I am in love with myself

Gu Shuofeng has never been a nosy person, originally she would not interfere with Jian Yixi's affairs at all, let them die or live happily, it is all their cause and effect, what does it have to do with her?

But that day when Xu Qinglan released her pigeons, she felt upset. Seeing Jian Yixi greet her with a smile, even knowing the fatigue behind that smile, she still felt glaring, so she casually nodded her a few words.

She said that it is not just that two leaves overlapping can hide from the eyes of God, she also said that this overlapping is not simply being together, but requires soul resonance to completely overlap the two biological waves.

As for how to resonate, although Gu Shuofeng didn't explain it in detail, he also meant something, and any fool would understand what it meant.

In short, the two of them need to be in close contact, and they can't fish for three days and dry the net for two days. The more frequent they are, the less likely they are to be noticed by God.

Of course, because he is the same sex and he is himself, he may not be able to do it, and that's okay, at worst, he will die.

Gu Shuofeng made it clear that it is unreasonable for God to erase flaws. It only obeys the law of the jungle. Whoever has a weaker body will be wiped out. In this way, the least energy can be used to maintain the most stable order.

At that time, Jian Yixi was drinking heavily on an empty stomach all the year round, and her stomach problems were beginning to show signs. Compared with An Mu, who was busy but cherished her life, she was naturally weaker. If An Mu wasn't with her, she would only have a dead end.

Gu Shuofeng also "kindly" helped Jian Yixi point out a clear path.

"Although it's not good for you right now, it's not completely impossible. Just make An Mu's body weaker than yours. For example... create a small accident and hurt her. God will make her weaker than you At the moment, transfer the destruction that was added to you to her. In this way, her body will become weaker and weaker, and the energy that originally suppressed your recovery will completely disappear, and you will soon be able to restore your body and stand on invincible position."

Jian Yixi naturally did not accept Gu Shuofeng's kindness, she left with a pale face, no one knew what kind of painful psychological process she had gone through, the result was obvious, she chose to die by herself.

Instead of confessing to An Mu and the two of them living together, they chose to die by themselves.

Gu Shuofeng clicked his tongue and said, "That's why it is said that love is the most useless thing, it will only make people overheated and lose their minds. What can be more important than one's own life? How can the so-called love continue to exist when you are gone? A consciousness on the verge of disappearing takes its own life, stupid as hell."

An Mulian looked at Gu Shuofeng without expressing approval or objection, and directly changed the topic.

"I just want to know, is it too late to overlap the two leaves now?"

Gu Shuofeng curled his lips into a chuckle: "It's probably still too late, but it's hard to say if it's too late. When the stomach really rots, even if she doesn't have drug tolerance, do you think she can still live?"

"Thank you."

Time was running out, An Mu didn't stay long, turned around and went out, opened the door and suddenly stopped, looking back at Gu Shuofeng.

"Is there really a god in this world?"

Gu Shuofeng leaned against the black boss chair, the high back of the chair blocked the light from the large floor-to-ceiling windows, casting her whole figure in the shadow, only one corner of her red lips fell in the beam of light, the red sensuality matched her difficult face. Yan's soft voice seemed to come from another world, hazy and psychedelic.

"It doesn't matter whether there are gods or not. The important thing is that the magnetic field of the whole world must remain stable."

"If our biological waves overlap, can we avoid the butterfly effect?"

"That's understandable."

Xu Qinglan heard these words just as she walked to the door, and her brows frowned slightly. An Mu noticed her behind her, stepped aside to get out of the way, and nodded goodbye to her.

An Mu left, Xu Qinglan entered the office, walked all the way to the desk and said, "What god? What kind of biological magnetic field? It's best not to joke with people casually, some people will take it seriously."

Gu Shuofeng hooked her neck across the desk, his eyes were full of laughter, and he changed the topic directly.

"When are you going to fulfill what you promised me? How about now?"

Xu Qinglan looked away uncomfortably.

"The office can't mess around."

"How can this be called chaos? This is called fun~"

"You are... not ashamed."

An Mu rushed all the way back to the hospital. Jian Yixi was emotionally ups and downs. She was very weak at the moment and hadn't woken up yet. The expert shook his head as he walked out of the ward. He was the elder brother's elder, so he couldn't help but glared at the second brother.

"You don't know what's going on with her? She left the hospital without permission. Look at what she's like now?!"

The expert clicked on the list of gastroscopes he had just received.

"It was just a small hole, but it can last for a while, how is it now? After tearing such a big hole, she is resistant to drugs and dare not do surgery. Doesn't this mean rushing to reincarnate?!"

The second brother bowed his head and stood next to the scolding, his heart was on fire, he was obviously very anxious, but he had nowhere to vent his anger.

Just as they were training, An Mu came, and the expert calmed down, told An Mu about the situation, and then left with a sigh.

An Mu glanced at his second brother, and entered the ward without saying a word. Maomao was crying by the bedside. When he saw An Mu coming in, he couldn't help crying until his face became disfigured.

"An Mu, what's the matter? Did you find anything? What's going on with her? Is it really the unknown virus infection that Wang Yanqing said?"

When Jian Yixi mistakenly thought that An Mu was dead, her first reaction was to go to Xu Qinglan, and Xu Qinglan was also in the field of biomedicine, so it was inevitable that Mao Mao would think so.

An Mu didn't answer her question, but went straight to the bed and closed the curtains, then said to Maomao, "You go back first, so does the second brother, you all go back."

Maomao wiped away her tears and shook her head: "I won't go, I want to stay with her."

"Aren't you going to work tomorrow?"

"I take a leave!"

"Didn't you say that you will be officially on the show soon? How can you be allowed to leave?"

"Then I will too!"

"Don't be willful, go back."

"No way!" Maomao's tears that had just been wiped away poured out again, "She's not doing well, very badly, I just risked it all and resigned. I must stay with her during her last days, otherwise I will I will definitely regret it! She is my best friend!"

An Mu said lightly, "Then what am I?"

"When is it, can you stop being picky? You know that you and her are very important to me. "

"Since it's all important, then listen to me and go back first, at worst come back tomorrow."

"Why do you have to go back now? I want to wait until she wakes up..."

Before Mao Mao finished speaking, the second brother took her arm and pulled her up.

"An Mu must have a reason for letting us go, so let's not make trouble here."

"No buts."

The second elder brother dragged Mao Mao and talked while walking, giving her no room for change.

"I know you have a lot of questions like me, but now is not the time to ask. I believe that the first person Xiaoxi wants to see when he wakes up is An Mu. We are completely redundant here. Why don't we leave space for them? Why wait until tomorrow."

Mao Mao was taken away just like that, and the ward was empty all of a sudden.

An Mu tugged at the tightly drawn curtains, walked quickly to the door and locked it.

In order to facilitate treatment, Dr. Li specially arranged a single room for Jian Yixi.

Dr. Li has just finished examining Jian Yixi, and he won't come over for the time being. The nurse also has a fixed time for rounds, so he won't come over for the time being.

An Mu took a deep breath and walked towards the hospital bed. Without looking at Jian Yixi, she raised her hand and pulled the curtain beside the bed. There was a long strip of glass on the door, and she relied on the curtain to protect her privacy.

The curtains were drawn, and so was the bed curtain, and the hospital bed instantly became dark, and Jian Yixi's facial features could not be seen clearly without looking carefully.

Jian Yixi was still asleep, her long hair scattered beside the pillow, with the smell of dust and blood, mixed with the smell of disinfectant in the ward, it didn't smell good at all, it even made An Mu uncomfortable, but she still reached out, Gently stroked Jian Yixi's pale cheek.

She didn't know if what Gu Shuofeng said was true or not?

She didn't actually have much trust in her, and what supported her trust in Gu Shuofeng was that Jian Yixi went to find her, and Gu Shuofeng's meaningful "interesting" sentence when he picked up Xu Qinglan that night.

Even if she doesn't have much trust, she still has to trust Gu Shuofeng, because she has no other way, even if someone tells her now that if Jian Yixi drinks your blood, she will not die, she will do it without hesitation.

What she needs is not reason, but a method, any method that can be tried.

Jian Yixi cannot die.

She is even more important than her own life.

To live a new life, An Mu always thought that he was living to make up for the regrets of his previous life. Whether it was protecting his adoptive parents or Mao Mao, or helping Jian Yixi, it was all for this purpose.

Even before she refused Jian Yixi's confession, it was still to make up for regrets.

In her previous life, she had never tried true love. In this life, she hopes to find this person who can make her unforgettable. She doesn't want to lose the right to love freely early.

In fact, until now she also thinks that she is right, she had too many regrets in her previous life, since she lived a new life, why not make up for it?

However, she forgot the most important point, all her regrets boiled down to her own.

She was unhappy in her previous life. These unhappiness included losing relatives and friends, being bullied|bullied and betrayed, and missing youth.

From the beginning to the end, there is actually only one regret that she really wants to make up for—to make herself happy.

So what do you do to make yourself happy?

Protecting relatives and friends is, going to Tsinghua University, having the right to freedom, including what she thought was traveling around the world after graduation.

But why did traveling around the world, which I was looking forward to so much before, become boring in the end?

Because of Jane Yixi.

Yes, that's right, even if she doesn't want to admit it, her heart is like a mirror. The reason why she suddenly lost interest in future plans is because of Jian Yixi.

Jian Yixi alienated her, she was not happy.

Jian Yixi was going to die, and she couldn't accept it.

Jian Yixi was taught by her alone, and she is the other self who carried all the dreams of her previous life. She will never be able to live in the world again as "Jian Yixi", but Jian Yixi can realize for her what she can't do. Everything she achieved made her happier than borrowing An Mu's body to achieve it herself.

An Mu is a science student, not a philosophy student. She can't use the language of stream of consciousness to summarize this kind of thought. She only knows that Jian Yixi has poured her most humble hopes into her. She longs to see Jian Yixi step by step. Happiness does not need to be rich or famous, as long as the most ordinary happiness is enough.

The happiness she hopes for now runs counter to Jian Yixi's hope, is she stubborn?Or open up?

It depends on the price of each.

The price of being stubborn is that Jian Yixi will be wiped out in ashes, but if she opens her heart, she can at least save her life. There is hope in life, and nothing in death.

She didn't have to choose such a simple multiple-choice question.

Jian Yixi was still in a coma, An Mu's hand stroking her cheek did not arouse her consciousness at all.

This way... that's good, at least it's easier to do than when you're awake.

Start?

An Mu laughed at himself for using such a word.

She can still laugh at such a time, she herself finds it inconceivable.

Jian Yixi will be fine, definitely will be fine, their future life is still very long, and they can't lose everything they should have enjoyed for such a little love.

An Mu leaned down, and slowly pressed Jian Yixi's pink lips that had lost a lot of blood. The lips were soft and dry, not as soft as when Jian Yixi kissed her back then.

You will be fine, Jane Yixi.

I believe.