red dust under the lamp

Boss Kong’s hometown has beautiful mountains and clear waters, and tile-roofed houses were built in the village. He heard people say that Boss Kong made a fortune, so each family gave 200 RMB a year.

I heard that he was coming back to make a movie, and the villagers were eager to welcome him. They were looking forward to it. I don’t know whether they really welcome Boss Kong for the next sum of money, but Boss Kong is not there. Original taste, simple, and in line with Boss Kong’s expectations—there is a person in the crew who oversees the work for Boss Kong.

Ning Jue noticed that a few days ago, the director said the truth in front of people, but later, he took it as fart, and filmed it as he wanted. Even Ning Jue himself was tortured, and was rubbed round by the director. It's not right, it's not right... Later she heard people say that the director couldn't bear her to enter the group with a rich girl and ruin her art.

She wanted to defend herself, but when she thought about it carefully, she didn't have such a nature, so she calmed down. The director instructed her to follow, she served the director's meal, she nodded when the director scolded her, and transformed her appearance into a more obedient one. small three.The director didn't want to vent his anger on her, so the scene was actually filmed.

Boss Kong’s projection in the movie is a dark and burly young man with a look of stupidity. Ning Jue occasionally flips through Boss Kong’s autobiography, whitewashing his own family history between the lines, talking about the current suffering, talking about the current youth. People are not good enough to endure hardships, so it's better for him to experience too much in his time... It's a cliché, if you can't see what Boss Kong was like when you were young, you can't compare him.

The young man would come to talk to Ning Jue, because Boss Kong personally picked him, he found him from the construction site, and he felt lucky from the bottom of his heart. Common language, he believed that Ning Jue was as innocent as himself, and definitely not a mistress as others said.

Of course, Ning Jue didn't become a mistress either, but she didn't bother to talk to him, and she was already tired of coping with being dealt with by the director.

The young man was stunned, turned around and arranged Ning Jue to others, thinking that she was the mistress, and Ning Jue didn't say anything.

It's just that simple and simple movie, the happy memories of young men and women in the mountains, and the regrettable youth literature in the valley that he loves her but she doesn't know, and it took four months to shoot.

I wore a coat when I came here, and a thin shirt when I went back

, imitating Gong Li's white shirt and black trousers, looking extraordinarily slim.

The whole team came for the money, and the birds and beasts dispersed. Those people took the tapes to Boss Kong and edited the film. Ning Jue got a notification from Boss Kong from his assistant that if the film was good, he would give her the remaining 10 yuan.

He didn't mention sleeping. Ning Jue got off the car and sent his assistant away. He took the backpack halfway over his shoulder and took another bus to find Xie Yichen.

The last time we had a bad conversation, she felt anxious. The past four months had made her haggard, her mind was painted green by that beautiful place, and she looked pale when she saw everything. Only in the dead of night, she recalled what she said that day If it is wrong, those words are really hurtful, really disrespectful, and my heart sinks.

That day after Xie Yichen finished speaking, she didn't say anything, she ate in silence, and silently cleaned up the bowls and chopsticks. Xie Yichen sat at the table and wrote something on a piece of paper, folded into small cubes and pushed along the table.

Open it and see that it is actually a cream cake.

Xie Yichen unhurriedly put a cap on the ballpoint pen, put away the letter paper, slowly picked up the crutch and leaned on it, looking down at the floor, as if he was afraid that his eyes would catch Ning Jue, and Ning Jue would say something inappropriate again.

Ning Jue thinks that she is very good at observing words and expressions, but sometimes she is not able to make appropriate decisions by observing words and expressions. It seems that she is very good at origami airplanes, and can fly very far in one breath, but her emotions just sweep away halfway. The incoming wind destroyed the good waterway, and she was in a mess.

If she followed her heart, she would have escaped long ago.

This time she didn't want to escape and forced herself to face it, but she never had this kind of experience and screwed up again and again.

After four months of filming and a brief escape, Ning Jue felt calmer.She is a fair lady in black and white, walking through the gorgeous rose bushes, looking up, the light yellow window screens are still drawn, what are you doing with the curtains in broad daylight?

Going upstairs, Xie Yichen was not at home, and no one came to answer the door.

not there?Ah yes, when she comes to visit, she should call ahead to ask if there is anyone at home.

Somewhat fortunate, but also a little disappointed, Ning Jue went downstairs and walked around the neighborhood a few times to clear her mind. Tiredness came late and weighed her down heavily.Just as I was walking, I suddenly saw a familiar car—Jiang Wang drove back and opened the door, but it was not Jiang Wang who got out, but a man of mixed race, with an indigo jacket and red underwear, obviously so bright. The weird collocation, on him, looks as if he just came back from the Paris show.

The man turned his head, pulled a pair of crutches from the car, held them in his hand, bowed his waist, and held the other slender hand down.

It was Xie Yichen, who was wearing a black suspender dress. First he threw down a pair of lace-up high heels. The man lowered his head and picked it up. He stepped on another pair of white cloth shoes with his bare feet. Holding the man, he turned around and picked up a bouquet of flowers from the car.

Then Jiang Wang poked his head out: "I'm going to park the car, you guys go up first—they'll be there after six o'clock, Adan is the one who likes to take advantage of it, hide my wine."

Xie Yichen turned around and smiled at his husband, and was caught off guard not far away when he saw Ning Jue who had been peeking halfway away and hurriedly lowered his head and pulled the rose.

Robin responded, "I know."

The car drove away slowly, there was no parking space in front of the door, it was the parking space at the back of the residential building.

In the front, there are a lot of flowers, and it is the season of blooming again, the colors are gorgeous, surrounded by the dazzling Xie Yichen.

Xie Yichen held the key to Robin: "You go up first, I'll say hello to my acquaintances."

"Acquaintance? Come together at night?"

"I'm afraid we won't come. It's not like us." She patted Robin on the back and pushed him up. Turning around, Ning Jue had already pulled the flowers step by step, destroying the flowers along the way, and she was about to dodge and leave.

Want to call her?Xie Yichen hesitated, she really should not shout, let Ning Jue hide, hide a few times, this time she will not shout, let Ning Jue grow old and regret it alone——

But after all, he couldn't bear to do this, and walked a few steps slowly: "Hey——"

Ning Jue shrugged her shoulders, then turned her head calmly.

The hair has grown a lot longer, gathered up, thinner and paler, Ning Jue gave people such an impression, Xie Yichen pulled out a tulip from the bouquet in his hand, and walked a few steps lightly: "Come for a walk nearby? "

This was natural nonsense, and he asked the question knowingly. Ning Jue took the flower, a little embarrassed: "I should call again."

She lowered her head and stared at the delicate flower with some rusty edges, and suddenly remembered the plots in many movies that she had made up before (Note 1). , It is impossible to abandon it.

Xie Yichen said, "Is the filming over?"

"Well, I finished work the day before yesterday, and we all called it a day. I came back from Fengcheng today, got off at Nanchengbei, and came here by bus."

Xie Yichen came to look for her just after filming, and Xie Yichen felt a little complacent.Ning Jue lowered her head, rubbed the flower repeatedly with her eyes, opened her mouth, and tore it with her teeth. She bit the petals that were hugged into a ball, and the petals were broken, leaking decadent juice. Between the teeth, it's not sweet, but bitter.

Bitter in her heart, she was at a loss as to what to do, she saw Xie Yichen unexpectedly, and her thoughts flowed like water: "Who is that man in red and green?"

"It's Robin, Jiang Wang's boyfriend," Xie Yichen said, staring at Ning Jue, and suddenly realized, "Tonight, we have a party... There are people like us, male and female, let me introduce you some friends. "

She didn't make an invitation, but spoke in an unquestionable tone. Ning Jue had just bit into the mouthful of the flower, and the bitterness in her mouth dissipated, leaving only the flower dregs in her mouth, but her mind cleared up, and she met Xie Yichen face to face, and her heart settled down.

"May I come back later? If Boss Kong finds me, I'm afraid I won't be able to come." Ning Jue told her that she might not be able to help herself, and she didn't feel resentful—she chose it by herself, and the price was all. clear.

But she wanted to see it.

After I went to film, I realized that my world was too small.She has seen "Thursday Night Park" and only seen some homosexuals, not including decent people like Xie Yichen. It turns out that homosexuality is not all unseemly, nor is it all decent.Represented by Xie Yichen, even if she gets rid of the liking in her heart, she also believes that Xie Yichen is not a pervert, but a good person, at least not bad.

But in Xie Yichen's eyes, what does that world look like?Ning Jue knew that she was poor, and that her world and Xie Yichen might never intersect. She wanted to see if these people were really as she imagined, some decent and some not, wouldn't they be the same as everyone else?

She wanted to see and understand, or, even if she didn't understand, she wanted to understand.

Even if she really sold herself and became Boss Kong's mistress, she had nothing to do with Xie Yichen, she still had to know how she should face these people.Ning Jue reflected on her prejudice last time, and now she finally has the opportunity to witness it with her eyes.

"Boss Kong, you have mentioned it many times." Xie Yichen actually had a lot to say, to question or ask questions, but at the moment the flowers are fragrant and the weather is beautiful, she does not want to quarrel with Ning Jue here. Only after measuring can we comprehend.

"Yeah, at those times, I was confused. I wanted to do this, and then I thought about that. I was like a clumsy person who picked up the soy sauce bottle and knocked down the pickle jar. I regretted some things, but I didn't do it." I regret taking the medicine... I will definitely find a way to come at night."

Ning Jue finally agreed in a straight voice, and pulled out the special products brought from Fengcheng from her backpack to Xie Yichen.

We haven't seen each other for four months, Xie Yichen can walk well without crutches, although occasionally he can see that he is not going well, Ning Jue is sincerely happy.

Chatting with Xie Yichen was like a hand, lifting her heart, making her have to come at night—seeing Xie Yichen, her heart was at peace for a short time, but there was something in front of her, she had to do it, let her go I figured it out in my own heart.

Do it piece by piece, figure it out piece by piece.

She resolutely went back to the rental house, and just as she dropped her things, the landlord called her from downstairs: "The phone—"

Boss Kong asked her to have dinner at night, but it was earlier at 05:30.

Can you explain it in half an hour?The time agreed by Xie Yichen is six o'clock, but maybe she has to prepare again, it's not too late to go at 06:30... Ning Jue thought for a while, but Boss Kong didn't give her the room to refuse. As soon as the phone hung up, the landlord rolled up his arms Collect money from her.

Finding fifty cents and handing it over, she went upstairs exhausted physically and mentally, unable to think of a countermeasure for the time being, and was tired from the car ride, so she had to sleep to recover her strength.

I am extremely tired, this is not as easy as working, and thinking about human feelings is like arranging troops. After fighting for a few rounds, I am as tired as moving bricks on the construction site for a day.

She fell asleep sitting on the ground, which was harder than the bed, close to her treatment in the Fengshou Building in Pingdu. She felt safe on the cold and hard surface, curled up and hugged herself tightly.

In a dream, in a beautiful landscape, she was stepped on by a woman with a blurred face, and she followed behind as the shadow of that person, silently watching Boss Kong flirting with this person.

When she got up, she superstitiously regarded it as some kind of revelation, changed her clothes, put the knife on her waist, gestured in front of the mirror for a long time, and finally threw it away. The skirt and the knife did not match.She tied a belt on her thigh, which contained the 10 yuan Boss Kong gave her, and the passbook was bent into a proper arc, which was covered with a skirt.

Open the window, Boss Kong's car is coming this way.

Her dream suggested to her that this was not a dilemma.All her predicaments are trapped by herself, and Boss Kong... It's not like she doesn't have such experience.

The author has something to say: Note 1. The part about eating flowers in the movie "Merry Christmas on the Battlefield" comes from here.

Off-topic: I didn't even give Jiang Wang in the supporting role a space to perform, let alone Boss Kong, who doesn't even have a name.Before opening the article, I said that this book will be very short (because you need to experience the structure and learn the structure, you will not add many branches to increase the difficulty), so far I am still very satisfied.