you may never have loved me

In the evening, it rained heavily in City S without warning.

The sky was completely dimmed, and thunder bursts outside the window, accompanied by terrifying lightning from time to time.The lights in the room were not turned on, and the thunder struck, but Qu Lingxi had no unnecessary reaction.

He wasn't afraid of these things at first, but if Gu Shen was here tonight, he might put on a pose, act like he was terrified, and slip into his lover's arms.

Gu Shen liked this.

As the only light source, the TV tirelessly performs its task.There are two slippers under the sofa, the suitcase in the corner has not been packed by the owner, and the clothes and daily necessities are scattered on the floor.

Qu Lingxi took a favorite ice cream in the freezer and gnawed on it, and lay lazily on the sofa without even changing her pajamas, simply wearing a wide-open bathrobe, with more than half of her left shoulder exposed.

He quickly switched the channel and found a news broadcasting the weather of City S. It said that today's torrential rain was coming, an orange alert had been activated, and half of the transportation hub was paralyzed.

Gu Shen made a video call for him.

Quling Xi pressed it out.

Gu Shen switched to Mandarin, and Qu Lingxi thought for a while before picking up.

Sure enough, they are separated by different places, Qu Lingxi's side is so windy and rainy that even the sound of the TV can't be heard, but Gu Shen's side only has the sound of countless airport announcements.

The two were silent for a while in tacit understanding.

Gu Shen asked, "Why didn't you answer the video?"

"I don't want to pick it up." Qu Lingxi pressed the volume button on the remote control up and down, but stared blankly at a knot on the bathrobe, "I just took a shower and didn't blow my hair. It's kind of ugly."

Gu Shen smiled, feeling so cute because of the burden of his little boyfriend's idol.

"It's not ugly." Gu Shen paused, and added, "It's not like I haven't seen it before."

Qu Ling said with pity, that's true, there is no part of his body that Gu Shen has not seen and touched.This excuse is worse than going back to school to revise the graduation thesis, but fortunately Gu Shen didn't go into it.

He quickly changed the subject: "Is it raining heavily in S City?"

Qu Lingxi: "Yes. Can you still fly?"

"No." Gu Shen said, "The flight is delayed. The boarding time is to be determined, it depends on the weather conditions. I just want to tell you, go to sleep tonight, don't wait for me."

Qu Lingxi said: "I don't."

Gu Shen asked: "Why not?"

Qu Lingxi said stubbornly: "I don't sleep, I just want to wait for you."

Gu Shen laughed, "You are more childish than Su."

Qu Lingxi blinked: "But people say that falling in love will become childish, isn't it?"

"Yes." Gu Shen teased Qu Lingxi, "So the kid is younger today."

In the past, Gu Shen said that Qu Lingxi was a child, and Qu Lingxi would refute Gu Shen because of the gap in age and experience.

Today he couldn't bring himself to do so.

In this phone call, we didn't talk a few words in total.

Qu Lingxi, however, seemed to have experienced a catastrophe, her energy was exhausted, and she had no strength left.As soon as he shook his hand, the phone landed dully on the wool carpet. The screen turned on for a while, and then turned off after three seconds.

He closed his eyes, recalling everything that happened today.

From being ridiculed by Internet blacks, to being completely controlled by unknown people, shielding everything about him; from eagerly waiting for Gu Shen to accompany him, to taking a postcard by mistake, uncovering a specious fog.

Ups and downs, but the case.

late at night. The rain in City S is gradually decreasing, and there is a chance that it will turn sunny. The thunder and lightning also ended an hour ago.Gu Shen delayed the plane for four hours and finally took off.

In the early morning, Qu Lingxi put on a pair of pajamas, stepped on flip-flops that were not suitable for the season, and went to pick up her boyfriend at the gate of the community alone.

There was no one in the security room, only the monitor flickered on with dim yellow lights.

A sycamore leaf fell, brushed the tip of his hair in a circle, and floated away without leaving a trace.

Qu Lingxi held an umbrella and stood quietly while the light rain fell.Gu Shen didn't keep him waiting for long, but within two to three minutes, a taxi with turn signals came up ahead.

Under the streetlight, a tall figure walked to the trunk and took off the luggage easily.He didn't hold an umbrella, and let the rain pass by slantingly, facing Qu Lingxi against the light.

Return by taxi.

Two or three steps away, Gu Shen put down his hand holding the suitcase, put his arms around his little boyfriend's waist instead, silently kissed him without saying a word.

Kiss finished.

Qu Ling Xi asked: "Is this Xiao Bie Sheng's newly married?"

"Probably." Gu Shen took the umbrella in his hand.

The two go side by side.

Qu Lingxi thought for a while and said, "Not only. It's the first day of ending the long-distance relationship."

Gu Shen laughed: "Whatever you say is right."

Qu Lingxi took him to find his own building, and took Gu Shen upstairs to take the elevator.The two were restrained but not restrained, and the distance between their shoulders was always a centimeter or two apart.

Even if you meet passers-by who come out for a stroll in the middle of the night, you will only think that these are two friends, and you won't think about it as a couple.

Until Qu Lingxi pressed the door lock code, all the confinement disappeared, and the sky thunder struck the ground.

In the dark corner, Gu Shen continued the shameless kiss just now, attacking the city inch by inch.Qu Lingxi closed her eyes, letting herself be slaughtered, but the corners of her eyes were moist.

Gu Shen stopped and said softly, "You smoke."

Qu Lingxi opened her eyes: "What? Have you tasted it?"

Gu Shen: "Yes."

Qu Lingxi felt wronged and said, "But in order not to let you find out, I even ate a piece of candy, but you still found out."

Gu Shen caressed a hair on the back of Qu Lingxi's head, like stroking a cat, loving and comforting her boyfriend.

He said, "I can taste the sugar too, strawberry."

Qu Lingxi asked, "Do you like it?"

"It's okay." Gu Shen pinched his neck, his movements were very gentle, but Qu Lingxi was terrified for a moment, as if he had handed over all the power of life and death to him, this subconscious fear made Qu Lingxi hesitate Consciously shrunk down the body.

Gu Shen didn't notice: "I like your taste better."

Qu Lingxi asked curiously: "I am a man, what can I smell like?"

"Yes." Gu Shen leaned closer to his ear, breathing hot, "It smells like milk, Xiao Xi."

If it was a normal day, Gu Shen's teasing words would have made Qu Lingxi's hands and feet numb, blushing and wishing she could go underground to escape.

Qu Lingxi didn't feel anything today, he just smiled stiffly when he heard this, and said dryly, "You're just lying to me."

Gu Shen didn't explain anything: "So next time, let's not smoke, shall we?"

Qu Lingxi thought for a while and said calmly, "Okay."

Gu Shen didn't expect Qu Lingxi to agree so quickly, and was a little surprised. He raised his eyebrows and said, "Why is it so easy to change your mind? You didn't say that last time."

Qu Lingxi shrugged her shoulders: "You are right, smoking is very harmful to the body. Try quitting smoking."

Gu Shen hugged him and kissed him on the sofa, lightly touched Qu Lingxi's face with callused fingertips, and encouraged him, "Good boy."

……

Qu Lingxi woke up from starvation.He got up halfway, looked at the time, it was already five o'clock in the morning, only then realized that he didn't even bother to eat yesterday's dinner, his empty stomach seemed to be clamoring for all kinds of dissatisfaction, which made Qu Lingxi feel bad.

Gu Shen woke up naturally because the person in his arms was empty.

He looked at Qu Lingxi's soft black hair, and because he was still sleepy, his voice was deeper than usual, and he asked, "What's wrong?"

Qu Lingxi looked at him innocently: "I'm hungry."

Gu Shen made a rare suggestion: "How about I help you do a little?"

Qu Lingxi asked: "Can you?"

Gu Shen said honestly, "I only know a little Western food."

Qu Lingxi shook her head: "Forget it, I'll order a takeaway."

In fact, these conversations are nothing more than Qu Lingxi complaining. He has lived alone for so many years, so he doesn’t rely on the cooking skills of a three-legged cat. He doesn’t even bother to make instant noodles. this kind of life.

Qu Ling regretted not chatting with Gu Shen anymore, turned on his phone and found that there were too few shops open at this point, so he deleted the selection for a while and then placed an order.

Gu Shen simply didn't sleep anymore, he got up and went to the bathroom.He has the habit of taking a bath in the morning, washing and washing together.

Qu Lingxi was sitting in the living room waiting for the takeaway.

Maybe the customers didn't get up at this time, and the takeaway staff delivered the food very efficiently. Within a quarter of an hour, there was a knock on the door.

Qu Lingxi opened the door, and when she raised her eyes, she saw the dusty delivery man.He took the meal and asked, "Thanks for your hard work. How's the weather outside?"

The takeaway boy wiped his nose and grinned: "It's okay, the rain is not too heavy. Look, I'm not wearing a raincoat."

Qu Lingxi was silent for a few seconds, and said, "Wait a minute."

He bent down and took out his wallet from the suitcase, only to find that there were only whole bills. He turned around and asked a little embarrassedly, "Do you accept tips?"

The takeaway boy was taken aback for a moment, and said as a matter of course: "Accept, why not accept. Haha."

Qu Lingxi nodded, picked up Gu Shen's brown wallet from the coffee table, flipped through it for a while, then stopped suddenly, took out a one-inch photo that was sandwiched under the certificate, glanced at it, and then hurriedly stuffed it back.

He made no other movements, the corners of his mouth were slightly pursed, and the corners of his eyes instantly turned red.

The takeaway boy stood curiously at the door: "What's wrong?"

He smiled honestly: "It's okay if you don't have zero. We don't have a tradition of tipping in country C. The one who gave me a tip last time was a person from country B."

Qu Lingxi finally regained his composure. With trembling hands, he took out some change from his wallet and handed it to the delivery man, without saying a word.

Although the takeaway boy thought it was strange, he didn't ask any more questions, and left after delivering the meal.

Qu Lingxi sat alone on the sofa, he only saw the photo once, but he didn't dare to take a second look, because he could confirm a lot of things he wanted to avoid at a glance.

He was flustered, his hands and feet were cold, but he couldn't do anything other than be in a daze.

After taking a shower, Gu Shen came out of the bathroom wiping his hair.He was shirtless, with a towel wrapped around his waist, and he walked towards his little boyfriend naturally.

The lunch box was still in place, without any sign of being opened.

Seeing that Qu Lingxi was motionless, Gu Shen didn't doubt it yet, but squatted down, touched his arm, and asked with a smile, "Didn't you say you're hungry? Why don't you eat?"

The author has something to say: Good night=3

In the future, it will be fixed at ten o'clock to eleven o'clock, and it may be changed occasionally.

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