extinguish the stars

"Last night, do you remember what you said yourself?"

In the night sky outside the window, the stars shone slightly.The cake on the coffee table was half eaten by Gu Nian before going to bed.

Jiang Qi and Gu Qinghan sat on one side of the sofa, leaving only a dimly lit lamp.

"You said you went to London to find me." Jiang Qi continued to whisper.

In the dimness, Gu Qinghan's clear and beautiful eyes were also dimmed, and he looked at the night sky from a distance, and said slowly, "Yes, I have looked for you."

Jiang Qi frowned slightly, such Gu Qinghan always made his heart ache inexplicably, "You were so determined to separate back then, why would you want to find me again?"

Gu Qinghan smiled very lightly, "I just don't want to be reconciled." He touched the half of the cake, and didn't mind if the cream stained his fingers, he just quietly swallowed it mouthful.

"What about now?" Jiang Qi asked.

Now?

Gu Qinghan still didn't go to see Jiang Qi, probably because he was in a daze, he couldn't really taste how sweet the cake was.Passed out silently during an afternoon nap and woke up with a nosebleed soaking a small piece of bed sheet.Until now, he also felt in a daze.

He tried hard to recall that when he went to Jiang Qi, even though he was apprehensive, he still had unlimited hopes for the future, and he was ready to spend the rest of his life entangled with him.

What now?He was exhausted physically and mentally, his chaotic mind couldn't figure out anything, and he didn't want to struggle much.

"I'm tired, I don't want to bother."

Jiang Qi heard his weak voice, like a dew dripping from a flower branch in the middle of the night.

There are dark clouds slowly spreading over and covering the stars, the night sky is dark, and tomorrow will not be a sunny day.

Originally, it was cold in spring, but it started to rain again in the afternoon, and it didn't stop until the evening. Jiang Qi was standing in front of the window and felt damp and cold looking outside.

"I have Assistant Qin here, you'd better go back and rest," Jiang He instructed behind him, "You don't have to come here every day."

"It's because I can't bear you," Jiang Qi turned around and forced a smile, "So I come to see my brother every day."

Jiang He snorted softly, "You know why you go to the hospital every day."

Jiang Qi's smile slowly subsided, he took a few steps closer, and sat down beside Jiang He, "Brother, you are the only ones in this world that I miss and cherish."

Jiang He held his hand, his eyes were a little blank, and he murmured, "Yes, relatives should stay together no matter what."

After Gu Qinghan and Ning Ze finished their shifts, they left with Gu Nian.The rain outside didn't stop, and the air was cold and humid. He took Gu Nian's hand and walked into the hall when he felt the cold wind blowing into his bones.

"Is it cold, Nian Nian?" He knelt down to help the child put on the hat more tightly, and rearranged the scarf to protect the child's soft and tender cheeks.

"Not cold~" Gu Niannai replied childishly, "Is Dad cold?"

Gu Qinghan tried his palm, it was really warm, "Dad is a little cold."

How much is one point?

He felt that his heart had been a bag sewn with pudding since four years ago, and he had been careful all the time, but finally the stitches were torn open again, and the extravagant expectations inside were scattered little by little, replaced by an increasingly bewildered sense of emptiness.The winter wind was blowing in, making my chest feel cold and painful, and my breathing was tight and difficult.

"I hug Dad, and Dad won't be cold—" the child hugged his favorite dad tightly, "Because I am very warm, I can share it with Dad."

His small embrace seemed to really have the power to warm people's hearts. Gu Qinghan gently stroked his back, feeling moved and sour in his heart.

"Doctor Gu."

When Gu Qinghan and Gu Nian hugged each other, someone stood still in front of them.

Gu Qinghan looked up and saw Lin Chen standing there with a half-smile.He gently let go of Gu Nian and stood up, looked at Lin Chen calmly, and was about to take Gu Nian away.

"Leaving in such a hurry?" Lin Chen stretched out his hand to stop him, "Did you do something wrong?"

"I'm off work. If you feel unwell, you can find a doctor inside." Gu Qinghan replied calmly, not wanting to ignore his provocation.

Lin Chen smiled and sighed, "I'm really uncomfortable, what should I do, kid?" He looked down at Gu Nian, who was ignorant, and bent down to say hello.

"Kid, do you know who I am?"

Gu Nian was obviously a little afraid of this stranger with an unclear smile, and hid behind Gu Qinghan, who held his hand tightly.

"I'm your uncle Jiang Qi's friend, but he ignores me when he sees your father. It's really annoying."

"Uncle Jiang Qi doesn't hate it." Gu Nian was a little scared, but still retorted timidly in a low voice, "He is very nice."

"You are enough, don't talk nonsense in front of the children." Gu Qinghan's cold and beautiful face was like frost, "You and Jiang Qi mess around as you like, don't come to me and go crazy."

"dad......"

"Let's go home." Gu Qinghan smiled slightly at Gu Nian, leaned over and picked him up and walked out.

"Hehe, yes, Jiang Qi doesn't hate it, and the one who hates it is your father!" Lin Chen laughed angrily, caught up and continued, "Because your father betrayed his friendship and turned around to get entangled, destroying others... "

"To shut up!"

Before Lin Chen finished speaking, another growl overwhelmed his voice.

With a livid face, Jiang Qi grabbed Lin Chen's arm and dragged him away from Gu Qinghan, his forehead was twitching slightly.He originally came to chase after Gu Qinghan, but when he saw Lin Chen saying these words to Gu Nian here, his brain buzzed with anger.

"What are you yelling here?!"

"Am I wrong?" Lin Chen asked him loudly with trembling lips, "Isn't he Gu Qinghan like this?"

"Lin Chen, let me tell you plainly," Gu Qinghan turned around not far away, his face and lips were white, but his voice was extremely cold and calm, "I have nothing to do with Jiang Qi."

From the beginning to the end, he didn't look at Jiang Qi again, strode away with Gu Nian still in shock, and disappeared into the rainy twilight.

——It has nothing to do with it?

Jiang Qi stared blankly at his back, but soon couldn't see clearly.Gu Qinghan was like a faint star, gradually extinguished in the night sky, he could not find it even with his eyes wide open.

It was completely dark, but the rain hadn't stopped, and the cold wind slammed it obliquely on the glass wall and slid down into transparent rain marks.

Jiang Qi and Lin Chen were sitting face to face, both of them looked unhappy.During the silence, Lin Chen suddenly lowered his head and panted, his Adam's apple rolled several times, "I'm sorry..." He was crying.

Jiang Qi frowned and said nothing, but gently pushed a cup of hot coffee in front of him.

"I'm just not reconciled, obviously I've been by your side for so many years, why can't I get any affection from you." Lin Chen said hoarsely.

He and Jiang Qi met on a night in a foreign country. When the drunk Jiang Qi was stopped and beaten by wanderers on the street, he stepped forward and called the police to treat the wound with Jiang Qi. When he filled in the information, he found that the two were in the same university. Reading is more familiar.Later, some accidents happened to his family and financial difficulties, Jiang Qi was helping him because he rescued him at the beginning.

In fact, these years, Jiang Qi never promised him anything, on the contrary, he became more and more dependent, from abroad to China, even if he knew about Gu Qinghan's existence, it was just that he insisted on following Jiang Qi's side.

After coming to the hospital last time, Jiang Qi had already told him clearly that they were reluctant to come, but he didn't believe it.

To this day, he said those words to a child impulsively, and when he calms down, he only feels embarrassed and regretful.

Jiang Qi sighed very lightly, and didn't speak harsh words to him again.

"Let's stop here, Lin Chen."

The frightened child fell asleep and hugged Gu Qinghan's arm and refused to let go, clinging to him like a clingy animal.He has been tired and lazy since he came back, and he hasn't even changed his clothes.

Gu Qinghan suppressed his cough, hugged Gu Nian in the dark, and kissed him gently on the forehead.His movements were so gentle, but his eyes were filled with sadness, staring blankly at a certain place in the air.If it wasn't for the increasingly unbearable colic in his stomach, he would probably be so depressed all night.

After swallowing double the dose, he leaned against the edge of the bed and sat on the carpet with his knees bent, using his legs against his elbows to press down on the pain and endured.The pain was sharp and turbulent, his face was pale and cold sweat was like rain, his throat was full of bloody smell, but he clenched his teeth without making a sound.

In the middle of the night, Jiang Qi stood quietly outside Gu Qinghan's house. He felt distressed, depressed, blamed himself, and harbored hopes that he would not let go of. There were thousands of words in his heart.He really wanted to ask Gu Qinghan what it means that they no longer have any relationship, since they had done the most intimate thing not long ago.

In the silent air, he could hear his heavy breathing.Jiang Qi raised his hand to touch the doorbell, but he didn't press it because he was worried that it was too late.

The night outside the window was dark, and he prayed in his heart that Gu Qinghan would have a good dream and sleep peacefully.