The next door neighbor is a sick girl [Comprehensive]

"Asakawa-san, did I make you angry? I'm sorry... I really didn't mean to offend Asakawa-san... I didn't expect Asakawa-san to care about me, a scum, so I did such a behavior without authorization. I hope I can help you Asakawa-san wipes out the despair in front of him, no matter how bad it is, we have to delay for Asakawa-san a little time to escape."

"Stepping on me as a stepping stone in the midst of great despair gave birth to truly dazzling hope...Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Birth... my luck is really great!"

"Komaeda-kun!"

Komaeda Nagito's explanation and his usual vision of hope did not calm Asakawa Airi, but his stepping stone theory words tended to add fuel to the fire.

She tried her best to restrain the raging anger in her heart, and clenched her fists tightly to prevent herself from bursting out. She beat up the hope that belittled herself with every sentence in front of her, and smiled at his face. Very flat face! ! !

"Stepping stones, scum! In the eyes of Komaeda-kun, is your own life so unworthy of cherishing?!"

Asakawa Airi stared at Komaeda Nagito with scorching eyes, pounced on him and killed him as soon as he said yes, and didn't care if the boy who was talking very excitedly on the bed was shocked again by her sudden fierce expression .

The uncontrollable excited smile faded from his face in an instant, and Komaeda Nagito's expression became slightly stiff.

"Asakawa-san, take a deep breath, take a deep breath, please don't be angry." He habitually raised his hands in a gesture of waving to comfort him, but such a pulling only aggravated the pain of the wound.

Ahhh...that's strange...it didn't hurt at all just now.

But, what exactly did I say that made Asakawa-san so angry?Is it because your stepping stones are not good enough? ...Or is Asakawa-san caring about herself?Are you worried about your injury?

If it is concerned, this is the luck brought about by misfortune. I am so happy that I am going to die!

Ignoring the strangeness of the blockage in his heart, Nagito Komaeda smiled slowly again: "It can't be said that I don't cherish my life. Rather, it's not natural for dregs without talent to become stepping stones. Now, can you To be the stepping stone of Asakawa's hope, even if it is exchanged with my life, is a very lucky thing... No, it should be said that being a stepping stone on the way to a brighter and better hope for everyone has already reflected all the value of my life. It’s an even greater honor than this.”

"How can it be taken for granted! Is this the hope Komaeda-kun wants to keep putting my life in a humble position!"

Seeing Komaeda Nagito say it in a tone that seemed to have nothing to do with it, Asakawa Airi was so angry that her voice trembled. This kind of conversation reminded her of the first day when Komaeda Nagito just transferred to another school. She could have had a big fight with him because "hope is not equal to talent".

"Ha... Asakawa-san, you overestimate me... How can a mediocre trash like me deserve the word 'hope'."

As if being associated with these two words was an insult to true hope, Nagito Komaeda began to fall into his old self-loathing again.Of course, seeing Asakawa-san's unhappy expression, he tried his best to restrain the obviously changed expression on his face.

"I'm different from everyone who has hope... I don't have any hope for the future, and I don't have any talents. The only thing I can do is to risk my life for everyone. Simply put, it is a stepping stone... But it is also extremely honorable What about it?"

Komaeda Nagito's hoarse voice did not have the light smile of the past, Asakawa Airi knew that his words were not self-deprecating, but was stating the facts from the bottom of his heart, stating that he was only worthy of being a stepping stone of hope.

But it was this kind of self-deprecating remarks that made Asakawa Airi feel explosive!Especially after his unhesitating heroic act of saving the beauty, he completely changed his view of this hopeful chef, and found out that the reason why he saved himself was pathological!

How can a person who doesn't even cherish his own life cherish the lives of others!

He is just for the hope manifested in despair!So even this kind of suicide is not taken seriously.

Ahhh!So angry! ! !This is no hope!

"Hope that comes with sacrifice is not hope at all... A person cannot be resurrected after death. Once he dies, he has nothing left, and it will only bring endless despair to those around him... Don't you understand that Komaeda-kun loves hope so much? The despair that death brings? Those who care about you...the ones..."

"Asakawa-san cares about me, an insignificant person, and I'm really flattered. But, Asakawa-san is completely overwhelmed, so she won't find out about this kind of thing."

Komaeda Nagito said with a smile on his face: "The total amount of luck in this world is eternal. If I suffer from misfortune, it means that someone is lucky. It is completely different from me, a garbage with no future to speak of, Asakawa-san has wonderful talents and a strong hope of survival, so I should do everything for this hope. Only those who have outstanding talents can become the real light of hope is the only one I have. The value of existence. After all, it doesn’t matter to a person like me. For me who has no family or friends, no one will be sad even if I die..."

"However, if I am lucky enough to survive and cause Asakawa-san to have an accident, that would be real despair. Compared with the unforeseen future, I hope that Asakawa-san can survive. This is the game of life in my mind."

His white hair covered Komaeda Nagito's eyes so he couldn't see his expression clearly, but when he looked up at Asakawa Airi, he said with deep longing and admiration: "But I didn't expect that Asakawa-san was facing such In such a desperate situation, you are still willing to risk your life to save me, a scum that will only slow you down. I am so happy! Asakawa-san is indeed the existence of hope!"

"Let me, who is only worthy of being a stepping stone, not only not die because of this, but also touch hope at such a close distance, and see such a shining hope at such a close distance... There is nothing more fortunate than this—! Sure enough !True hope will never be defeated by despair! The more despair unfolds, the more dazzling the hope will be!"

When talking about the hope he touched, Komaeda Nagito's tone became completely different, and the ending of joy rose slightly.

"I can survive now, thanks to Asakawa-san's hope!"

"Enough! Shut up!" At this moment, Asakawa Airi could no longer control her feelings.She shouted coldly, unceremoniously interrupting Komaeda Nagito's unfinished words.

"Hope, hope, fuck your mother's hope!" Airi Asakawa swears again.For a girl who doesn't like to swear, she suddenly uttered two swear words in a row, which shows that she has been so angry by a hope chef that her eyes are red.

"How long are you going to hold on to this bullshit logic!" She was so angry that she couldn't speak, and her voice was like the raging anger in her heart, "I think you want to be my stepping stone, have you ever thought about me?" Are you in the mood? Have you ever thought that I would be happy!"

If he doesn't come back, Chef Hope is really going to die!But he felt that dedicating his life to hope should be done!

For the so-called hope in his heart!It doesn't matter whether you kill or be killed!In his eyes, nothing is more important than hope!

But she was worried and nervous because of his coma, afraid that he would never wake up again... She kept blaming herself that if she hadn't hesitated to come back earlier, he wouldn't have been injured so badly...

But he...he doesn't care about himself so much!What's the difference between this and the hopeless chef in the game!

Asakawa Airi's eyes cooled down little by little: "Komaeda Nagito, I tell you clearly. In my eyes, your behavior is not a real hope at all! It has no value! It's just stupid The land will die in vain!"

Asakawa Airi's words were like a thunderbolt, which made Komaeda Nagito's ears ring and his mind was even more chaotic.

He opened his mouth, but suddenly found that he seemed to have lost his voice, and could only stare at Asakawa Airi in a daze.

"Asakawa-san, do you really don't want me to be your stepping stone? Really... don't you like it at all?"

The wind in early April blew the snow-white curtains and gently swayed. Komaeda Nagito had just woken up for two hours, but in these two hours, he said too much because he saw Airi Asakawa too excited and took notes.

Now, the cold, clammy morning wind slammed into his lungs, suffocating him to the point of vertigo.

In particular, when he said those words, Komaeda Nagito felt a burning pain in his throat as if it was being burned by flames.

But he still asked cautiously.

"Of course! Don't say such stupid things in the future, it will be very annoying to hear!"

There was a kind of flame that he couldn't understand burning in the black pupils in front of him. Komaeda Nagito felt a strange panic in his heart, and a bitter feeling lingered in his heart instantly, making him a little short of breath. I just feel that the smell of disinfectant in the ward is even more suffocating.

Hate it...

"I understand." The brows were dark and deep, Komaeda Nagito lowered his head, his pure white bangs slightly blocked his emotionless expression at the moment, but that extraordinarily pale face looked extraordinarily bleak under the sunlight a feeling of.

"It's good that you understand." Asakawa Airi's tone relaxed, but Komaeda Nagito, who was immersed in his own thoughts, didn't realize it at all.

In his eyes, the luck he has is like a kind of destiny, which he cannot control and cannot avoid.

He struggled hard, but for more than ten years, he was unable to get rid of the teasing of fate and faced the plight brought by misfortune.

Therefore, he is more like a humble believer, yearning for hope and yearning for an absolute hope.

Absolute hope is to defeat all misfortune and despair, so it will definitely change his maggot-like life and end all misfortune in him.

However, not everything can be turned into hope. He knows that he does not have the ability to lead to hope, but only desires to be a stepping stone of hope, so that people with talents can step on him and touch hope...

For such a beautiful hope, he is willing to be a stepping stone, and he is also willing to die.

But now, Asakawa Airi's words of complete veto and tone of distaste for his behavior have subverted Komaeda Nagito's hopeful worldview.

He can't be hope himself, so he tries hard to become a stepping stone of hope, but...he never considers whether hope needs him, an incompetent person...

A person without talent is not worthy of being a stepping stone of hope.

That's what Asakawa-san meant...

He clenched his lips a little helplessly, his expression was a little sluggish, as if Asakawa Airi's words stripped away all his courage.

He didn't even dare to look into Asakawa Airi's eyes anymore, for fear that what he saw would be eyes that seemed to look at dirty garbage, or eyes that looked at insects crawling in the garbage pit.

It was almost the same feeling when Asakawa Airi looked at her before.

And whenever their own luck brings misfortune to others, the eyes they look at themselves are even worse than this kind of eyes.

But those are tolerable, and need not concern anyone who has no hope at all.

But now, as long as he thinks that even if he sacrifices his life, he won't be able to restore his favorability, he will be hated for everything he says, and the value of his own existence will be completely denied... Komaeda Nagito feels pain as if his heart is suspended.

He frowned, and reached out to caress the slightly tingling chest.However, a plaster cast was placed on the right hand.

It hurts very much to move.

"Asakawa-san is right, hope is not something that people like me can get. I am such a waste that I am useless at all, and I, who made Asakawa-san cry so hard and have no self-knowledge, are obviously inferior and terrible. , A bedbug that makes people feel disgusted after seeing it, but keeps claiming to be a stepping stone of hope, it is really super cheeky...! It's really bad!"

The faint smile on his face was only bitter, and his hoarse voice was low as if he was muttering to himself. Komaeda Nagito unconsciously clenched his fingers, as if escaping, and his thin body shrank weakly into the bed.

"Since I am a trash without any talent, useless dregs, since I can't become a stepping stone of hope... I should just disappear in place—"

The emotional ups and downs in his heart fluctuated. At this time, Komaeda Nagito had a feeling of resignation, drooping his head, and remained silent.If there was a hole in this room, he would definitely go in and bury himself completely.

However, just when Komaeda Nagito was about to tuck himself into the blanket, his hair exposed outside the blanket was pulled hard.He raised his head painfully.

Airi Asakawa was actually very angry, and wanted to beat Nagito Komaeda violently on the spot, because she found that Chef Hope's brain circuit was completely different from other people's!She said it so clearly - I don't want him to belittle her as a stepping stone, why can't this person understand!

Obviously reasoning and mathematics are so good!Why did she just listen to what she said in reverse!It was hopelessly stupid!

But when she thought of Komaeda Nagito's body covered in wounds, her rationality made her pinch his flamboyant white hair and pull it out fiercely when she hit him.

However, just as Asakawa Airi was about to open her mouth full of guns, she found that a cotton candy white hair she pulled out from the quilt had a deadly pale expression.The deep sadness and death that enveloped him all over him made him look like he was wronged to cry.

Asakawa Airi found that she really couldn't be more vicious.

The movement of pulling him out of the bed and giving him a hard reprimand gradually stopped, and the hand that had grabbed Baimao slowly softened.

In the end, Asakawa Airi sighed softly, and straightened his head, which he was trying to lower, so that his avoiding eyes met her own.

In Komaeda Nagito's eyes, it was Asakawa Airi who turned his head very imposingly.

He was at a loss in panic, but his eyes met, not the kind of annoying eyes he imagined.

The author has something to say: First of all, I wish everyone a happy Chinese New Year~~~Memeda~~~~~~~~~

This chapter couldn't help chattering for a while, probably... I hope Komaeda-kun can cherish himself more~~ Absolutely and definitely not let him BE again!So the next chapter is a dialogue with OJL

Hope is beautiful, but everything must be built on the basis of being alive.Rather than being a stepping stone to hope, I want him to be hope.

It is said that someone guessed that Airi would pull hair, she is really Sherlock Holmes! ! !

Komaeda cupped his face silently: Hitting is kissing and scolding is love, I am so happy now!

Airi punched unbearably. ***

I haven't thanked mine for a month, what the hell am I doing this month, OJL doesn't update well (beat myself)

I sincerely thank everyone who wrote so slowly and badly and haven't given up (Yongzi who fell into Komaeda's self-loathing mood)

I didn't dare to read the comment because it was written too badly_(:з」∠)_ so I didn't reply... I will make it up soon(ㄒoㄒ)~~

Thanks to バカ for throwing 7 grenades and 3 mines~

Thanks to Dzi Jam for throwing 3 mines~

Thanks to the anonymous cat demon for throwing 5 mines~

Thank you for giving up Naming, Xiaozhi, Shadow, Cat's Paw, Justice, Black Style, Wall Eyes Knee, Mojian, Coolie Panda, Jess for throwing a mine~

Thank you Xiaobu Bubu for throwing 2 mines~

Thank you for the oolong tea from Xunfeng, and the little black cat threw a grenade in the main attack~ Meme~