The way I came back wasn't right

The time has entered the end of October, and the sky is at its thinnest and loftiest during this time of the year.

Shen Huaiyi waited for Su Zejin in the stairway.

This is the entrance of the corridor of the mental hospital.After coming back last time, everyone can see Chen Jian's state clearly. Chen Jian's parents don't need to think about anything else, they just went to the relevant organization to prove Chen Jian's mental problems. He was sent to the city's mental hospital.

This was actually somewhat beyond Shen Huaiyi's expectation.

It was not Chen Jian's mental state.If Chen Jian's mental state was beyond Shen Huaiyi's expectations, it would be impossible for Shen Huaiyi to tell Su Zejin 'don't forgive Chen Jian' when Su Zejin went to see Chen Jian.

What really surprised Shen Huaiyi was Su Zejin's forgiveness.

Just as this forgiveness directly destroyed Chen Jian's "correct world" and made him go crazy on the spot; Shen Huaiyi never thought at first that Su Zejin would forgive Chen Jian.

Su Zejin shouldn't forgive Chen Jian.

Even if Su Zejin forgives Jiang Junguo who killed his mother, he should not forgive Chen Jian.

All things in this world are like this, no matter how tragic things happen to others, for oneself, it will be filled with righteous indignation, but it will not cause pain to the skin.

So forgiveness and forgiveness becomes easy.

But if this kind of thing happens to me, no matter how small it is, it will be magnified countless times, and then firmly remembered by the memory, stimulating reason and emotion repeatedly and for a long time.

At this time, forgiveness is definitely not a touch of upper and lower lips.

How could Su Zejin forgive Chen Jian?

Jiang Junguo just went off the rails once in confusion, something that 99% of the men and 50% of the women in the world can forgive, overturned Su Xiaxi's proud world and turned a woman who was as hot as the sun into a devil.

But for Jiang Junguo, Su Xiaxi was just mentally confused, just kept watching, and he fell into a quagmire from which he could not break free, and finally did something that he had tried to cover up and escape all his life.

But what about Su Zejin?

It's not cheating, it's not surveillance, it's not such a trivial matter.

He was only a little bit close to dying, and grass should grow on the grave.

Chen Jian actively and meticulously planned to kill him, the purpose was just an experiment to perfectly kill another person.

They have no emotional entanglements, no conflicts of interest.

At any time other than this, Chen Jian truly, truly, and still regards Su Zejin as her good friend and brother.

Has the world become absurd and false at this moment?

And Chen Jian has absolutely no regrets or guilt.

Because he is right and just.

How can Su Zejin forgive the other party?

From the beginning to the end, Chen Jian did not give Su Zejin any reason or step to forgive.

Chen Jian's thinking and logic may have been destroyed from within a long time ago, but before the world he built was truly destroyed by Su Zejin's forgiveness, he was a very firm person.Such a determined person does not need any understanding and understanding, understanding and understanding are the weapons to kill him.

So it was impossible for him to give Su Zejin such a hint from the beginning to the end.

But Su Zejin forgave him.

real forgiveness.

No pain, no trouble, no brooding, and no hope of getting anything out of it.

He let everything go.

After everything was over, he came to Chen Jian's house again to visit her.

why?

Shen Huai leaned against the wall and thought.

From the end of college, from earlier, from when he first came into contact with psychology.

His surroundings and his future are all clear.

There is no fog that cannot be cleared by him in the end.

But it was the first time he encountered such a situation.

It was the first time he met, at the beginning, he grasped the person and the matter completely, and in the end, he watched, the mist gathered little by little, and slipped out of the palm little by little.

Then the fog suddenly became larger and wider, covering almost the entire area around him.

He knew what state he was in.

At this time, he was controlled instead.

And this control is not even based on the subjective will of the other party.

there is nothing.

Shen Huaiyi thought calmly.

He and Su Zejin still get along for a long time, this state can be adjusted slowly, and there is no rush.

Su Zejin stayed outside Chen Jian's room.

He hadn't been in for a long time, and there were two very familiar couples standing beside him. For many years, he had called each other uncle and aunt...but now, they were a little speechless to each other.

Finally, Su Zejin said, "Is Xiao Jian okay now?"

"It's okay." Chen's father said politely, while Chen's mother only had a forced and tired smile on her face, and said nothing.

"Uncle, aunt, you..." Su Zejin said.

But Chen's mother suddenly pulled Chen's father's clothes, hurriedly said to Su Zejin, "Let's go first", and was about to turn around and leave.

"Go slowly." Su Zejin said calmly, and then he finished what he hadn't said just now, "Pay attention to your health."

Chen's father, who was about to leave with him, paused for a while. He first said "thank you" to Su Zejin, but he did not leave immediately, but said with some difficulty, "...and, Ozawa, logically speaking, we I shouldn't refuse any of your requests. But you know, Chen Jian's head is out of order now. Next time, try... Try not to come here again. "

Mother Chen, who was a few steps away, let out a whimper, and followed her without waiting for her husband, and hurried away alone.

Su Zejin deliberately avoided his gaze from the other party. He looked at Father Chen with a calm tone: "It's nothing, I'll take a look through the door, so Chen Jian won't find me."

Father Chen was speechless.

As he said just now, they should not refuse any request from Su Zejin.

In this world, there are not so many things in which victims do not pursue justice and help perpetrators.

He finally left with his wife.

Su Zejin stood outside alone and looked at Chen Jian in the room.

Looking in from his angle, Chen Jian was playing with a box of old and rare building blocks in the middle of the room.

Chen Jian was probably happy and cheerful.

Even though there were not many blocks left, and each of them looked dirty and missing corners, he still played with them carefully. He tried his best to pick out the same blocks among them. They were of the same size and distance. The superposition is also exceptionally tight.

correct, just, reasonable...

Su Zejin left here quietly.

He went outside, met Shen Huaiyi who had been waiting, and then got into Shen Huaiyi's car.

While the car was driving, Shen Huaiyi seemed to say casually: "Go home first?" He deliberately omitted the word 'I'.

"En." Su Zejin responded, his gaze was straight ahead, and countless scenes slipped silently across his retina.

"I can't figure out some things." He said to Shen Huaiyi.

"what?"

"Why did Chen Jian go crazy." Su Zejin said, "I don't understand how he thinks from the beginning to the end."

Shen Huai looked ahead:

"Because you turned his whole life upside down."

"what?"

"Think about the Chen Jian you know again?" Shen Huaiyi said, "He is correct, just, and most of the time he has higher morals than ordinary people. There is nothing wrong with these...but in his world Among them, the sequence of experiments is higher than the sequence of morality, so killing people in experiments is just an experiment.”

"Ah."

"Let's talk about Chen Jian's justice and correctness first."

"His justice and correctness are absurd. But he believes that the experiment is correct, that the murder is not guilty, and that he does not have to be judged by the law. He is so firm and persistent from the beginning to the end. He even succeeded almost completely. Except for you .”

"If you are dead, the experiment is of course correct. But if you are not dead, it means that the experiment has gone wrong." Shen Huaiyi said slowly, "Then Chen Jian deleted her memory of the failed experiment. From now on It’s easy to see at one point that in his world, mistakes are not allowed. He can only be right. This incident actually demonstrates the gaps in his world.”

"Because once an error occurs in his experiment that is higher than morality, the error jumps from the experimental sequence to the moral sequence. During the experiment, killing people is correct, because the essence is an experiment; and when this killing falls on the moral level, killing people Return to the essence of killing."

"And this is incompatible with Chen Jian's morality. He must still be righteous."

"So when you discovered everything, when justice and correctness collided, and when deleting things that were unavoidable later, he came to another conclusion, that is, it is up to you to correct this mistake."

"I killed him?"

"That's right. In this way, he is just and correct, and obeys his self-moral constraints from the beginning to the end. Everything is within his expectations, and all and even the final results have not deviated from the track, and his world remains perfect No time."

"But I refused." Su Zejin said bitterly.

"He became unjust, incorrect, and immoral." Shen Huai said lightly, "His meaning in life, his moral sentiments, were all destroyed. But this person, Chen Jian, He simplifies justice and correctness, when he separates murder from the real law, and when he is always bound by social ethics and cannot break free, he emits a rancid smell from his body."

For the rest of the journey, neither of them spoke again.

When Su Zejin came to the long-lost villa, Shen Huai let him get off the car first, but the person standing in front of the door didn't take out the key to open the door, which made his heart sink slightly.

He didn't show it, he got out of the car and opened the door, and said to Su Zejin, "I'll get you a glass of water."

"En." Su Zejin responded.

When Shen Huai went into the kitchen to pour water and came out again, there was a soft piano sound in the studio, and the person who came with him was no longer in the living room.

Shen Huaiyi didn't go in immediately.He stood in the living room and waited quietly for a while before quietly walking into his workshop.

Su Zejin is sitting in front of the piano.

I don't know if it's a coincidence, although Su Zejin plays the piano well, Shen Huaiyi has a good impression of him, but after being with Su Zejin for so long, Shen Huaiyi has only heard Su Zejin play it three times.

Once was at the end of the perfect "Swan Lake" heard in the hotel.

Just like the morning sun pierces the haze, spring flowers bloom on the permafrost, and the new chapter is officially opened brightly.

One was a temporary residence where he and Su Zejin were on their way to find Chen Jian a few days ago.

The notes in twos and threes do not form a melody, but they are like the cunning of rabbits, the singing of cicadas, and the tinkling of dewdrops falling from leaves to soil.

And this time.

Su Zejin, who was sitting in front of the piano, naturally straightened his back and dropped his hands.

His body trembled slightly along with his arms and fingers.

The music started with a low and quiet tone, but became more and more calm and gentle as it was played.

Amidst the music, the sky was dark and the rain kept pattering down the ground. One by one people came and one by one left. The excitement was theirs, but the sadness never stayed.

He just sat there by himself, playing quietly and intently.

He just sat there alone and quietly.

The music gradually died away.

Shen Huaiyi sat on the sofa facing the piano.

Su Zejin stood up from the piano, walked up to Shen Huaiyi, pointed to the cup on the table and said, "Is there any water for me?"

As soon as Shen Huai smiled, he praised sincerely: "Yes. Your piano sound is always so beautiful, no matter what time it is."

"Thank you." Su Zejin showed a faint smile to the people sitting: "This time, the matter is almost really resolved. I didn't say polite words before, and I really appreciate your help to me, especially this time."

He paused slightly.

Shen Huai felt something was wrong at first, he looked at Su Zejin.

Su Zejin calmly stated his decision: "But we don't seem to be suitable for being together." He was a little sad, but he said clearly, "I wish you a happy life in the future."

hum-

what?

hum-

Su Zejin said wish me a happy life in the future?

hum-

What about him?

hum-

Shouldn't he be with me?

Shen Huai looked at Su Zejin in a daze.

How did things turn out like this?

That's not how it should be.

Su Zejin obviously should—should stay—with him—

How could he have miscalculated?

How could he have miscalculated?

Shen Huai stared at Su Zejin.

He couldn't control it, and he didn't even realize it.

Tears rolled down his eyes.