I am in love with myself

The adoptive father is indeed a rough man. He didn't graduate from elementary school, and he can barely recognize some common words, and he doesn't even know how to multiply.

But the adoptive father does love her very much. It has something to do with her. He has always been cautious. For her future, he even reluctantly handed over her, who has been raised for more than ten years, to the Jane family. With more money, her future can be smoother and broader.

At the age of 16, although she understood the painstaking efforts of her adoptive father, she still had some complaints. After all, she was young at that time, and it was the time of rebellion, although it was not obvious on the surface.

At the age of 16, she has the same thinking as most of her peers. In a nutshell, she regards money as dung. She believes that her adoptive parents let her out for money, which is an insult to her and does not love her enough.

Back then, she also called her adoptive parents more than once when she was hurt and suffering, complaining that they pushed her to Jane's family and made herself into this situation.

The adoptive parents also tried to help her transfer to another school, but Wen Qiaoyun refused, saying that she was about to graduate soon, and she didn't want to bother her, and she didn't want others to see jokes again.

The adoptive parents have no guardianship rights, so no matter how anxious they are, it is useless for them to live on campus in the third year of high school, and they don't even have the right to enter the school gate to see her.

It was not easy to meet her last time, and she did so secretly behind Wen Qiaoyun's back. An Mu still clearly remembered the vicissitudes of her adoptive father's face at that time.

It was at the entrance of a small alley not far from the school. The adoptive father was standing behind the big banyan tree on the side of the road. The adoptive mother held her hand and lowered her head to wipe her tears. The adoptive father kept smoking beside him.

The flickering cigarette butts lit up the low-quality green smoke, and the adoptive father's face was huddled behind the green smoke, as if he had aged ten years suddenly, his face was full of dimples, the tails of his eyes drooped, and his eyes seemed to be closed, desolate and decayed.

From that day on, her adoptive father would repeat the same sentence every time he saw her until he died unexpectedly.

【We are not with them, we are ordinary people, I shouldn't return you, it's all my fault. 】

Before the car accident, her adoptive father called her for the last time, saying that he had found evidence proving that he was not abducted and would send it to her immediately.

The adoptive father was so excited that he even forgot that it was three o'clock in the middle of the night. He didn't remember until after making a phone call and told her to go to bed quickly. He and the adoptive mother went to the station to buy tickets.

At that time, she told her adoptive father not to worry and come back at dawn, but his adoptive father said: It's okay, don't fall asleep.

At that time, she had already seen too much human nature, and she could already hear the sadness beyond her adoptive father's words.

The adoptive father was full of guilt. The guilt failed to protect her well and failed to become a mountain that she could rely on. Instead, it pushed her into a bottomless abyss.

When I saw my adoptive father again, he was already dead. The police who dealt with the scene said that when he died, his eyes were open, and he kept looking at the end of the road, as if he still had some unfulfilled wish, and he died with regret.

She understood that her adoptive father was worried about her.

After many years, she did it again, but she didn't expect that she would hear the same sentence in advance.

"You are a rich man, Xixi is just a common man, you two are not in the same way at all."

For a moment, she even wondered if they kept the memories of their previous life?Otherwise, why would you suddenly say such a thing?

But soon, she denied the idea.

If they really kept their memories, it would be absolutely impossible to return her to the Jane family. They would do everything in their power to protect her, at least until she became an adult, and she would no longer need a guardian.

If it's not to keep the memory, then it can only be instigated by Jian Yihu.

What did Jian Yihu say that made her adoptive father stumble and break his leg in fright?

An Mu was not in a hurry to ask, she had something more important to say.

"Uncle, do you think I'm a bad person?"

The adoptive father shook his head, "In this world, there are no absolutely good people, and there are no absolutely bad people, only relatively speaking, like a tiger that kills its offspring, for cattle and sheep, a tiger is definitely not good, but As far as its own cub is concerned, it is good."

This is the consistent education style of her adoptive father, and she grew up in such a rough and reasonable way.

"Uncle is right, there are no absolutely good people, and there are no absolutely bad people, only relatively speaking, I am definitely a bad person compared to Wen Qiaoyun and Jian Yihu, but I am relative to Jian Yixi... I believe in all the things that happened before , Jian Yixi has already told you, does uncle think that I am also bad compared to her?"

The adoptive father leaned back and sat up a little higher. The bandages on the hanging legs were a little off. An Mu got up and straightened him naturally.

Seeing her calm appearance, her adoptive father sighed slightly.

"You are indeed good to Xixi, but goodness is not enough. You are not in the same circle. As the old saying goes, birds of a feather flock together and people are divided into groups. You rich people's schemes and tricks and so on, she is an ordinary person It's useless to learn, and I don't want her to get involved in those messy things again.

Of course, I'm not saying you're bad, really not!This is determined by the circle.

Look around us, if anyone doesn't understand someone, they will at most quarrel, at worst, get a hole in the head, there are not so many twists and turns, at most, they will gossip behind their backs and stare at each other.

It's not like you rich people, you always make troubles on the Internet, and the whole world knows who can win who just depends on reasoning, and you have to have money to find something... What kind of navy, you have to use your brains to design intrigues, Otherwise, it is reasonable and unreasonable.

Don't say that there are people who have no money and make trouble on the Internet. It depends on who he fights with, ordinary people or ordinary company units. Do not know at all.

Can you understand what I said?I guess you don't quite understand.

I don’t know how to say it so that you can understand it more thoroughly. I’ll just give you a simple example. Don’t think that Uncle gave a rough example. Uncle is uneducated, so I really can’t give a good example.

Hmm... It's like, our family is all ordinary villagers, Xixi plays with the villagers, even if it gets awkward, the two of them quarrel, even a shrew swears and fights in the street, and it's over when it's over, the big deal is whoever sees who No one cares.

But if Xixi plays with the village tyrant's daughter, she will offend the girl, and as long as she sues her father, our whole family will have to wear small shoes.

What's even more frightening is that if the village bully's friend falls in love with Xixi and Xixi doesn't like it, he will slander Xixi for having an affair with him a long time ago, and Xixi's reputation is ruined, so he has no choice but to marry him.

But Xixi is just an ordinary village woman, and the friend of the village tyrant is a capable person in the city, who hasn't seen her in the world?It didn't take long before he got bored with Xixi, domestic violence with us Xixi.

Xixi wanted to get divorced, but we couldn't get a divorce from him. We finally called the police, but he called the police on the front foot, and then he let the village bully kill our whole family. Son, not to mention that there are no people left, so what can Shen do?

This is the consequence of people who are not in the same circle and have unequal portals.

If Xixi hadn't played with the village bully's daughter from the beginning, she would have almost no chance to get in touch with the capable people in the city.

I say that, can you understand?

Of course, this is just an example, and it may not be someone who is capable, or it may be something else, such as being ridiculed for wearing a famous brand just because of the clothes on my body.

In short, it's not a circle, there will always be big and small conflicts, no matter what kind of conflicts, Xixi is the weak side, either being bullied or wronged, she can't always let you protect her, can she?

You can protect her for a while, but you can't protect her forever, can you?

Besides, she is still young, what if she goes astray after seeing too many ostentatious comparisons?

So... Uncle means... You are not in the same circle, it is best not to be friends, Xixi owes you, I have discussed it with her mother, we take out our old books, it should be enough to pay back up.

Tomorrow, I will ask her mother to go to Weicheng with you, and transfer the ownership of the house. In the next semester, her mother and I will move there, regardless of washing dishes, so that she can finish high school and wait for the exams. Go to college and talk about other things. "

An Mu listened carefully to what his adoptive father had said, and looked at his gaze expecting him to nod, with mixed emotions in his heart.

The adoptive father is still the adoptive father, who only thinks about his daughter wholeheartedly, but now she is no longer the daughter he cares about, she is not even a "friend with a good relationship with the daughter", she has become the opposite in the eyes of the adoptive father, it is possible The original sin of killing his precious daughter.

An Mu lowered his eyes, no matter how accustomed he was to not showing any signs of happiness, he couldn't suppress it now.

The adoptive father has not changed, and she has not changed, but she can no longer enjoy the care from the adoptive father from the heart, and she is not even qualified to care about the adoptive father.

She didn't understand, since God made her reborn, why didn't she be reborn into her own body?

Is God joking with her, or is there some deep meaning she still can't understand?

Or, there is no god in this world at all, and everything is just a coincidence that cannot be explained by existing science.

"Uncle...Uncle."

An Mu looked at her cold white fingers, her voice was flat, but her eyes were faintly hot. She didn't want to raise her head, and she didn't want her cowardice to be discovered.

As early as she decided to take revenge on Jian's family in her previous life, she had already made up her mind that she would never shed another tear.

Crying is a sign of cowardice, and she has been cowardly for long enough that she no longer needs such a useless temperament.

"Hey, tell me."

The adoptive father's voice was clearly regretful, no matter what, she was a benefactor who helped her daughter so much, and could even be said to be the benefactor of their whole family, even if it was a purposeful help.

An Mu said: "What Uncle said is reasonable, but it's not entirely true. People in different circles are prone to have differences in values, and they may encounter some unpleasant things because of their different circles of friends.

But Uncle, do you want Jian Yixi to be in the same circle all his life?

Just like the example you gave just now, you hope that Jian Yixi will be a village girl all her life, then marry a man from the same village, have a child, and continue to walk the same path?Then the children and grandchildren are like this?

Besides, you can guarantee that she will be safe and sound, and won't accidentally run into a capable person in the city?

She can stay in the circle, but Nairen may have contact with all kinds of religions and streams. They will not solidify their circle, because they know that people of any class may be useful to them, but the circle they really care about is not. Not here. "

The adoptive father was silent.

An Mu curled up her icy white fingertips on her knees, but still did not raise her head. Her voice was as calm as a deep spring in a valley, with almost no waves.

"I think what Uncle said before is right. I can protect her for a while, but I can't protect her for a lifetime. The same is true for Uncle.

Uncle always said that she is a common people, afraid of being bullied, it is better to get in touch with friends who are also common people.

This idea is correct in a certain sense. Compared with those who spend a lot of money to send their children to prestigious schools in order to let their children meet higher-level people, only to find out in the end that their children can't integrate into those circles at all. Uncle's idea Really much better.

But Uncle never thought about it, why can't she become the person that others want to get acquainted with?

Her academic performance is very good. In the future, it is possible to be admitted to a good university, find a good job, and even start her own business.

How can you conclude that she will always be in the current circle?

The student era is relatively the most beautiful era without circles. Isn’t it a good thing to make like-minded friends, learn from each other’s advantages that you don’t have, and improve yourself?

Jian Yixi suffers only because she is too simple, which actually has nothing to do with being in circles or not.

If Uncle really cares about her, he should not take her under his wings, but let her learn to fly by herself, not in the small palm-sized forest under your nose, but let her work hard to fly to a higher place. The vast sky.

Don't worry she'll get pecked by a hawk, no one reaches the top without suffering.

One day in the future, you will find that she is not a little skylark at all, she is the eagle soaring in the sky, she does not need your protection, she can even spread her wings and take you all under her wings.

When I say this, I may feel that it is empty and groundless. I should remember that incident, right?

How did Jian Yixi get rid of the Jian family?It was she who relied on her own wisdom to video call the police and negotiate, and she won the opportunity for herself.

Is this the daughter you know who only cries when she loses her admission ticket?Why can she grow rapidly in just a few days?Have you ever thought about it? "

Before the adoptive father could answer, the door of the ward opened, and Jian Yixi and her adoptive mother came back.

An Mu stood up and looked, facing Jian Yixi's soft black eyes.

Jian Yixi blinked subconsciously, turned away unnaturally, and walked to the hospital bed with her mother on her arm.

"Dad, An Mu and I will go out for dinner first, arrange a hotel for An Mu to stay in, and I'll come back later. I'll stay with you tonight and let Mom go back to rest."

The adoptive father was still immersed in An Mu's last question, and he was dull for a second before raising his head.

"What? Are you staying with me at night?"

The adoptive father immediately waved his hand: "Pull it down, it's inconvenient, it's better to let your mother here, you and An Mu hurry to eat, go back to our house to sleep after eating, and check the door by the way, no one at home is worried at night. "

The adoptive mother looked at An Mu, then at the adoptive father, her mouth moved, but she wanted to say something but didn't say it.

"Then...then you go back and come back tomorrow morning."

"Then we're going back."

Jian Yixi didn't stop for a second, and pushed An Mu to the door of the ward. An Mu held the doorknob, paused for a moment, then turned to her adoptive father and said, "Uncle, think about what I just said, especially...Jane Yixi Xi's surname is Jane, she is already doomed, no matter how the boundaries are drawn, some people will not let her go."

The adoptive father raised his head, a trace of shock appeared on his tanned face.

The two left the hospital, Jian Yixi took two quick steps and took her arm.

"What did my dad tell you?"

"It's nothing, I'm just worried that you will be bullied."

After ten o'clock in the evening, the small county town was very lonely, and there were almost no people there. The footsteps of the two were swallowed up by the empty road, leaving only the occasional roar of passing vehicles.

Jian Yixi bit her lips, her voice soft and lonely.

"I... my mother told me that my father fell off after answering Jane Yihu's call. "

"What did Jane Yihu say?"

"Jian Yihu said...you are using me, including now, saying that your family went bankrupt abroad, and the last bit of capital is in your account.

He also said that you valued the Jane family's business, and your parents also wanted to get involved in this business, but your money was not enough to take down the Jane family's company, so you were instructed to approach me, first let her be ruined through me, and then put My father is in prison, the next step is to punish my mother, wait until the company has no leader, then buy the company at the lowest price, and then..."

"Then what?"

Jian Yixi murmured, and said in a low voice: "Then kick me away who is useless, and it's not a normal kick, because I'm also from Jane's family, in order to ensure that the company can get into your hands smoothly. Here, you'll put me in jail."

"I put you in jail?"

Jian Yixi nodded, "My parents didn't believe it at first, but Jian Yihu said, if there was no conspiracy, who would casually add someone else's name to their own house book? That's because they signed the house purchase contract, Half of the real estate owned by the two of them is legally valid, and it is worth hundreds of thousands of real money, especially...we only knew each other for a few days at the time."

After such an analysis, anyone who listens to it will feel suspicious. Even if the rich second generation chases his girlfriend, they will add their names for a purpose. No one will be so stupid if there is no benefit. However, An Mu has no real benefit. of.

"So your parents believed it?"

Jian Yixi took a peek at her and saw that she didn't seem angry, so she felt relieved and continued talking.

"My parents are honest people. Jane threatened them with Hu, saying that she has already mastered your plan, saying that you added my name, but in fact, you are waiting for the right time to sue me for fraud."

Even if Jian Yixi didn't say anything, An Mu vaguely guessed the direction. She didn't feel angry, but felt a little bit bitter.

The adoptive parents are still there, but they are no longer her adoptive parents.

They are not wrong, and she will not change her original intention, but... It is inevitable that she is still a little sad.

Maybe...she was greedy.

The tree wants to be quiet but the wind keeps on, and the child wants to support but the kiss does not wait.

Even if she was no longer the treasure they held in their hands, at least they were still there.

An Mu raised his face slightly, suppressed the burning eyes, and joked gently.

"So that sentence is really good. It's hard to be a good person these days."

Jian Yixi raised her head in a panic, holding her arms a little tighter.

"It's not that my parents don't believe you, they just take precautions. In fact, they are still very grateful to you and me from the bottom of their hearts! I absolutely believe in you! No matter what my parents say, I won't beat you to death." I will break up with you!"

The street lamps were dim, the sycamore trees were withered, and the night wind blew through in gusts of coldness. Jian Yixi looked up at her wearing a down hoodie. His eyebrows and eyes, as if she was afraid to believe it or not, the fingertips pulling her sleeves seemed to be trembling slightly.

There was a hint of warmth in his bitter heart, and An Mu smiled slightly: "I believe in you, and I believe in your parents."

After getting the answer she wanted, Jian Yixi lowered her head desolately, without showing the slightest joy, but rather disappointed.

An Mu said: "You don't have to worry too much, this matter is actually very easy to handle, just return the house, your hukou will not affect the college entrance examination, and your parents can rest assured."

Jian Yixi raised her eyes and glanced at her, then quickly lowered her head, with a choked nasal sound in her voice.

"You're always like this...you think about everything for me, and you don't say anything about being wronged."

An Mu was startled.

——How could she have misunderstood her like this?In a new life, if she wrongs anyone, it is impossible for her to wrong herself.

Jian Yixi took a deep breath, stopped suddenly, pulled An Mu together and turned to face each other, looking up at her solemnly.

"What I'm going to say next is very serious, listen to me!"

"Okay, let's talk."

Jian Yixi raised her small face, and said every word firmly, sonorously and forcefully.

"Me! Jian Yixi! Tell you An Mu very seriously! I will definitely convince my parents to trust you and accept you from the bottom of their hearts! Treating you is like treating your own daughter!"

biological... daughter...

Seeing Jian Yixi's childish appearance, An Mu's expression softened a little.

"Then I'll tell you very seriously, I really believe in you, your parents, especially your father."

Jian Yixi opened her eyes slightly: "Why especially my dad? What did my dad tell you?"

An Mu dragged her to continue walking forward.

"Your dad asked me bluntly if I approached you purposefully, and told me bluntly that he would transfer the house to me, and bluntly gave me examples to reason, hoping that I could sever ties with you.

He can be so straightforward without beating around the bush. On the one hand, he wants to remind me that they already know that I may have ulterior motives. On the other hand, it is actually a kind of trust.

If they really think that I will harm you, they will definitely solve this problem in a more rigorous way, instead of being so rash. "

Listening to the front, Jian Yixi's face turned pale, and then heard the back, his pale face turned a little bloody again.

"You scared me to death, An Mu. I thought my dad was talking badly, and insisted that you sever ties with me."

——Although it's not an imperative, it's true that he wants us to sever ties.

"In short, I believe in you, and I believe in your parents. As long as the house is brought back, they have nothing to worry about. The only thing to be wary of is Jian Yihu, but she is not a big threat now, as long as your parents know what to do. It's fine."

Jian Yixi nodded heavily.

"I will definitely try my best to make my parents accept you. What I just said counts. If they really don't accept it, then I will never separate from you! Absolutely!"

——Only immature children would use such affirmative sentences.

An Mu couldn't hold back his smile, and joked casually.

"Why do you say that like a young couple about to be beaten with a stick?"

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