don't die

Lin Shen pulled He Tiao out of the woods, and within a few steps, he met a person coming towards him.

"Crazy! You run so fast, do you want to get rid of me on purpose! Let me tell you, don't try to get rid of me before you tell the truth!"

Yu Yue chased after him out of breath. It was really not easy for him to be tricked by He Teng, who was familiar with the terrain in this deep mountain and wild forest.

Lin Shen stopped.

"Anyone you know?"

"No, no, no, I don't know where the insanity came from. When I catch someone, I say I know him." He sat on and denied it quickly, stepped forward and grabbed Lin Shen. "Let's go, don't you rush back, don't worry about this guy."

But no matter how he couldn't pull it, Lin Shen stood still. He looked at Yu Yue who was panting while wiping away the rain, and asked, "Do you know He Tun?"

"know!"

"do not know!"

Almost at the same time, the two people gave two diametrically opposed answers.

He Tun stood behind Lin Shen, winking at Yu Yue angrily.Bastard, don't drag me into the water at this time!Lin Shen is not easy to fool!

Yu Yue laughed as he looked at it, and he was finally caught by him.So, he ignored He Xie's hints, looked directly at Lin Shen and said, "Not only do we know each other, but we are quite familiar with him. This lunatic and I are close buddies who grew up wearing open crotch pants. No one knows him better than me." gone."

Lin Shen frowned, as if he was a little dissatisfied with Yue Yue's statement.However, this sentence also showed the relationship between Yu Yue and He Tun.

"You came to see him for something?"

"Something happened!"

"fine!"

Another completely different answer, Lin Shen has completely ignored He Tun, and only said to Yu Yue: "If you have something to do with him, please go down the mountain directly after finishing, it is not convenient to keep people on the mountain."

"Hey, uh... here." Is this to drive myself down the mountain?Yu Yue was stunned. Listening to this person's tone just now, he thought he would ask him something. Who knew that it would be over with just one or two sentences, so let it go?

"Hey." He sat on the sidelines gloating, "What about you, hurry down the mountain! We don't keep guests on the mountain! Don't even think about staying overnight!"

Yu Yue glared at He Tiao angrily, and finally realized that it was meaningless to continue entanglement today, so he turned his head and walked down the mountain, but before he left, he did not forget to leave a harsh word.

"I'll be back tomorrow!"

He satirized all of a sudden, frowning again, why did he have such a stubborn bad friend?

"It seems that there are very important things to discuss between you."

Lin Shen watched Yu Yue go down the mountain, looked back at He and said sarcastically.

"Haha, it's not really an important thing, it's just a private matter, a private matter."

"Really?" Lin Shen didn't ask any more questions, turned around and walked back to the wooden house.

At this time, it was raining, and he had just woken up from that nightmare, so he was really not in a good mood.He Tun seemed to realize something, and silently followed behind Lin Shen without speaking.

This continuous drizzle seems to swallow people quietly, without stopping.Lin Shen felt the rain falling on his face, and his mind returned to that time in an instant.

That was also when it was raining heavily.

The cold raindrops on his face were the first feeling he felt when he woke up from the darkness.Desperately trying to open his eyes, he found it difficult to even move his eyelids.

Where are you?What happened?

His brain was blank, and gradually he could hear the sounds around him, as if there were many people talking, loud and chaotic.

Lin Shen's consciousness finally regained a bit of sobriety. He recalled that he had fallen into a deep pool, but what happened now?Could it be that he is not dead, but where is this?

Extreme exhaustion made him unable to open his eyes. He could only listen to the increasingly clear sounds around him. It seemed that there were many people running around him, and he could even hear their conversations clearly.

"Don't move, don't move! There's still breathing, there's breathing!"

"There is still hope, send it to the hospital!"

"Sin, whose child is this? How did it fall into the river?"

"Hey, if the upstream reservoir didn't open the gate and wash him here, where would he go?"

Lin Shen felt that someone was lifting his arms and legs, and several people lifted himself up together. He could understand some of what they were talking about, but not others.However, when he wanted to listen carefully again, a burst of drowsiness struck him, and he couldn't bear it anymore and fell into a coma.

When he woke up again, he was already lying on the hospital bed, staring blankly at the white ceiling for a long time before Lin Shen propped up his hands to get up.

But when he moved his hand, he touched another person beside him. Lin Shen was taken aback and looked up.

A person was pillowing beside his bed, with gray hair, withered and yellowed fingers, and the shabby clothes that had been washed, Lin Shen recognized it at a glance.This is his grandfather, the old forest ranger on the mountain.

The old man moved a small bench and sat beside Lin Shen's bed. It seemed that he had stayed up all night for a long time. When Lin Shen woke up, he fell asleep, but one hand was still tightly grasping Lin Shen's exposed left hand. , very hard, unwilling to let go.

Lin Shen was stunned. Looking at his grandfather lying beside his bed, he suddenly didn't know what expression to use to face him.And when grandpa wakes up, what will he think of him, be it reprimanding, scolding, or indignation, that a person who spends all day collecting other people's corpses on the mountain will choose to commit suicide himself?

Just when Lin Shen didn't know how to face it, the old man sitting by the bed woke up. He moved his hand first, then slowly raised his head, subconsciously wanting to cover Lin Shen. While laying the quilt, he found that Lin Shen had already woken up.

"Finally woke up." Grandpa looked at Lin Shen and breathed a sigh of relief. "I'm still worried, whether you have damaged your body due to flooding, or the doctor is right, as long as there is no serious problem."

"I..." Lin Shen opened his mouth, wanting to say something.

"Why did you accidentally fall into the water?" Grandpa looked at Lin Shen reproachfully, "I've lived on the mountain for so long, don't you know how to be careful?"

Lin Shen was stunned. How could he say that he committed suicide?Or, don't say it?

"Oh, that's right, I must be hungry. Wait, I'll go out and get you something to eat." Grandpa said and pushed the door out. Lin Shen sat on the hospital bed, waited for a while, and stood up After trying to see if he could move, he also opened the door and went out.

Not long after he walked out of the ward, he heard someone talking about himself.

"It's the kid in Ward 408 who said he fell into the water, but everyone knows what happened."

"How can people who live on the mountain be so careless? If I want to see what fell into the water, it was intentional."

"suicide……"

"Tsk tsk, young people nowadays don't know what they are thinking all day long."

"However, it's strange to say that I heard that they died when they were salvaged at the beginning. I don't know how they breathed again later."

"Back to life! Isn't it a fake corpse?"

The family members of the patients in the next ward discussed it with gusto, so Lin Shen went out and walked around in silence before returning to the ward.

When Grandpa came back again, he still looked at Lin Shen lovingly with the same smile as before.And until he was discharged from the hospital, he didn't ask how Lin Shen fell into the water. When Lin Shen couldn't help but ask back, his grandfather smiled and said, "It's impossible to say if it's an accident. It's fine, it's fine."

Since then, Lin Shen has never taken the initiative to bring up this matter again. It is strange to say that after experiencing a death, he has become much indifferent to the idea of ​​suicide.I don't know if it's because I've experienced life and death, or for some other reason.Lin Shen suddenly felt that actually living in this world is not so unbearable.

At least, when those well-meaning people who didn't know his identity salvaged him, they were all eager to save him. At least, there was still a relative in the world who was willing to watch over him by his bedside.

At that moment, Lin Shen understood that it was not the world that rejected him, nor was it that the world owed him anything.It's just that there are some things that can never be expressed in one sentence.It is not their fault that people show kindness to a boy who fell into the water, but at the same time exclude the innocent Lin Shen, but that human emotions are too complicated.

They can love a person more, and they can hate a person more.And sometimes, these loves and hates are beyond my control.

From then on, Lin Shen figured it out.Why bother to care about other people's eyes, why live in other people's attitude towards oneself, after all, he lives in his own world, not in the eyes of others.

After experiencing this "overboard incident", everything seems to be different. Lin Shen is no longer so extreme, and has more views on life and death.The only thing that remains the same is grandpa's expression of smiling but not speaking.

The old forester seemed to know everything, but said nothing.In the second year after Lin Shen fell into the water and was rescued, the old man died of illness. The healthy old man was gradually paralyzed in bed, and finally died of serious illness.Some people said that it was because Lin Shen took his grandfather's life that he could continue to live.

"Squeak."

Stretching out his hand and gently pushing open the door, Lin Shen entered the room and turned on the light, recovering from the memories of the past.

He walked to the altar where the portrait was placed, and looked at the old man with a gentle smile in the black and white photo.

Who on earth has seen through everything?

He Tun walked in from behind him, Lin Shen felt his steps, and suddenly turned around and asked, "What do you think of death?"

"what?"

"Some people die in exchange for fame, and some people die but are criticized by others. They are obviously giving up their lives. Why is there such a difference?"

He asked this question a little out of his head, but He Xi understood it.

Not only did he understand, but he also answered immediately.

"Isn't that obvious?" He sarcastically said, "There are as many people in the world as there are different opinions. We have no control over what other people think. Besides, the one who gained fame may be called an idiot secretly by others." Brainless, they are all the same, what's the difference? Hey, if it were me, I wouldn't be so stupid to die."

"why?"

"Because you're dead, you don't even know what you got in exchange for your death, what a loss!"

Death takes everything away, including its own meaning.

"Then what if someone tells you that your life is meaningless and advises you to give it up?"

He sneered: "Then you must punch him first! Let him give up on his own!"

Being so simple and rude seems to be a sarcastic style, Lin Shen chuckled lightly.

"One more question for you."

"kindness?"

"Do you have any brothers?"

He was taken aback for a moment, then nodded. "It seems that there is a brother who has never met in the legend."

"name?"

"Heye."