red dust under the lamp

Xie Yichen looked at his aunt standing where he didn't seem to hear clearly, but realized that he did hear clearly, and couldn't forgive his ears for hearing such shocking news.

Then she looked at the poor middle-aged woman holding the table and gasping for breath, as if even her tolerant and broad mind couldn't fit such a rebellious name—Xie Yichen got up, and was pointed sharply by Ms. Xie: "Get out! You How crazy! You are dancing like crazy! Even a monster can't say such a thing!"

She wanted to defend herself, but she was pushed out fiercely. The aunt who never made a move so as not to lose her elegance pushed her out regardless of decency: "Get out!"

Xie Yichen fell silent and was tightly shut by a door.

Jiang Wang walked over, Xie Yichen turned his head while covering his heart: "I said it - but I don't know why, I feel... It's not what I imagined."

Jiang Wang also fell silent and didn't ask any more questions.

Xie Yichen imagined that it would be a relief to say it, as if breaking through the fog, breaking through the tricks of ghosts and ghosts, breaking through the world of mortals, breaking through mortal feelings, and reaching the vastness of the heaven.

But the reality is, if you say it out, it seems like you are being haunted by all the ghosts, and your heart is very heavy, but if you don't say it, it is also a heavy pressure. If you say it, it is, is it that you are born as a different kind, and even your heart has no place to rest?

The two sat outside without any sleepiness, listening to the movement inside, in case Ms. Xie fainted and fell to the ground, so that they could react in time—or call them in for questioning at any time.

They sat side by side on the sofa, Xie Yichen told him what he had said, Jiang Wang thanked her and covered his head: "Just keep it a secret, I won't force you...I'm not that kind of person, why do you want to?" Going so far... Oh, you are like this, I will help you, parents can't accept this kind of thing."

Not only can't accept it.

Ms. Xie spent a long time, but only accepted the fact that she had heard the news.

She sat on the bed, thinking about her life aimlessly, and scenes of light and shadow intertwined in front of her eyes, like a revolving lantern.She leaned on the chair, feeling that the four chair legs could not support her thin body.Clothes grow bigger, oneself grow old—

The love between her and Mr. Li is a matter of course, but by a coincidence of fate, she is barren.She wanted a child, but she didn't want to be so traditional, so she made an excuse, saying that she wanted a child to continue her dance career.

In China at that time, it took a lot of energy to adopt a child who had never been abroad, so I had to go back to my hometown and exchange the so-called foreign investment for the opportunity to pick a child in my hometown.

She looked at the gray orphanage for a long time, picking and choosing, seeing that everyone was good-looking and good-looking, but she was always regretful that no child appeared, and she had to realize clearly , that's her—

When Ning Jue shouted from the tree, she looked up.She saw Ning Jue, so bold, so wild, so fearless, and immediately captured her.It was this child who seized the opportunity so fiercely and was different from everyone else. As soon as she saw her, she knew that she would like her very much.

But Ning Jue left, not even at her house, not even a day of life... just left.She secretly regretted whether she said that she would inherit the dance career and make the child sad?She blamed herself for a long time, and she also tried to forget the impressive child and look for other children—but nothing like this.

She gradually forgot about Ning Jue. Later, Ning Jue reappeared and became friends with Xie Yichen.She thought, maybe she shouldn't have children, but she is destined to have this child, she accepted it calmly, however, Ning Jue left again.

Seeing Ning Jue again this time, she thought, how wonderful the fate of fate is, she had complicated thoughts, touched Ning Jue's hair, and couldn't wait to tell her, don't leave again, wouldn't it be a waste of fate to leave again ?

She silently treats Ning Jue as a daughter, even if she can't grow up in her own family, or even has too much self-esteem, she still treats Ning Jue as a family, it's her regret that she doesn't have a daughter.

There is love in her heart, and she wants to give Xie Yichen and Ning Jue, and give Jiang Wang a little bit. She finds herself in this role and feels that her life is full.

However, Ning Jue gave her a blow in the head, and together with Xie Yichen, who was not supposed to dance but insisted on dancing, gave her a heavy blow together.

She felt someone step on her throat, making her breathless.

Her chest was tight and her head was dizzy. She didn't understand, she didn't understand.

Why?Why is this happening?

Why did Xie Yichen fall in love with Ning Jue?God!Ning Jue!

She actually knows that there are such people in the world, but these people seem to be posters in the alleys of low-class people, they are far away, and their postures are exaggerated. She doesn't want to talk about these loudly, for fear of attracting these people. Two people walked down alive in the painting, devouring her love again... Ms. Xie felt very distressed. She carefully reviewed Xie Yichen's childhood, and screened and reviewed her childhood friends to see who was like a virus , unknowingly infected Xie Yichen.

If Xie Yichen really cheated, then she would be angry and thank him.

Now, Xie Yichen is gay, and so is Ning Jue—she simply doesn't know who to blame, as if two pieces of frosted glass suddenly shattered in her eyes, causing tears to flow from the cut.

What's wrong with her education?Isn't her family decent?Even when she came back from abroad, she didn't have any depraved habits, and the friends she made were all decent people... She felt her blood surge up, revealing her old grievances.

Could it be that Ning Jue has been in the society for the past few years, and has had a few undeserved friends?No, Ning Jue had a boyfriend before. Come to think of it, it was Xie Yichen who led him into trouble!

Her Xie Yichen has long hair since he was a child, he likes to wear skirts, he has a quiet personality, he is not a tomboy, how could that be?how come?Ms. Xie couldn't think of any reasonable explanation. She tried to justify herself and asked her memory what was wrong. The memory told her that it was just like this. her.

Unreasonable and unexplainable.

Xie Yichen was deceived by something, and never looked back?Why do you have to be so paranoid, even the White Snake's repertoire doesn't have such a paradoxical play.

After sitting in the middle of the night, she let out a weak cry.She is an elegant middle-aged woman who rarely loses her composure, but at this moment she feels the uneasiness and fear of many women after their children mature. Everything is beyond imagination, and everything has become strange. In the end, she covered her face and did not allow herself to be sad. crying loudly.

At least not for the two people outside to hear.

The next day, when I opened the door, I saw two young people outside.

Jiang Wang couldn't bear the drowsiness, and fell asleep on the sofa, covered with a blanket.

Xie Yichen stood up and sat all night like her, with bloodshot eyes and a straight waist, but when he took a step, his legs suddenly softened.

The crutches were picked up and tapped on the ground. Xie Yichen walked over, and the wall clock at home clicked, and the time reached five o'clock in the morning.

Ms. Xie glanced at her in silence, without saying a word, she pulled out her suitcase from behind.

Xie Yichen's expression moved slightly, but his lips moved, trying to say something.

The phone rang suddenly, Jiang Wang jumped up, picked up the phone and gave a hello, only then saw the two women confront each other, and he answered the phone inappropriately.

But after answering, he couldn't hang up. There was a person named Li Juanjuan on the other end of the phone: "Sorry—is Xie Yichen there? Let her answer the phone. It's 12 yuan a minute, hurry up."

Holding up the microphone, Jiang Wang suddenly realized that the call seemed to be from abroad...

Xie Yichen turned to answer the phone.

What Li Juanjuan said, Xie Yichen wanted to refuse, but finally said: "Okay, just come and see me this week, call and make an appointment then."

Ms. Xie was about to go out with her suitcase. Xie Yichen said: "It was Li Juanjuan who called and said that she was selected to shoot "White Snake". She was not sure about the dance in the middle and wanted to come to me to discuss .”

Some time ago, I have been hearing the wind, and now it has finally come true.

"White Snake New Edition" is the painstaking effort of Ms. Xie. Although she handed it in early, she still has the status of a consultant, but when she heard this word, she still paused.

"Understood." The man had to go out.

"Auntie!" Xie Yichen begged a little, she didn't look back, but how could she watch her auntie break with her so resolutely with a cold heart?

This is the story of the White Snake!This is the only intersection between her alien and a normal person like her aunt...

Ms. Xie turned her head back, but her voice was trembling: "Why are you calling me? Are you not turning back? You white snake will become a fairy! Don't look back!"

Although it was sarcasm, Ms. Xie sat down heavily.

Jiang Wang hurriedly said that he was going to make breakfast.

Xie Yichen held on to his crutches, and for a long time...felt his legs lose strength for a while.

She is going to stand up.

Ms. Xie was silent for a long time: "I am a white snake, and the white snake ascends to the immortal... It's not that she is going to go to the sky with all her strength. If she didn't have the emotions and desires at the beginning, she wouldn't be able to become a fairy. She rolled in the world of mortals. After a circle, she sincerely knows that it is difficult to ascend to immortality, but she still has to go. This is White Snake... You don't look back, like running away, as if you are afraid that you will get caught in some fireworks. Li Juanjuan is not as good as you, but this One point, she is stronger than you."

It was denied on the matter of the white lady.

Xie Yichen ignored it, tried his best to stand up, leaning on the crutches, gritted his teeth and sensed the strength in his legs.

When Li Juanjuan came, she would dance in front of her aunt and tell her that what she did was right, and her aunt could see her determination from the dance, so they didn't need to speak too much.

"Jiang Wang knows you like women?" Ms. Xie still didn't give up.

"Yes. He knows I like Ning Jue." Xie Yichen emphasized Ning Jue's name.

"What about Ning Jue?" Ms. Xie caressed the pattern of the suitcase, carelessly, it looked like a heavy blow - but she really didn't hold out hope.

Xie Yichen can say so frankly, it is obvious that Ning Jue accepted her favor.Ning Jue is also a paranoid person to the end, these are some children, they all go their own way, they don't follow the good way, they hold crooked ways more tightly than anyone else.

"She loves me."

The firm tone shattered Ms. Xie's slim hope.

All the way to the dark... She remained silent and did not say a word.