Growth pain

Lu Shining woke up with a splitting headache the next morning, and found that he had returned to the dormitory. Thinking back to the absurd actions of the whole day yesterday, he sighed deeply and buried his face in his palms.

The bathroom door was pushed open, and the person inside asked very naturally: "Are you awake?"

Lu Shining was stunned and raised his head. His roommate was brushing his teeth against the door frame wearing a vest and shorts.

"...Good morning." Lu Shining said.

"Morning." The roommate hooked the shoulder straps of the vest, stood up straight as if thinking of something, and smiled, "Sorry, I'll change clothes in a while."

Lu Shining didn't understand even more, "Don't you wear this outfit every day?"

"Hey, that's what I said." The roommate winked at him, "Isn't this an eyesore, after all, you already have a boyfriend."

Lu Shining's head was full of questions, and his roommate continued: "Isn't the man who came to see you yesterday your boyfriend?"

Lu Shining reflected who it was, Yuan Sen was the only one who came here yesterday.

"No."

"How could it be." The roommate pointed to his eyes, and then clicked on Lu Shining's location, "Didn't you two struggle for a long time last night? I don't think he slept much. I came back half an hour ago and he was already dressed." The clothes are sitting on the chair, as soon as you see me, you will leave."

Lu Shining knew that his roommate had misunderstood, but he didn't expect him to misunderstand so deeply, and his expression was complicated for a while.

"You mean Yuan Sen... We don't have that kind of relationship." Lu Shining got up from the bed, still dizzy.

The roommate looked at him, "Did you two quarrel?"

"It is true that there are contradictions, but we are not..."

"Arguing and breaking up? I think he came here in a hurry yesterday, and he seemed to care about you. Why haven't you reconciled after a night of dating? You are also quite angry." The roommate said self-consciously.

The more Lu Shining listened, the more he felt something was wrong, and he wanted to explain, but his roommate suddenly said, "That's great, when will I meet such a high-quality No. [-]."

Lu Shining: "..."

Lu Shining didn't dare to speak anymore, and tentatively raised his head to look at his roommate, who is 1.8 meters tall and strong.

The roommate laughed, "They put me with you because you are new here, and they will change your dormitory for you in a month. The dormitory environment in Seoul is quite good."

Lu Shining asked: "Then you live alone because..."

The roommate knew what he wanted to say, and explained in time: "It's mainly because I snore while sleeping."

Lu Shining: "..."

The roommate said again: "Your boyfriend looks really good."

Lu Shining had no choice but to continue: "I don't have that kind of relationship with him..."

"If you really broke up, you can introduce me."

Lu Shining closed his mouth.

The roommate laughed again.

Lu Shining reminded: "Have you forgotten that you are brushing your teeth?"

The roommate's smile froze on his face, "Hey."

It's six o'clock in the morning in Jingshi, even if the window is not open, Lu Shining is wearing pajamas with long sleeves and trousers, watching his roommate's shirtless looking for clothes in the closet.

"Look, I'm useless." The roommate reminded me friendly, "Our models don't match."

Lu Shining expressionless: "I'm really sorry."

The roommate laughed happily, looking up and laughing like a hero who got married in a TV series.

After going to the bathroom, Lu Shining shrank back into the quilt, and began to think about what happened after he was drunk.

After those words were said out of control last night, it was difficult for both parties to control their emotions.Yuan Sen was the first to calm down. Chen Shuangyi rushed over quickly, but didn't ask anything. He handed Lu Shining a tissue, but Yuan Sen stopped him and insisted on handing it over to Lu Shining through his own hands.

Lu Shining didn't answer, and raised his face to express: "I don't cry anymore."

So stupid.

Thinking of this, Lu Shining silently punched the quilt twice.

Afterwards, the two of them still took Chen Shuangyi's car, Lu Shining resolutely sat in the co-pilot, and Yuan Sen could only sit in the back.

After stopping the car, Chen Shuangyi suddenly said to Lu Shining: "I hope you will think about what I said before. I said I will be very serious."

Yuan Sen directly pulled him away.

Lu Shining didn't speak all the way, and when he was about to open the door, Yuan Sen asked him, "Are you going to have sex with a man?"

Lu Shining's eyes flickered and he raised his head to look at Yuan Sen, Yuan Sen took the key in his hand, "If you don't want to cause that kind of trouble, then quickly refuse."

——I can’t remember clearly what happened after the door was opened.

But enough is enough, Hara Mori's attitude says it all.

Lu Shining knew long ago that there was never any honesty between him and Yuan Sen, and mutual concealment was the norm.

In Yuan Sen's eyes, he has always been an object that needs to be protected. Fa Xiao, younger brother, whatever title is fine, in short, he is not a person who can grow side by side.

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Shao Qing sent a "thumbs up" emoji after listening to Lu Shining recount the whole day's experience yesterday.

Lu Shining responded with two full stops.

Shao Qing called: "I just said that he will definitely come to you."

Lu Shining was eating lunch, with the sandwich still in his mouth, his head was still throbbing, and he was thinking silently: drinking is not good, drinking is bad for your health.

"How can you say that you are a little boy, you have a kind of obsession with you."

Lu Shining had no choice but to say it familiarly: "Because we grew up together, I know a lot about him."

"But normally, can anyone really do this?"

Lu Shining secretly pulled out the egg, "Anyway... I've already talked to that extent."

"I didn't say the most important point." Shao Qing held the phone and sighed softly, "Actually, it's quite understandable. You two are neighbors. He can't accept homosexuality. It will affect you a bit anyway. You should not say it if you don't want to." .”

Lu Shining concentrated on eating the sandwich without egg yolk, with his ear still attached to the phone, looking obedient and obedient.

Shao Qing said: "If the person who used to be nice to you becomes the one who hates you the most...it will be uncomfortable for everyone."

After get off work in the evening, Chen Shuangyi sent a message to Lu Shining to ask him to come out to meet him. Yesterday, because of Yuan Sen's interruption, the two of them didn't discuss the matter further.

The place where they met this time was an ordinary restaurant. Chen Shuangyi poured him a cup of tea, and Lu Shining straight to the point said, "Why must it be me? We haven't seen each other for four years, there is no reason why it must be me."

Chen Shuangyi was not annoyed, but asked instead: "Why can't it be you?"

Lu Shining said: "My personality is not very good."

Chen Shuangyi laughed, "It's already a good character to be able to say such things. You also know this circle. I just want to find someone to stabilize."

"How do you count as stable?"

"Will not cheat casually, and will not get married suddenly - a stable person." Chen Shuangyi explained.

Lu Shining nodded and then nodded, then raised his eyes, "So you are?"

Chen Shuangyi blinked playfully, "I don't look like that?"

Lu Shining still nodded.

"So I look like I'm going to settle down?" he asked.

Chen Shuangyi said: "At least it's a long relationship."

Lu Shining: "Oh."

indeed.

indeed.

My brain is broken. I have liked Hara Sen for so long.

"You are quite special as a villain." Chen Shuangyi said, "But I can't deal with people with that kind of personality."

Lu Shining said: "Are you interested in him? He is straightforward, I advise you not to."

Chen Shuangyi choked on water.

Lu Shining made up the knife: "The experience of those who have been here."

Chen Shuangyi couldn't laugh or cry.

The dinner was quite enjoyable until the end, but on the way back, Chen Shuangyi suddenly said: "Shi Ning, you seem to dislike yourself very much."

Lu Shining thought for a while, and replied "It's okay".

When does one realize that one does not love oneself enough?

It should be when people around me care about me, and I feel that those cares are unnecessary, and I can heal myself alone.

Lu Shining didn't want to waste other people's time and let others get entangled in his own affairs, but the more he did this, the tighter and tighter the threads wrapped around him, until he couldn't breathe.

Because it's an idiot.

When the car was parked on the side of the road, Lu Shining himself had to admit his clumsiness, timidity and cowardice.Children raised by the elderly are like this. They are sensitive, foresight, and everything has to be calculated to the worst step. The more afraid the more you shrink back, the worse the result will be.

To be honest, he couldn't believe it until the moment he saw Yuan Sen.

It turned out that he would really chase after him and would really hold on to him.

But why.

Totally unreasonable.

He obviously abandoned himself once, so he should also abandon him this time——he thought so.

Lu Shining knew where he was in Yuan Sen's heart, it was indeed special, but this specialness was only limited to when Yuan Sen felt lonely.

But he is a person, not a kitten or dog picked up by the side of the road, isn't he angry? Don't complain? Why should I tell him at this time that I ran away because I like him.

Is it good for me to say it, make Yuan Sen feel that he is mentally ill, and then stay away completely?

It sounds good, at least the purpose of escaping has been achieved.

But why all the suffering is his alone.

At this point, I still have to lose, which is quite sad.

Lu Shining held grudges.

How could he not remember.

In the final analysis, why did Yuan Sen chase after him - this is the crux of the problem.

Just like now Lu Shining couldn't understand why this guy appeared at the door of his dormitory.

"Hello." Lu Shining said.

Yuan Sen looked at him, "The car just now..."

"Hi, are you a stalker?" Lu Shining interrupted him.

Yuan Sen lowered his head, his eyelashes cast shadows, and his pupils seemed dull, the color of ink, "Is he still chasing you?"

Lu Shining focused on opening the door and ignored him.

"Little Lu, you let him chase you too?"

Yuan Sen tugged at his cuff, he couldn't fit the keyhole at all.

"Then can't I?"

- pat.

The key fell on the floor.

Lu Shining raised his head and asked seriously, "Yuan Sen, are you sick?"

The author has something to say: This is the case, Lu Shining’s character is impossible to be honest, the two of them are neighbors, they don’t see each other when they look up, he knows the attitude of the Yuan Mori family towards homosexuality, but he still wants to make a fool of himself, saying that I am gay, I like it What are you... trying to figure out.Even if the goal is achieved, Yuan Sen really doesn't chase after him, wouldn't that be even worse.It doesn't make sense for him to pay such a high price to hurt himself... Even if the child is very kind, he is not a heartless person. .