red dust under the lamp

The author has something to say: the answer is revealed, because he is the reflection of Xu Xian.

Ning Jue was good at pretending to be stupid, and when she heard that she was sorry, she easily passed by. She leaned on the sofa and tilted her head, silent for a while. Xie Yichen looked at her. She had closed her eyes, as if she had fallen asleep for a long time.

So what if they just hit it off?Ning Jue thought clearly, could it be that Xie Yichen could get a divorce and go to the Civil Affairs Bureau with her in a blink of an eye?Not to mention going to get married, but even explaining to others, a meal of rotten eggs and rotten leaves is inevitable. She herself has always been the dust in the ground, and she doesn't care who is spoiled by anyone, but what about Xie Yichen?What's more, she is also a woman, she can't pass this hurdle herself, it's useless to think too much, if you think too much, you will run away, if you don't want to, it's heartless.

So she kept silent and put on a ladylike manner to talk to Xie Yichen.

Speaking of Xie Yichen's presence here, Jiang Wang hired a nanny to take care of her, but that woman always stole things from the house, seeing that Xie Yichen was lame, she had to use the phone to talk to her family for most of the day, with an arrogant attitude.Was soon fired.

Xie Yichen casually mentioned the fact that Jiang Wang cooks good food, but Jiang Wang does not come back occasionally, and made an appointment with her to go to her boyfriend's place three or four days a week, so she always called the boss downstairs to bring the food. ...A few days ago, the restaurant suddenly changed its taste. Xie Yichen couldn't get used to it. It turned out that he heard that she had a cold, so he changed to light food.

She talked about trivial matters in a soft voice, lifted the quilt and sat on the edge of the bed. Ning Jue hugged her knees and listened to Xie Yichen. He said something else, and incidentally mentioned that he was beaten when he was a thief when he was a child.The topics they talked about really couldn't overlap, they were placed in the same time and space, and the difference was as obvious as a cat and a dog.

Ning Jue said this on purpose. She could have said something about how Sister Lu and the boss in the company took extra care of her, but when she said this, it seemed to echo Xie Yichen's warmth, but the difference was too big, and she couldn't bear to say that Xie Yichen was lonely sympathize with her.

So, when Xie Yichen lowered his head to think, Ning Jue lifted the quilt and patted his side, asking Xie Yichen to sit next to her.

Xie Yichen smiled: "Aren't you worried?"

"What?" Ning Jue asked with staring eyes, Xie Yichen shook his head, and stepped back a little lonely with his arms folded.

"Why are you so stubborn? You just like me, and you don't even have to be friends? What am I? If you do this again, I'll think you despise me." Ning Jue acted like a baby on purpose, and then buried herself, Xie Yichen bowed slightly , got into the quilt: "You are so cruel."

The same quilt, breathing a common desire, Ning Jue's eyes are deep, and her heart is surging, but if she restrains herself, she will be more decisive than seizing the opportunity. Thoughts, we can only use advance as retreat, pretend to be real, to be friends and hold on to the appearance of getting closer, so that Xie Yichen has no time to understand his heart.

Xie Yichen was lying on his back, and only now did he show his elder sister's majesty: "I haven't seen you want to sleep with me before, but hearing me say that I like you, you have to make progress."

"I used to think you hated people like me." Ning Jue was flustered, but she had calmed down. She understood her heart, so she wouldn't panic. She stretched out her tiny tentacles to capture subtle changes in emotions, and deceived Xie Yichen with all her heart. .

"I'm a pervert—" Xie Yichen wanted to confess.

"What do you think? When I was a gangster, you didn't look down on me, but now you say you are a pervert, what do you think of me? You like me, it's none of my business, and you want me to call you a pervert? You're so inhuman. "

Xie Yichen smiled: "Then this matter is over? What about you and Xu Liwen?"

"That's my business, I'll think about it." Ning Jue deliberately left room for this matter, according to herself, she did not intend to reconcile with Xu Liwen, but Xie Yichen was concerned, she did not intend to leave room for Xie Yichen, for Therefore, she willingly gave up the opportunity to "be completely loved", which itself is a false proposition, and she is still pursuing it.

This matter was officially revealed, Xie Yichen didn't mention Xu Liwen, Ning Jue didn't mention Jiang Wang, and they were friendly to each other.

It was she who thought about it and wondered why Jiang Wang was such a person?It turned out that among these men, some of them were decent. Ning Jue's prejudice was twisted, and her own shadow floated in the shadow of Thursday's park.

What a prejudice... She repented herself, talked about other things with Xie Yichen, talked for half the night, and finally got sleepy.

Breathing face to face on a pillow, Ning Jue stretched out his arms restlessly, unintentionally resting them on Xie Yichen's body, closed his eyes, and felt the even rise and fall of his chest under his wrists.Xie Yichen tilted his head and pulled up the quilt. His legs seemed to have two other hearts beating weakly, as if urging her to lift the quilt and dance.

But in the end, Ning Jue closed her eyes, wondering if she fell asleep, and she lost her motivation when she danced hastily—she hadn’t thought about dancing for a long time. When Jue wakes up, Ning Jue still needs to witness her waking up.

The crutch was within reach at the head of the bed. She stared at the crutch reflecting the metallic luster under the faint light, stretched out her hand, and retracted it again. Ning Jue didn't know when to take her hand, but she curled up, seeming a little uneasy.

The things of the world...the things of the world...floating...boundless dust.

My mind was chaotic, as if I was in the auditorium again, watching a white snake with a blurred face go to the fairyland.

She is fast asleep.

Ning Jue opened her eyes. She hadn't seen him for more than two years. This time, she carefully observed Xie Yichen's changes for the first time without any scruples.

Every time she left, she regretted it. She escaped twice, and the third time she finally failed to turn around and leave.

The strange feeling in her heart made her feel strange.

It seems that if you don't run away, you have to face the turbulent feelings that have nowhere to rest.

Wanting someone to love her unconditionally - it's too late.She was silent and found strength in watching, so she could dig herself out, dredge the clogged fountain, and for a split second, she wasn't thinking about being loved, she was trying to love, but couldn't figure it out, going round and round , can only learn to be loved.

"Can... you like me blatantly?" She asked the sleeping Xie Yichen, and after she finished asking, she shook her head, "What should I say? Choose me? Who am I? What am I?"

Sure enough, she couldn't get the answer from the sleeping person. Ning Jue bit her nails and thought about something, put her thoughts away, folded her arms as if on a journey, and fell asleep leaning on Xie Yichen.

Waking up early in the morning, everyone felt strange, the first time they woke up and saw each other at the first sight, no matter how good-looking someone was, they just woke up in a mess, their hair was unkempt, and they were not decent or beautiful.Besides, it was the first time in my life that I woke up in the same bed.

They stayed for a while, staring at each other, remembering each other's ugly faces.

Ning Jue stood up first, even though she was actually more beautiful, she was stared at unconfidently. She rubbed her eye sockets to check the time. Before it was her time, she brushed her hair to wash, and made an exaggerated gargling sound from her throat.

Xie Yichen got up more slowly, was inconvenient, and because of the nightmare, got up a little tired. When she cleaned up, Ning Jue had already cooked noodles in clear soup and fried eggs on the table.The man was squatting in the entrance to change his shoes, and heard the crisp sound of the crutch on the ground, he looked up pretending to be relaxed: "I'm going to work, I wish you a happy life, I haven't handed in yesterday's order to the company - I'm afraid I will be deducted money."

"I'll pay you back." Xie Yichen said.

"What happened then?" Ning Jue had already put on her shoes, and the toes of her shoes knocked on the ground.She lowered her head, wiped her trousers again meticulously, and was able to say a few more words to Xie Yichen: "If you are not short of money, why don't you just keep me as a mistress, so that I don't have to go outside to find the big boss to rely on."

Both true and false wanted to reveal something about Boss Kong. If Boss Kong was mentioned, Ning Jue might say that he was about to leave Nancheng, so he might as well bid farewell.

But this matter was on the tip of his tongue, but he couldn't say it. He laughed a few times, and Xie Yichen said, "Then you come."

"Nancheng Housekeeping Service Company, I wish you a happy life." Ning Jue shook his head and smiled helplessly, politely checked the list, waved his hand at Xie Yichen, opened the door and walked halfway out.

She suddenly realized that if she went out like this, she might avoid Xie Yichen next time.

Even if the soul still dodges, she can't accept it... But the body can never hurt others. She tries to stretch herself, accepting the love of others like a flower that accepts the sun and rain calmly, even if she doesn't respond, she won't tense herself and bind her hands and feet , and become lost himself - just like the lesson learned from Xu Liwen.

So he turned his head and blinked at Xie Yichen, Xie Yichen supported his crutches, tilted his head and smiled: "Don't be so gentle——I know you can't accept it, you won't respond, I'm not like you, I don't avoid you. Don't you mean - just pretend nothing happened?"

"It can be seen that you are a good person, and I am a bad person." Ning Jue felt relieved, Xie Yichen kept his word, he was much more reliable than her, and finally closed the door and took off the heavy disguise.