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"You are so cruel." Yao Ruoyu said, "You can't tell me, will you like me?"

Yuan Mu asked, "Do you believe me when I tell you?"

"I don't believe it. But what I need now is reassurance."

"You know I won't comfort you, so you actually want to hear the truth."

"Why do you decide what I want to hear?"

"What I decide is what I say."

Yao Ruoyu said: "If you tell the truth, you are cruel."

"..." Yuan Mu said, "You are unreasonable."

Yao Ruoyu smiled and said, "Little friend, you don't understand that women are unreasonable when facing the person they like."

"You say you like me, but I never feel it."

"As long as I feel it is enough."

Yuan Mu had previously found it difficult to communicate with Yao Ruoyu, and now the difficulty has escalated.Yuan Mu frowned and asked, "What is your purpose for coming today?"

Yao Ruoyu replied, "I want to see you."

"You saw it. And then?"

"I want to hear from you that you will like me."

"What's the use of my affirmation? Do you dare to face yourself when I am sure?"

"If so?"

"I don't like you, my answer is only this. Yao Ruoyu, I and Fengshi are willing to help you, but you must at least extend a hand to us. You are submerged in the river without moving, and we can't pull you out. do you understand?"

"Who asked you to help me? Is it me? I didn't ask you, and I don't need you to pull me out."

Yuan Mu wanted to sigh.

Yao Ruoyu said: "When I pass forty, time will go faster and faster. I will be old in the blink of an eye, and my life will be over in the blink of an eye. When I was young, I didn't come out of the river. You think I At this age, can I still come out? Even if I come out, what can I do, my face is about to be wrinkled. I am not a prosperous time, I have waited for 40 years, and I can still wait for you. I can’t wait for anyone. "

"Fengshi never knew that she would meet me, she never waited for me. We live, we are one person from birth to death, not to wait for anyone. I am with her, I am still me, she is still her."

Yao Ruoyu smiled and shook her head: "Yuan Mu, it's useless for you to reason with me like this. I don't have such a high consciousness as you."

"This is not enlightenment, and I don't think there is anything clever about our way of life. Everyone has their own way of life, there is no distinction between high and low. You said that you envied us, so I will tell you why we live like this Look. I am 21 years old today, and every 40 years, we hold too little in our hands and carry too light on our shoulders, so when we meet, we can be together without fighting much pressure. Count you How much you hold in your hands and how much you carry on your shoulders, you can't easily hold hands and hug your lover like us. If you lose all your preparations, you can't be lucky, you have to struggle hard and painfully, you may get injuries all over your body, and you may even fail in the end, but you have nowhere to complain, because this is what you chose Let me ask you, do you dare to go this way? If you really meet that person, do you have such a strong desire to be with her? Or do you think that this is too tiring and not worth it?"

"Yuan Mu, are you there?" Zhao Ge pushed the door open and probed, "Oh, you have guests here."

Yuan Mu looked up at him, and continued to say to Yao Ruoyu: "You said you once thought about coming out, not falling in love, and cultivating your body..."

Zhao Ge closed the door with a "bang", forgot to lock himself out because he was too nervous, and stood by the door in a half-embarrassed manner, watching Yuan Mu uncharacteristically gurgling endlessly.

"Even if you did this at the time, did you ever think that you might not be able to wait? You have been waiting wholeheartedly since you were 30 years old. After waiting for five or ten years, you are still alone. At that time, you will still wait." Did you stay in that state that you thought you were 'ready' to actually get you to meet that person? Nobody knows. I wouldn't like it if I met you in that state You, absolutely not. I don't want to be the one being waited on, and I don't want to bear the psychological burden of being 'waited for' just after seeing you."

Zhao Ge was a little fascinated by what he heard, and he was so curious that he wanted to ask about the relationship between the two of them and add some background knowledge.

Yuan Mu said: "You can't prepare well. The only thing you can decide is how you live when you are alone, but no matter how you decide, the person you meet later will not be responsible for your decision."

"So I will die alone, and I can only blame myself, right?" Yao Ruoyu raised one corner of her mouth.

Yuan Mu asked: "Before I came, what kind of future did you envision in your mind?"

Yao Ruoyu said: "Lonely forever..."

"Do you think she will blame herself?"

"will not."

"Because she's not afraid of being alone. I'm the same. I don't think there's anything wrong with being alone forever. Fengshi is 20 years older than me. If there is no accident, she will be one step ahead of me. How will I be then?"

Yao Ruoyu said, "Will you be in pain?"

"I'm going to be miserable, but live on, remember her, love her like she's still here."

There was too much information, Zhao Ge covered his mouth with both hands, and stared at Yuan Mu in shock.

Yao Ruoyu was silent for a moment, caught a glimpse of Zhao Ge's expression, and said mockingly, "Look at your little gay."

Zhao Ge: "..."

Yuan Mu said: "I'm afraid it's useless, you can only walk, keep walking. Whoever you meet is who you are, and you have to bear whatever happens to you. Of course you can also hide. Don't say regret if you hide."

Zhao Ge: "Wow!"

Yao Ruoyu asked him, "Do you think it makes sense?"

Zhao Ge: "Yes. Don't say sorry if you hide, I think this sentence is quite right."

Yao Ruoyu: "You avoided your boyfriend?"

Zhao Ge glanced at Yuan Mu.

Yuan Mu: "This is Teacher Sheng's friend, trustworthy."

Zhao Ge laughed twice: "Does Teacher Sheng still have friends? It's amazing. Hello, my name is Zhao Ge."

"My surname is Yao."

Zhao Ge sat next to Yao Ruoyu and said, "How do you know that I dodged my thing?"

Yao Ruoyu asked, "You haven't come out?"

"...how do you know everything?"

"You used to think you were straight, didn't you?"

"..."

Zhao Ge looked at Yuan Mu.

Yuan Mu: "I never said that."

"Then you are amazing, Sister Yao! You guessed everything right!"

"Don't call me sister Yao."

"Why? Oh! Sorry, I'm sorry. Sister, I think you look familiar. We must have met somewhere."

"I have been to Shengfengshi's office many times."

"I just said, I must have seen you! I remember it well. Yuan Mu, which school do you go to? I bet 50 yuan that you are definitely my junior!"

Yuan Mu didn't want to say anything.

Yao Ruoyu asked Zhao Ge: "Do you plan to come out?"

"I don't have any plans, let's take a step at a time. If I can't hide it from now on, I can only...right?"

"Where's your boyfriend?"

"He has. He's trying to figure out how to vaccinate the family."

Yao Ruoyu smiled: "It's nice to be young."

"Sister, I think you are not very old, you are in your early thirties? You don't need to be afraid of getting old when you are so good-looking. You look better than others in their thirties when you are forty."

"Really?" Yao Ruoyu asked, "What if I say I'm already 39?"

"Impossible! Just lie to me, you can be 39 when you look like this? I don't believe that your skin is so fair and you don't have any spots."

Yao Ruoyu: "If you don't believe me, ask Yuan Mu."

Yuan Mu nodded.

"Wow, then you can't see it at all. I don't think you have much makeup on, and your skin is so good. Sister, help me to see, can the acne marks on my face be cured? I used a large amount of gel It’s been useless for half a year.”

Yao Ruoyu took a closer look and said, "It's okay to dilute it, I recommend you a few..."

Yuan Mu watched the two of them quickly fall into a heated discussion, and thought to himself: This is the communication of normal adults.

Although most of them didn't understand, Yuan Mu still learned a little skin care knowledge, but it's not a matter of whether it will be useful in the future.

When Sheng Fengshi came back, he was a little dazed when he saw how lively the office was.

Zhao Ge got up immediately and said, "Mr. Sheng, I'm leaving first."

Yao Ruoyu: "Get in touch."

Zhao Ge said "ok", and rushed out from the door in a hurry, and closed the door intimately.

Yuan Mu was sitting on a sofa for one person, and Sheng Fengshi stood beside the sofa, with one hand around Yuan Mu's neck, putting his arm around Yuan Mu's shoulder, Yuan Mu tilted his head and rubbed Sheng Fengshi's hand.

Yao Ruoyu felt her eyes hurt.

She smiled and teased: "I said, can't you take care of the mental health of lonely people?"

Sheng Fengshi withdrew his hand and placed it on the back of the sofa.

Yuan Mu: "I'm sorry."

"No, I know you guys are showing your true feelings. Why don't you just live together, don't waste so much time in the morning and evening."

Yuan Mu blushed.

Seeing Yuan Mu's expression, Yao Ruoyu knew what was going on, and smiled, "It's really fast."

Sheng Fengshi: "Yes."

Yao Ruoyu picked up the paper cup and took a sip of water, which was already cold. "I have something to say here. Teacher Yue has been discharged from the hospital. I have been busy recently, so I may not have time to see her. I went to the hospital several times last week, chatted with Teacher Yue and Aunt Zhang, and then observed me Combined with some cases told by Aunt Zhang, I told the neurology doctor that the doctor basically confirmed that she had been in mild dementia for one to two years when the fracture occurred. In addition, the doctor reminded that the fracture stimulated Teacher Yue’s illness. Please tell Auntie Zhang to pay more attention to her symptoms that may worsen in the near future."

Sheng Fengshi: "I see, thank you."

"Thank you, not for you, but for Teacher Yue." Yao Ruoyu smiled, "Just because she still remembers my name, what does it matter if I register for her?"

Sheng Fengshi said, "Thank you."

"I said no. There's only so much I can do." Yao Ruoyu took another sip of cold water and said, "Okay, it's meaningless for me to stay here any longer. Yuan Mu, thank you for your willingness to help me, but I don't want to You hold out your hand. Goodbye."

Yuan Mu vaguely felt that Yao Ruoyu's words were strange. Seeing her stand up, she looked into Yao Ruoyu's eyes and asked, "See you again?"

"Yes, I will come to you again in two days."

Yuan Mu didn't see anything unusual, so he nodded and said, "Goodbye."

Sheng Fengshi also nodded to Yao Ruoyu.

Yao Ruoyu left, and there were only two people in the office again.

Yuan Mu asked, "Are you going to see your aunt?"

"No, she doesn't want to see me. I'll contact Aunt Zhang."

"Go to class?"

Sheng Fengshi looked at the time: "It's too late to go now, I will attend the class tomorrow. You should read."

When Yuan Mu turned around the sofa and hugged Sheng Feng, he whispered in her ear, "Think about what to have for lunch, I'm going to do the grocery shopping today."

Sheng Fengshi put his arms around Yuan Mu's waist, and said with a slight smile, "Okay."