.After a moment of silence, he said: "I'm alone, it's not the same wherever I go, I will follow you after I say it, wherever you go, I'll go there."

Hearing this, Feng Jimeng's eyes softened a bit: "But I don't want to go abroad, brother, I know you don't want to go abroad either, so let's call it a day."

Yang Fan was a little anxious: "But have you ever thought about it, will your father let you go like this?"

"What can he do if he can't help it?"

Yang Fan didn't expect Feng Jimeng to be so stubborn: "Your mother already knows about our relationship, she doesn't care who you date with, whether it's a boyfriend or a girlfriend. But she said your father doesn't think so, Your dad is very traditional, if he digs into the reason why you don't go out, he will definitely find out about our relationship."

"When I found out, I found out. I never thought about deliberately hiding it from anyone."

Yang Fan started to get a little annoyed: "Are you really going to confront your parents? Have you ever thought about the consequences of doing so? Are you not afraid that they will sever ties with you and won't recognize you in the future?"

"Mengmeng, I can tell you with certainty that not all parents can accept that their children are gay, because there are quite a few people who have fallen out with their families because of this kind of thing, and several of Yu Gang's friends are That's right."

Feng Jimeng was also a little annoyed, he never thought that Yang Fan would stand on the same side as his mother, and turned around to deal with him.

"If you fall out, you will fall out. It's not your parents. You have nothing to worry about."

Yang Fan unconsciously raised his voice: "It's because those are not my parents, so I don't want you to fall out with them, and I don't want you to do something that I will regret in the future."

"So you actually don't want to be responsible?"

Feng Jimeng couldn't hide the disappointed look on his face, and his look stabbed Yang Fan severely, and reminded him again of Feng Jimeng's mother's condescending look, and made him realize how different he was compared to Feng Jimeng's family. Poverty and incompetence made him feel inferior to the dust.

Yang Fan didn't care about other things, and yelled at Feng Jimeng: "Yes, because I can't fucking afford this responsibility."

Feng Jimeng bit the corner of her mouth and stopped talking, staring straight at Yang Fan, her eye sockets gradually turning red.

The sadness and disappointment written on his face made Yang Fan feel a sharp pain in his heart. He slid his throat several times before he said in a rough voice, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have hurt you, I..."

The red eye sockets gradually became moist until they overflowed with tears and the eyelids could no longer hold them.When Feng Jimeng blinked, tears rolled down the corners of her eyes.

As soon as Feng Jimeng cried, Yang Fan's heart tightened and panicked. He pulled a tissue and tried to wipe away Feng Jimeng's tears, but he turned his head away.

Feng Jimeng raised his sleeve and wiped it casually, then stood up and walked towards the door.

Yang Fan stood up, "Where are you going?"

Feng Jimeng ignored him and opened the door.

Yang Fan went up in two steps, grabbed his arm and pulled him back: "It's midnight, where are you going?"

Feng Jimeng twisted away his arm, crying: "If you don't want to be responsible, then you don't have to be responsible, I will handle it myself." After speaking, he strode towards the elevator.

"you……"

Yang Fan chased him out, grabbed someone in the elevator again, and said in a deep voice, "Feng Jimeng, you come back first."

Feng Jimeng didn't speak, and broke free silently.This time Yang Fan held on tightly, seeing Feng Jimeng struggling so hard, he simply rushed forward and hugged her.Feng Jimeng struggled harder, and the two wrestled silently.But Yang Fan took advantage of his height and physical strength, endured Feng Jimeng's kicking and pushing, half dragged and half hugged him, and got him into the room.

The door closed with a "snap", Feng Jimeng opened the door with his hand, Yang Fan pressed him down with his whole body, took out the key and locked the door behind him.Feng Jimeng reached out to grab the key again, Yang Fan raised his hand, and threw the key into an unknown corner of the kitchen.

"Mengmeng, listen to me...Feng Jimeng..."

Feng Jimeng was still crying, closing his eyes and shaking his head, crying: "You let me go, let me go..."

Yang Fan was anxious and irritable, instinctively pinched Feng Jimeng's jaw, and kissed his mouth.

Feng Jimeng was stunned for a moment, then shook his head even harder, but he couldn't dodge being strangled to death by Yang Fan, the only thing that could move flexibly was his tongue, so he used it to touch Yang Fan's body. The tip of the tongue sticks out, and then closes the mouth tightly.

The two confronted silently, and Yang Fan desperately bit his lips, trying to pry his teeth open.Feng Jimeng held on to that line of defense, he knew that once Yang Fan crossed over, he would compromise, and all his persistence would fall apart, but he really didn't want to go abroad, let alone be arranged by his father for his future life.

Yang Fan grabbed Feng Jimeng's two wrists pinned behind him with one hand, and pinched his chin with the other hand. Unable to spare any more hands to help pry open his teeth, he pushed his nose forward, and Feng Jimeng He held Feng Jimeng's breath.

The moment his teeth loosened, he immediately squeezed in, Feng Jimeng bit him mercilessly, Yang Fan frowned, the pain at the base of his tongue made him furious, and then became more violent.

The struggling wrists and twisting body gradually lost their strength. When Feng Jimeng was leaning against the door paralyzed, Yang Fan finally let go of his lips, tongue, and restraint, and hugged his waist with both hands. , arched his back, buried his face on his shoulder, panting.

Feng Jimeng leaned his head against the door, his eyes were red like rabbits, his nose was blocked badly, he opened his mouth slightly to breathe, and his chest heaved and fell accordingly.

Yang Fan was still buried on Feng Jimeng's shoulder. It had been buried for a long time. Feng Jimeng felt that the shoulder was a little wet, and then found that the arched shoulder trembled slightly.

Feng Jimeng was so angry, so resentful, and merciless just now, but now his heart softened again.Yang Fan must have been in a difficult situation, although he didn't understand why he suddenly changed sides and began to persuade himself to go abroad, but it's not because he really didn't want to take responsibility.

Yang Fan has no reason to go abroad. He has a family and friends in China, and he lives in his own circle like a fish in water. What reason does he have to face such a completely strange world.If he was the only reason for him to go abroad, then what else could Feng Jimeng complain about him.

Feng Jimeng raised his arms, embraced the trembling shoulders, and sniffed.

"Brother, if you really want me to follow my parents' advice and go abroad, then I'll go out."

"Can't I listen to you? Let's stop arguing about this matter."