don't die

Clang, when.

The sound of the chain knocking on the door has a cold and sharp metallic feel.

Li Weiming opened the iron door, shook the rust on his hands, and said to the two behind him, "Come in."

He Tun followed her and stepped into the door. What he saw was a narrow courtyard, less than three or four square meters. An old bicycle was leaning against the corner of the courtyard, and there were some baskets and baskets piled up on the left, just this little thing. , took up most of the small courtyard.People can only walk in through the narrow empty passage in the middle.

The courtyard is next to the house. It is a one-story house built in an unknown age, with red walls and black tiles. There are several gaps in the wall seams that are barely plugged with cement.After entering the bungalow, I found that there is only one room in total, which runs from the east to the west. The east side is the bed, and the west side is the stove. The middle is separated by two curtains, which can be regarded as dividing the space.

With the addition of two big men in this small room, there wasn't even a place to stand.Li Weiming bent down to tidy up for a while, and then managed to clear up an open space for the two of them to sit.

"I don't have anything to drink, only water, do you want it?"

Seeing Li Weiming making another gesture to go to the west to pour water, He satirized and waved his hands quickly.

"No, no need, we are not thirsty."

"Really?" Li Weiming responded lightly. "Then let's get down to business."

She walked to the opposite side of the two, found an old newspaper as a cushion, and sat down on the floor.

"What did he ask you to come to me for?"

He satirized his Adam's apple rolling up and down, and felt an inexplicable pressure. Even though this woman was so down and out, he found it difficult to look her directly in the eyes, as if he felt a trace of guilt in his heart.guilt?Why should he feel guilty? He satirized with a wry smile, feeling helpless about his own thoughts.

Seeing that neither He Tun nor Lin Shen spoke first, Li Weiming thought for a while, and said: "Just now Minmin went to me and said that someone who claimed to be sent by his father came here. I didn't believe it at first. But now I see You look a little more believable."

"Hehe, in fact, we are not considered to be sent by You Jia, we probably made our own way to go for him."

"Really?" Li Weiming's eyes seemed to have no waves, "Is he doing well now?"

"Wait...wait, don't you know this guy?" He was about to answer, but suddenly found something wrong, he pointed to Lin Shen and asked Li Weiming: "Didn't you think of him when you saw him?" ?”

Li Weiming gave them a strange look. "Why should I know him? Thinking of what?"

"Because Lin Shen is..." He satirized at this point and stopped talking. Most people in the town knew Lin Shen and knew about Lin Shen's work, but Li Weiming didn't know, that is to say, she didn't know who they were. Why did they come? They were not at all psychologically prepared for the news they were about to announce.

Is it really okay to just tell her that You Jia is dead, even ten years earlier?

Although Li Weiming seemed to be indifferent now and didn't mention anything about the past, He Xi still didn't dare to tell the truth easily, and he could only look at Lin Shen as if asking for help.

Lin Shen said: "We will take a look at you for You Jia."

"He looks at us?" Li Weiming sneered, "Do I have anything to do with him? It's not necessary."

Oops, this is hate.He satirized in his heart, and quickly said: "In fact, he also has difficulties."

"The reason? What is the reason that made him abandon me after I became pregnant? Even if there is, why don't he make up for it now, but let someone else do it for him?" You don't remember me, do you?"

"This..." He taunted with a wry smile in his heart, this is a big reason, even the King of Hades, Lao Tzu is not capable of letting a person who died ten years ago come to visit you.

Compared with He Tun's hesitation, Lin Shen was much more straightforward.

"Do you know why he left you ten years ago, and he didn't say anything to you?"

"I don't know, and I don't want to know." Li Weiming replied.

"Maybe he has to."

"There's nothing compelled."

"That means someone is forcing you, maybe someone is forcing him to leave you."

"Enough! Don't speak for him anymore!" Li Weiming became emotional, "What is forcing? When I left home to come out with him, why didn't he say anything! Ten years ago, my family forced me to sever ties Why didn't he say it! He left if he wanted to! Don't come back when he leaves, why do you want you to come to me now! Why!"

Like a calm lake on the surface pierced by a stone, the undercurrent that has been turbulent in the deep lake for a long time rushed out at this moment.Li Weiming, who was originally trying to keep her composure, finally couldn't hide her inner feelings.

"Why, you didn't come to me until ten years later..." This woman who used numbness to pretend to be strong couldn't help covering her eyes with her hands, and choked up. "Why did I wait for ten years, but he refused to come to see me in person. What's his reason? He can do without me, but why doesn't he want his own daughter! I..."

Tears swirled in dry eyes, and Li Weiming's voice was hoarse, as if a great sorrow and misery were hidden in her chest, and she couldn't spit it out, nor could she clear it away, it could only get deeper and deeper, and the more it got more sad.However, the vulnerability was only for a moment, and soon she wiped away her tears and looked up at the two of them.

"Forget it, he wants to get rid of the old debt now, right?" She said coldly, "Yes, as long as he pays my daughter's upbringing expenses for the past ten years in one lump sum, I will sever ties with him and never bother him again." he."

"Wh, what?" He asked blankly, why did things turn out like this.

"Qian, as long as you give me money, I promise not to contact him again. Don't you guys come here for this?" Li Weiming said, "I figured it out a long time ago. Feelings can't be eaten. I want to raise a daughter." If he wants to live, he can do without our mother and daughter, but if he wants to give money, at least let us mother and daughter live."

He satirized hastily to explain, "We're not—!"

Lin Shen suddenly pulled him back, "You just said that ten years ago, your family wanted to sever ties with you?"

"That has nothing to do with this." Li Weiming said impatiently.

"Do you still have contact with your family now?"

"It doesn't matter!"

"It does matter. If you still want to know where You Jia is now, just tell me the details."

The woman tortured by the years raised her head and stared at Lin Shen with hatred. "What do you want to know?"

"everything."

"I haven't been in touch for a long time. Ever since I found out that I was pregnant with this man's child, the family has been eager to get rid of me. They..." Li Weiming smiled wryly, "It's fine if you don't say anything."

"Does You Jia know that your family is looking for you and threatening you to go back?"

"How could he know that at that time we were so busy that we didn't even have time to eat, and he worked so many shifts every day, how could he..." Li Weiming suddenly stopped, as if remembering something, and said incredulously: "No, he Impossible to know! He won't know about that, I never told him!"

"What's the matter?" Lin Shen asked, but Li Weiming looked so far away that he didn't hear his question at all.

Lin Shen asked, "What is it that you don't want You Jia to know?"

"... At that time, my mother was seriously ill in bed and wanted me to go home, so she broke up with You Jia. But I was pregnant with You Jia's child at that time, how could I leave, how could I leave him alone? , I didn’t go back, but my mother kept calling me by my name until the end, calling me Minmin, Minmin, come back and see my mother again.”

Li Weiming covered her eyes, "I only found out later that she was dying at that time, and my family wanted me to see her for the last time, but I didn't know at that time, I didn't know! I didn't even want to see her for the last time." Did not see, I am not filial, not filial!"

Thinking of her mother's call before she died, the tears in Li Weiming's eyes finally couldn't hold back anymore, and they fell straight down.

"I never dared to go home, since then, I never dared to go home, I have no home, only him, but why he would abandon me, he abandoned me, he didn't want me Already!"

Li Weiming touched her stomach and murmured, "He suddenly disappeared when I was just one month pregnant."

"I don't know where he went, I've been looking for him."

"He said he would move to a town near the forest, so I moved here to wait for him. At the beginning, I waited and waited every day, but after ten years of waiting, I didn't find anyone."

She buried her head in her hands helplessly, "I have nothing now, I don't dare to look forward to anything, it doesn't matter if he doesn't come to me, or he doesn't want me, I only have a daughter, only my daughter .”

He couldn't bear to see it. "Minmin..."

"Don't call me by that name! There were no people who would call me like that ten years ago!"

The confidante was gone, and now this emaciated woman didn't dare to have any expectations in her heart, and she no longer had any expectations.She was like a piece of gravel beaten by time, and all her strength was worn away. It was an unforgettable pain.

Lin Shen looked at this scene coldly, seemingly indifferent.Looking at Li Weiming who was crying weakly, and He Tun who was standing beside her helpless.

He was silent for a long time, then suddenly spoke.

"I want to find such a place, quiet, peaceful, without disputes."

"I want to take her there to live, and I will work hard to earn a lot of money, so that she will have enough food and clothing every day, and new clothes to wear every day."

"I want Minmin to stop suffering with me. Then we will go to the mountains every day to see the scenery, find the best stone, and watch the sunset and sunrise together."

"When you have a child, take the child with you. If it's a boy, I'll teach him how to catch rabbits. If it's a girl, she must be as beautiful and gentle as Minmin."

"Minmin's hands are very white and tender, but she has done so much sewing recently, and seeing the wounds on her hands every day, I wish I could kill myself."

"Why am I so useless!"

[Why am I so useless!I can't make money to let Minmin live a good life, I can only let her suffer with me, I am a waste, what else can I do except let Minmin suffer with me?

I regret it, I can't take it anymore.

I can't bear to watch Minmin lose weight day by day, her hands get rougher day by day, and her haggarder day by day.

What exactly is love?

Is it selfish possession, and then let her suffer with me for the rest of her life?This is not love, no!

Minmin's family has come to find her, are they going to take her back?Are we going to separate?

in case……

If I leave, she can resume her old life.

She can find a man who loves her more and is more capable so that she can live a happy life.

instead of me.

As long as I leave this can end, I can't drag her down selfishly.

I'm leaving, Minmin, don't miss me. 】

You Jia left alone with only her notebook with her.

He traveled to many places, and finally came to the paradise that belonged to them that he had agreed with Minmin in the past.I found a stone and stayed alone quietly.

The people at the bottom of the mountain live their lives every day, and You Jia has been watching.

Originally, if everything went well, he could bring Minmin to live here together.Looking at the small town under the mountain, You Jia remembered a dream she once had.

In the dream, he and Minmin lived an ordinary and happy life here.

They would have a child, and he would see the child grow up, send him to school, teach him the truth.

The child would hug him and Minmin and shout:

Dad, Mom.

What a dream.

Unfortunately, it can only be a dream forever.

Min Min.

Min Min.

Minmin, I'm leaving, you have to live a good life alone, and find a better person to live your whole life.

"I'm gone, please forget me."

After Lin Shen read the last sentence, he took out the notebook.The thick book is full of You Jia remembering every minute and every second of him and Minmin being together.

Looking at Li Weiming who was dumbfounded and staring wide-eyed.

Lin Shen said: "As you said, the person who called you Minmin disappeared ten years ago."

"You Jia, I've been watching you until the end."

On the far high cliff, a man sat withered, looking at the town with his dying eyes.

In the small town, Li Weiming has just moved here with the little life in her belly, and she is strong and stubborn, ready to wait for ten years.

At their last moment, did they ever look at each other across that long distance?

It's just that what one sees is happiness in a dream, and what the other sees is endless waiting.

In this way, it is ten years.

Lin Shen said to her: "I won't give you a breakup fee, because You Jia still loves you until the end."

Min Minku sat, stretched out his hand, touched the notebook tremblingly, and hugged it tightly in his arms the next second, as if afraid of being snatched away.

She began to cry like a child, snotty, ugly and funny.Like a dying person falling into the water, hugging the last driftwood tightly, calling that person's name over and over again.

"You Jia, You Jia..."

"You Jia——!"

After ten years of waiting, one chooses to give up, hoping the other party will be happy; the other waits hard, expecting but not daring to expect.

Is the person who gave up wrong?

Is the person who insists on waiting wrong?

Life is sometimes weird and funny, because of a small deflection, it becomes cruel and cruel, but the little happiness and warmth it brings makes people reluctant to part with it.

A man never knows what will be lost after he is gone.

He sat down, hugged Minmin lightly, and patted her on the shoulder comfortingly.He raised his head again and looked at Lin Shen who was standing behind Minmin. The two stared at each other for a long time, and He Xi felt panicked.

He really wanted to go back to the mountain and take out You Jia's skeleton for a few shakes!

TMD, if you have the guts, you commit suicide, if you have the guts, don’t die!