The next door neighbor is a sick girl [Comprehensive]

"Komaeda-kun, you misunderstood! What I mean is not that Komaeda-kun is not worthy of being a stepping stone of hope, but that Komaeda-kun should not degrade himself into a stepping stone. We had a quarrel once about the stepping-stone issue. On the way home from the day Komaeda-kun just transferred to another school, did Komaeda-kun forget it?"

The thin and broken voice poured into the eardrums, Komaeda Nagito glanced in embarrassment at the pair of slender white hands resting lightly on his head, the warm feeling on his head made his ears turn red, and he was a little at a loss.

"I said at that time that all human beings are equal. No matter how special power they have, people are still people, neither higher nor lower than people. It is an understatement to use a sentence of worthlessness and rubbish to erase a person's efforts and achievements. Struggle is really the worst behavior. I hope Komaeda-kun can truly know how to respect everyone, including their lives."

"Well, I remember." Komaeda Nagito lowered his head, his voice was dry and hoarse.

He naturally remembered every word and even every expression that Asakawa Airi said. When she attacked herself for the first time, she angrily rejected the idea that "talent equals hope", and even believed that hard work pays off.

However, this is not a question of whether you work hard or not. Only the human beings chosen by Hope can become Hope.

Like Shigeo Kageyama.What he did is not the root cause of being worthless in the eyes of Asakawa, it is because he is not an ordinary person...

And he is just an existence worse than ordinary people.If such a garbage-like existence can't even be a stepping stone of hope, then there is no value in living at all.

"Now, I want to say this sentence to Komaeda-kun again. I hope Komaeda-kun can respect himself, and don't write down his efforts and struggles with words worthless and rubbish lightly. Don't use scum, rubbish, or even Describe yourself with words like bedbugs. I really hate these words! Obviously Komaeda-kun is a very good person, and obviously Komaeda-kun can also give birth to very dazzling hope, why must he be a stepping stone for others? "

Asakawa Airi's eyes were shining brightly, and her firm and powerful voice was so close that Komaeda Nagito's eyes widened slightly.

His pale lips parted slightly, and finally he said nana: "Student Asakawa, only those who have wonderful talents and strong will can become hope... It's too thick-skinned for a piece of garbage to want to become hope... ..."

"Nonsense!" Asakawa Airi twitched Komaeda Nagito's white hair again, wishing to bite the person in front of her awake with her teeth, and her aggressive tone wished to kill Komaeda Nagito like in the game Every word Dou said was broken down one by one!

Let you make trouble!Let you make trouble!

Before Komaeda Nagito could finish his sentence, his hair was pulled violently again.He took back his words in pain, but saw that Asakawa Airi's very imposing rebuttal suddenly softened.

"In Komaeda-kun's mind, hope is only equal to talent. I think I have hope only because I have the talent for painting. I think I have no hope because I don't have special talent." Thinking of Komaeda Nagito approaching The reason for protecting herself, Asakawa Airi only had a wry smile in her heart.

"However, I have no talent other than painting. I'm just an ordinary student. If I can be regarded as hope, there are many students in our class who are better than me. Are they all hope?"

"No." Komaeda Nagito subconsciously retorted.His brows were tightly frowned, and when he was about to say "Asakawa-san is different", he was mercilessly knocked on the head by Asakawa Airi with her curled index finger.

"Komaeda-kun, don't interrupt, please listen to me continue!"

Airi Asakawa took a deep breath, and stared at Komaeda Nagito, who had been hit by a chestnut, without blinking. She said that she never Serious and honest.

"When faced with the kidnapping case, I only had fear in my heart. I was so frightened that I couldn't do anything. I was just trembling alone, and I even doubted Komaeda-kun. There was no hope for me like this."

"However, it was Komaeda-kun who helped me untie the rope, it was Komaeda-kun who comforted me not to be afraid, and it was Komaeda-kun who stood in front of me and protected me... In this desperate situation, if there is no Komaeda-kun If so, it is impossible for me to survive now, and I can no longer continue to draw..."

Nagito Komaeda opened his mouth, but in the end he obediently didn't insert it: "This is what a stepping stone should do."

But how could Asakawa Airi not know what he, a hopeful chef, was thinking!

"Komaeda-san is not a stepping stone! I have always thought that my luck is a useless talent, and I have always felt that I have no hope at all. However, at the moment when I was saved, I was so full of hope. This hope is not It was not born by me, but you, Komaeda-kun, gave me the hope of being rescued from the abyss of despair..."

When hearing Asakawa Airi declare the phrase "hope" without hesitation, Komaeda Nagito's pupils suddenly shrank, and his body stiffened immediately.

For example: Asakawa-san, you made a mistake... This hope is not me, but because of you... Because you are hope, you defeated despair... Obviously it was Asakawa-san who saved me... A scum like me is just holding back... …

In short, he had a lot of rebuttals to say in his mouth, but when he met Kami Asakawa Airi's black eyes that were gradually misty, all his self-deprecating words were all dumb in his throat the moment he said them... …

"If... if Komaeda-kun is a scum, a bedbug, then what is it that I, the hope Komaeda-san said, fell into despair at that time, so bad that I want to leave you behind and only care about my own life? Worse than scum bugs."

"Asakawa-san, please don't say such things...you didn't..."

Komaeda Nagito was a little flustered, and as soon as he opened his mouth, Asakawa Airi immediately snapped back: "So you are an idiot! Idiot, idiot, idiot..."

Asakawa Airi's voice gradually became hoarse and choked up, while Komaeda Nagito was stunned again.

"For the sake of the so-called hope, you don't even care about your life, and happily become the stepping stone of hope... But I care! In this world, nothing is more important than life! If you don't even have life, what hope is there!"

"Student Asakawa, you don't need to care about me for such an insignificant person like me..."

"It's not worth mentioning, it's not necessary?" Asakawa Airi really wanted to pry open Komaeda Nagito's head to see if there was nothing in it except hope.

"If I really didn't care about you or worry about you, I wouldn't have come back at all..."

Saying this, Asakawa Airi grabbed his white hair again and angrily pulled it twice: "The act of leaving your seriously injured companion to live on your own is really so bad that there is no hope at all, but you are selfish I have to want to be a stepping stone of hope, and say righteously that as long as I live. But... have you ever thought about it! At that time, I was obviously terribly afraid of death, and I managed to escape far away... But he came back...because..."

Thinking of the hesitation and helplessness at that time, Asakawa Airi's voice became agitated again, she clenched her fists tightly, and said almost choked up: "Because, at that time, there was only one thing I wished in my heart, and that was to be with Koma Zhi-kun survived safely together. Not me alone, but together with Komaeda-kun... I was worried that something would happen to you, and that you would not escape, so I ran back. If, Komaeda-kun is really dead ...Even if in your eyes it is a stepping stone of hope, and you died to save me... But what is left to me is not hope at all, but despair... Is this really the hope Komaeda-kun wants to pursue? Bringing hope to others What hope is there for those who come to despair!"

"Desperate... despair...?" Komaeda Nagito tilted his head like a puppet, his voice was hoarse with a strange tremor.

"Yes, only despair! Self-righteously thinking that even if I disappear, it doesn't matter. It's a big mistake! If it really doesn't matter at all, I won't come back at all...!"

What Komaeda Nagito hates the most in his life is the word "despair". He wants to bring hope to talented people but what he brings is despair. There is nothing worse than this.This is something he will never allow to happen!

But he really didn't understand, didn't understand why Asakawa-san would care about him, a scum that was covered in bedbugs all over his body... He obviously hated himself so much before, why would he risk his life to save himself... Why did her I hope that I want to live with myself instead of stepping on his stepping stone...

Komaeda Nagito didn't understand, because the hope he knew was not like this.Hope is a person with wonderful talents and a strong will, which they have been given at birth.So Komaeda Nagito never felt that he had hope.

It is an extremely honorable thing for an ordinary human being without talent to contribute to the existence called the hope of mankind, and he has no family or friends, so even if he dies, no one will be sad... So He wouldn't say something stupid like "become hope yourself."

If other people say such things to him, he will definitely feel very stupid and ridiculous, and he will definitely retort without hesitation. Anyone who slanders the hope in his heart will be very angry!

However, when Asakawa Airi said that she had hope, when Asakawa Airi said that her hope was to survive with him safely, many messy thoughts popped out of Komaeda Nagito's head.

What slowly surged from the bottom of my heart was a kind of happiness that I had never felt before...

He lowered his trembling eyelashes in a daze, took a deep breath, and felt the beating of his heart beating suddenly belatedly.

One, two, three...

Ah... I feel so strange... Is it because of my serious injury...?

"Komaeda-kun, there is no one in this world who doesn't matter even if he disappears, and there is no one who is only worthy of being a stepping stone... If Komaeda-kun disappears one day, I will definitely be very desperate! Because, This kidnapping case is Komaeda-kun who encouraged me all the time, which gave me the determination to face difficulties. Without Komaeda-kun, I would not even have the courage to escape, and I would have been discouraged from the very beginning."

While the fire was being extinguished, Nagito Komaeda was tied to the ground with a rope in a bloody and terrifying state. His whole body was covered with bloodstains. Gungnir's gun pierced through the abdomen and died.

Recalling the scene in the game, and thinking of the serial suicides he carefully set up to protect the traitor, Asakawa Airi seemed to be grabbed by something in his heart.

If Komaeda Nagito is left alone, this is his final ending.

He has absolute confidence in his luck.He also despises death itself, has a strong suicidal tendency, and is even cruel enough, which can be seen from his pursuit of death in the game, it doesn't matter if he kills or gets killed.

And all his behaviors seem abnormal, even to the point of pathology, but the only starting point is just hope.

His madness about hope lies in the fact that he is not afraid of death, but that his death is not the way he wants, and that he has not been able to become a qualified stepping stone of hope.

However, a person should not live for the so-called hope, but should live for himself.

I have disappeared, so what hope is there!His understanding of hope itself is wrong...

But Asakawa Airi knew that it was impossible for him to persuade Komaeda Nagito, a hopeful chef who can dedicate everything to hope, to change his view of hope and correct his view that "hope is not equal to talent" with just a few words.

However, as soon as she thought of his ending now, her chest felt a little hot, filled with a strange emotion.

She can't tell what kind of feeling this is like, the only thing she knows is that she can no longer hate him and ignore his existence as before.

Try to do what you can, at least let him feel that he has hope, so that he will cherish himself.

After mustering up her courage, Asakawa Airi said, "I know that Komaeda-kun loves hope more than anyone else, and is willing to give everything for hope. However, I hope that one day Komaeda-kun will understand that the act of hoping a stepping stone is not Incorrect. Everyone is born as a person with flesh and blood, feelings and dreams. It is never a stepping stone, and neither is Komaeda-kun. No matter whether you have talent or not, everyone's life is precious. As long as you are alive, you will There is hope, even... only a little bit. Only when you are alive, you have the opportunity to realize your hopes and dreams..."

The morning light shone on Asakawa Airi's smooth forehead, making her fair face softer.At that moment, her slow and soft words seemed as if something had gently scratched the tip of Komaeda Nagito's heart, beating on his heart word by word.

——For a scum like me without any talent, I still think I have hope...

Thick eyelashes covered half of his eyes, and his cold long fingers clenched even tighter, but they were involuntarily held by Asakawa Airi's hand.

A faint temperature spread from her palm, her slender fingers were as soft as warm jade, and there were thin calluses on the knuckles of the index finger, which must be the reason for long-term painting.

Sure enough, hands full of hope... really warm.

Nagito Komaeda's heart skipped a beat, and then belatedly realized that his heart was hot and fast again.

This extremely intimate action seemed to be the first time Asakawa-san took the initiative to be so intimate with herself.In the past, Asakawa-san would not let herself get close at all, and when she took care of her when she was sick, she also put on a displeased face.

And I also don't like being close to others.

But now, Komaeda Nagito is not willing to break free...

Just pretend that you are seriously injured and can't break free.

After all, it is rare luck to shake hands with Asakawa-san...

Asakawa Airi gently stretched out his hand to hold Hope Chef who was thinking about something with his head down on the hospital bed. His left hand was bandaged, and he seemed to want to pass on his strength to the other party in this way.

"It's the real hope for me that we survive together like this..."

The sunlight outside the house sprinkled dappledly on the girl who was speaking earnestly in front of her. Those bright black eyes full of hope reflected the appearance of the white-haired boy in front of her.

Just one movement and one most ordinary words made Komaeda Nagito's struggling heart strangely burst into an indescribable spring.That voice like a clear spring seemed to have the ability to heal, and gradually calmed down his restless heart.It's not quiet, it should be said that it has completely softened.

I don't want to refute this sentence, I don't want to contradict this sentence... Obviously, this scumbag of myself can never become the so-called hope.But a strange, indescribable joy filled the entire apex of my heart involuntarily.

Even if I know that I am doing the daydream I despise the most, even if I am thinking of such stupid words as "I become hope".

But...why...you have such high expectations just based on Asakawa-san's words.

I can also become what I want... Don't think about it anymore, this is impossible!Did you forget?You will only bring misfortune to those around you.

But Asakawa Airi's next sentence immediately broke through all the defenses in his heart, and easily smashed down the city wall he had worked so hard to build high.

"If Komaeda-kun feels that he is always alone so it doesn't matter what happens, would Komaeda-kun want to be my friend?"

"Ah...?" Becoming friends with the hopeful Asakawa-san, what a joke!He must have been hallucinating!

"Why are you so surprised?" Airi Asakawa rubbed Komaeda Nagito's messy white hair.It looks rough, but the slender fingers are very soft, as if they fell in love with this soft feeling.

"I want to be friends with Komaeda-kun..."

If he had told himself two days ago that he wanted to be friends with Komaeda Nagito, Asakawa Airi would have rolled her eyes fiercely, but everyone stayed away from him because of his luck...he sent everything to Hope in that illusory absolute hope.

Being so lonely, he must be longing for someone to cherish him.

Asakawa Airi's expression instantly softened, and she said with a smile: "It's not a stepping stone, nor a classmate or an ordinary neighbor, but a real friend. It should be said that we are all companions who have experienced the kidnapping case and shared the joys and sorrows together, and we are not friends. Could it be that Komaeda-kun doesn't want to be my friend?"

"No." Komaeda Nagito was a little incoherent, sitting upright with his sickly body in anxiety, "It's just... I... how can a person like me..."

There are no parents, brothers, or relatives or friends.Habitually keeping a distance from the people around him, and always being alone, is because Komaeda Nagito feels that these are unnecessary.

Those weak and vulnerable hopes will only be ruthlessly defeated by despair.

So I just need to hope, and only hope is an absolutely good thing.

In his eyes, friend is just a very ridiculous word, even out of reach.Because, a scum like him is not worthy of any friends, and his whole life is just to turn into a stepping stone for hope, which is his whole mission.

Of course, if he said it from a person who had hope and talent in his eyes, he would definitely think that the other party had a problem with his head, and would become friends with a scum like himself?

It's ridiculous!So stupid!I don't want it at all...!

But if you refuse, Asakawa-san will definitely feel sad!To make the hopeful Asakawa feel hopeless, is this really what the hopeful stepping stone should do!Shouldn't he make Asakawa-san a real hope? That's what he should do!

I really hate myself!I hate myself so much...

Obviously he is the worst, worst, and stupidest scumbag by fate, a useless scumbag who can't do anything, but why... the words that demeaned himself just got stuck in his throat, why, his heart beat even faster...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

……happy……………………?

"Komaeda-kun, if you didn't refuse, I'll take it as if you agreed!" Seeing that Komaeda Nagito started to wander while talking, Asakawa Airi leaned forward involuntarily, regardless of what he was thinking.

Her movement was sudden, her right hand clasped the back of his head, and her body suddenly leaned over, firm and unquestionable.Komaeda Nagito didn't have time to break free, even if he had the strength to break free, he probably wouldn't break free...

He just stood stiffly on the bed like this, and was embraced by Asakawa Airi.

"Now, we are friends. As a friend, I will never allow Komaeda-kun to talk about himself and become a stepping stone for others."

A sudden hug caught Komaeda Nagito by surprise, especially since such a hug was unusually warm.

It was so warm that after he calmed down, his light green eyes gradually widened, shining brightly as if they were filled with the light of hope, and an indescribable satisfaction welled up vaguely from the bottom of his heart.

What are you yearning for, what are you looking forward to...

The words were obviously too simple, but they shook his firm determination.

It seemed that he was willing to do anything for this kind of vague hope.

Lifting his right arm with difficulty, Komaeda Nagito leaned over as if he was bewitched, but he wanted to hug him but didn't dare to touch it, he just leaned his head gently against it.

- so warm.

Unaware of Komaeda Nagito's small movements, Asakawa Airi still tried hard to persuade in a sincere tone: "So Komaeda-kun, no matter what happens, please don't do some desperate things for hope... …Please stop saying that you have no hope, and don’t always belittle yourself as a piece of garbage. Keep saying such negative things, it will really give others a feeling of despair, no hope at all. Please be more confident Some...! Komaeda-kun will definitely have a very bright hope!"

The soft words blew in his ears, like a crisp spring breeze, Komaeda Nagito felt more and more that his heart was sweet and sticky.

What a hopeful word—as expected, real hope is warm and shining.

He couldn't help leaning his head gently on Asakawa Airi's left arm. He buried his head in her soft hair, sniffing the fragrance of her hair with the tip of his nose. Just such a close touch stimulated his heart. Jumping wildly even more, he couldn't help smiling.

"Asakawa-san is really gentle..." His eyes drooped, and his soft voice rustled, "You are willing to be friends with someone like me..."

"Komaeda-kun!" Asakawa Airi pulled her hair again.

Komaeda Nagito laughed even more happily: "Ah, I'm sorry, I said that again unconsciously... I won't do it in the future."

Even a life like dross has a meaning of existence.

Even life that doesn't need to exist has hope in me.

Although I don't think so, although I still feel very absurd...

But——because it's what you want, Asakawa-san.

"Thank you for being my friend."

The light blue pupils were full of gentleness that shone, Komaeda Nagito turned his head slightly, and whispered into Asakawa Airi's ear through a layer of hair.

"I'm really honored..." The murmur of a sigh blended with a little bit of imperceptible tenderness like water.

Originally, she just wanted to persuade Komaeda Nagito, who hoped that the chef would be a good person, Asakawa Airi, who was making progress every day, suddenly felt that something was wrong!

Ahhhhh!Don't use Goddess Ogata's voice to say such seductive things!

The deep and lazy voice lingered in her ears with a bit of hoarseness, and Asakawa Airi's face suddenly burned!

She immediately let go of Komaeda Nagito's hand, looked up at him, and saw Komaeda Nagito looked at her hand in a daze, and then showed a big smile to herself.

The tails of his eyes are raised, slightly bent halfway to draw a beautiful silhouette, those star-like eyes are clear and bright, shining very beautifully, his very good mood makes his usual smile look sunny and cute.

so happy...

Asakawa Airi's heart couldn't help being bumped by such a bright smile, and suddenly she felt an indescribable feeling, probably: she just said a friend casually, but she didn't expect Komaeda Nagito to be so happy... Sure enough, this I hope the chef went astray because he had no friends to enlighten him!

I have tried so hard to say so many things, it seems that it has not been in vain.Mmm, very good!

Asakawa Airi suddenly has the confidence that she can transform Hope Kitchen into a normal person!

If she knew what Komaeda Nagito was really thinking, she would probably have slapped him, pulling his white hair off.

Komaeda Nagito: If you become friends, you can watch Airi-chan's glowing hope up close!Misfortune is indeed a stepping stone to luck!What luck for Sparassi!Awwow┗|｀O′|┛嗤~~

The author has something to say: I saw the cute little theater with cat's paws in the comment area. In fact, I also felt like this when I wrote the article:

Komaeda: I'm not worthy of being a stepping stone to hope, I'm a bug

Airi: Pure tm nonsense! ! !

Komaeda: Asakawa-san doesn't like me

Airi: Cut your sentence! ! !

Please play the BGM accordingly w The heart talk between Airi and Komaeda!

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈，以及还有说用嘴堵的！ ! !It's not there yet!

The hug of love has already made Airi-chan very embarrassed. When I was writing, I was always trying to find a chance to hug Komaeda. It took me 7000 words to hug Komaeda. It was hard. 2333333

Komaeda: So happy to fly!A serious injury is indeed a lucky stepping stone!

And... It's really tiring to talk about broken Komaeda... It's been a few days... OJL wants to beat this Hope Kitchen every time I write.

I always feel that it is impossible to give up what I have believed in for more than ten years after saying a few words. After all, Komaeda-kun also has scruples in his heart. [Silently laying the groundwork for abuse (Huh??)

So it doesn't matter whether he is successful, Komaeda-kun is pretending to be obedient, but in his heart he is still: the stepping stone of hope 233333333 Try to get closer to Airi-chan!The hope of love pear sauce is shining!What a sparasi!

On the contrary, Airi is about to be attacked by OJL, which is not right! ! !But man, it's just overflowing with sympathy now...

After the Holy Mother, I still want to be the cruel Queen S (Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey)

The second time I talked about Po Komaeda-kun, it should be time to like each other 233333333 Maybe I don’t know myself ╮(￣▽￣")╭The outline is just a cloud...