you may never have loved me

Qu Lingxi read it in a murmur, unable to feel the mood when the person sent the postcard.

Missing, want to share the beautiful scenery with loved ones?

This is what it means on the surface, but it seems almost tasteless.

Through the slightly thick paper of the postcard, Qu Lingxi's heart seemed to be stabbed by electricity when he saw the piece of blessing written with a marker pen.

This situation... is disappointment.

He may have been disappointed at the time.Why be disappointed?Qu Ling regrets not knowing.

But Qu Ling can feel it.

Father Qu said: "We have received many postcards from you one after another. We know you are in Liangcheng, but we can't get through to your phone. You have been shutting down. Xiaoxi, at that time...we were really worried about you."

Qu Lingxi lowered her eyes and said in a low voice, "I don't remember."

Father Qu sighed: "I know you don't remember. Your sister and I found you in L City."

Qu Lingxi was surprised: "L city?"

Qu Ling nodded, indicating that Father Qu remembered correctly, "Yes, City L."

Qu Lingxi muttered, how could it be in L city...L city is located in the westernmost part of the motherland, close to Liangcheng, but because it is a municipality directly under the central government, its economic situation is much better than Liangcheng.

Qu Ling didn't want to say it, but she saw that her father didn't have the desire/desire to go deeper.She had no choice but to say instead: "In the hospital in L City."

Qu Lingxi was even more speechless: "What? Am I sick?"

"You have experienced the biggest avalanche in Liangcheng in the past few years." Qu Ling said, "After the rescue team found you, they found that the local medical level in Liangcheng was limited, so they sent you to L city overnight. They checked your family information, so finally got in touch with us."

Father Qu said sternly: "Your sister and I really never imagined that after many years, what we were waiting for was not your call, but the hospital's call."

Qu Lingxi felt his father's shock and anger at that time. Even though he now completely doesn't understand the reason why he avoided his relatives for four years, and can't empathize with him, Qu's father's reproach after so many years still makes him hang his head.

To evade responsibility, Qu Lingxi changed the topic abruptly, "So did I lose my memory because of this?"

"Well, you lost the memory of studying abroad for four years and being in Liangcheng." Qu Ling said, "The doctor said that you had a blood clot in your brain, but it disappeared after a long time of recuperation. But you still can't remember it. Your attending doctor The doctor suggested that I take you to the psychology department. She said, because you are avoiding this memory, you deliberately don’t remember it.”

Speaking of this, she paused with a broken smile, "Actually, I'm quite selfish as your sister. Since you remember our relatives, those dispensable memories, it's okay to lose them. I guess... right or left is the same as meeting you." to a man."

Father Qu snorted heavily.

Qu Ling supported his forehead and sighed: "Who knew that after so many years, this man found you again. Even if you lose your memory, you can still continue your relationship."

Qu Lingxi protested weakly: "...I don't."

Father Qu made a straight decision: "Anyway, I won't agree with you and Gu Shen being together."

Qu's father looks like the vicious rich father in the TV series, but Gu Shen is the real rich man, and their family has Xilin as a huge handle in Gu Shen's hands.

Qu Lingxi's headache was getting worse and worse, and he raised reasonable doubts: "But it's not necessarily true. Maybe I didn't break up with Gu Shen at the beginning, I went to Liangcheng and happened to encounter an avalanche and lost my memory? Or did we break up peacefully? ? Or because of petty trouble?"

After he said these few words, he stopped abruptly.

He himself didn't realize that he unintentionally made so many excuses for Gu Shen and his relationship.

Father Qu glared at him: "As expected, you still miss him."

Qu Lingxi really didn't dare to complain to herself this time.He muttered under his breath, "I just wanted to... clear things up."

Qu's father casually picked up a small gadget on the table, and wanted to throw it towards Qu Lingxi's forehead, but Qu Ling quickly stopped her. She held her father's hand and advised, "Dad, you hurt little Xishi. Little, don't disturb our mother. She doesn't know anything yet."

Qu Lingxi: "..."

I don't know if I should be relieved that he was kept in the dark alone, or that I should be angry that my status in the family has plummeted because of a period of time.

Father Qu said: "I just can't bear to beat him. If I really want to beat him, maybe it can cure his brain."

Qu Lingxi muttered in a low voice, "My mind is fine."

Father Qu glared at him again.

Qu Lingxi felt wronged and said, "Father Tiger."

Qu's father said, "Dog son."

Qu Lingxi: "..."

defeat.

Qu Ling barely maintained the peaceful scene, and she turned to focus on Qu Lingxi: "What you said just now is impossible. You and that person cannot break up peacefully."

Qu Lingxi said: "Is it because of what the psychiatrist said? I don't think it's very reliable."

He never believed it.He still feels like he lost his memory because the avalanche hit that nerve in his brain.

Qu Ling said: "Not only."

She said: "You took the initiative to apply for an extension of the exchange student time during the love period. But before you went to Liangcheng for no reason, your teacher called me and said that you banned the extension time."

Qu Lingxi was stunned.

Qu Ling took out her phone and turned to an account, "This is the social account you applied for when you were studying in country B. I knew it four years ago, so you can look it up."

Qu Lingxi took Qu Ling's cell phone: "Can I watch it casually?"

"Of course." Qu Ling smiled, "This is your account. Oh, no."

She shrugged, "Maybe he should be called Cherish."

Qu Lingxi looked a little dazed, and absently flipped through this strange account.

This is a very common account. The profile picture is a profile face, which is very blurry, and most people can't tell who it is.But Qu Lingxi knew who it was, because no one could be so stupid as not to recognize himself, and it was funny enough that he recognized the photo in Gu Shen's wallet as someone else.

This blurred picture is blurred everywhere, and the background is also blurred. It can be seen that the photographer's level is very limited.

Qu Lingxi studied for a while, and understood why the photographer's level was so limited.What the photographer focuses on is not a human face, nor the scenery behind him, or the pretty sky of country B, but a small mole on the left ear of the person being photographed.

He touched his left ear unnaturally.

There is indeed a mole here, because the color is vermilion, so I have a little impression. The doctor said it is called a pigmented nevus, but it is not a fun thing anyway.

Before Qu Lingxi looked down, she concluded that this was his account.

A person can look like another person, but the mole on the ear can't be exactly the same.

Qu Lingxi said: "Why did you find this account? My number?"

Any social software will recommend mobile phone contacts, Qu Lingxi guessed so.

"No." Qu Ling quickly vetoed, "You have done a good job of keeping secrets. You did not register this account with your usual mobile phone number. I found you through those small painters. No one will pay attention to it except you Those so-called artists who are unknown and impoverished. There are only a few fans of those artists, and I just searched and found you."

Qu Lingxi was silent for a moment, she didn't expect that it was her own niche hobby that exposed her, no wonder Qu Ling always said that he played too high and low.

He said: "It turned out to be like this."

He lowered his eyes and flipped through the account quickly.

Four years ago, he really did a good job of keeping secrets. He didn't show any face on this account, nor did he reveal his home address.

The occasional positioning is also a famous building in country B, anyone can take pictures, anyone can go, and there is nothing to see.

But Qu Ling is right, even such a blank account can still reveal his mood.

It is a good mood to take pictures of the blue sky.

Christmas candlelight dinner, only two pairs of tableware.

A camellia for Valentine's Day.

Couple slippers - they even lived together briefly.

A packaged gift box, the text expresses "a gift for him". Looking at it now, the size of this gift box is like a watch box.

There are also occasional hypocritical statements that moan without illness, which may be one of the few quarrels between him and his lover.

Overall, the owner of this account has a fairly happy life.

However, everything came to an abrupt end in December four years ago.

Qu Ling said: "After you went to Liangcheng, you haven't updated this account."

Qu Lingxi nodded.

Qu Ling said: "As for you and your ex-boyfriend, it's useless for others to say anything. Even my father and I only know half of what we know. If you really want to find out, you should ask him himself."

Qu Lingxi said, "What if he lied?"

Qu Ling's gaze sank: "Then he really isn't qualified to abduct my brother."

Qu Ling said sadly: "Even if he lied, I might not be able to hear it, you know... I cut off those memories."

Qu Ling said: "No, you can hear it."

Qu Lingxi was startled.

Qu Ling said softly: "As long as you don't lie to yourself."

Qu Lingxi was silent for a moment.

After a long time, he said, "Okay, I understand."

After saying goodnight to Father Qu and Qu Ling, Qu Lingxi went back to her room alone.When he turned the stairs, he glanced downstairs. Qu Ling went to the kitchen to boil milk for the handwriting. Father Qu was still smoking silently.

Qu Lingxi returned to the room, downloaded the country B social software on her mobile phone, found the account that had been suspended for several years, and browsed silently.

Although there were only a few short posts, the international students at that time were very active.

Qu Lingxi saved the avatar on the social software and sent it to Gu Shen.

Qu Lingxi: "Is this Cherish?"

Gu Shen: "Well, where did you find it?"

Qu Lingxi said the name of the social software.

Gu Shen was silent for a while, and said, "You never told me that you have this account before."

Qu Lingxi said: "You don't need to know, anyway, it's all about the little things you get along with, you just need to remember. He may just want to record it."

Gu Shen: "Yes."

Qu Ling took a deep breath.

"I want to know everything about you and Cherish, let's make an appointment to meet."

However, the moment the message was sent, the other party sent several messages in succession.

Gu Shen: "I took this photo for you."

Gu Shen: "You blamed me for not even focusing on your face."

Gu Shen: "I thought it was deleted by you."

Qu Ling held his forehead with a sad smile.

Cherish, how much do you love him?