I am in love with myself

Jian Yixi stretched out her hand cautiously, her nervous breathing froze.

I got it... really got it...

Through the thin pajamas, An Mu's warm body temperature touched the fingertips, and the fingertips trembled faintly, trembling all the way to the bottom of Jian Yixi's heart.

She tried her best to control her heartbeat, first with her fingertips, then with her whole hand, and finally pulled An Mu into her arms.

It was like a hug from a lifetime ago, like a longing that had been accumulated for thousands of years, as soon as she fell into her arms, Jian Yixi's eyes became wet.

She wanted to cry, almost couldn't help it, instinctively endured it desperately, endured it in exchange for not being able to hold it back, she simply let herself go, and shed tears silently.

Anyway, no one will see it, so what if you cry?Doesn't she even have the right to cry?

She is very tired, really tired, it is not good to think too much, but she is envious of Mao Mao's heartless, she also wants to just go with the flow, let's talk about it later, just be happy now.

But why can't she do it?

An Mu, do you know how much I love you?I love you as everyone in this world loves themselves.

In this world, it is impossible for anyone to love themselves more than others. Even the mentally ill will activate the self-protection mechanism and have psychological barriers because they love themselves too much. The so-called people who are willing to sacrifice themselves for others are only because of the death of others. It is more difficult to accept for yourself, in the final analysis, it is for yourself.

I'm just an ordinary person, you are me, I am you, why don't you tell me not to love myself?

Do you really love me?Is it because you know the truth?

I can't understand your words and deeds. I don't know what you mean when you said you love me and then leave immediately?I don't know what it means that you hugged the quilt with a cold face?I don't even know what you mean when you mentioned the words "a married couple" over and over again?

It's not that I can't find out the truth. I can contact my school girl, I can check the hospital monitoring, and I don't even need to check the monitoring. Just ask Dr. Li or the nurse, and I will know that you followed me to the hospital in the first place. Instead, I went only after chatting with my school girl.

I have a way, but I dare not ask.

An Mu, I'm not stupid.

I know that I have never been your opponent. The saying that the blue is better than the blue will probably not be applicable to me for the rest of my life, but I am really not stupid.

I would rather look for clues from you little by little, than to tear the cruel reality naked|naked in front of me.

even one day later

Well, at least now you are in my arms.

Tears flowed silently, and the corners of her mouth were salty, Jian Yixi tried not to make a sound, not wanting to disturb anyone, just wanting to extend this hard-won hug infinitely.

An Mu in his arms opened his eyes, and the light in his eyes flickered in the dark. He couldn't tell whether it was from distress or helplessness. He sighed faintly, put his hands on Jian Yixi's waist, and hugged him a little harder.

"Go to sleep, it's getting late."

An Mu's magnetic voice pierced through Jian Yixi's eardrums like an electric shock. Jian Yixi was visibly shaken, and her tears froze.

- An Mu didn't sleep at all?What if she didn't wake up?

An Mu raised his head and kissed her on the lips lightly. He knew that this move would destroy the "refused to love a married woman" persona that he had been trying to maintain before, but he followed his willfulness instead.

She couldn't explain why, but she couldn't see Jian Yixi crying. It was a long time ago. At first, she thought it was because she couldn't see her 16-year-old being bullied, but now it's clear that no one is bullying her. No, she can't say no one, The person who made Jian Yixi cry seemed to be herself.

In any case, Jian Yixi's tears made her uncomfortable, especially this kind of desperately suppressed tears made her even more uncomfortable.

She didn't want to think about it so much, she just wanted her to stop crying, her body was already weak and supported by the nutrient solution, wouldn't she feel dizzy if she kept crying like this?Dizziness is often accompanied by nausea and nausea, isn't she afraid of stomach pain?

After the kiss, she lowered her head and leaned into Jian Yixi's arms again. Although she was not used to it, wouldn't pushing Jian Yixi away at this time make her cry even harder?

An Mu didn't know whether her kiss was effective or not. She only felt that Jian Yixi's body was stiff, and her pounding heartbeat was stronger than when she hugged her just now. Even if she didn't listen deliberately, Still thunderous.

An Mu withdrew her head a little bit to keep her from being so close to Jian Yixi's heart. It was a bit deafening, but if she didn't move away a little, her figure was suddenly imprisoned, and Jian Yixi suddenly pulled her into her arms, as if An Mu tightened his arms desperately as if trying to strangle her in two. An Mu almost lost his breath and instinctively punched her.

"You want to strangle me?!"

It's hard to tell whether it's coquettish anger or frightened anger, and the low voice is faint and lingering, no matter how fierce it is, it seems to be coquettish.

Although there is no deterrent effect, fortunately Jian Yixi's arm is really loose.

An Mu took a breath, feeling a little better, and said in a breathless voice, "Go to sleep, and be careful not to wake Mao Mao up."

Before the words finished, An Mu's shoulders were suddenly pressed, and An Mu, who was lying on his side,

He was pressed down to lie flat.

An Mu raised his eyes subconsciously, and couldn't see anything clearly in the dimness, only the faint silhouette of Jian Yixi above his head, which quickly lowered down, and the scorching breath was as hot as a flame.

An Mu opened his eyes slightly.

"You... um..."

Jingle Bell--

Early in the morning, the alarm rang on time, and An Mu opened his eyes wearily. His eyelids seemed to weigh a thousand pounds, and he couldn't open them halfway.

An Mu slowed down for a while, and moved his body a little, only to realize that the left side had been crushed to the point of unconsciousness. One could imagine the numbness like tens of thousands of small needles pricked after the pressure was removed.

Jian Yixi entangled her body like an octopus, her brows were tightly frowned, and she slept very restlessly.

Jian Yixi's Mao Mao, who was next door to him, slept in the dark, and did not comment on his sleeping posture, but the quilt was tightly rolled up, and he didn't freeze himself at all.

An Mu reached out to touch the phone on the bedside table, and turned off the alarm clock, which was so loud that it hurt people's brains. It was so loud that Mao Mao didn't wake up, and Jian Yixi didn't wake up either.

An Mu helplessly wiped the fine sweat from the corners of his forehead, and suddenly felt that something was wrong, even if two of them squeezed into the same bed, it shouldn't be so hot.

The pressed half of the body was almost unconscious, but if you feel it carefully, you can feel the scalding heat.

An Mu quickly touched Jian Yixi's forehead, his fingertips were numb from the heat.

"Jane Yixi? Jane Yixi!"

Maomao woke up with a shock, quickly asked for leave, and helped An Mu rush all the way back to the hospital with Jian Yixi on his back.

Jian Yixi's situation was special, and An Mu didn't dare to go to the nearest doctor. It was Expert Li's hospital that rushed all the way back.

Dr. Li answered the phone and rushed to the hospital early. When he saw Jian Yixi's fever, he immediately wanted to lose his temper, but he didn't say a word. To check whether the breathing is smooth, and to check whether it is a bacterial infection or a viral infection, I quickly pushed the needle to hang the liquid, first the high fever subsided, and all other examinations were postponed.

After a whole morning of heart-pounding, the fever finally subsided, and after waiting for a while, Jian Yixi also woke up.

Seeing Jian Yixi's dazed and confused appearance, An Mu heaved a sigh of relief, but at the same time rushed forward with a feeling of anger.

——She is not going to give up until she tosses herself to death, right?If you don't have a little improvement, you will mess around!

——If I knew she couldn't bear a single kiss, why did she change plans so much?

"Are you angry with An Mu?"

--nonsense.

"Last night I..."

--To shut up.

An Mu has worked hard to calm down

It's gone, but the eyes staring at Jian Yixi are full of ice.

Jian Yixi took a sneak peek at her, then quickly turned away, staring at the infusion tube on the back of her hand, not daring to look around.

"I... I don't know why I just... didn't... couldn't control it last night."

she does not know?How could she not know?

She was just ignited by An Mu's kiss. She suddenly exploded emotionally, and she couldn't control it. She thought that it would be okay even if she died now, and she didn't want to suppress herself anymore.

However, she did everything she should and shouldn't have done, but she didn't die, she just had a fever.

It was because of the fever that An Mu was angry.

——Obviously she was the one who suffered, why did Jian Yixi look like a rag doll who had been ravaged all night? !

An Mu didn't want to talk to her.

"An Mu, I was wrong..."

An Mu just didn't want to talk to her.

"Otherwise...or I will let you go back?"

—Which one is going back?

An Mu didn't want to know who she was referring to.

"Is it appropriate for a couple to say this?"

An Mu glared at Jian Yixi.

Jian Yixi was also quite wronged.

——Did I say anything when you said that to me?Why can't it be reversed?

Maomao pushed the door open and came in. Just as he saw An Mu's staring stare at the frozen man, Ji Youyou was overwhelmed with affection, chattering as he walked.

"An Mu, I know that you see that she is so angry that I am so angry, and I am also panicked. I can't wait to beat her, so that she will not care so much! You think about it last night to do it for us so hard. Chicken, do you have the heart to be angry with her again? Huh?"

An Mu glared at Mao Mao again.

"I don't see you eating less."

"I... I'm not afraid of disappointing her good intentions."

"I didn't see you stopping her from doing it."

"I...cough..."

It's not that Maomao was blocked, she knew that she would not be able to defeat An Mu sooner or later, so why waste her words, and she really regretted not stopping Jian Yixi last night.

Listening to what they were saying, Jian Yixi muttered something in a low voice.

"I'm not making chicken...I'm making chestnut chicken."

It was not intended for anyone, but Mao Mao heard it with the tip of his ears.

"What did you say? Does it make any difference?"

Jian Yixi was lying on the hospital bed, her fever had not completely subsided, she was a little confused, she didn't know why she muttered such a sentence, but when she heard Maomao use that word, she subconsciously refuted.

"A chicken is a chicken, and a chestnut chicken is a chestnut chicken."

"Isn't chestnut chicken made of chicken?

"It's made of chicken, but it's different."

"Why is it different? Didn't I eat chicken last night?"

"You did eat chicken last night, but..."

"But what? But I ate chicken, but An Mu was eaten by chicken? Hahaha~"

Maomao thought she had made a comeback, and she was quite proud of it, but unexpectedly, An Mu and Jian Yixi avoided her eyes in embarrassment, one looking at the window and the other at the infusion tube.

Mao Mao couldn't laugh all of a sudden.

--No way?No, no, no, right? !

——Yes, yes, absolutely not!It's impossible for them to be so unscrupulous, at least she's here!

However, this did not comfort Maomao.

Maomao feels that her three views are broken, and she can't put it together at all.

——Even if the two of them have a hobby of being appreciated by others, if they think about Wang Yanqing anyway, don't they feel sorry for him?

Maomao was forced into autism by the miserable drama that she imagined, which was a collection of terminally ill sadomasochism and extramarital affairs. She sat down for a while and then left. She only asked for half a day off. The stage was too busy. It was her for the half day. Reluctantly please.

As soon as Mao Mao left, Dr. Li came in and instructed An Mu to push Jian Yixi who had finished the transfusion to do a gastroscopy.

Of course, it is impossible for a normal person to do it so frequently. After all, doing it once is uncomfortable, but Jian Yixi's situation is different. She just got better yesterday, but today she has a fever. Dr. Li looked serious, afraid that something might go wrong again.

After the examination, Dr. Li breathed a sigh of relief and had a false alarm. The perforation recovered well, and the white blood cell index was also declining steadily. The fever was due to overwork fever, that is, fever caused by physical fatigue or emotional excitement.

"I'm not allowed to leave the hospital without authorization until the illness is completely cured!"

Dr. Li left behind the prohibition, and An Mu also sat by the hospital bed.

She was a little tired, and perhaps the simplest method was the most effective.

An Mu said, "Let's show your cards."