allow you this life

His arm tugged at the corner of his mouth, and the saliva flowed out. He wiped his mouth quickly and shook his head. It turned out that he fell asleep on the table just now. This was a dream. Most of the dreams are self-directed by the dreamer Self-acting, sometimes it is just another way of expressing the most true thoughts deep in one's heart.Just can't let it go, I can dream of him after a short nap,

Before he had time to recollect, he glanced at the time, darling, he fell asleep until [-]:[-] just now, he slapped himself on the face to wake himself up a bit, looked at the empty dormitory around, Zhou Fangran got up Without saying a word, Duanpan took the hanger and prepared to go to the laundry room to pick up the clothes.

After leaving the dormitory door and standing in the corridor, Zhou Fangran glanced to the right. This subconscious action seemed to have become a habit, with expectations and disappointments.

Lin Ancheng was definitely not there, Zhou Fangran pursed his lips, his phone ding-dong, he took out his phone and opened Moments, it was a message sent by Dahei Wang: It was a photo of him and "Miss Curry Chicken", that is, Xiao Hong, Zhang Feng Dressed in black, Xiaohong is wearing a red coat, which is rustic, and the background is full of withered and yellow branches, but the heads of the two are close together, their faces are full of happiness, and the corners of their mouths are raised.

There are only two words on the photo: we

Zhou Fangran smiled. Is this the rhythm to be made public? Congratulate Daheiwang when he comes back. Only a few people in the dormitory know about Zhang Feng’s private affairs. This is the first time he has disclosed this matter in the circle of friends , presumably the sudden coming out of the closet of the little milk Wang Guqiu in the morning stimulated him.

Zhang Feng is tall and strong, a typical muscular man. He came to this ancient metropolis from a small town in the far west. He seems to have a dream to take a good wife home and live a happy life. Zhou Fangran vaguely knew that Zhang Feng always liked to eat in the Indian-style snack bar opened by Xiaohong, and they were familiar with each other since they were both fellow villagers. In fact, Xiaohong was about the same age as Zhang Feng, but her family was poor. Both parents are old farmers, especially when my father is old and bedridden all the year round. My mother opened a small shop in the town. Although the business is good, she can barely make ends meet in order to take care of her father. For two younger brothers who are still in junior high school, they had to give up college and work part-time. In fact, one of Xiaohong's original volunteers was Qingcheng College. She was lucky to make others, and she failed to enroll as a student but could only work here as a migrant worker. earn a living.

When Zhang Feng quietly told Zhou Fangran about the situation, Zhou Fangran laughed out loud, and Zhang Feng looked at him quietly, not understanding what his smile meant.

This is the most common state of existence among thousands of people in the country. It used to be like this and it has not changed now. The distribution of resources in poor families is always inclined to men, and they can always find some grand-sounding old-fashioned rules to force women to make sacrifices and sacrifices. Concession, although Zhou Fang has never experienced it, he knows it all. This is the deep-rooted "son preference" thought in Chinese families for a long time. Poverty is still the key factor that cannot get rid of this phenomenon.

He sympathizes with Xiaohong from the bottom of his heart, but what can he do? I don’t know how many women like him are there. They are also raised by their parents, and they are also flesh and blood people. They have their own ideal values ​​and longing for the future, but After all, life is full of burdens and sufferings, and these ideals and ambitions have long been worn away. I can only think about how to earn more money to improve the life of the family, especially the lives of male members.Zhou Fangran still does not believe that there are still many poor people in China. Although the problem of food and clothing has been solved, there is still a lack of education and cultural needs beyond that.

This is not something a kid in a middle-class family can experience.

At that time, Zhou Fangran laughed a few times, and then said to Zhang Feng seriously: "Are you sure you want to be with Xiaohong?" After receiving Zhang Feng's affirmative answer, Zhou Fangran couldn't help shaking his head: "You have to know about Xiaohong's family. The situation, she has to provide for her two younger brothers, and her family's conditions are not good, if you really plan to live with her for the rest of your life, do you know how much pressure you will bear?"

Zhang Feng still smiled lightly: "I like Xiaohong, of course I will accept everything about her, including her family." Daheiwang's stubborn temper makes him not easy to change his mind. The so-called young and frivolous is probably In this way, Zhang Feng is still the same as before, and there is no room for maneuver in the decision.

Zhou Fangran could only smile wryly at that time. If there was a button in front of him, he could "beat the mandarin ducks with a stick" to separate Zhang Feng and Xiaohong alive. He would press it without hesitation. Xiaohong is just a stranger to her. However, Zhang Feng is indeed a good friend worthy of deep friendship. Of course, he can't bear to see his friend have a sad life in the future, and he can't bear to have his good friend pay for the mistakes he made due to impulsiveness and irrationality when he was young.

Zhou Fangran thinks that he is still a little selfish in his heart, not only for himself but also for other people's affairs, especially those of relatives or friends. The advantage of being young is that he does not care about the consequences, but that is also a disadvantage. Although he knows that Daheiwang is as strong and brave inside as he looks, But life will always arrange some bad things for you unexpectedly. These bad things are enough to crush a young once impulsive and brave heart. It was Zhang Feng's own choice, maybe he had already thought it through and made this kind of decision, Zhou Fangran couldn't say much and had to let it go, but sometimes he couldn't help but persuade him when it was just him and Zhang Feng .

At this time today, after waking up from the accidental dream, the sincere words of my first love are still in my ears.

"Do you want to give yourself some room?"

Zhou Fangran looked at the happy appearance of Zhang Feng and Xiaohong in the circle of friends. In fact, he also saw that Xiaohong's complexion and skin quality were not very good due to the long-term hard work and lack of maintenance. Zhang Feng once said that Xiaohong's daily life Almost all the money he earns from living frugally is sent back home, so he doesn’t pay much attention to dressing, so he bought a lot of cosmetics for Xiaohong, but she doesn’t give up on them. As far as possible, they would go to see her or help for free. The two of them almost brought both of them to meet their parents. This kind of relationship is indeed warm but not enviable, because according to Zhou Fangran's value-it is not worth it.

After Zhou Fangran's repeated admonitions, Zhang Feng was also a little impatient, and he asked Zhou Fangran very seriously at that time:

"You persuade me so much, I understand your good intentions, I am very grateful as a friend, but it is useless to say anything, you don't have someone you like now, and you can't understand my current mood anyway, when you have a lover Now you know how I feel today!"

Zhou Fangran's face was shocked and he was speechless. Since then, he never mentioned these things again. Yes, where did he have the qualifications?