red dust under the lamp

Ning Jue was like a ball of stuffing left over from making dumplings. She didn't know which pot to put herself in, what dish to dip in and what to say, so she had to watch Xie Yichen being whipped in pain, at a loss as to what to do, letting herself dry and sour, her heart bitter , had to pour myself out.

How much she wants to kill someone to prove that she has deep empathy and understanding for Xie Yichen's pain, especially wants to sanction those alcoholics like a grand theft, eliminate those who drive after drinking, whoever is not skilled enough to drive her Just seal his throat with a knife, let the pain and blood of others wash away Xie Yichen's pain.

She is even willing to immediately drive a four-to-six truck, go on a rampage with her unspeakable anger on the street, make more people paralyzed in bed, and turn all human beings on the earth into half bodies. When the time comes, the United Nations will meet and stipulate Normal people should use a wheelchair to walk, and going out in a wheelchair in the future is as common as wearing a pair of shoes.

But Ning Jue is just used to keeping silent to Xie Yichen, or preaching uselessly, telling Xie Yichen the experience and experience of the youth in his own society, and letting Xie Yichen choose between the two paths.

The first one is to destroy oneself on that empty dream, Xie Yichen can't get out, just like the train carrying the love, hatred, anger and ignorance of all human beings to the end inevitably.

The second is to go to the next one if the road is blocked like her Ning Jue. It doesn't matter which one, which one will not lead to the light, just live for a short time.

She couldn't explain or prove all of this, since she came out of her mother's womb, she needed to use her childish logic to digest all her emotions except for the cry that she needed to breathe fresh oxygen.

She is not good at comforting or being comforted by others, and she doesn't even know that people need to be hugged when they collapse, so she just stands with empty hands, making her want to immediately stop Xie Yichen's mouth and take him back.

But she has digested it for a long time, and she has classified all kinds of emotions in detail. She knows many emotions, and she can't ignore them.

After a long silence, she finally picked up Xie Yichen from the ground, as if picking up a lost toy.

"You go to Haijing to study, and I'll go too. You introduce those boys to me, and there's no guarantee that one day I will have a good meal with them."

The words were endless, Xie Yichen was stunned: "What are you talking about?"

"Chinese, it's useless for you to object here anyway. If your aunt wants you to go, you just want to go. Why don't you just accept the fact that all those good boys will be snatched away by me, and your aunt won't be able to say What."

Ning Jue's idea is naturally unreasonable, but she really wants Xie Yichen to change his mind and go to college saying to meet boys, but knowledge may make Xie Yichen forget about dancing and look for other things?It's like going to the mall to buy pants on an empty stomach. Can you pass by a pancake stand without eating two bites?

Xie Yichen was dumbfounded and remained silent for a long time. With difficulty, he spread his palms to read his own palm prints, trying to get a glimpse of the mystery of fate.She was very hesitant, and asked Ning Jue uncertainly: "Are you going to Haijing?"

"I don't have a home, so it doesn't hurt me to go anywhere," Ning Jue said.

The words are true, but the truth is not the truth.

Ning Jue decided to go to Haijing because of Xu Liwen and Li Juanjuan. She didn't care where these two people went, whether they could become big stars, or whether they could make movies.She only cares about herself. From the conversation between Xu Liwen and Li Juanjuan, she fantasizes about Haijing's appearance. The largest city in China, the most prosperous place, is full of opportunities and gold everywhere. I'm going to get on the train to Haijing directly.

But Xie Yichen grabbed her from a distance in the dark, she was thinking about what to do for a fool whose heart is full of dancing and white ladies.Although she doesn't have to be responsible for Xie Yichen's future, she can't wait to know, just like Xie Yichen was in a car accident and she hovered at the gate of the police station to find out some news. fate.

Now, if Xie Yichen is going to Haijing, then Ning Jue must go.

If so, all was well, and she was very satisfied.

Xie Yichen seemed to be moved by what she said, and seemed to be thinking.What can she do?Xie Yichen was just a puppet led by her aunt and put here and there. She lost her soul without dancing, so she had to be carried away. How could she care about what she thought?Important things are gone.

She gave a reply quickly, and there was definite news from Ms. Xie that she would come to pick up Xie Yichen in two months.

Before Xie Yichen indicated that he might want to take Ning Jue with him, Ning Jue covered the microphone and shook his head.

"Aren't you going to Haijing?"

"I'm going, but I have other things to do. You go first, after you go, send a letter back, tell me the address and number, and I will find you."

Ning Jue's bad check to Xie Yichen drove Xie Yichen to the car to Haijing.Leave yourself in Pingdu to sort out all kinds of funeral affairs.

She waited outside Xu Liwen's house for him to come out, standing in a shaded place downstairs, next to the rusty horizontal bar hung the beige coat that Xie Yichen had left for her.From the window on the second floor, a woman could be seen looking at Ning Jue's texture through the glass, she thought she was concealed. She pretended not to see it, nor did she hear that the second floor was complaining about the clogged toilet just now. So much shit.

Xu Liwen ran out wearing a white sweatshirt, striding towards him. It is not suitable for him to play Xu Xian. Although he is smiling and handsome, he is really suitable to play Yang Zirong, with his upright and stern appearance. .

"Liu Rongguang has something to do today. Wait for me to push the car out and take you for a walk in the park." He flicked the skirt of his clothes, pinned the hem of his clothes to the waist of his trousers a few times, and quickly pushed out the old Feige, which was polished brightly. , I can't tell that it is something of a certain age.

"Why do you take a walk every day? Aren't you going to an audition? And don't you prepare a few lines?" Ning Jue had something to plot against him, so he prepared a few lines.

"I'm ready!"

The wind on the road tore Xu Liwen's recitation intermittently: "The storm! The storm is coming!"

"This is brave...Petrel...Among the lightning..."

Who is the brave Haiyan?Ning Jue didn't hear it.

Her appreciation level is not enough, she is not a cultural person, but she knew that even if Xie Yichen was not dancing, she was standing under the stage at that moment, and she believed that she was the unique heroine of that play.

But now, Xu Liwen is by no means a Haiyan, she couldn't tell, only heard him laughing happily: "——this is the prophet of victory shouting: let the storm come more violently!"

Her sensitive emotions turned into a steady stream of images, which made her confirm that Xu Liwen had no talent for acting.

"Very good, when you become a star, you will definitely not come back to play with us."

"What are you talking about! Am I that kind of person!" Xu Liwen emphasized loudly, and the bicycle immediately became crooked. Ning Jue planned to jump directly from the back seat, but in the end he didn't, and he perfunctorily supported his waist.

"Who knows who you are. People are separated from each other, and you don't know what's inside. You're going to Haijing, and I'm going too. I'll just stare at you to see who you are."

Going out of town requires friends to take care of her. If she didn't have friends to take care of her, she would have to live in Harvest Building without harassment.She has some secret friends, who are dubious, and everyone has some skills, but no one's skills can be extended to Haijing.

She has taken a fancy to Xu Liwen, even if Xu Liwen is not that material, she will coax him, give him an illusory dream, tell him to go to Haijing no matter what, so that she has a reason to go, the resource of Xu Liwen's family is her Xu Liwen's connections are her connections.

When she took root, she dropped him.

Ning Jue's coaxing words to Xu Liwen had an immediate effect: "Really? You're going to Haijing too? Are you going to Haijing with me?"

"Aren't they all big cities? It's the same in Pingbu. Anyway, they're not my home. Where are you going? Aren't you afraid that I'll follow you and delay your doing bad things!" In the end, she didn't make it clear, she explained eagerly, showing shamelessness, but who cares, her goal is about to be achieved.

"Hai Jing is older than ten flats, no, are you serious? Are you kidding me?"

"Who's joking with you? Well, if you don't like me following you, I'll leave, you can go, I'll ask Liu Rongguang to go to the mine!" She let go of her nonsense, and jumped out of the car in anger.

Xu Liwen immediately threw the car away, too hastily, he spread his long legs and bounced several times before stopping.

Leaving the car by the side of the road, he hastily apologized: "I'm afraid you'll be homesick, and you're willing to follow me, but I'm not happy enough."

"Who wants to follow you? I'm going to see the world and see the big cities. Who cares about you." She said this on purpose, the words hurt people, but she can act, acting as if deliberately irritating, between Jiaohan and Sapo Keeping a balance in time - she is better at laughing than prostitutes, the effect of laughing once is obvious, Xu Liwen was coaxed by her.

The day before meeting the director, she received a letter from Xie Yichen, with an address and stamp attached, as if she was expecting a reply.She also left her phone number, Ning Jue thought for a while, put away the phone number, and wrote a reply letter on the last night school day.

Xie Yichen,

I'm going to Haijing, so I'm going to go anyway.I'm really grateful to you, I don't want to stay in Pingdu, I've been bored for a long time, as if I was taken away by your aunt that time, I can't stay anywhere when I leave home.Whenever there was an opportunity to go elsewhere, I couldn't sit still.

I'm really ashamed. I didn't persuade you to go to Haijing because I wanted to take care of you. I lied to you because I wanted to go. Have you seen the men?I don't like honest people, those people are bad, I like smarter ones, I'm smarter than them, remember to find someone for me.I will bring you presents when I find you.

Your nanny friend, Ning Jue.

After she drafted it, she looked at it for a while and crossed out the word nanny. She called herself a friend of Yichen.

The most indispensable thing for young people in society is friends. As long as they have a drink, everyone will be friends.Her friends have fifty if not one hundred, so she doesn't think there is any problem.

After she finished writing the letter, the day's class was over. After she filled the letter into the mailbox, she found a tavern that was still open, found a gangster friend, and sold the class certificate for ten yuan.

"Going to Haijing? I don't have any friends there. I heard that things are expensive. I'll give you 30 yuan as an emergency."

She disturbed all her old "friends" and went around, adding her own money, and pooled 1000 yuan to spend.

She also packed up the things in the bad building, and while she was still packing, the woman on the second floor poked her head out quietly: "Are you going to Haijing? I have something..."

"Looking for a man, right? I know, Cheng Jiaxi, right, I'll pay attention."

A woman is said to have been pregnant by a Hong Kong boss in a big city... I don't know if the story is true or not, too many contradictions and conflicts are omitted in the middle, as if she was suddenly air-dropped from the big city to Pingdu. The city does such cheap things.

There were too many retellings and the vulgar stories made Ning Jue very annoyed.

But before leaving, she left everything to the woman.

This is a dead end, she has no plan to return to this rotten building.

Whether Xu Liwen is promising or not, she has prepared different words.

If it is done, she will find a way to follow.

If it doesn't work, she will find a way to pour some life's chicken soup into him.

The author has something to say:

Q&A:

1. As you can see, the 90s. 700 yuan is a lot.You see, I wrote it according to the price, but you thought it was too little...the last book was not written according to the price, and you thought it was too much...it was too difficult...

2. There are unconventional settings, there are unrealistic settings, and the fiction is one of the charms of the novel (not specifically referred to)... I think this is not a flawed problem and does not hinder the overall reading experience.