red dust under the lamp

At that time, Ning Jue did not speak softly and softly like now, as if she was a girl raised by a family with honey and honey...

Five-year-old Ning Jue was holding a slingshot in her hand. She just thought she was the only baby that Ms. Xie brought back from the orphanage. When she opened the car door, she saw another girl. She almost screamed, and she even wanted to turn her head willfully. Back in the orphanage—

Ms. Xie introduced: "From now on, this is your sister, she is my niece."

Ning Jue immediately calmed down, got into the car, and generously placed the slingshot between the two of them as a gesture of friendship.

Ning Jue, who was five years old and before, was a ferocious beast. He took his mother's love as his territory and could not allow anyone to share it equally.

Her mother is a famous yellow rice in the street. She plows her own field between men's belts and half trousers. There is a deserted vegetable garden behind the house. Ning Jue looks for all kinds of living things in the vegetable garden. Only mice are enough. Cunning is ferocious enough, they bite her, she kills them, back and forth with each other.

While her mother was solving problems with men, Ning Jue was fighting wits with mice. Occasionally, she watched the men who came out of the house, thinking about which one might be caught by her mother one day, and could be called daddy by her as if she had taken advantage of her. people.

One or two of those men would tease her, they would come out of mother's house and they would all want to be her father.

"Wang Yu, call out, call out Dad to listen."

Ning Jue doesn't call people easily, and rarely smiles at these men who don't even know the word "Jue", but sometimes she also shouts, as long as she calls "Dad", she will grab people's trouser legs.

Men would give her one or two candies, but she didn't care for candies, she wanted to follow the man to the other's house.The other party has a wife like a beast, and taking her there is just for fun.She went there without holding back her words, yelling "Dad" so that the man's soul would go out of his body, the yelling made the other's wife raise his eyebrows, the yelling made chickens fly at home, and the yelling made the woman drag out the cutting board and chop it with a kitchen knife to curse her mother. It's so damn good, shouting out a messy ending, she still wondered: "Aren't you going to be my father?"

Now, no one dares to tease her. Whoever becomes her father will be in bad luck. Mother is cursed once, twice, and ten times by all women except her. Suffering from a dying disease at a young age, she told Ning Jue a big secret before she died.

In fact, her name is Ning Wangyu, her mother's surname is Ning, her biological father's surname is Wang, and her single name is Yu.It's just that when she registered, she was too educated. If you put the two words together, she became Ning Jue.

The mother's words seemed to be just revealing the past and present of a name, but with Ning Jue's thinking, she immediately understood that the men who called her Wang Yu must know something inside.

After her mother died, she went to various men's homes to search for secrets, asked them who their father was, and provoked scolding when her mother's body was still alive, so even though Ning Jue was born to be smart and beautiful, she became the most annoying girl As soon as she said that she was coming to the orphanage, the children immediately burst into tears. I also heard that Ning Jue hates children crying the most, and whoever cries will be killed. Ning Jue is only four and a half years old, and her name can be seen in the orphanage. Children cry at night.

Ning Jue stayed in the orphanage for more than half a year, and realized the true meaning of her name from the cries of the crowd and the action of catching mice alone. This was decided by God. Her name is Jue, not Wang Yu. The surname Wang is It should be erased, she shouldn't be looking for a father.

So she missed her mother and tried to find a clue from the clues of life to prove that her mother loved her and that she was once her mother's baby.But every detail tells her that she is a stock that is on the decline and needs to be sold as soon as possible, and the love between her mother and her is as thin as the atmosphere on Mars.

But when she thought about it, she cried when she recalled her mother, and her memory was beautified, even the word "mother" was soft and tender.

She desperately hopes that someone will adopt her as her mother, and she is willing to swear that she will never make trouble, never scream, and be a lady.

Then she expected Ms. Xie to come, so she maintained a ladylike demeanor and showed Xie Yichen the result of her wish in advance with a toothless smile.

However, Xie Yichen sat still with his proud head up at that time, relying on being more than three years older than her, he was taciturn—in fact, he was shocked by the dead rat and the slingshot, but he pretended to be calm, ashamed to show any fear.

Ms. Xie was driving, and Ning Jue was about to smile when she saw through the car window that the place where she was born and raised herself was getting farther and farther away.

Xie Yichen said, "Auntie, I like dancing very much."

Why do you say dance?Ning Jue raised her ears.

Ms. Xie smiled: "Your mother's wish is for you to become an engineer... I know you are worried about me, it doesn't matter, didn't I bring Ning Jue with me today, she is soft and smart, I will dance Train her."

Ning Jue understood that Ms. Xie was planning to adopt a child who could dance.

She recalled the dances she had seen in the past. When the leader came, the children wore red and green, picked up fans, turned their faces red and white, dyed their fingers bright red with henna, and held up fans and handkerchiefs to form a big flower.

She pretended not to care very much, ignoring everyone in bright clothes.On the day when everyone was dancing, Ning Jue would sarcasm less than usual. She felt that if she taunted anyone, she would show jealousy, and she was not jealous at all.

Hearing Ms. Xie talk about dancing, she suddenly seemed to be standing on the stage, with a handkerchief in her left hand and a flower fan in her right. She was standing in the center of the stage, the lights gathered above her head, the smooth wooden floor was under her feet, and her dancing shoes seemed to have jumped out of a fairy tale.She smiled, revealing a red-faced smile, and all the children in the darkness raised their handkerchiefs enviously, highlighting her flower stamen.

She couldn't hide her smile. She covered her smile and admired herself on the glass. She knew she was beautiful since she was a child.

However, Xie Yichen clenched his fist and glanced at Ning Jue, which was obviously full of hostility.

A child is as sensitive to changes in mood as an animal is to the weather, and she keenly senses that the girl next to her is not welcoming to her—even further, she thinks, the girl wants her to leave.

Ning Jue saw Ms. Xie's expression in the rearview mirror. Ms. Xie's expression was gentle: "You, you are just like your mother, you are too considerate of others. It's okay. Come to my house and treat me as your mother. No need to see outside."

With a thorn in his back, Ning Jue noticed that Xie Yichen's expression did not relax because of this, but his own expression reflected in the glass was extremely tense.

She suddenly felt a strong sense of crisis.

Along the way, Ms. Xie talked less with her, mostly about life in the orphanage, and talked more with Xie Yichen, saying not to see outsiders, how wonderful your mother was...

Ning Jue compared her and Xie Yichen's treatment sentence by sentence, and her young mind suddenly realized a problem precociously. She and Ms. Xie were not related by blood, and the girl sitting on airs like a swan was Those who are related to Ms. Xie, Ms. Xie's sister died, and Xie Yichen will live in Ms. Xie's house!

Afterwards, Ning Jue seldom spoke, and stared out of the car window.

The car drove all the way to the city, and Ms. Xie took out the letter of introduction from her pink wallet and went out to do some business, telling the two of them not to go out.

Ning Jue broke through the idea brewed in silence all the way. She picked up her slingshot and found that Xie Yichen beside her was staring at her slowly and silently, with unkind eyes.

Eye contact, no one can compare to Ning Jue in terms of staring eyes. She used her eyes to gouge people and mean people, and she got the true biography of many women.

When she turned her eyes away, Ning Jue saw the pink wallet on the seat.

Dressed in red and green, dancing with a fan, the rats in the vegetable garden, the ropes behind the cowshed, countless images flashed through Ning Jue's mind. There are reasons to love her.She was adopted because that Ms. Xie needed to train a dancer to carry on her career...

Besides, Xie Yichen next to him will share half of this conditional love.

Oddly, I felt the wallet open and saw a pile of unfamiliar papers.

Among the colorful papers, there are only three pieces of great unity.Ms. Xie was poorer than she imagined. At that time, she didn't know the precious foreign exchange. She ignored all these precious things and took away the three great unity cards.

Xie Yichen said: "Put it down! No stealing!"

Ning Jue pushed the slingshot towards him, as if killing someone with a knife.

Rolling up the money, Ning Jue opened the door and left, using a slingshot and a dead mouse to scare Xie Yichen into shutting his mouth.

When Ms. Xie came back, Ning Jue had disappeared like a stone thrown in a pond.