red dust under the lamp

Ning Jue felt that Xie Yichen was a little unhappy.

But I don't know where this unhappiness came from. She was fine when she was eating, and she was fine when she was sleeping at night. He spoke softly, and was considerate to her, except that the tearing of the clothes at the beginning really hurt her, other than that, he was really afraid of hurting her, meticulous and gentle, as usual.

Why did she feel that Xie Yichen was unhappy?Ning Jue repeatedly asked in the depths of her heart. She cared about Xie Yichen's emotions as if she was intuiting the danger, but Xie Yichen didn't show any abnormalities. The apex of death, no regrets.

After the two of them calmed down for a while, Ning Jue turned on the light, and slowly left Xie Yichen's arms to get some water to clean up.

The lamp at the bedside dimly illuminated the shadows of the two of them, but Xie Yichen hugged her and refused to let her go: "Let me see you."

Now, Ning Jue was sure that Xie Yichen was unhappy.

Even if Xie Yichen is so gentle, in another time and place, Ning Jue would not think that Xie Yichen is unhappy, but his emotional intuition at this time told her that was the case.

So he curled up, blinked his eyes again and again, and quickly thought about the reason why Xie Yichen was unhappy.

Is it because I forced her to stay here today?Or is it because I am vacillating between staying and not staying?

No, I'm afraid it's not because she was angry with Ning Jue.

Then you can only be angry with yourself.Ning Jue is often angry with herself, and she understands it very well. At this moment, she can only get by herself, and what others have to say and do is quite limited.

"Xie Yichen..." She acted softly.

"Ok?"

"Do you think I'm clingy?" She asked deliberately.

Xie Yichen chuckled: "You don't know that very well."

The unpleasant feeling was not driven away by the laughter—Ning Jue felt Xie Yichen's emotions vigilantly, with a smile on his face: "Then do you like it, or don't you like it? If you don't like it, I will take it back." .”

"Can you take back your original nature?" Xie Yichen laughed at her, the feeling of unhappiness weakened somewhat...

Ning Jue tried every means to coax her in different ways, but the unhappiness and tense unhappiness did not get rid of, even if Xie Yichen did not show any displeasure towards her.

This tension broke out on Thursday, which was the third day Xie Yichen came to Ning Jue's place.

After Xie Yichen went back, Ms. Xie didn't have any dissatisfaction with her living with Ning Jue, she just recalled Ning Jue and said, "If she hadn't left at that time, the relationship between you two would have been better."

Xie Yichen didn't speak.

That night, Jiang Wang came back. In private, he asked Xie Yichen when Ms. Xie would leave. If the time continued, it might be more difficult for them to maintain a relationship.

Ms. Xie wanted them to create humans together, so she went to bed early and tried not to let herself become a stumbling block.

In the same room, Xie Yichen and Jiang Wang lay side by side, and continued the conversation.

Xie Yichen: "I plan to show my cards."

"What... are you crazy?" If there was a showdown, Ms. Xie might call his parents.It doesn't matter if he gets divorced or anything, he has a successful career anyway, and his parents don't object, but if the news of his liking for men spreads—the consequences will be disastrous.

He really wondered what kind of medicine Xie Yichen had taken wrongly these days. Although the acting was tense, he could still hide it for a while if he said it... Xie Yichen wanted to destroy the world?

What ecstasy soup did Ning Jue pour Xie Yichen into?

"I'm not crazy, I've made up my mind, I'm going to show my cards." Xie Yichen sat up with a determined expression.

"Then what are you going to say? Oh, if today I offend you by asking when your aunt will leave, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, I didn't mean to drive her away... just asking literally, She can live as long as she wants, and I will cooperate with you..." Jiang Wang was at a loss.

Now Xie Yichen seemed to be planning a murder, with a calm expression and crazy words... In the dark night, Jiang Wang was startled and turned on the light.

When the light came on, the two of them completely understood their words.

"I won't involve you, I'll just say I cheated and I want a divorce."

"Take a step back, just say that our relationship broke down and divorced, don't say it so badly!"

"Why did we break up?"

"Because I don't wash my feet at night!" Jiang Wang deliberately joked, trying to dilute Xie Yichen's cold and murderous aura.

However, Xie Yichen just looked at him solemnly, and said two words with a cold expression: "Don't make trouble."

"Calm down, why are you suddenly having a showdown?" Jiang Wang frowned, almost scratching his head, puzzled.

"No why."

"What's wrong with you? What stimulated you? You are not such an impulsive person... You don't always..." Jiang Wang originally wanted to say, isn't Xie Yichen always the kind of person who is always calm and rational?Haven't you been keeping a low-key, good-tempered silence?

However, he suddenly realized that Xie Yichen was never this kind of person, and he was able to accommodate only because she didn't care about those problems.If the issue she cares about is confirmed, she will go all the way to the dark.Others can't explain it, this is the bitterness of the white lady, it is the nature inherited from the stage, if Xie Yichen is really silent and rational, he will not marry him at all!

But he still felt that it happened suddenly: "Then what effect do you think this has? I don't think about myself now, I believe what you said. But what about you? Your aunt was startled by you, and the house broke out. What does it do to you?" Benefits? Could it be that you and I will be able to be with our respective partners with peace of mind at that time? Now secretly, at least I don’t feel bad, if I make my elders angry... Xie Yichen, I’m afraid you will make it difficult for yourself!"

The two people quarreled louder and louder. Xie Yichen tried his best to argue that he would never be involved in Jiang Wang's sexual orientation, and not only that, but also to create a good moral model image for him.Jiang Wang told her hoarsely that this was not the problem, the problem was that she, Xie Yichen, was also a respectable person, so she was going to tear her face to her elders!You must know that it can’t be solved after talking, everything after that is like gears, one ring after another, one pile after another, nothing can be alone, Xie Yichen is the one who suffers the loss in the end!

Suddenly there were several knocks on the door, and it was Ms. Xie's voice: "The young couple quarreled? It's the middle of the night... What's the matter, let's come out and have a good chat..."

Ms. Xie was sitting on the sofa, facing Jiang Wang and Xie Yichen.

Pretend that there is no conflict between husband and wife, but the quarrel is not all life and death. A quarrel is like a confrontation between two brains. From thinking to speech, change the stage to confront each other, and finally return from speech to thought, from thought to brain, and then know each other.

At this moment, no one could convince the other party, nor did they draw an effective conclusion. No matter what Ms. Xie asked, they kept silent.

Ms. Xie spoke dryly, what happened to the family and everything, what happened, did something happen when Jiang Wang came back from a business trip...

With just a few words, she talked upside down, the earnest elder persuaded them to make peace, and Xie Yichen silently watched his aunt tirelessly teach them that marriage is about getting along with each other, and each took a step back...

She interrupted suddenly: "Auntie."

Ms. Xie sat upright, and finally heard a person responding, she was a little relieved: "Say it."

Jiang Wang had already turned his head to stop Xie Yichen from speaking, and crossed an arm, but Xie Yichen forcefully opened it.

"Actually, we're divorced."

It seemed that there was a heavy rain falling on the heads of the three people, and there was also the sound of thunder.

Ms. Xie thought she didn't hear clearly, and became confused: "Huh? You two are going to divorce? Family and everything—"

"I've already left, and I went to the Civil Affairs Bureau, on the 13th of last month." Xie Yichen emphasized.

Jiang Wang knew that the general situation was over, just like Xiang Yu looked up at the Wujiang River, his whole body was full of sadness, and in a blink of an eye he had no choice but to hold on: "Ah... yes, we can't get along in life... But if you want to come, I'm afraid you will worry, so……"

Ms. Xie remained silent. After a while, she stood up with her head supported, and pressed her hands: "I'll talk about it tomorrow, I have to rest for a while...you two should also rest earlier."

She turned her back to the two of them and walked away, took two or three steps, and turned her head with some grief: "Yichen, come here."

Xie Yichen's expression was as if he was about to slow himself down, and he was extremely cold. Jiang Wang was afraid that she would be too paranoid and cause irreparable scars with Ms. Xie, so he hurriedly stood up, but before he could speak, Ms. Xie said: "Xiao Jianger, go to sleep , Ah, it’s okay, I’ll be fine slowly, it’s okay.”

Xie Yichen and Ms. Xie were left alone, and Jiang Wang looked, as if he saw two walking explosive barrels walking by slowly.

After closing the door, Xie Yichen sat down calmly. Ms. Xie said, "Is Jiang Wang sorry for your business trip? Did you feel wronged?"

Xie Yichen blinked, and was silent for a while: "No."

"Why did you divorce?"

"Because I can't get along."

"Aren't you the one who said you were married?" Ms. Xie was a little angry at this moment. She didn't understand that the young people were doing all these things every day in a good manner-and even pretended not to be divorced to lie to her. Everyone pretended to be decent. Is it reasonable?

Xie Yichen was silent for a long time: "Aunt... I have someone in my heart... I don't think I can be with her, and you won't agree. I just got married and wanted to give up on myself..."

Lowering her head: "But I can't let it go, I'm also...with her."

Ms. Xie was silent: "Is there someone outside?"

"It's not that there's someone out there...it's...well, there's someone out there."

"You gave me this heart, go, and apologize to Jiang Wang. You are not ashamed, you say you have someone in your heart... Our family is not like this, and you must know ethics and morality."

Ethics.

There is no ethics in her feelings.

She grabbed the hem of her skirt and felt strongly unwilling. She knew that she was a different kind, and she had understood it since childhood, but at this moment, feelings sprouted in her. feel alone.

It seems to be temporarily enclosed in a transparent shell, without having to meet the eyes of the world.

Now, the eyes of the world came from my aunt, and she wanted to break through it and shake it up and down.

But I feel small, humble, and don't know where to start.

She sits still.

Ms. Xie said: "Go, you are going all the way to the dark, Jiang Wang doesn't care about you. Don't tell me, there are people outside Jiang Wang."

The fact is this, husband and wife use marriage as a tool to move wherever they need to, and they are not in the marriage at all.

But she promised not to involve Jiang Wang, so she said: "It's my own business. But Jiang Wang knows."

"What else do you want? If Jiang Wang is sorry for you, I will be the first to agree to divorce, and I will find you a thousand better ones. Now you have made a mistake, people forgive you, you tell me, you tell me what you did Right? Someone out there still says it so confidently? When did I teach you this?"

Ms. Xie was about to blurt out that she was shameless, but looking at the face that resembled her own, she felt like she was being slapped in the face when she said it, so she had to swallow it back, as if choking on a steamed bun, and couldn't breathe for a long time.

"It's impossible, Auntie... We've already left, and I don't want to get married anymore." She is a stubborn child, stubbornly disobedient to the adults in the family, and she is so unfilial that she wants to be nailed to the pillar of shame.

"Think about it for yourself, how old you are!" Ms. Xie was about to say more, but Xie Yichen sat silently. Ms. Xie remembered something and changed her words: "You love white snakes, so I'll tell you, drama is drama , People are people, and the white snake does not turn back, you have to turn back. If you know your way back, you have to live clearly! I always knew that you were bored and stubborn, and you decided that you would not turn back after death. This stinks!"

Xie Yichen moved slightly: "I've thought about it for a long time, and I don't want to think about it anymore."

"How long? Do people like you? If you only get married, I advise you to give up as soon as possible!"

"Before getting married...a long time." Xie Yichen moved his lips silently and lowered his eyes.

"Before you got married... who... there were no men who knew you, Xu Liwen? Isn't Xu Liwen Ning Jue's partner? You were the one who watched the pot when you co-authored it? Are you still shameless? Just don't want this face, you If you want this person, you should find out before you get married that I still admire you, and after you get married—what kind of skill is this!"

Ms. Xie's words finally became fierce, and she was so angry that she fidgeted when she reprimanded her. She held the corner of the table and wished she could break it off and stared at her.

But Xie Yichen just stood there motionless, sat obediently, was rebellious, and refused to give up even a single step, making it clear: she just wanted to fight it out and be shameless.

But she still weakly defended: "It's not Xu Liwen."

"Who is that? It's not the same for everyone? It's your ability to provoke other people's families to marry you... What's your ability to marry and have an affair?"

Xie Yichen remained silent. She maintained Jiang Wang's dignity, so she poured dirty water on herself.

She didn't care at all, and she never looked back.

"Xie Yichen!" Ms. Xie finally jumped up and pointed at her nose to reprimand her, "I'll teach you to have extramarital affairs? Who? Which vixen?"

"Aunt...Actually, my marriage with Jiang Wang is also fake. He doesn't want to get married, and I just pretended to be married. We both have nothing." She explained palely that she didn't want her aunt to call Ning Jue a vixen.

She was very afraid that such moral condemnation would drive Ning Jue away. At this moment, she suddenly wanted to turn around, realize that she had lost her way, lie again, and not explain to her aunt.Afraid of going too far, even Ning Jue was lost.

What's going on here?Shouldn't she be so paranoid?

But as she said it, she didn't want to express the emotion of retreating, she had to do so, no matter how others persuaded, the white snake would also ascend to immortality, even if it hit the south wall, even if ghosts were in power——

Ms. Xie took a deep breath, as if digesting her words.

After a long while, Ms. Xie was silent for a long time: "The extramarital affair you engaged in... What are the conditions and circumstances of that person? Do I know each other? Do you know your situation?"

Ms. Xie understands Xie Yichen, if Xie Yichen says he is innocent, he is innocent, especially at this moment, Xie Yichen will not lie.She had to trust Xie Yichen. If Xie Yichen still lied to her about the fundamental issues at this time, she would collapse.

She tolerated Xie Yichen more than others, because they were not mother and daughter.Because of her sister's spirit in heaven, she is always tolerant, tries to understand, and uses her enlightenment to realize the relationship between her and Xie Yichen like enlightenment.

She has regressed, and it is difficult to get back what Xie Yichen believes.

Since Jiang Wang has regressed like this, and he knows the inside story, it means that you love me, and at most it is a bad reputation. It doesn't matter, and it doesn't hurt others. This is the best.

Ms. Xie has been decent all her life, and she would rather hurt herself, let herself suffer, and be deceived, than let others lose face and suffer because of herself.With this attitude, she almost planned to forgive Xie Yichen generously.

It doesn't matter who he is, as long as he doesn't hook up with the old, the underage, or the family, she can hold her nose and accept it.Whether he is poor or his family has money, as long as a man is willing to come up to be his son-in-law, it is not a problem.He is rich, and his family has a good background, so who can dislike him?

"You know it." Xie Yichen pinched the hem of his clothes and gritted his teeth.

"I know...it can't be Robin, can it?"

Xie Yichen smiled bitterly, God, what a weird person he is, a monster through and through.

Even if my aunt is so open-minded and generous, planning to forgive her, and planning to clean up the ashes behind her... I can't think that she likes women.

Even if Ning Jue was the only one who had clearly expressed his mood swings in front of his aunt, his aunt would never have thought that it was her.

Xie Yichen covered her face, she felt that she had grown wings, claws, horns, and tentacles... She felt that she was a monster, but the monster... had to go to the black one by one, the white snake is also a monster in the human world, a shemale In a different way, she wants to...never look back.

Squeeze out a response from between your fingers: "No."

"Who is that? I don't know many of your friends..."

"It's Ning Jue."

Xie Yichen felt that his tone was extremely cold, like a snake spitting out snake letters.