42 ten

Sheng Fengshi finished his run and then did stretching exercises for half an hour. It was already nine o'clock when he came out of the small balcony.She went to the living room, and saw Yuan Mu sitting on the sofa, holding a book in his hand, in a daze.After Yuan Mu took a bath, he brushed his hair and looked very refreshed.Sheng Fengshi breathed gently, and seemed to be able to smell the mountain and forest breath emanating from Yuan Mu's body through the plain pajamas, clean and fresh, with a little sweetness.

Yuan Mu turned his head and asked her, "Are you done running?"

"Well, I'm going to take a shower. Are you sleepy?"

"Not sleepy." Yuan Mu looked at Sheng Fengshi's body line outlined by the sportswear, not only not sleepy, but also suddenly very energetic.It's so pretty, Yuan Mu thought to himself.

"I'm going." Sheng Fengshi smiled at her, and walked into the bathroom with his pajamas.

Yuan Mu turned his eyes back to the book, and found that he had no impression of the content of this page, so he turned a page forward before continuing to read.

Maybe it’s because I’ve become lazy. I was reading a book just now and suddenly I didn’t want to do anything. I just wanted to be idle, and then I started to be in a daze. Things.

Through the bathroom door, the sound of water came into his ears, Yuan Mu started to be in a trance after reading two pages, he simply closed the book, closed his eyes and rested his mind.The sound of water is like rain, knocking on the ears, making people itchy.Yuan Mu stood up and walked around the tea table three times, then sat down again, picked up the book and still couldn't read it, so he ran to the study to read it.Across two doors, the sound of water was almost inaudible.

Sheng Fengshi came out after washing, went to the living room and saw that no one was there, and called out: "Yuan Mu?"

After a few seconds, Yuan Mu came out from the study: "Here."

"Why did you go to the study?"

Yuan Mu said, "My heart itch."

Sheng Fengshi walked up to Yuan Mu, stretched out his hand to cover Yuan Mu's heart, and asked, "Is it itchy here?"

"Hmm..." Yuan Mu snorted softly.

Sheng Fengshi's face was a little hot, and he rubbed it lightly a few times: "Is it better?"

"I can't breathe." Yuan Mu's breathing became heavy, feeling a little dizzy, he grabbed Sheng Fengshi's wrist to prevent her from kneading, took a deep breath and said, "I'm so anxious."

"Worried?" Sheng Fengshi didn't understand.

"Panic, think..."

"Thinking about what?"

When Yuan Mu stepped forward and hugged Sheng Feng, he exhaled like a sigh and said, "I think so."

Sheng Fengshi put his hands on Yuan Mu's back, and pressed the two of them closer together, not feeling oppressed, but comfortable.

After hugging for about a minute, Yuan Mu said, "It's done."

Sheng Fengshi let go of his hand: "No more itching?"

"Much more comfortable."

"Then go to the bed?"

"Okay."

Sheng Fengshi took Yuan Mu's hand and walked into the bedroom.

Yuan Mu came in during cleaning, the bedroom was very empty, only a large wardrobe, a bedside table and a double bed. There is an alarm clock, a book, and now a photo frame on the bedside table.

"Read a book for a while, or just sleep?" Sheng Fengshi asked.

Yuan Mu felt itchy again, and said, "Read a book."

"Can I read a book?"

"it is good."

The two climbed onto the bed from both sides, sitting shoulder to shoulder on the head of the bed with pillows on their backs.Sheng Fengshi opened the book on the first page and said, "Let's read it."

After an unknown amount of time, Sheng Fengshi asked, "Have you finished reading this page?"

Yuan Mu blushed and said, "I'm distracted."

"Are you still watching?"

"Don't look at it."

Sheng Fengshi put the book back on the nightstand, looked at Yuan Mu with a smile in his eyes.

Yuan Mu closed his eyes and kissed him.

Sheng Fengshi held Yuan Mu's somewhat reckless tongue in his mouth, sucked and comforted him gently, and the two breaths intertwined.Yuan Mu's hand held Sheng Fengshi's shoulder, and the heat from his palm was transmitted to Sheng Fengshi's skin through the pajamas, giving Sheng Fengshi the illusion of being scalded.Then Yuan Mu's hand slid down, and the fingertips rested on Sheng Fengshi's collarbone. This was a dangerous position, and Yuan Mu's hand would climb up the hill if it went down an inch.Sheng Fengshi's body was completely relaxed.Yuan Mu's hand didn't go down, but moved to the middle to touch the buttons of the pajamas, and flexibly undid one, the second, and the last one with his fingers, then put his hand in and put it on Sheng Fengshi's lower abdomen, Sheng Fengshi was comfortable He sighed softly, half-opening his eyes, his vision hazy.

Yuan Mu kissed Sheng Fengshi's eyes, and pulled the side of Sheng Fengshi's pajama pants.

Sheng Fengshi said: "I will do it myself."

When Sheng Feng put the pajama pants aside, Yuan Mu had already taken off his top and bottom clothes.The two lay on the quilt, facing each other sideways, looking at each other.There was desire in Yuan Mu's eyes, but the clarity remained the same. Sheng Fengshi saw it in his eyes, and couldn't help but wonder how could there be someone she liked so much?To be accompanied by this person in the days to come is the greatest luck in her life for her, and she doesn't need to ask for anything else.Sheng Fengshi took Yuan Mu's hand and put it on his waist.

"Are you still pinching?"

"Stop pinching."

"Come on then."

Without any hindrance, without any distance, a thin layer of sweat makes the skin slippery, and the body is clinging, as if fused into one.

The first night of sleeping together in the same bed was humid and hot.

In the morning, Yuan Mu opened his eyes, staring at Sheng Fengshi's face through the misty sky light penetrating through the curtains.

Pretty.

No matter how many times he saw it, Yuan Mu always thought it was beautiful.

Sheng Fengshi's eyelids moved, and soon he woke up, and turned his head to meet Yuan Mu's gaze.Yuan Mu smiled, and Sheng Fengshi also smiled.This morning was special because it was different from all the mornings before it, and it was ordinary because every morning after that would be like this.

After getting up, Yuan Mu went to the kitchen to make breakfast, and Sheng Fengshi watched it, thinking that he would make it later after learning.

After breakfast, the two went out to school.

It was still early in the office, Sheng Fengshi put the photo frame on the table, and then cleaned the inside and outside of the office together with Yuan Mu.Generally, if there are teaching assistants in the office, these groceries will be done by the teaching assistants, but Sheng Fengshi always refuses to bring anyone with her, so she cleans her office by herself.

The two finished cleaning the office, and it was not yet time to go to work.Sheng Fengshi was going to the research institute this morning, but there was no one there early, so she could only sit in the office and wait.With Yuan Mu on the opposite side, Sheng Fengshi didn't want to work, so he chatted with Yuan Mu and talked about what books he had read.

When it was time for Shengfeng to leave, Yuan Mu sat back and read a book by himself.

Zou Qi has a class in the first and second quarters, so she won't come to see her. The other teachers know that Sheng Fengshi is not in the office at this time, and they won't come to knock on the door. Yuan Mu estimates that this will be a quiet morning, and she can read until Sheng Fengshi comes back, but The development of things is often not as expected.

Hearing the knock on the door, Yuan Mu said, "Please come in."

Yao Ruoyu entered the door to take a look, and said to Yuan Mu with a smile, "Are you surprised to see me?"

"It's a surprise." Yuan Mu replied honestly.

Yao Ruoyu walked to the water dispenser, took a glass of water for herself, sat on the sofa, and wore an amiable and weird smile the whole time.

Yuan Mu put down his book, walked over and sat on the small sofa: "If you don't want to laugh, you don't have to."

Yao Ruoyu touched her face and narrowed her eyes with a smile: "It's already growing on my face."

Yuan Mu said, "You are very strong."

"Don't say I'm strong. I'm most afraid of people praising me like that, as if I have no strength to resist, so I can only hold on strong enough not to fall to the ground."

Yuan Mu thought carefully about her sentence "strong" just now, it seemed that she really had this kind of meaning, so she apologized: "I'm sorry, I won't say that in the future."

"It's okay." Yao Ruoyu said, "How can I blame you, I like you."

Yuan Mu pursed his lips and did not respond.

"Be prepared for what? I'm just talking, and I don't do anything practical. I want to ask you a question, if, I mean if," Yao Ruoyu opened his mouth and took a breath, as if he was a little nervous, "I started a few years ago Self-cultivation, self-cultivation, coming out to family members, not going out to play, not casually falling in love, waiting for your appearance-and there is no such thing as a grand occasion-if you meet me like this, will you like me?"

Yuan Mu: "I won't."

"You answered too quickly." Yao Ruoyu said, "You think again?"

Yuan Mu said: "I won't like you. I never thought about what kind of person I would like, but the first time I saw Fengshi, I liked her. Whether she exists or not, I see you I don't like you when I don't feel it."

Yao Ruoyu explained: "You don't have feelings for me because I am who I am now. Didn't you hear what I said clearly? If I was like that, if I read and write every day, and I wasn't so sophisticated and hypocritical, maybe you see When it comes to me, will you feel a little bit?"

"But you're not that kind of person."

"How do you know? People are not static. I really thought about it a few years ago." Yao Ruoyu said, "I was already divorced at that time, and I felt very tired when the matchmaker introduced me to someone. Otherwise, I will come out of the closet, and I will never have to go on blind dates again. There are also a few pairs of friends around me who have been together for many years. I think maybe I will meet someone I like, and we can walk down the street hand in hand. But Then I got a promotion and I watched my former competitors clapping their hands and congratulating me, those people were so hypocritical, I thought how could I lose to others? Once I came out, soon it was no longer a secret, it would How many pairs of eyes are piercing me behind my back, how many mouths are talking about me behind my back, I will be excluded 'rightly' because I have a 'flaw'. Even if my work ability is better than them, what's the use? As long as I If I don’t handle my interpersonal relationship well, it’s impossible for me to go further. Do you know what the result is? My family thinks I’m sick, and I’m not making progress at work. All I see are strange eyes all day long. This is reality Ah! I have been abandoned by my family, I have been abandoned by society, and I have nothing left!"

Yuan Mudao: "But now you also feel that you have nothing."

Yao Ruoyu froze for a moment.

Yuan Mu: "You said that if you came out, you would have nothing. Now that you have not come out, you also said that you have nothing. What do you want? What do you not have?"

These two questions were not easy to answer, Yuan Mu asked suddenly, Yao Ruoyu had no answer for a while.

"Do you want everything, and if you don't get one thing, you feel that you have nothing?" Yuan Mu asked, "Family, social status, a lover who walks down the street with you hand in hand, I heard you say you want These, now that you have the first two, you still have friends, property, and maybe other things, so what are you willing to give up in exchange for a lover?"

Yao Ruoyu couldn't say anything.

"It's not that good." Yuan Mu said.

There is no such thing as giving up something and wanting something else.