Growth pain

The October vacation ended, and Lu Shining moved out of the dormitory as he wished.Temporarily rented a room near the company, as to why it is temporary—winter will soon enter, and the heating facilities in the apartment are not perfect.

Although Yuan Sen was very happy to share with him a room that was twice the size and had floor heating, Lu Shining was reluctant.

After he changed his residence, Yuan Sen came in and out more frequently, and even tried to stay at Lu Shining's house, but Lu Shining kicked him out every time.

Now the two of them have entered a very strange stage, after that night, Yuan Sen never crossed the line again, but he often stopped to look at Lu Shining while talking.

Lu Shining didn't know what was going on in his mind, and he couldn't do anything about the current situation. Could it be that he really listened to Xu Jia's words and gave it a try?

Recently, he discovered that Yuan Sen and Shao Qing had added WeChat, and the progress of the matter was more and more out of his control.

Xu Jia knew about it, so she only said, "Ning Ning, your boyfriend is quite considerate."

Lu Shining was shocked when he heard that, "...he is not my boyfriend!"

Xu Jiaqu got dressed and painted her nail polish. Hearing this, she lowered her head and moved to the phone, "You can't play with him. How can I say that, he is quite similar to me."

Lu Shining spoke after a while: "So Shao Qing said that you had a boyfriend before, is it a lie? You yourself..."

After Xu Jia painted one foot, she straightened her leg and fiddled with it. "That's not true. Before Shao Qing, I had never dated girls. But I just fell in love with her, I just like her."

Xu Jia picked up the phone and put it to her ear, "Even if she didn't have any interest in dating at that time, I don't think it's a problem, just give it a try, I like her and I'm not at a loss."

Lu Shining fell silent.

Xu Jia chuckled, "Ningning, you are too unsteady. You are the opposite of Faxiao, and you are very firm in what you believe in."

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Chen Shuangyi invited Lu Shining to dinner again, this time directly outside Lu Shining's company.

The two of them didn't speak for a few seconds until Lu Shining greeted him politely with a smile: "Senior, why are you here?"

"Come to find you." Chen Shuangyi half-jokingly said, "Take it as my last struggle."

The two of them were led by the waiter into the elevator of the restaurant. Chen Shuangyi said, "I heard from Shao Qing that you haven't left yet when you were young."

Lu Shining nodded.

After the two sat down, the waiter left briefly, and Chen Shuangyi said again: "Is he chasing you recently?"

Lu Shining choked his trachea with a mouthful of lemonade, lowered his head and coughed.

"Sorry, am I wrong?" Chen Shuangyi handed him a tissue.

It took Lu Shining a long time to say: "Shao Qing even told you this?"

"No, she only hinted at one point, and I guessed the rest." Chen Shuangyi crossed his fingers, "She's probably annoyed by me, and she's already leaning toward you."

Lu Shining: "..."

He did not expect this.

"Before I said that I wanted to pursue you seriously, but you never gave me this chance. Is it because you were young?"

Lu Shining shook his head.

Chen Shuangyi looked over, "Does that mean I still have a chance?"

Lu Shining shook his head again.

Chen Shuangyi thought for a while, "Is it because of that incident?"

Lu Shining did not deny it.

Chen Shuangyi laughed, "Shi Ning, you hold grudges very much."

Lu Shining did not refute.

Chen Shuangyi said again: "Are you really planning to be with your little boy? You also said that he is straight, so you can imagine how unreliable it is."

Hearing this, Lu Shining looked at Chen Shuangyi, his eyes were still clear and clean, without a trace of dirt in them.

"I'm not hurting you." Chen Shuangyi said softly, "It's just that the final destination of bisexuals is basically marriage."

Lu Shining said, "I know."

"Then it's better to think about it with me." Chen Shuangyi laughed again, "You can think about it seriously if I'm joking."

But Lu Shining suddenly brought up the last topic, and in a very slow tone, while thinking, he said: "I should, I should be very vengeful, because I thought about it for a long time at that time, and spent a long time convincing myself, summoning up the courage to accept it. Senior.

"I was fully prepared and prepared to distance myself from Yuansen, because I thought it would be unfair to you to be with you like that."

Lu Shining frankly recalled the time in college, and this was the first time he honestly expressed his thoughts to Chen Shuangyi.

Chen Shuangyi was slightly stunned, and just as he was about to answer, Lu Shining said again: "But you don't care about these things, right? Anyone who can be obedient and live a down-to-earth life is fine. I am the most suitable candidate who appears at this moment, but I am not the only one." one."

In fact, he is very clear about whether others treat him well or not, how good they are, and how bad they can be.

Lu Shining said: "I am not the same as before. If you see this part of me, would you still want to try with me? Although Yuan Sen always said that I have changed and I am not as obedient as before, but for now For me, he didn't ask me to change anything."

Chen Shuangyi didn't expect Lu Shining to refute himself, and said after a while: "About this part of your true self, you never thought of showing it to me, did you?"

Lu Shining said "Yes", and replied honestly: "That's because I thought we would only have that one meal, and we would never see each other again in the end."

Chen Shuangyi: "..."

Lu Shining, who suddenly became less polite, made it difficult for him to resist. In the end, Chen Shuangyi sighed and said helplessly, "Okay."

"What does 'Okay' mean? It's too ambiguous. It's better to make it clear at once, which will save the senior a lot of time."

"...Have you and Fa Xiao always talked like this?"

Lu Shining paused and nodded.

Chen Shuangyi laughed: "It seems that I don't know you well enough."

"I don't know seniors very well either." Lu Shining looked directly at the other party, "Seniors always throw me multiple-choice questions, whether to be together or not, as a joke or seriously, you are always gentle and magnanimous, what should I choose?" It’s okay, and the one who feels guilty and owed in the end will only be myself.”

Chen Shuangyi was speechless for a moment.

"Of course there's nothing wrong with that." Lu Shining said politely again, "Senior is a very good person, but we are not suitable to be together. On the other hand, Yuan Sen is not such a bad person..."

Lu Shining couldn't continue talking here.

He knows what's going on.

Chen Shuangyi is the one who can teach him to drink and smoke, and the one who can teach him to grow up.

Yuan Sen would never do this, whether it was smoking or drinking, he would always hide in a place that Lu Shining could not see.What he thinks is bad, he can do it himself, and anyone else can do it, except Lu Shining.

It's a node, Yuan Sen didn't even use it as a standard to demand himself, but he wanted to restrain Lu Shining with it.

Lu Shining used to think it was very unfair, but now thinking about it, he still finds it funny.

He is not a child who needs protection, but Yuan Sen has always followed this unwritten rule.

After becoming an adult, I suddenly don't want to grow up. I want to be a child again, and I can act coquettishly with others and say willful things without any scruples. It would be great if someone could tolerate me.But the result is often the same-growth makes people learn restraint.

In front of Yuan Sen, he couldn't restrain himself.

After leaving the restaurant and saying goodbye to Chen Shuangyi, Lu Shining walked back to the apartment alone, and saw Yuan Sen sitting beside the flower bed with a sullen face waiting for him.

He suddenly couldn't control his tears, and he was at a loss as to why he cried, but he couldn't take it back, so he could only cry while walking.

Seeing this, Yuan Sen didn't care about being angry, and ran over and asked coldly, "Have you been bullied?"

Lu Shining shook his head while wiping tears.

Yuan Sen was a little anxious, "Then why are you crying? Ancestor, you should say something."

Lu Shining opened his arms and hugged Yuan Sen.

——Growth makes people learn restraint.

But in front of Yuan Sen, he will always be a rogue kid.

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