I am in love with myself

An Mu frowned slightly and looked at Jian Yixi with downcast eyes, the faint alarm bell in his heart sounded louder and louder.

——No, it's impossible, I'm obviously straight and not bent, it's absolutely impossible to bend casually, and bend to myself.

"I do not quite understand you."

"I like you, I want to be with you, so can you understand?"

If it wasn't for Jian Yixi's trembling voice, An Mu would almost have thought that Jian Yixi had also been pierced by someone's soul.

An Mu lowered his eyes and glanced at Jian Yixi, and with just one glance, he immediately turned his gaze away.

Jian Yixi hugged her leg tightly. She didn't feel it at first, but now that she was stared at by Jian Yixi's more fiery eyes, the softness on her leg was a bit irresistible.

"Don't be kidding."

"I'm not kidding, I'm serious, I really like you, I just didn't dare to say it before."

"How old are you? You still can't tell the difference between friendship and love, you..."

"Who said I can't tell the difference?"

Jian Yixi suddenly took her hand, and pressed it on her chest. An Mu was startled, and subconsciously wanted to pull her hand away. After the experience of pulling her hand last time, Jian Yixi pressed it very tightly this time. I couldn't even pull it out a few times.

——I can feel it, my hands are hot as if I have a high fever.

"I do not know what you're talking about?"

Jian Yixi pressed down again.

"Do you feel it now?"

An Mu blinked unnaturally. He had never encountered such a situation before, and he didn't know how to deal with it.

This is outrageous, what should I do?

——I feel it, my hands are soft like cotton candy, no, no, like cotton candy mixed with QQ sugar.

"What do you feel? Don't make trouble."

Jian Yixi bit her lips, suddenly tore away the bath towel that An Mu had just wrapped for her, and pressed that hand directly to her heart.

"Do you feel it now?"

An Mu opened her eyes slightly, she was clearly the person in front of her, but she didn't dare to look at her, she subconsciously twitched her hands, and kept twitching, but Jian Yixi pressed her tightly.

"Heart is beating fast, okay? Let go!"

She just prevaricated, but she didn't expect Jian Yixi to let go of her hand.

"That's right, because I like you, my heart beats fast, do you believe it now?"

After tossing and tossing for a long time, the bath towel was torn off, just to let her feel the beating of her heart?

An Mu was speechless.

"The heartbeat is just because of nervousness, it doesn't necessarily mean that you like it. You just feel that you owe me because of what happened that night, so you will have delusional thoughts. Just calm down for a few more days."

"No, I can tell the difference!"

"You've never been in love, how do you know your judgment is right?"

After An Mu finished speaking, he regretted a little. He should wait for her to get dressed before discussing with her. It's impossible to talk normally now.

An Mu bypassed her and wanted to go out: "You get dressed first, I'll wait for you next door."

Before An Mu could get around, Jian Yixi suddenly stood up against her like a broken pot, and pushed her against the window sill.

An Mu was so pressed by her that she had to lean back, leaning her back against the window sill, and resting her head on the window glass. This uncomfortable posture made her subconsciously raise her hand to hold down the window sill. She raised her hand too quickly, and her arm The elbow hit the window glass behind him, and the bang was a bit scary.

Jian Yixi was startled, and quickly reached out to rub her, but she avoided it.

"What are you doing? Get up!"

"I can't get up."

"What if you are seen by someone upstairs?"

——Why did you pull away the good towel?It's not like you can't feel your heartbeat through the bath towel!

An Mu turned his head with difficulty and looked at the building not far away. He was really worried that someone would look at Jian Yixi like this, and even took a picture of him.

Jian Yixi didn't take it seriously: "I can't see it."

Although the curtains were squeezed open, with An Mu blocking it, it was indeed not easy to be seen.

An Mu also noticed, and then he let go of his heart.

Normally, she didn't think anything of it, but now that she was in such a weird state, An Mu suddenly became a little confused and didn't know where to put it.

——Obviously it is me, I don’t know how many times I have watched it in my previous life, what is there not to dare to watch?

But she just didn't dare.

After living for two lifetimes, she didn't expect that there were still things she didn't dare to do.

An Mu was upset, and tried to push Jian Yixi away with his hand, but Jian Yixi took advantage of the loophole, put his hands under her armpit, and hugged her tightly.

"I can tell the difference."

The topic that was just bypassed was brought back by Jian Yixi again.

The curtains were squeezed open, half of Jian Yixi's body was exposed to the moonlight, her black hair was scattered with a slight tide, her hair was dyed with ink, her skin was like cream, a few strands of wet hair stuck to her slender neck, her delicate collarbone was covered with moon cream, and she was far away. The light in the place is ethereal like a sky lantern, flickering on and off Jian Yixi's scorching eyes.

Jian Yixi looked up at her like a very stubborn child, she firmly believed that she was right, and would not listen to anyone's opinion.

An Mu just wanted her to get up quickly.

"Okay, you can tell the difference, you get up first."

"You don't believe it at all."

"I don't believe it."

"You think I can't see that you're playing tricks on me?"

An Mu had no choice but to tilt her head to avoid looking at her. The thin cotton thong seemed to be non-existent, and the hot body temperature was clearly transmitted to the skin. There was a little pain in her chest.

"You get up."

"I can't get up, I have to prove it."

An Mu endured the pain and tried to shrink her chest, but every inch she shrank, Jian Yixi stuck to her. The tighter the tighter, the more painful it was.

An Mu said helplessly, "How do you want to prove it?"

Jian Yixi bit her lip, half of her face was covered in the shadows, her only eyes were reflecting the moonlight, and she mumbled, "What do you think is the biggest difference between friendship and love?"

"you ask me?"

——I just want you to hurry up now.

"Yes, I can prove it after you say it."

The biggest difference between friendship and love is probably...whether there is such a desire.

How to prove desire?Kiss, hug, or...

Either way was not acceptable to An Mu.

An Mu struggled to hold on to the window sill. He obviously didn't want to look at it, but out of the corner of his eye, he could clearly see Jian Yixi's deformed body.

An Mu closed her eyes, and realized clearly for the first time that her previous life was in the past, and she was no longer Jian Yixi. The Jian Yixi in front of her was a completely different individual from her, and her personality was also different from her previous life. At least In her previous life, she would never be able to take off her clothes and lay on others, and still ask so many questions.

"Say, what's the difference?"

Jian Yixi obviously didn't intend to end the topic easily.

"The difference is that friendship is long-lasting, while love is relatively short-lived."

This answer obviously did not satisfy Jian Yixi.

"Who said love must be short-lived? There are also many long-term loves."

"I'm speaking relatively."

"Even so, this is not the fundamental difference between love and friendship."

He tried to avoid the topic, but was turned back.

"You put on your clothes first."

The faint voice permeated the silent room, only the clock ticking, and breathing of different lengths.

Jian Yixi suddenly raised his hand to hold her face, forcing her to turn her head and look at herself.

"Why don't you dare to look at me? I didn't see you when I wiped my body in the hospital before. I'm sorry. You didn't hide your sight just now when you wrapped my bath towel for me. Why are you hiding now?"

yeah, why?An Mu also wanted to know.

Jian Yixi's eyes were so black that they shone brightly, and even though his hand was trembling slightly while holding her, he was firm and strong, and he never let go of her posture if he didn't ask why.

An Mu closed his beautiful eyes slightly, and forced his troubled heart to calm down. Now that the alarm bell had sounded, he had to face it directly, and avoiding any problems would not solve any problems.

"Isn't the biggest difference between love and friendship lies in the original impulse? You say you like me, then you will think that way when you see me?"

"meeting."

"How do you know you will?"

"That night was the best proof. If it were someone else, such as Maomao, I wouldn't be out of control."

——Speak as you speak, don't shake your voice.

Jian Yixi's faintly trembling voice made An Mu even more irritable. Although she had no relationship experience, she still had basic psychological common sense. Jian Yixi's expression of blushing and trembling heartbeat completely fits the characteristics of facing someone she likes .

Jian Yixi... really likes herself?

Even though the alarm had already sounded, it took An Mu a full minute to barely digest the shock when he actually faced it.

She finally stood for the first time in Jane Yixi's perspective to think about the relationship between the two.

If it was her in her previous life, when she was most desperate, there was an unconditional help and kindness to her, what would happen to her?

It is inevitable to be grateful, if this person is good-looking, and Mao Mao, a CP madman, will open the door to a new world sooner or later.

And once the concept of homosexuality is accepted, it is not difficult to change from straight to curved when there is an event conflict.

Jian Yixi fully complies with this psychological process.

Her unconditional help to Jian Yixi made her the most trusted person in Jian Yixi.

Jian Yixi got to know lesbians because of Maomao two years ago, and even misunderstood that she liked her.

Later, because of the impact of the school transfer incident, Jian Yixi even took the initiative to express her willingness to bend for her. If she was only slightly bent at that time, then the impact of the Chen Han incident should have exacerbated this tendency.

And the real opportunity for Jian Yixi to muster up the courage to confess his confession should be that the skin-to-skin relationship between the two of them that night pushed the curve to the climax.

Of course, the above is just speculation, and there may be inaccuracies, but it is roughly the same.

An Mu let out a breath, her face was still held in Jian Yixi's hands, she didn't know how much impact her exhaled red lips had on Jian Yixi, what she cared most about right now was Jian Yixi's mood Not to mention that she is straight, even if she bends, it is impossible for her to bend to herself. It is impossible for her to like Jian Yixi.

"I believe you like me, you get up first."

Jian Yixi bit her lips, "No."

"I've already said I believe it, what else do you want?"

"You're playing tricks on me."

"I'm not being perfunctory."

"But I haven't proved it yet, how can you believe it?"

An Mu said helplessly, "Didn't you say that night is the best proof?"

"But as I said before, you said I was just thinking wildly."

"That's because I didn't think clearly just now. Now I believe you are not thinking wildly. Well, you get up first."

An Mu's three lines of "get up" made Jian Yixi's eyes turn red, and she choked up and said, "Okay, you believe it."

——No, even if it’s not, I really believe it.

"Since you believe it, what about the answer? Do you like me?"

Of course, this kind of thing cannot be perfunctory, it must be serious and serious.

An Mu said: "I've said it many times before. I said that I don't like anyone, whether it's you or Mao Mao or Chen Han. Let's not talk about Chen Han's special situation. You and Mao Mao will be my friends for life."

"only friends?"

Jian Yixi's expression is very calm, except for the red eye sockets, nothing is wrong at all.

An Mu nodded: "It's not just, but just, you are my best friends, no one can surpass you in this life."

Jian Yixi lowered her eyes, let go of the hands holding her face, and moved away from her body that was so painful in her chest. She just stood naked in front of her, the curtains were slightly brushed, the moonlight was like water, and the originally beautiful curves became more and more hazy. Psychedelic, very different from what she saw in the mirror in her previous life, she was so beautiful that people sighed.

nice……

An Mu was a little surprised that he actually used this word.

In her previous life, people often misidentified her and Jian Yihu, which caused her to not like her appearance very much, and never felt that she was beautiful.

Now she feels that Jian Yixi is beautiful, is it because... She realized that she and Jian Yixi are two separate people?

Jian Yixi lowered her eyes, as if she completely forgot that she was not wearing anything, and she did not cover up, her voice was as flat as water.

"You really don't have any thoughts about me?"

"Even if..." Jian Yixi's voice trembled suddenly, "Even if I stand in front of you like this, don't you have any idea at all?"

An Mu sighed slightly, reached out and pulled the blanket at the end of the bed over her shoulders.

"You are beautiful and have a good figure. Of course I don't feel that way, but my feeling is not that kind of feeling, but appreciation, mutual appreciation between friends."

"So no matter what I do, it's absolutely impossible for us, right?"

"Jane Yixi..."

An Mu is good at conspiracies and tricks, but she really has no experience in rejecting other people's confessions.

"Then let's settle this matter once and for all. I won't owe you, and you won't owe me. We're still friends."

"How to deal with it?"

"I ruined your first time, I will pay you my..."